A/N: This is the latest chapter and I hope you like it. I'm working on Chapter 6 already and I hope to have it added before next Friday at the latest. Review please and read the 1st chapter's author's note.

Love, Lily

Hello to Memory Lane

"She told me goodbye."

"She left to meet Aqualad and then she is not sure where she is going to go from there. I just thought I would let you know, seeing as how you are my friend and all."

"We were friend, Cyborg, but you chose not to be my friend. I read the letter. I don't want to fight tonight, so will you please just leave?"

"Not until you understand that Terra set you up, man. Terra wrote a fake letter, and told you it was from us. We did not write that letter. Dude, your wife has been using you and manipulating you all along."

"NO! She has been the only one who has constantly stood by my side. Even Raven left."

"No. Beast Boy, you left." With that, he stood up, and walked out the door, and then out of the house.

Thump! The book hit the wall, followed by another book. "Damn it!" Pausing to look for something else to satisfy my need for destruction, I noticed something on the bed. It was the letter Terra had shown him.

Dear Beast Boy,

We cannot believe that you chose Terra over us.

She has already betrayed us, more than once, yet you love her.

We are no longer your friends.

Goodbye.

Starfire, Robin, Cyborg

The letter was short, and to the point. Come to think of it, I've never seen the letter's envelope, and why was this letter typed and printed out? Speaking of letters, why would they have written a letter instead of just telling me to my face? Things aren't adding up. Is is possible Cyborg was telling the truth about Terra? My thoughts were like puzzle pieces falling slowly into place. Terra hadn't been surprised by the letter showing up in the mail. In fact, she had been the one to tell me that I should check the mail, when normally she was the one who would grab the mail around lunch time. Was she capable of manipulating me into a relationship with her, just for her own gain? The answer was one I didn't want to know, but it came despite my not wanting it to. Yes, she was. Wow. My wife had lied to me our whole marriage, but yet haven't I been lying to? I have always loved Raven, despite her infidelity. I have never been able to fully get over her. Yes, I love Terra, but not like I love Raven, and definitely not as much anymore. As I sat on my bed, I couldn't stop thinking about this. It was like a dam had broken and now the thoughts wouldn't slow their pouring out. Suddenly, I had a thought. Did Terra manipulate Raven into sleeping with Robin, too?

I shook my head, trying to clear it, but to no avail. "DAMN IT!" My voice echoed throughout the house, reminding me how empty it was. I threw the table, toppling everything upon it to the floor. My mind was a whirlpool of incoherent thoughts, as I paced around my bedroom. Pieces were missing from this puzzle and I intended to find out what they were, but first, I had something very important to do. I walked out the door, slamming them in anger before storming off to the mental hospital. "I would like to see my wife." I said, shocked that my voice stayed even, my tone almost calm, when the anger inside of me had reached a boiling point. I waited until I was left alone with Terra before she endured my wrath. "Bitch. How could I have been so stupid? So naïve?"
"Baby..Let me explain. Please?"
"I've had enough of your lies, but lets hear your pathetic excuse for manipulating and making me the fool."

Crying, she spoke, "Beast Boy, I love you. I always have and I always will. You make me smile, you make me laugh, and you believe in me when no one else does. Raven was just in the way. She never belonged with you. She never loved you like I did. Like I still do. Baby, I did what I did for you. For us. You have to believe tha-" Sobs broke the last word and her body shook with the force of them, but I wasn't listening to the sound of her tears. I was still shocked by what Terra had just hinted to. Clenching my teeth and fists together to keep my tone even and my anger reined in. "How did you get Raven out of the way, baby?" The tears didn't stop, but her sobs turned to a dark chuckle. "That was it. Baby...The baby." Her words weren't making sense.
"What baby?"
"The baby, the baby."
"Wait, you're pregnant?"
"No! No, no, no!"
"Then what Terra?"
"Her baby. Hers. Hers."
"Whose baby? Whose Terra, whose?"
"Always about her. Never me! Her, her, her."
"Who, darling, who?"
"It was all her fault. She just had to be so close to you. She couldn't just let me have you."
"Focus, Terra, focus. Whose baby is it?"
"I already told you. It was hers. She had it coming."
My anger was coming to boiling point, now. "Damn it Terra! Tell me whose baby it was. NOW!"
"Raven's, Raven's."
"Raven's pregnant?"
"No. Not anymore." Her sentence was ended with a small chuckle.
"What do you mean, Terra? What did you do?"
"I made her go away, I made her go bye-bye, and her baby, too." There was more chuckling, now.
I snapped, and screamed. "WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO TO HER, TERRA?"
My words meant nothing to her. She was completely crazy now. There was no coming back, I could see it in her eyes. She had finally snapped, and it was my fault.

"No, it's not. If anyone is at fault, it is her, because she did not ask anyone for help or tell anyone she was experiencing difficulties with her memories. Ultimately though, this is not your fault. There is no one to blame but herself for her current state. She chose to be this way, no one held her at gun point."

Raven's voice drifted in my head as an image of her appears before my eyes, making me finally see that she's the one my heart has always belonged to and her infidelity means nothing to me now, as long as we can move past it and I can call her my own again. I left Terra, and spoke to the doctors about making sure she was fully committed and then about divorcing my wife. The paperwork would take some time, I knew, but I wanted it done as soon as possible. If nothing else, Terra had manipulated me into thinking my friend's were not so anymore, and she had possibly hurt Raven. Not to mention, Terra was getting no love from me anytime soon. She had done more than her fair share of destroying our marriage and I can only hope she gets the help she so desperately needs.

Turning on my heel, I left the building and took off towards the Tower, but that wasn't my destination. I didn't bother changing forms, I just took off racing down the street. Like a siren's call, Raven's face was in my head, urging me to move faster. I couldn't bare to loose her again, not when I had so many questions. My muscles were aching and my lungs were on fire, but I kept running. I had to get to her in time. I had to tell her...that I love her.

"I only hope I'm not too late…" I whispered to myself, as the muscles in my legs protested their strenuous exercise. The T Tower was so far away, it seemed I would never get there.

"How could I have hurt Raven like that? How could I have told her that I didn't love her when my arms yearn to wrap around her waist and hold her body close to mine?"

My thoughts were as fast as the ball of my foot touching the ground. Images of Raven flashed in time to the sound of my rapid heartbeat. Raven, her hair spilled out over my arm like a darkened waterfall. Raven, with her breathing even as she slept in my arms. Raven, with that smile on her lips as she whispered she loved me. Raven, the girl who had secretly liked my jokes, despite finding them on the stupid side. I couldn't get that violet-eyed girl out of my head, let alone out of my heart.

Raven walks into the room nervously, a small smile playing at the corners of her mouth. "Beastboy, I…" Her words died in her throat and she forced herself to feel nothing as she watched Beastboy turn his head from the kiss to look at her. Terra just smirked, as Beastboy looked, first guiltily then angrily, at her. He stood up, glaring at her, as he began to speak. "Raven, how could you have cheated on me and broke my heart? You have fallen in love with Robin! I thought you loved me!" His voice was reaching new levels of high for him. She bit her tongue to keep the words that immediately came to mind from coming out. "Hypocrite!" Instead, she said quietly, "I'm sorry." She turned and left the room. Beast Boy stood up to go after her, but Terra grabbed his hand and pulled him back down. "Let her go." She whispered, her eyes sparkling with, what appeared to be, sadness and love for him. He nodded, his heart shattering, and put on a fake smile.

That fake smile was something I'd been living with for awhile now but had only now just realized that it had almost always been a fake smile since that eventful day. Along with my heart, my trust had been destroyed and I felt devastated. I had went to Terra, maybe to make Raven jealous, or to make her hurt as much as I did, or to make sure I avenged myself or maybe just because I was too hurt so I needed some known place I could hide and lick my wounds and show Raven that despite it all, she had not broken me down. In the end though, all I had hoped to achieve had been failed and I was about to lose, if I hadn't already, the one thing in this world that had ever really meant something to me. I didn't think I could take another blow dealt by Raven, but I would try to understand it if she chose to just leave and never come back. I made it to the Titans Tower feeling faint but I wasn't going to let that stop me.

Once inside the Tower, I ran to Cyborg's room, pounding on the door. A sleepy Cyborg opened the door and upon seeing him, I started speaking, "Where is she? Is she still here? Am I too late?"

"Where's who and too late for what?"

"RAVEN!" I yelled.

Ever so slowly, Cyborg yawned and then opened his mouth to reply but I didn't wait long enough to hear it. I was shaking worse than a blender. I took off running down the hallway towards Raven's room and I immediately knocked on her door. I was in high hopes that she would answer the door and with no response, I went inside to see if maybe she was just asleep. I didn't see anyone inside the room but I did see her stuff still unpacked. Hoping I was right that she was still here on Earth and would be back for her stuff soon, I decided to sit down on her bed. I was exhausted with my eyelids feeling like my bricks, so I promptly fell backwards, into a fitful sleep. She was the star in my nightmares.

( ( D r e a m ) )

There she was. Just in the doorway. I smile and so does she, but wait. She's not even looking at me. It's like she is seeing right through me, as if I'm not even here, but I am here. I turn around to figure out what she is staring at and realize its Robin. "Raven," I scream, hoping she'll hear me! Unfortunately, she doesn't and she turns, going back into her room, Robin following suit. Curiosities making my feet move despite my shock, I ran forward hoping to find out what she needed to talk to Robin about, but found the door beginning to close, so I ran faster but smacked my face into the door. I pulled back to feel my nose, but was distracted by the sudden change in scenery. I was now on an empty freeway, no cars and no people anywhere in sight, but as I was looking around I spotted something in the distance that appeared to be a bird. This bird must have been the only living thing on the freeway, so I decided to follow it. Alas, when I tried to reach it but I found I couldn't. Irritated, I began running towards the bird but as soon as I got close to it, it sped up. Screaming in frustration after the fifth time of this, the bird landed. Perching itself on a freeway sign, it morphed into none other than Raven. My eyes widened and my jaw dropped in surprise, as I stared at the beautiful woman. Smiling at me, she disappeared, reappearing on a speed limit sign only a few feet away. I slowly walked towards the speed limit sign, but when I got within a few inches of her, she disappeared again. This time she was on a different sign, further away than before and I continued trying to "catch" her, but my efforts were in vain.

I was never fast enough to catch her, and I kept tossing and turning in my sleep. When I slid my arms under the pillows to try to get comfortable and fall back asleep, my hands bumped something. Drowsily, I pulled out what felt like a small book. I open it up to the first page and noticed it was a diary. The first entry was from when Raven and I were still dating. I had had no clue that she had kept a diary, let alone wrote about me in it. Now fully alert, although still sore from the extreme exercise, I pondered what I should do with the journal. Maybe if I could read about how she felt when she cheated on me then I could understand it, and maybe I could find what it was that Terra had been going on about.

"Maybe Terra was already crazy talking by that time. She probably doesn't even know what she's talking about and if she did, it was only a completely twisted version of the truth. After all, Terra had been a liar from the very start, hadn't she?"

I flipped through the pages, reading about the various dates we had gone on. One of the entries was about the first movie we had gone to; when I had been so nervous I had spilled my drink all down the front of her shirt. She had surprised me by laughing almost to the point of hysteria, and it had caused me to start laughing and we had been escorted out of the theater because we just could not stop laughing, but it wasn't because of me spilling the drink it was because the nervous tension that had been in the air was being relieved. We didn't kiss that night, but something I hadn't know that night was that she had wrote in her diary about her feeling glad that she had been able to laugh, really laugh for the first time in her life making her feel normal. Not to mention that she had wanted me to kiss her almost as much as I had wanted to kiss her that night. I found myself laughing softly, and a tear rolled down my cheek. I quickly wiped it away, so as not to get anything on her diary. I read on, relieving more memories of my time spent with Raven.

The stars were bright, making up for the crescent moon's light, and we lay on the beach. The blanket was comfy, as we gazed upon the stars, making up constellations as we went. Laughing, we turned our bodies so we faced each other. We smiled at each other, then a mischievous smile appeared on her lips and she touched my shoulder. "Tag, you're it!" She giggled then took off running. I ran after her, chuckling at how she kept turning her head back to stick her tongue out at me. Giving into her taunts, I ran even faster. I tackled her down into the sand, and pinned her arms down. I looked into her face, chuckling as she giggled like a school girl. She caught my gaze and our laughter subsided. She was soft as I ran my fingers down her arms and goose bumps appeared on her pale skin. I leaned towards her, seeking an answer in her eyes. She seemed to read the question in my eyes and closed the distance between us, so that our noses were touching. I pressed my lips, once, twice, thrice, against hers and then her eyelids fluttered shut and I closed mine, catching her bottom lip between my teeth lightly. She moaned a little, her mouth opening and her tongue seeking mine. Delaying her request, I traced her bottom lip with my tongue before sliding it over her tongue and across the roof of her mouth. She shivered, and I knew it had nothing to do with the slight breeze that had just ruffled her hair, as she slid her arms around my neck, and I wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her closer to me. Our tongues danced together for what felt like eternity, and I never wanted it to stop. As a wave crashed against the shore, breathlessly, we looked into each other's eyes; hers were a beautiful shade of purple.

"That was our first kiss." I whispered, as a couple teardrops rolled down my cheeks.

"I remember it as if it happened yesterday." Startled, I looked up to see Raven standing in her doorway.