A/N: Well, I've been sick, so it took a little longer than expected, but I made the deadline I had made for myself. I hope you like the latest update. Suggestions and compliments always welcome. Review please, they keep me going. :)

Love, Lily

Words Left Unspoken

"Raven, is it really you?" I asked uncertainly.

"Yes it is, me, Beast Boy." She replied quietly.

I moved off the bed, taking a step towards her, the diary still in my hands. We stood there, looking at the other person, words lodged in our throats. As I opened my mouth to speak, I took another step forward. "Raven, I…."

"Why are you in my room, and why are you going through my diary?"

"I was looking for you and then I fell asleep on your bed and I couldn't sleep. I was having this dream and as I was tossing and turning in my sleep my hand bumped into your diary and I couldn't believe you even had a diary. I was shocked at finding it and then I was curious and I… Well I wanted to know if I could find out why you cheated on me with Raven, because if I could then I might be able to forgive you and then we could be together, Raven."

I paused to look at her reaction and to catch my breath. She was stunned and I took a step forward, feeling a need to touch her. To make sure she was really here and this wasn't another dream. It was like someone flipped a light switch on Raven, for suddenly her voice turned cold and hard.

"How dare you come into my room and read my diary in the hopes of finding a possible way to understand what happened between us. How dare you have the nerve to try to tell me you MIGHT," she screeched the last word before continuing on, "be able to forgive me, and how dare you presume I would want to get back together with you!"

She was angry and she was hurt, I could tell that much by the look in her eyes and in the way that a lamp was now hurtling towards my head in a mass of black energy. I ducked and the lamp hit the wall, and I cringed as it shattered. I took another step toward her, and for my stupidity I had a stack of books come flying at me. Dodging them just barely, I opened my mouth to scream at her but my mouth was shut. Black energy then spread from my mouth to the rest of my body and my feet were soon not touching the carpet anymore.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Raven~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I shoved him out the door, because I did not truly want to hurt him. I just wanted him to feel how I felt, but I could not make him see the truth. How could I tell him the truth when I did not even remember sleeping with Robin? Answer? I could not. I cannot even figure out how Terra found that photo. If he believes his wife's lies even now, then how do I explain that she was lying about me loving Robin but right about me cheating on him? "I just don't get it! " I exclaimed, but quickly I reeled in my anger, not wanting to lose control of my emotions, which could lead to my powers accidentally hurting one of my innocent friends.

Sighing, I sat crossed-legged on my bed and began my meditation. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos," I repeat over and over until I begin to levitate a few feet above my bed and then the whole house becomes quiet and I'm in my own little world.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Terra~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

I sat Indian style on my bed in the mental hospital room, looking up at the ceiling. I had done it. I had done the impossible. I had broken up Raven and Beast Boy and had Beast Boy marry me. I had the green changeling all to myself, so what was I worried about? "Maybe that look in your husband's eyes when you said you had hurt his precious Raven or the look he gave you when you would not tell him what was wrong?" My voice sneering at the word precious surprised even me. It didn't sound like my voice, it sounded like someone else's to my own ears. "What does it sound like to other people then?"

"It sounds like you are crazy," said a voice in my head, from out of nowhere.

"I am not crazy!" I responded, before realizing that yelling out loud at a voice in my head could very well be considered crazy.

"But aren't you?" a voice said coming from inside my head again.

"No, I am not crazy!" I exclaimed, raising my voice even higher.

"They've always thought you were crazy."

This time the voice sounded less like me and more like Slade. The voice was starting to scare me now. What if Slade's still alive? What if he's come back for me? But Slade is dead. He has to be.

"Am I though, Terra? Am I truly dead? Or are you just crazy like everyone thinks?" asked the Slade voice.

"Get out of my head!" I screamed, as panic began to set in.

Slade dropped into the room and his arrogance was truly aggravating. "What do you want, Slade?" I asked, trying to keep my voice at a normal tone so he would not think he had scared me. I was straining my ears, hoping to hear one of the nurses coming down the hallway so that Slade would be forced to leave and not be seen.

"Terra, Terra, Terra… I had high hopes for you. I really thought that I had taught you better. I mean where do you think that you learned how to be so manipulative? It wasn't because of your intelligence alone. I taught you, my dear."

He chuckled and he looked around the room. The doctors had not moved me to a different room, yet but they would soon. They were making a room available for her to be moved to since there was a hole in the ceiling from Raven and the room was trashed. I kept my eyes focused on Slade, until he turned back to me.

"Shut up Slade, you don't know anything about me and I am not your puppet anymore!" I yelled at him.

"Terra, you have been my puppet this whole time. You never stopped being my puppet. I put the ideas in your head. I told you to take that picture of Robin and Raven and I told you to tell Raven what you knew. I am the one who got you Beast Boy, though I do not understand why you love him so much. He is so childish and he makes the stupidest jokes, not to mention the way he looks at Raven. You might have married him in reality but think back Terra. That dream he had, he said it was not about you at first. Well, it was about some girl wasn't it? How much you want to bet that he lied and that it was Raven he was dreaming about and telling her," he stopped and mimicked Beast Boy's voice, as she had before, "My heart, of course I love you!"?.

I was flying at him, punching and kicking his arms and chest and wanting to hurt him like he was hurting me. It wasn't working though, I realized as all he did was effectively block my attacks but I landed a good blow to his stomach and he doubled over in pain. "You're an asshole, and you need to leave. Now!" I screamed at him, my heart pounding faster due to the adrenaline and the fear of what would happen as he lifted his head up. He began laughing, the sound of his amusement reverberating against the walls.

"You can keep on screaming, but we both know the truth. You are, and always have been, my puppet, Terra."

I screamed, "You're lying. Lying! I'm not your puppet anymore!" My hands began to glow and parts of the ceiling that were still there began flying towards Slade.

"You're crazy, Terra. Look how badly you're reacting to the truth. Maybe you do need some help." Effortlessly, he dodged the pieces of ceiling.

My anger raising more, I lifted up off the floor on a slab of rock. "You did this then. You made me hurt Raven and Robin and you made me make Raven lose her baby. You made me hurt Beast Boy, when he had done nothing wrong to me! Why would you do that?"

He smirked at me. "No, Terra. You're the bitch who did all of that. You're the one that caused all this drama and you have only you to blame. You decided to hurt them all, and you are the one who caused Raven to lose her child and the one who tore Raven and Beast Boy apart. You're the one that came out supposedly on top with Beast Boy as your husband. Not me, Terra. You! You did it. You did it all. Every single part of your plan was done without my help or my guidance. "

"No! It was you that did that! You were the one who decided to do this to them. I would never hurt Beast Boy like this. It had to have been you because I love Beast Boy!" I retorted.

Laughing, Slade just stood there as rocks and soil were flung at him by my powers. "Terra, look at what's going on here. Nothing is hitting me. I have no scratches on me nor do I have any bruises. I am just standing here. I am simply a fragment of your imagination, my dear. You're trying to scapegoat your failure onto me because you can't accept the fact that you're the one who ultimately hurt Beast Boy, Terra." As he finished speaking, he disappeared.

"No! I can't believe it. He's right." I fell to the ground as the nurses came in. They looked at the damage I had done and just shook their heads. I didn't fight them as they moved me to another room. I let them lead me there and I let them lock me in the room. The fight had drained out of me, as the realization hit me.

Beast Boy was hurt because of me. He loves me but he fell in love with her first. By hurting Raven, I hurt Beast Boy and pushed him away. I caused the one I love pain because of my selfishness. I have to fix what I've done. I have to get him away from Raven and show him how much better for him I am than Raven is for him.

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I can't believe how quickly her mood changed. I wanted to tell her I love her and that I don't want her to leave. What did I say wrong? She was so angry, but at least she's still here. I know that she has a right to be hurt but I was trying to fix it. How am I supposed to fix it if she doesn't listen to me? My thoughts were stuck on Raven, when the phone suddenly rang. It was the mental hospital telling me what Terra had done to her room, in anger. I exhaled loudly and asked them to continue on. They did, telling me that Terra was now in a room by herself, in the opposite side of the building and on 24 hour surveillance and that she had not put up a fight when they took her to her room. In fact, it seemed that she was upset about something.

"Alright, I'll check in on her at some point tomorrow. Thank you for letting me know and for taking care of her. Have a good night." I said into the phone. After waiting for their response I hung up the phone and went back to concentrating on Raven. Soon I was fast asleep.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ Raven~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

The silence was disturbed by the phone ringing. I wasn't sure who it was but I didn't care enough to find out either. I heard Beast Boy's voice speaking to the person on the phone, and I assumed it had something to do with Terra at Jump Mental Hospital. Ignoring the way I wanted to walk into his room and kiss and make-up with him, I went to my closet and grabbed my suitcase, setting it down on the bed; I began putting various clothing items into the suitcase. When I finished packing my suitcase, I set it by the door and then laid down on my bed. My head was laying on something harder than my pillows so I reached behind my head and pulled out my diary.

I couldn't help myself from opening it up and seeing what page Beast Boy had been on when he set it down. I knew he had been reading about our first kiss, when he spoke aloud. I remembered the way his voice shook with sadness from the memory. I remembered the way the tears were just starting to spill over his eyes. I remembered feeling the need to make him smile, and how desperately to comfort him and make everything alright.

Tears filled my eyes, at the memory of his eyes filled with hope as he looked up to the sound of my voice. I wiped away the tears and threw the book across the room. I turned my back to the book and I closed my eyes, falling into a fitful sleep.