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Me- Yeah I know EXTREMELY late Update. BUT it is an up date be happy. Actually be happy I remember the plot. And remember where this story was heading!

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Shade- Only Derek, Nate, and I.

XxXxInvaderZimxXxXZim's POV

I sat at my desk pissed off. How could Shade do that? Jackass! Irk I hate him so much!

I kicked my desk and something fell off of it. I blinked and picked it up. It was my old journal. I leaned back and opened it, and started reading.

Dear Diary,

Today was the first day of school! It was really fun and I met a lot of the other smeets… I made a lot of friends… the others were nice except for one! I don't even know what I did! I just said Hi and next thing I know we were fighting… I hope I don't run into him tomorrow…

Dear Diary,

I ran into Shade again… He wasn't so mean though… He was actually pretty nice and we played together… I like him I hope we'll be friends for a long time.

Dear Diary,

Sorry I haven't written in a while. Me and Shade played all week. It was really fun. I enjoy playing with him. Well I can't talk for long I got to get ready for bed. Night.

I read a few more all saying the same Shade and I playing together… How do I not remember this? I read a more and got to one that looked like a couple years after the others.

Dear Dairy,

Bored, decided to write as I watch Shade train. I hope we can hang out today. We haven't really hung out since he decided to become an Elite… I'm worried about him though… Actually that's all I've done since he became an Invader… Last mission he went on he had gotten into a fight and got injured, and now has scar down his left eye… he almost lost it…

But I have to admit he looks kind of hot with the scar… Did I really just write that? Shade's my best friend I should not be thinking about him like that… Sigh… I've fallen hard for him… What do I do? Do I tell him? But I don't want it to ruin our friendship…

Sigh… Shade just called to me… Looks like we will get to hang out after all.

Bye.

I blinked. That would explain why I never really hated him… But… Why don't I remember any of this? I frowned. My door opened and I looked up to see Dad come in.

"Hey." He said.

"…Hey…" I said looking back at the book, I flipped the page and read the next note.

Dear Diary,

Shade made the Elite team. I'm not surprised; he's a strong Invader… But this just means he'll go on longer dangerous missions… What do I do? I'm so worried… I guess I should tell him my feelings… Wish me luck!

I flipped page only to find it blank. I frowned flipping through the pages, but there was nothing more. I closed the journal and set it down. What had happened after that?

"Something wrong?" Dad asked.

"Shade and I… We used to be friends…" I said. "What… What happened that made us hate one another so much?" I asked.

"… There was an accident a few years ago… you had gone out saying that you had something you wanted to tell Shade before he left to go to another planet… You ran out the door before I could tell you that he'd already left… While you were walking… a voot cruiser hit you; the driver was drunk… Your PAK was messed up and you basically lost your memory of ever being friends with Shade… When he returned… We told him what'd Had happened and he went up to see you… Next thing we knew was that you two were fighting." Dad said. I blinked.

"I wonder what happened." I said.

"Maybe you should ask Shade. I'm sure he knows…" Dad said. I felt my 'spooch jump at seeing him again. But shoved the feeling away. Even have he betrayed me and nearly broke my wrist how can I still have feelings for him?

"… No. I'd rather not…" I said.

"Ok. Dinner's in a few minutes."

"K." I said.

Dad left. I sighed and looked at the journal and opened a drawer. And put it inside. I blinked and pulled out a picture that was in the drawer.

It was of Shade and I.

Smiling.

Shade's POV

I sat on my couch and sipped my drink. I sighed. I felt kind of bad for betraying Zim, but hey I got monies. It wasn't like I cared for him any way… I sighed and stood heading to my room. When I walked in I saw the picture on my nightstand. It was of Zim and I the day before I left on that mission and before his accident. We were both smiling arms around one another. I picked it up and sat on the edge of my bed.

When I had returned and found out I was pissed. He remembered everyone else, Tenn, Tak, Blood, Scooge, EVERY ONE. But not me. His BEST friend. When I saw him I snapped at him… We got into a fight… Our friendship was over… no it ended the second he forgot me. I put the picture back. We had started talking again and I ruined it… I betrayed him… We could have been friends again. I sighed.

Zim's POV

I searched my room after dinner and found more photos of Shade and I. I also found a few drawings of us, that I had done. With each picture or drawing I slowly began to remember the past. I remember why I had fallen for him. I looked through the drawings and photos. One Drawing was of us under a tree a heart carved into it with 'S+Z 4ever' in it. I sighed.

If I hadn't forgotten about him what would it be like now? Would we be together? Or would we not even be talking? I sighed once again and put the photos and the pictures away and got into bed. I laid down ad pulled the covers over me closing my eyes. I fell asleep.

Dream Land

I looked out over the lake sighing. I felt arms wrap around me and someone kiss my cheek. I smiled; turning in the irken's arms wrapping mine around his neck I looked up at Shade.

"Hey." I said. He smiled.

"Hey." He said. He pulled me close leaning down, pressing his lips to mine in a sweet kiss. I kissed back happily tightening my arms around his neck. I moaned quietly as he slid his tongue across my bottom lip and parted my lips allowing him to slip his tongue in. Our tongues met, as the kiss grew passionate. After a few minutes we broke apart. Shade stroked my antennae and I shivered. Shade leaned down nuzzling my neck. I leaned my head to the side as he did sighing. He started to kiss my neck them suddenly bit down sinking his razor sharp teeth into my neck.

I gasped in pain. He pulled back and licked the wound, making me shiver and let out a small moan.

Shade chuckled, pulling away. My antennae flattened against my head as I looked away blushing. Shade chuckled more pulling me closer.

"You look cute when you blush." He said. I blushed more.

"Sh-shut up." I mumbled. Shade smiled, and kissed my cheek. I sighed, and leaned into him. "Love you, Shade."

"Love you too, Zim."

Exit Dream Land

I woke and sat up rubbing my eyes. I thought about the dream and sighed. I thought about the kiss before he betrayed me. I shook my head standing; I changed and headed downstairs.

"I'm going out." I said as I passed Dad.

"Alright." He said. I left the house and headed down the street. As I walked I spotted Shade and his friends. I stopped and looked at them, trying to decide if I should tell Shade I remembered or not. I sighed and looked down. I looked up and slowly walked over. Shade looked at me as I stopped. I sighed.

"Your lucky you're my best friend otherwise you'd be dead." I said. "When did you turn into an asshole?" I asked. Shade looked at me confused, then blinked.

"Best friend…? You remembered?" he asked. "When?"

"Last night… Found my old journal…" I answered. "Among other things as well." I added.

"Hmm…" Shade looked away.

"What happened when you came back from the mission?" I asked. Shade didn't look at me.

"…You don't want to know." Shade said.

"Yes I do." I said. Shade sighed.

"Derek, Nate. I'll see you later." He said walking off. I followed.

"So? What happened?" I asked.

"I snapped." He answered.

"What does that mean?' I asked.

"I was pissed. You only lost your memory of me." Shade said. "You remembered everyone else."

I blinked. I… I only forgot… Shade? I frowned.

"Shade… You're my best friend. You know that… right?" I asked. He shrugged.

"You tell me Zim. Am I? 'Cause apparently I wasn't important enough for you to remember." He hissed. I flinched at the venom in his voice. I never did like it when he was angry.

"What am I supposed to say Shade? Sorry? Sorry that I couldn't control who or what I forgot?" I asked.

"I don't want your apologies." He said looking away.

"…Why'd you kissed me?" I asked quietly. It slipped out before I could stop my self. Shade looked at me then back away.

"I already told you. I was bored. It meant nothing." He said. I flinched at the words. I didn't know what answer I was hoping for, but that wasn't the one.

"Oh…" It came out broken and I mentally yell at myself for it. I prayed that Shade didn't notice, but I knew he did. He didn't feel the same way. "I… I should get home…" my voice shook. And I growled at myself silently. Damn it! Why am I so upset? Oh. Right. Because I just got my squidilyspooch torn into pieces. I turned from Shade and started to walk away.

"I'll walk you." I heard Shade say.

"I'm fine by my self." I said this time keeping my voice from shaking.

"Now what kind of elite invader would I be if I let our prince wonder the streets alone?" Shade asked coming up behind me. I blinked and looked at him. He smiled some. I looked away blushing and cursed myself for it. We walked down the street.

Me- Yes. End of chapter four. I hoped you guys liked it.

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