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Author Note: Sorry for the delay, some jackass was being a jackass, I just wanted his mouth to
Meltdown
Yuusei had always liked to put things in order. His D-Wheel, his deck, his life and certainly his boyfriends were neatly arranged. Bruno stayed over there and I was visited in Satisfaction Town and all was well. And never were the twain to meet. But oops my dear Yuusei the world is a small, small place that you could drown in if you dared to breathe. And so we two meet and everything fell apart. Surprisingly only one person died that night but this death sent us all into the depths of despair. I still have nightmares about that night.
The smell of death still lingers on my hands. I've gotten awfully used to it. It's always there after all. It smells like pride on my fingertips. How awful. Pride has such a distinctive scent, you can't ever forget it. No, no you can't. I probably won't ever forget this tragedy either. Then again all tragedy sticks in my head with a dark and stagnant water.
I'm pretty sure Lua was the first one to notice the calamity. He screamed, I at first thought it was his sister but as she is always so calm it couldn't have been her. Aki must have screamed next because it had a fiery hint of anguish that burns me to my very core. Crow was next of course, always overly emotional. Yuusei prbably remained calm throughout the entire thing. I, in a panic that I regret, ran down the stairs and as far as I could. I couldn't face the fact that I had killed one of my best friends. For such a stupid reason as well, but tensions were already high and he said something stupid, though I have to admit in the end I was the stupid one, so very stupid, I'm such an idiot it isn't even ironic.
Jack and I, we used to share everything. He was my best friend and Yuusei was my lover and Crow was our team's mother or some such. And everything was perfect, my growing insanity chased it away though and I was left alone in the throes of the deepest despair. I should have quit while I was ahead, I should have killed myself. But I'm just that stupid.
Crow claims that he's been getting letters from Jack, letters addressed to Yuusei. I think he's finally lost his mind. It took him long enough, we've all lost ours long ago. Ha. It hurts so bad it isn't even ironic.
The day started out alright, it was a gathering of friends I suppose, though I probably wasn't considered a friend by anyone but Yuusei and Crow by then, Jack must have hated me for as long as Yuusei and I were together. I had come earlier than most others, the sun was still visible I remember. I stepped in and Bruno was there and the supposed pacifist growled and I smiled back as I had smiled back when I was of a certain perversion. Crow was out, working presumably, and the twins were speaking with another young boy and Aki was supervising the entire scene. Carly was really excited and cheerfully hopped up and down, it was almost as if she wasn't drowning in the flames that consumed her poor heart. I embraced Yuusei and he left shortly afterwards and which point Bruno and I got into a fight. Yuusei came in and everything died down and no one told him of our spat, perhaps we should have. I regret that fight the most, we were in the sanctity of Yuusei's home, a place for friends, not enemies. I'm just that stupid though.
Crow came home shortly after that and we embraced as old friends tend to do and which point Jack made some kind of joke about us, I don't remember what he said but I remember that I was angry and glared at him. I regret that. Jack had injured himself in the kitchen and swore deeply. The boy who's name I don't know snickered at as a child his age would. Brave showed up at this point. Crow opened the door and he seemed very happy about the arrival of the Scandinavian. The happiness was rather short lived. Of course I can only blame myself for that, I'm just that stupid.
I was sitting on the couch with Yuusei as he rested a hand on mine and a hand on Bruno's. When he wasn't looking we glared at each other and Bruno would pout because, I suppose, he isn't that violent, not as violent as I and certainly not as violent as-, no let me be cast of thoughts of him, just this once.
I believe that Jack had the intention of cooking and once he injured himself left the heat on, so stupid. Regardless everyone was chatting about the various things that interest them except for myself that was sitting detached, I didn't belong in that group anymore, they had replaced me in all but name. It hurt so much, it hurt so much that I wanted to kill someone, surprise, I did. I'm just that stupid.
A fire had suddenly struck the curtains and as such everyone grabbed their most precious things and ran out, I was not aware that Lua and Ruka had been escorted out and it appears that no one else did either as after we collected the various cards we tried to find them and eventually we were forced to the roof. At this point the tragedy really happened, the stench of death and pride is still on my fingertips. Oh, just like before, right Jack? Jack knows. Jack knew. I'm such an idiot.
Bruno panicked and began calling out for the man he supposedly loved more than I did. Jack began to twitch with rage and pride took over to a shocking degree.
"You, you two are nothing to him! Just a suicidal brat and robotic doll! You don't have what it takes to be with him, you aren't perfectly tuned as I am to him. I love him so much! I love him so damn much! You, you two will never understand!" He screamed.
In a rage of passion and the hatred of anyone that threatened to take my Yuusei from me I snapped his sorry fingers, the hand raised to the sky is in my good memory. Bruno punched him in he face and broke his nose, blood went flying. Jack reached up to stop the flow and stumbled backwards. Bruno attempted to pull him upwards and I joined him but as Jack was much heavier he fell anyway. There was such betrayal in his face, I understand that look very well. I wish I could know what he thought before his death. I wish I could. I want to know of all the pain I have ever inflicted. But I digress; Bruno and I both ran down the stairs in the feverish attempt to be free of all this. It went as well as it could of, I'm just that much of an idiot.
I walk by Yuusei's side now.
"I love you." I mutter underneath my breath towards him.
He can't even hear me. Bruno can though. He smiles at me in a kind of sadness. The only thing we share I suppose, a deep despair and our idiocy. We walk along the sidewalk, me with my hands in my pockets and Bruno alternating between joy at the scene and misery in remembering how it came about. I do confess that it burns me to my very core just seeing him here but if it makes Yuusei smile, smile like he stopped doing for such a long time, than I suppose it must be alright with me. Maybe, maybe I will properly confess my feelings for him and he will decide that I'm all that he needs.
"Yuusei I-"
Yuusei heads up ahead, he must have heard something. Regardless I need to speak to Bruno, I need to convince him to leave Yuusei and I alone. I can't bear the thought of sharing Yuusei with anyone, not after this.
A scream rings out and I run to see Yuusei clutching his throat and gurgling. Bruno catches up and panting and holds fast to his supposed love. My eyes grow wet; the last thing I would ever want is Yuusei's untimely death. I run up closer and grab fast to Yuusei's other hand. With sorrowful deep blue eyes he stares up at me and with a smile like the stars themselves he chokes out in a garble of blood and tears,
"I love you both very much, and I'm so sorry. I'm such an idiot." He smiles.
Bruno rips some of his shirt off and wraps it around Yuusei's bleeding neck. We run off to go get help. Yuusei trashes about for a moment and the cloth slips off leaving his bleeding and exposed neck that shows all the horrors he's ever seen. And he dies in a filthy street beside two angry men. Bruno drops his body with a shocked clack and drops to his knees as he holds his head in hands and screams in anguish. I just laugh, it's all I can do. After all this is so funny. So funny. I'm just that stupid. Stupid enough to think that I could ever have Yuusei's love, stupid enough to think that this wouldn't end in tears. I'm such an idiot. I'm such an idiot! Let me die, let me die in his place! Let me dream a happy dream, please, oh god, please! I am sorry for everything I've ever done, just let me dream a happy dream for once.
Precious memories come flooding in.
"Kiryu?"
"Ah yes Yuusei?"
"What are we going to do after we take over the satellite?"
"We're going to, ummm, we're going to take over Neo-Domino and live there as kings and get married!"
"That's stupid Kiryu."
"Ah not if you believe, Yuusei-Kun!"
"Hmn. Alright. I suppose I will believe. Though we might have to believe for Jack and Crow because they don't believe enough."
"Yeah we will! Need help with your deck Yuusei?"
"Actually yes please."
It hurts so much to think that a man like that, so special and kind would die here. It just makes me laugh! It isn't even ironic! He was just that much of an idiot.
Bruno stops his crying and picks Yuusei up with a small whimper. He carries the still warm yet lifeless body with dull eyes like a dead fish towards the garage. I wonder what Crow will say, what Aki will say, what the twins will think. It will just make me laugh, I know it! It isn't even ironic! We're all just idiots! I trail behind them and Bruno doesn't even notice my presence, probably wallowing in despair, I know the feeling, so pitiful, but so fucking funny as well! Why give us despair? Why give us hate? What does this accomplish? Why do we even feel anything? It's all so pointless! Ahahahahahahaha! We're all just idiots.
It's started to rain, ah. Bruno's already soaked and sniffling. I just laugh, laugh as it rains just like last time I killed someone. And you know what? MY HANDS STILL SMELL LIKE DEATH! I WAS AT THE LEAST RIGHT ABOUT ONE THING! I AM A DEATH GOD! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!
We're already there huh? It isn't even ironic! Bruno kicks open the door and lays the bloody body on the yellow sofa and he just sobs on it. Yes it, Yuusei isn't in there anymore, it was only a body.
And he tells them all in a sobbing voice what happened and they all tear up except for me! I stumble out laughing! It's so fucking funny! How funny how someone so pure and true was chosen for death over a forsaken monster! God oh god, I just want a happy dream, just this fucking once! I am sick of nightmares! And you know what? It isn't even ironic. I'm such an idiot.
I collapse sobbing in the rain on the street.