Chapter 48
They slowly dressed not saying a word to one another. The tension between them was awkward. What was to say when you just had sex with one other when her fiancé and his brother just died? Rocky felt horrible he didn't mean to take advantage of Laura in her state of grief. He really thought he had gotten over any kind of feelings for her, but he wasn't going to lie, making love to her was better then all his fantasies put together. But still that didn't mean he had to pressure her into sex.
" Laura I am so sorry about what happened. I didn't mean to take advantage of you and if you hate me that is totally understandable." Rocky said pleadingly to her. Laura sighed. Of course she didn't hate Rocky. She never could, but she was upset that she had sex with him when her fiancé's body wasn't even cold yet. But that wasn't on Rocky, that was on her.
Laura felt cold and empty inside and the chance of feeling something was just too much for her to deny. What was the point of being good and behaving when your life blew up and the soul-mate that you were supposed to spend the rest of your life with just died. How fair was that? So when Rocky first kissed her she felt something, she was confused as to why and despite how wrong it was, she liked it. That is why she kissed him back and before she knew it they were taking each other's clothes off and gave in.
" Rocky I don't hate you. I never could, I just honestly don't know what to say to you right now. Riker just died and I slept with his brother. I never thought I could be such a slut." Laura said.
" You are not a slut Laura, I don't ever want you to say that ever again! What happened between us was something that we both needed I know I did. You saved me Laura from wanting to self-destruct and I hope I can be there for you. We can put this behind us and move on from it, but I know I don't want to lose you."
Laura smiled. " You are not going to lose me Rocky. You never could." She whispered. Rocky leaned in and kissed her softly. He pulled back.
" I know this is the wrong time and I am not saying that we should jump in right away. I am just saying that maybe sometime in the future we can try. It can be years from now even. Okay?" Rocky said.
Laura was speechless. But seeing the yearning in Rocky's eyes she couldn't help but smile at him. He was an amazing guy.
" Rocky I can't say anything yet. I mean maybe sometime in the long distance future maybe. But I just can't right now." Laura said.
Rocky smiled. " I know that Laura, but thanks for the maybe and instead of flat out no. Come on we better go. I need a shower I think I got some sand stuck up in certain places if you know what I mean."
Laura laughed. She and Rocky walked back to the hospital. Both of them not certain on what else is there to say. So they didn't say anything. And in the end that was what saved them from any awkwardness. Laura and Rocky walked up to the entrance when they saw Ross Ratliff and Rydel.
Ross walked up to Laura and just hugged her. " I am so sorry Laura." Laura hugged back. Ross turned and saw some marks on Laura's neck. Ross raised his eyebrows and looked at Rocky. Ross not wanting to cause a scene gently brushed Laura's hair to cover what seemed to be hickies. Laura gave Ross a look and he just mouth hickies to her. Laura's eyes widened. He just shrugged and smiled. Whatever Laura needed to be comforted he was not going to judge. He was just going to have a talk with his older brother.
Ross just sighed. Realizing that instead of having two older brothers Rocky is the only one he had left.
" Thanks Ross. I am sorry for you guys too. We all lost Riker. How are you guys holding up?" Laura asked.
" I just can't believe that he is gone. I mean I thought he would always be here you know?" Ross said.
Laura nodded.
" He was always there for me you know? For all of us and I still can't phantom that I am now the oldest." Rydel whispered as tears ran down her face. Laura hugged her. Laura pulled back.
" You know Riker really loved all you guys, his siblings meant everything to him. And Ratliff you were a brother to him, he loved you like family." Laura hugged Ratliff.
Ratliff just smiled. He knew that but it felt good to hear Laura say that.
" You know he loved you too right? You meant everything to him. I have never seen him as happy as he was when you guys were together." Ratliff said.
Laura smiled.
" I know I was lucky to have been loved by him. He was an amazing guy. I can't believe that he is gone. We were going to get married." Laura said as the tears were starting again. Rocky pulled her into his arms and just whispered something into her ear.
Yeah Ross is going to be having a talk with Rocky pretty soon, Ross thought.
" Thanks Rocky." Laura said as she pulled away and he smiled.
" No Problem."
" So did you want to go home?" Ross asked.
Laura shook her head.
" I want to see Riker one last time. And then I will go. I just ran out before anything was official and I didn't say anything to him. I need to see him before I go."
Everyone agreed. They needed to see Riker too so they made their way back inside. Laura was with Rocky and the others followed behind. Laura made her way to the room when she ran into the doctor that worked on Riker.
" There you are Miss Marano we have been looking for you guys."
Laura sighed. " I know I just needed some space. What is going on doctor? What time did Riker pass?"
The doctor looked confused.
" Mr. Lynch isn't dead. In fact that is what I wanted to tell you. He is awake and has been asking for you."
Laura and Rocky's hearts dropped. ' What do you mean he isn't dead I mean we saw him flat line?" Rocky stuttered.
" He did and I am not going to lie, I thought he was good as dead we were about to call it when we started too, his machine light up his heart was back and then he started to talk and all we could make out was your name mam, he was asking for Laura."
Oh God
This couldn't be happening. Riker was alive! Her heart was overjoyed at that, Laura couldn't wait to see him.
" So he was asking for me?" Laura asked softly.
" Yeah he was. He is going to be really happy to see you. He is in room 428" The doctor smiled as he walked away.
" Riker is alive? That is so awesome!" Rydel cried as she hugged Ratliff. Ratliff just let out a sigh of relief. Ross was ecstatic too but he couldn't help but think of Laura and Rocky.
Rocky looked at Laura and sighed. He was over joyed at the fact that Riker was alive and rocky couldn't regret that. But things have changed between him and Laura. They made love, and Rocky couldn't help but wish they made love a few more times before coming to their senses. So he could treasure those times as he faces a life without Laura. Because now that Riker is back Rocky is pretty sure that was the only time that he would ever get to be with her.
Laura was stunned. Riker was alive, her heart cried out for that joyous news. But she couldn't help but feel guilty. While Riker was here fighting for his life and calling for her, She was off making love to his brother. Laura closed her eyes. She felt guilty that she betrayed Riker, but a part of her couldn't regret being with Rocky. He was an incredible lover and their bodies went will with each other.
God this whole thing is a huge ass mess.
Laura looked at Rocky and her heart broke. She knew that he had feelings for her and to be honest after what happened Laura knew that she was developing feelings for him as well. But she was in love with Riker.
Rocky smiled.
" Go see him Laura, he wants you." Rocky whispered. Laura nodded. She walked towards the room and was about to open the door, but she couldn't. How could she face him? She cheated on him with his brother and he was here fighting for his life? Laura was about to turn around when she stopped.
No she was not going to do this. Laura opened the door and walked in. The sight nearly devastated her. He was asleep and he looked so peaceful. She walked closer and sat down next to him in the chair that was next to his bed. She grabbed his hand.
" I am so sorry Riker." Laura whispered as she lifts his hand and kissed it.
Riker woke up and looked at Laura and smiled.
" Hey." He croaked. Laura got up and got him a cup of water and a straw as she brought it to his lips.
" Thanks." Riker said as his voice went back to normal. Laura just cried as she leaned and placed a kiss on his forehead.
" You had me so scared I thought you were dead." Laura said.
" I am sorry baby to worry you but I couldn't have left you." Riker said as he leaned into her touch. Laura just held him and cried.
" Riker I am so sorry for everything." Laura cried.
" Why are you sorry?" Riker asked.
Laura didn't know what to say
Rocky was outside pacing his mind was going really fast as well as his heart. This was crazy, both Laura and him saw Riker's heart flat line. He was all in purpose dead. He knew what he did was bad, he took his brother's fiancé to bed right after he supposedly died. Even though technically they did it on the beach but still.
Rocky sighed.
This was bad, really bad and if Riker found out who knows what will happen. But Rocky couldn't lie and say he wished it never happened because he really couldn't say that.
He knows Laura is in love with Riker, and she belongs with him. But Rocky could feel that she was having feelings for him as well. They way she was when they made love, how she touched and caress his body. Rocky had never felt that way before. It felt so right and he felt completed.
Ugh.
He really is an awful person, here he was after finding out his brother survived and all he could do was thinking about being with Laura again.
" Hey Rocky we need to talk." Ross said coming out of nowhere.
" What is it Ross?" Rocky asked.
" It is about you and Laura and those hickies I found on her neck." Ross said.
Oh shit.
" What do you have to be sorry for?" Riker asked. Laura was torn, she really wanted to be honest with Riker and confess what happened with her and Rocky. But was this the wrong time to confess? After all for a while she thought he was dead and he barely survived.
" I just meant.." Laura started to say when she was cut off by Riker.
" You have nothing to be sorry for, I mean what could you have possibly done that would need forgiveness for?" Riker asked
I don't know maybe for the fact that she and Rocky had Sex.
Laura sighed.
" I know I wasn't thinking. I just want to focus on you and your recovery." Laura said.
Riker smiled. " God how I love you so much."
" I love you too." Laura said.
And Laura was officially drowning from the weight of her guilt. She is going to have to tell him, but not now. Not when he is recovering from major surgery.
Rocky tried to change the subject. " What are you talking about? So how are things going with Rydel?"
Ross rolled his eyes.
" Rocky don't take me as a dumbass okay? I know something happened between you two. Unless Laura managed to give herself hickies all on her own. So tell me what happened. I am not going to judge; we all thought Riker was dead so I can understand if something happened under the circumstance. I would just hate being lied too so what the hell happened?" Ross said.
Rocky sighed. Maybe it would be better if he told someone.
" If I tell you this, you have to swear you won't tell anybody and that includes Ratliff got it?"
" But.." Ross said
" It is me tell you what happened or I don't so tell me what you decide?" Rocky asked.
Ross sighed.
" Fine I won't say anything, now what is it?"
Rocky sighed. " Laura and I had Sex."
" WHAT?" Ross screamed.
" Well you just shut the fuck up and keep it down!" Rocky hissed.
" Sorry, sorry but you guys had sex as in like doing it?" Ross asked
Rocky rolled his eyes.
" What other kind of sex is there?" Rocky asked.
" How did it happen?" Ross asked.
' Well we were comforting one another and I kissed her and she at first didn't kiss me back, but then she did. And we started to take one another's clothes off and then it happened."
' Wow."
" I know but we thought Riker was dead. Yes it was right after but we didn't plan it, it wasn't like we said hey lets fuck you know? I didn't plan on this happening and neither did she but since it happened.."
" What? Rocky do you have feelings for Laura?" Ross asked.
Rocky sighed.
' I have had feelings for her for a long time now. But I put those aside and I actually thought I was over her, but it turns out that I am not." Rocky said.
" Rocky man, you know Riker is in love with her and Laura is in love with him too." Ross said. He felt for his brother that he was in this situation.
' I know that Ross, and I had every intention of staying away and I thought it was working. But when I was with her, I mean the connection I felt was like nothing else I have ever felt before. And I know she is in love with Riker, but I felt that she could love me too. I mean the way that she was with me, holding and touching me.."
" Wow that is enough bro, I don't need to know about all the details about your sex life with Laura." Ross answered.
" It isn't a sex life when it only happened once."
" But I am taking it you want it to happen again?"
Rocky was silent.
" Look bro I am sorry that you have to go through this." Ross said.
" It's fine, I mean I am use to being the one without anyone. You or Riker usually get the girl so what else is new?" Rocky smiled.
" Rocky…"
" It's fine I am going to go see Riker now you coming?" Rocky asked.
" In a bit." Ross said.
Rocky just nodded and walked away. Ross couldn't help but feel his heart break for Rocky. It seemed that he really was in love with Laura. This whole situation with the three of them wouldn't end well Ross feared.
Not well at all.
Laura was outside Riker's room he was asleep as he was tired. So Laura left him so he could rest. She was completely confused about what she was going to do. She was madly in love with Riker and wanted to spend the rest of her life with him.
But she couldn't deny the deep attraction she had for Rocky.
She felt shame for even thinking about that as she was outside her fiancé's room. But Laura had to be honest with herself is she wanted answers. She closed her eyes for a second and she could still feel Rocky on her skin. She was surprised that Riker didn't notice that she smelt of sex. She smelt of Rocky and he didn't notice.
This was such a huge mess that she had no idea on how to fix it. She could feel someone sitting next to her. She turned her head.
Rocky.
" Hey how is he?" Rocky said softly.
"He is better, he actually spoke to me for a while. He is sleeping, he is completely worn out. The doctors still want to keep him as he is still has a way to go." Laura said.
Rocky nodded his head.
" Rocky we need to talk." Laura said.
" I know we do. I know what we could have been is in the past. Riker is alive and all and I am so happy for you too. Now you guys can have that future you want."
" Rocky…" Laura said
" No you don't have to feel bad for me, I have always known that you love him Laura, I am glad too. I just will have to move on. I mean it was only once and that was it."
Laura was silent. The look in her eyes got to Rocky. He got up and took her by the hand. He walked them both to the nearest closet and shut and locked the door.
" Rocky.." Laura said.
Rocky shut her up by capturing her lips in a searing kiss. Laura at first didn't kiss back but it wasn't long before she was playing tongue hockey with Rocky.
Rocky pulled back, and looked at Laura. He knows this wasn't supposed to happen. But he couldn't help it. He pulled off his shirt and looked back at Laura.
" Do you want me?" Rocky asked
Laura was silent.
" Answer me Laura? Do you want me?" Rocky asked again.
Laura felt the shame and the guilt as she nodded her head. That was all the answer Rocky needed. He tore off his pants and boxers as he was completely naked and her clothes melted off by his hands. Rocky thrusted into Laura as she moaned.
Both of their moans grew louder and louder as Rocky thrusted deeper and deeper into her. It wasn't long before their orgasms came and Rocky spilled his seed into her womb.
Both of their bodies slick with sweat but neither caring as they held onto one another and just came off their high.
What the hell were they going to do they both thought.