Chapter 17

A/N

I realize I haven't really updated in… months, and I feel like I'm letting you down as an author. For that, here's an extra special piece, and I hope you all enjoy it!

5 months later

BPOV

Things between Jake and I stayed pretty much the same; the farthest we had yet to get was 2nd base. And even then, It hadn't really happened again since that night a few months ago.

Something about, "Wanting Boundaries", and "Waiting until we were married" to do anything. I respected his choice, but I felt almost… empty… like he didn't want me because of how I had been before.

XXX

"Bella?" I heard Jacob call from the door. I had left it unlocked when Charlie left for work that night, over time on the night shift. I stayed in my room, still contemplating what I had thought of before.

There was a knock at my door.

"Bella?" he asked again, gently nudging it open to see me inside. He wisked his head around the door, and just stared nat me, like I was some kind of prize.

Though his beauty had me looking, too. His face was soft, and tan as ever, and his hair had been cropped on top of his head. I didn't like it long. He wore jeans that fitted loosely, and hung low on his hips, and a tight green shirt, that complimented the little green flecks in his eyes.

"Hey." He said almost breathlessly, pulling off his jacket and hanging it on my rocking chair. He ran his hand over his chest and my insides melted when he looked at me.

"Hey," I heal out one arm, and he grabbed my hand, falling onto the bed beside me. I curled up into his side, while he placed a gentle kiss on my head. I stroked my fingers over his chest and abdomen, thinking over my next question.

Before I could really think about it, I grabbed his shirt, and pulled myself up, my eyes level. I looked deeply into his eyes, before leaning in and pressing a warm kiss to his cheek. I slowly moved in until I was at the corner of his mouth, and then ran my tongue out over his lips, softly. He groaned, and looked deeply into my eyes, pulling me away.

"You're trying to kill me." He stated. Then he leaned forwards and captures my lips with his. I felt like the impending winter was making it harder to see each other. We had both graduated early with our online classes, so we were always busy. But hopefully, soon, we'd have more time together.

He opened his mouth and massaged my mouth with his tongue, making me slightly moan in response. He didn't voice his opinion, but when I reached over and straddled his legs, I could feel it. I pushed my hips down on his, and he pushed me away slightly. I moved back up, kissing him passionately. Then I wanted to try something. Something he had done with me. I had been nervouse and shy to say anything, but now I slowly moved my kisses down his neck, stopping near the base of his throat.

"Bella." He managed to squeak out, before I placed an open mouthed kiss on his jugular.

"Ohh, Bella." He moaned out, fisting his hands in my involentairly pushed his hips up, then groaned when he did. I sucked on his skin, gently nipping before I practically dug my teeth into his skin, suking it into my mouth.

"Ohh!" he yelled out, and I moaned, too. If possible, the hard on I felt in Jakes jeans just got a lot harder.

When I felt satisfied with the growles of pleasure escaping from between his teeth, I prssed my lips back to his, glimpsing at the little red mark that was sure to be purple by tonight.

I gently grazed my hand down his abs, pressing them to his skin underneath his shirt.

"You're so warm." The words tumbled from my lips.

"You're so cold." He shivered, and skimmed his node up my cheek.

And then I did it.

I pushed my hands down a little bit farther, skimming the tops of his jeans. My fingers played with the belt loops before going for his zipper.

He gently pushed me away, adjusting his shirt, but still within an arms distance.

"I whimpered at the loss of contact and bowed my head. I had been rejected. Again. I went to get off the bed, pacing over to the other side of the room, biting my lip.

"Bella?" Jacob asked, starting to get up.

"Why don't you want me?" I whispered, still turned around. The again, I yelled, "Why don't you want me!" I turned to face him, tears escaping the sides of my eyes.

"Bella, please," No, Jacob, no please, just tell me. Is it because of him? Did I… do something wrong?" My voice cracked at the end, sounding weak.

He rushed over to me, pulling me into his arms, smoothing down the back of my head while I cried into his shirt, crushing it between my little hands.

"No, honey. You know I want to but… I think we'll both feel better if we wait. Don't you understand?"

"No, I don't. All I know is that I want you."

"Mmmm, Bella," He pushed his head into my hair, while I cried.

"Please? Sometimes I feel like you're just like him…"

He growled then, pulling me closer to him.

"He can't hold you without fear of breaking him, He wouldn't be able to do what you just did to me, and he wouldn't be able to make love to you one day."

I gasped slightly as he bent down to kiss me passionately. I curled my fingers into his hair, smiling. He bent me over, bending my back, and raked his tongue over my teeth. I moaned, and before I knew it, he had flipped me back onto the bed.

"How about for tonight, we just sleep like this…" He trailed off, pulling off his shirt. He then did the same to me, leaving me in a cami and bra. Then he stepped out of his pants, standing before me in a pair of red plaid boxers. I gasped. We'd never gone this far before. I mimicked him shyly, taking off me jeans to reveal a pair of lacy boy shorts, in a light blue color. In fact, I was also wearing the matching bra…

Jacob stood there, mouth hanging open. I blushed, and looked down, searching for the edge of the blanket to pull over myself.

His warm hands grabbed my wrists, kissing my palms.

"Don't be ashamed. You're beautiful." He snuggled into me, before moving to shut off the light. He gently pushed me to lay down under the covers, then he climber in behind me. I squirmed, a little uncomfortable about wearing my bra to bed.

"What's wrong?" he whispered in my ear.

"Um…" I couldn't say it, in fear of embarresment.

"Are you… uncomfortable?" He asked, worried.

"Not in the way you would think…"

"Oh." I barley heard him whisper before he swept my hair over my shoulder, kissing my shoulder blade. I shuddered when I felt his hands under the back of my shirt, carefully unhooking my bra, before pulling it through my arms. I heard a slight growl, guessing he had seen the little piece of fabric that had left my body, making me feel vaurnable.

I felt him settle back down behind me, wrapping his arm around my waist completely. I siged, and feel into a deep, peaceful sleep.

XXX

When I woke, I was barley aware of what was happening. I looked over, and the clock said it was only 6:00. Darn it.

But then I felt something that really caught my attention. In the middle of the night, Jake had wrapped his other arm around me. But that wasn't all. The original had laid gently across my upper ribs, just barley below my breast.

I hear him mumble something in his sleep, confirming that he was not awake yet. The minute he woke up, he pull his hand back and apologize. But I didn't want that, I wanted him.

I felt something hard poke against my back side, and he absently grinded into my but, mumbeling. Then, his hand grazed up, gently caressing my breast in his sleep.

I let out a breathy moan, and ground back into his hips. This felt so good, I didn't know how he wasn't waking up yet. His hand kneaded harder into my breast, and I felt a gently burn inside my stomach.

JPOV

I was having the best dream ever.

In it, I had just stepped out of the car, Bella on my side, a ring placed delicately on her left ring finger. I kissed her hand, and started walking towards the secluded little cabin in the deep woods. Perfect, because of my high body heat. I had waited for so long.

Not soon later, we were in the room, undressing each other. I was instantly hard, and needed a little friction. When Bella turned to get something, I grabbed her from behind and ground into her behind. She moaned, a far off sound, and returned the favor. Still from behind, I grasped hr breast, kneading the precious flesh between my fingers while she moaned, and continued to grind into me.

Then she turned in my arms, and I raked my eyes over her perfect body. She brushed my abdomen, and then did the thing I had waited so long for her to do. It felt too good to be a dream.

My eyes fluttered open, to see what was in front of me. I practically salivated.

Bella, lying in bed with just a tank top and underwear on, was raking her hands lower and lower down my "V".

I mentally debated. I wanted her so badly, it hurt. But I think she feels like she has to do this, because of the dream. Oh god, if that had been true, what else did I do in my sleep?

I don't think she knew I was awake yet, and just before she touched me, she looked up.

And I was looking down at her. She seemed so innocent, and as if asking for permission before doing it.

I said YES with my eyes.

Her fingers gently grazed me throught my boxers, but I threw my head back in pleasure, letting out a labored moan. I had only ever done things down there, But the feeling of her made me so much harder, I didn't think I could stand it.

She hooked her fingers slowly throught my waist band, and slid them down my legs, averting her eyes to skim down my legs, then she made eye contact with me.

She pulled her shirt off her head, and bent down to give me a kiss.

"Please?" she whispered."

"Please." I answered back in a short breath.

BPOV

I took in his breathy words, and just went for it.

I pushed my hand down his stomach, finally coming in contact with his penis.

"Ohhhh." He said, shivering. I gently wrapped my hand around him, and squeezed, rubbing the side with my thumb. He was so soft, and so… hot. In more ways than one…

"Oh god, Bella." He whispered in my ear, breaking contact with my lips to throw his head back against the pillows, his eyes closed. I finally got the courage to look down, and gasped.

The pale skin of my hand against his light brown skin. The way it looked for me to slowly stroke him, squeezing him every now and then, and listening to his moans of approvement. I had no idea what I was doing, but I think I liked it. I saw a small drop of fluid built up at the top.

"Oh Bella, so… oh, I think… oh…" I felt him shake, and move his head back and forth. I knew what was coming, and I wanted him to feel it. Leaning back down, I took the skin of his neck between my teeth.

"Oh!" He yelled, and suddenly, his hips thrust against my hand at an erratic pace. Before I knew it, spurts of thick white liquid gushed onto my hand. I continued to pump him through his orgasm, Then wiped my hand on my sheets, abefore leaning in and pressing a kiss to his heart, curling into his side, listening to his labored breathing.

"Thank… you…" He whispered, stroking my hair. I smiled up at him, and winked.

"Let me… return the favor," He smiled deliciously.

"Um… not today. Let's just go back to sleep." I assured, kissing his cheek and rolling my back against his chest. He pulled my tightly to him, and Whispered "I love you" Before I drifeted off again.

JPOV

Best. Dream. EVER.

A/N

Why does Bella not want Jake to return the favor? Find out soon!