Hey sorry it's been a while but i'm really busy. This chapters a bit rushed but hope you like it anyways :) x
"I'm not saying that she is, I met her briefly and she seemed like a lovely girl. But what I mean is that I don't want you to get hurt because she doesn't feel the same way. So just be careful. But you never know what's going to happen" with that she gets up and squeezes my shoulder before leaving the room.
I understand where my mom is coming from, she cares about me it's her job to tell me to be careful. But I'm not going to get hurt, especially not by Gabriella. I don't even know if she likes me like that. She doesn't even know that I like her like that. Well I don't think she does. Ever since she came here I've been her shoulder to cry on, the one to cheer her up and make her laugh, and her best friend. But then yesterday, last night. I kissed her and she didn't pull away. Not only that but she kissed me back. That has to mean something. Right?
I wake up Monday morning with a smile on my face. It's been a long time since I've woken up like that. I remember what happened over the weekend with troy and it brings an even bigger smile to my face. I don't know what it means though, we're such good friends. And I'm not entirely sure what I feel about him yet. I know he makes me happy and he's always there to cheer me up when I need him to be and he's been the best shoulder to cry on that a girl could ask for. But what does it mean, and what about the kiss? What does that mean for us now?
I get up and ready for school while singing along to the radio. After breakfast Tay and I drive to school while chattering away about the weekend. She keeps smiling whenever Chad's name is mentioned and it is so obvious to me that she likes him. Even if she doesn't realise it herself yet. As we are walking into school I hear the radio from someone else's car playing 'I can't live', well at least I think that's what it is. I've not heard that song in 6 months, not since...
"Morning guys" I look up to see Sharpay smiling brightly at us with Ryan trailing along beside her
"Hey Shar, Ryan, you guys ok?"
"Tired, Shar woke me up at like 4 this morning"
"Oh shush Ryan it was 6 not 4. And stop moaning about it, I said I was sorry" Me and Tay just laugh at them as they continue to bicker, about what I'm pretty sure is something to do with a hairdryer, all the way into school and to our lockers. We are currently stood by my locker with Sharpay and Ryan still fighting about whatever happened this morning, and Taylor trying to calm them down when Chad comes bounding over.
"Morning" I turn around to see Troy stood behind me with a smile on his face.
"Morning" I smile back at him while everyone else just carries on chatting with Chad added into the conversation. We stand just smiling at each other for a few seconds until I get drawn back into the conversation by Sharpay asking me about a girly shopping trip she was planning for the weekend. The rest of the day carries on as usual, like nothings happened but I keep catching Troy looking at me and every time I do we both just smile and look away.
I go to my locker at lunch and find a note from Troy asking me to meet him for lunch on the rooftop. The rooftop? Is he serious….are we even allowed up there? He's written directions on how to get there so I follow them to a set of hidden away spiral stairs. I walk up them to find troy stood at the top looking out onto the school grounds with his back to me. Walking over next to him I notice that he's so lost in thought he hasn't noticed that I'm even there yet.
"Troy..?" I say softly trying not to startle him. He snaps out of his trance at the sound of my voice
"Hey sorry I was just..."
"Daydreaming?" I finish for him before giggling.
"Something like that" He smiles down at me before going to sit on a bench while motioning me to follow.
"Its beautiful up here" I say noticing for the first time how it's completely filled with a variety of flowers and plants, covering nearly every inch of the rooftop.
"Yeah the science club looks after it, I found it when I was a freshman and every time I need a moment to myself to think or …..Just have a minute to myself I come here"
"So why did you tell me about it?" he turns and smiles at me.
"Because I wanted to talk to you without everyone around….and I thought you might need a place to yourself sometimes too" I smile up at him and feel butterflies in my stomach at the same time. I feel nervous but I'm not sure why.
"Well thank you for telling me"
"Well thank you for coming" he grins back and it goes silent for a minute...
"What did you want to talk to me about?" I ask quietly
"well…ermm…about yesterday really….about what…well you know…what happened" he says nervously, he scratches the back of his neck and looks at me unsure on whether or not he should have brought it up
"Yeah I guess we should talk about that…" I look away unsure of what exactly to say.
"Probably" he smiles kindly at me
"I….I don't really know what to say" I speak so quietly I'm not sure whether he's even heard me. I don't look at him. I can't. I don't know what to do or say. I don't know what this means. It's all so confusing to me.
"Me either….look I just want you to know that I'm not expecting anything…I know its hard….and confusing and…I'm sorry…."
"Why are you sorry?" I ask him and look up at him to see he's averted his gaze away from me.
"well you know….the last time that nearly happened…..you got upset and I would hate it if I had made you cry…"
"Troy I'm not upset" he finally looks at me and I smile back at him
"Really?"
"yeah….i'm confused though…"
"me too….Gabs…what…what does this mean"
"I don't know…." We both go really quiet and I can tell he's deep thought.
"Well…seen as neither of us knows what this is why don't we just carry on as normal instead of sitting here trying to figure it out, because don't think we're getting very far"
"Ok..." I look up to see him smiling down at me. He pulls me in for a hug and we just sit there for a while. After pulling back he smiles down at me while slowy leaning in. He's just about to kiss me when the bell rings. We jump apart and then laugh it off awkwardly.
"Come on we better get to class, Darbus will kill us for being late" He grabs my hand and pulls me away.
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