I remember the first day she got here when we were unpacking her stuff and she saw the photo of her and josh and broke down in tears. It was awful I just wanted to make her feel ok. I barely knew her and I hated seeing her cry. It's the worse feeling in the world knowing that she's upset and I can't do anything to make it change. I want to make her happy. She deserves to be happy after what she's been through. But am I the one to make her happy?
I'm so confused now. When I think about it I would do anything to make her happy again. I love it when I see her smiling because it makes me think that maybe I am helping. And knowing that I was the one that made her properly laugh since it happened makes me happy. I just want to make her feel ok. I want to make her laugh and smile. I want to protect her and make sure nobody ever hurts her. I just want to make her happy. Oh my god he's right. It's one of those rare occasions where Chad is right. I do like Gabby as more than a friend. I don't just want her to be happy. I want to be the one to make her happy.
It's been a month now since me and Troy spent that random day together and every so often he goes a bit weird with me. It's just for a minute or so where he's looking at me but seems distracted by something else…it's so bizarre cause when I've asked him he just says he's day dreaming and then snaps out of it. I wonder what it is that's bothering him. But I don't have time to think about it anymore as we are all sat in the diner and Tay is about to share her amazing plan for this weekend.
"Right guys my parents are away this weekend so I was thinking that we could have like a 2 day movie night..."
"How can you have a 2 day movie night?" Chad interrupts. Normally Taylor hates when people interrupts her but she just sort of giggles at Chad's comment.
"I said like! Meaning that you guys will all come over after school on Friday and then we will have a movie night like normal but you can stay over Friday and Saturday night and we'll make a weekend of it"
"Aww yay sounds awesome Tay, I am so up for that!" Sharpay squeals
"I'm in" smiles Ryan
"Me too" agrees Chad
"And me" Troy grins
"Aww yay this going to be so much fun guys, we've not done something like this in way to long…AND this is the first time that will we get to include Gabby in group traditions"
"Ermm what kind of traditions Sharpay?" I ask slightly nervous
"Oh there just little silly things but we have to do them when we all stay over"
"Don't worry there not that bad, Shar just makes it sounds worse than it is" Troy whispers in my ear so Sharpay can't hear. I just smile back.
"So Troy?
"Yeah Chad?" we're in the locker rooms getting ready to go to the Taylors house after our Friday practise.
"Have you told her yet?"
"Told who what?" although I knew what he was referring to.
"Gabriella….you know that you like her"
"No because I only like her as a friend" he just looks at me
"Yeah ok then…Troy I admit I'm not the smartest guy in the world, in not good at getting hints and I'm really not very intuitive but I've known you since we were 3. I can tell when you're lying"
"I…uhh...ummm"
"Exactly" he grins and starts to walk out. I catch up with him as we get to my car. After getting in I drive to Taylors.
"And don't worry Troy I won't tell anyone" that's a good thing about Chad, if I tell him a secret I can count on him to take it to his grave. Walking into Taylor's living room we are greeted by the smell of nail polish, the sound of some girly film and the sight of the 3 girls and Ryan sitting on the sofa wearing facemasks. And yes I said Ryan as well.
"Dude what happened to you" Chad laughed at Ryan as he flopped down next to him.
"Thank god you guys are here. They pinned me down to paint my nails and the forced me to put a facemask on" Ryan looked slightly scared. I sat down on the other end next to Gabby.
"That was really mean to do that to him" I said to her
"Hey it wasn't my idea….I even defended him but Shar was determined and I thought if you can't beat em join em"
"And I wouldn't get to comfy over there Troy…your next" Shar evilly grinned and before I knew what was happening I had Gabby and Taylor pinning down either side while Shar put some weird cream thing on my face. And then while Chad was distracted by hysterically laughing at me the girls took the opportunity to pin him down and do the same to him.
"Camera time!" Shar whips out a camera from nowhere and starts taking pictures of everyone. After a few minutes we guys give and start posing for them. By the end of it everyone is in hysterics.
It's been about 2 hours since the guys got here and we are now sat on the sofa watching a scary movie that Ryan picked. We did owe it to him after what me, Shar and Taylor did. But the thing is I hate scary movies. I'm alright after I've watched them I just get creped out during. Like right now I'm watching from behind a pillow. Although this sofa is massive Chad and Ryan are sat on the floor and Shar and Tay are the other end so me and troy are kind of by ourselves this end.
"Are you ok" Troy whispers to me.
"Yeah I'm fine…I'm just not a big fan of scary movies that's all"
"Don't worry you'll be fine" he then puts he's arm around me and pulls me closer to him ever so slightly. I freeze for half a second then lean on him and let him hug me tighter. I immediately feel so much better and I am so comfy. I'm just sat here leaning on troy's chest as he has his arm around me holding me tight. This feels so normal, like we've sat like this a million times before.
Its 3am in the morning and I'm lying here wide awake. It may be due to all the sugar I've eaten tonight or it may be due to the fact that Chad's snoring is loud enough to wake the whole street but I think it's mainly due to the fact that I can't stop thinking about Gabriella. About earlier when she was curled up on the sofa leaning on me even long after the scary movie was finished. I don't know what to do because I can't help but think about her all the time. Sometimes I do it when I'm with her and she asks if I'm ok. And when we spent that day together and I walked her to the door from my car, I nearly leant in and kissed her. And that was before I had even realised that I felt this way. If it was just any other girl then I would tell her how I felt. But this is different in so many ways. I mean she's dealing with the love of her life dying and it's only been 5 months. I know she's not ready for another relationship yet she wouldn't even be ready for someone to tell her they liked her. And I wouldn't know how to tell her even if I could…I've never felt like this about anyone before.
Deciding that's Chad's snoring is too annoying I get up to go the back rooms when I realise the outside light is on. I go to turn it off when I realise that someone sat outside on the porch swing. I go outside to see who it is.
"Gabriella?" she's sat with her legs curled up besides her looking at the stars
"Troy? What are you doing up?"
"I couldn't sleep…you" I go and sit next to her.
"Me either…I didn't wake you up coming downstairs did I?"
"No I think Chad's snoring drowned out any other noise in the house" she smiles softly at me. We sit in silence for a while just gazing at the nights sky. I then notice her shiver slightly so I put my arm around her and pull her closer to warm her up. She leans on my shoulder and smiles. She carries on looking at the stars but I can't help but be distracted by her. She is so beautiful.
"There gorgeous aren't they" she's says gazing up at the sky.
"Yeah they are" I reply but I don't take my eyes of her. She turns to look at me. We both slowly lean in…
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