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Thank you to my beta, Shelly who isn't feeling great but still managed to get this done for me. You are awesome. I love you :D

Chapter 27

School was just as horrible as Kurt thought it would be. Even though there was no horrible comments, and no pushes in the hallway, there were still looks that was scary enough to make Kurt want to curl up in a ball. But what made it worse was knowing that Blaine had a date tonight. Kurt couldn't bear to go in and see him, he didn't want to see his smile and know that he would be smiling at someone else later. He didn't want to see if his knee was bouncing, a known sign that Blaine was nervous. Kurt didn't want to hear anything about the mystery date that had popped out of nowhere.

Kurt had done well avoiding Blaine, he didn't go and see him at break like Blaine had asked him to, he didn't go and sit with him at lunch, but now it was his actual lesson with Blaine and Kurt didn't want to skip it, as much as Blaine had tried to help him with his classes he was still slightly behind. Kurt took a deep breath before he entered Blaine's class, he was the first one there.

"Hey," Blaine said softly, turning to look at Kurt as he walked into the room. "I haven't seen you today, how's it been?"

"Fine." Kurt shrugged not meeting his eye.

"Are you sure?" Blaine frowned, he could tell something was wrong straight away. He could tell something was wrong the minute he said he had a date.

"I'm sure." Kurt sighed and sat down, he pulled out his folder and stared intently at the work. He could feel Blaine's eyes watching him and he wished he could just tune him out, this lesson really was going to suck.

Blaine finished the lesson with a headache, he kept on trying to get Kurt's attention but the young boy didn't look up at him once, even when he asked him a question he would mumble the answer facing his desk. If Blaine had known telling him he was going on a date would have caused him this much pain then he wouldn't have said anything. But then he would have been lying to Kurt, and he didn't ever want to lie to him. It was Kurt's idea for him to see people, Blaine really didn't understand why Kurt was upset with him.

The bell rang and Blaine didn't know who was more grateful, him or his students. He watched as they all filed out, and relaxed a little when he saw Kurt hanging around. "Do you want a lift home?" Blaine asked softly.

"I'm sure you have to prepare for your date tonight." Kurt said, and Blaine could hear the bitterness, the sadness in his tone. "I can walk."

"I don't want you to walk." Blaine frowned. "It's been a long day, I'd rather drive you."

"Like I said, I'm sure you're busy." Kurt sighed, pulling his bag on his shoulder.

"I'm never too busy for you Kurt." Blaine whispered, the sincerity of his words hitting Kurt hard, making him stop and look up at him. Blaine hated how lost he looked, like Blaine was his world and he was orbitting away from him. "I mean it Kurt. If you need me, I'm always going to be there for you. Or even if you just want to hang out, If I can I will be there."

"But not tonight." Kurt mumbled sadly.

"Not tonight." Blaine said softly. "It was your idea for me to date," Blaine said gently. "Do you want to change your mind on it?"

"No. I don't..." Kurt sighed, holding himself tightly. "Have you got time for a hot chocolate before you have to go?"

"I do, I was going to pop to the store to buy a shirt. Do you want to come?" Blaine asked, hoping the idea of shopping would cheer Kurt up.

"For your date?" Kurt asked, chewing his lip.

"Let's not call it a date." Blaine said softly. "It's just a dinner, me getting to know someone. That's all."

"Okay." Kurt said softly. "You don't need to go to the store, you have nice shirts. How about we go to your house, we can talk and play dress up."

"You sure that...I don't want you to feel awkward or upset Kurt." Blaine smiled, but the idea of playing dress up with Kurt sounded nice.

"I'll be okay." Kurt nodded, hoping the lie would pass across. When Blaine nodded, Kurt realised it must have and walked to Blaine's car, telling him he would see him there.

Kurt sat on Blaine's bed and smiled, he wondered what it would be like to wake up on this bed every morning, to have a sleepy Blaine smile at him and kiss his lips good morning. He sighed knowing that would never happen, not now anyway. Kurt stared at the pillows and sucked his lip, wishing the man Blaine went to dinner with tonight wasn't going to be the one to recieve sleepy smiles. Blaine walked in from the bathroom wearing a white vest and his sweat pants. Kurt grinned at him. "Your hair is a mess."

"I've just washed it, I haven't had time to put gel or anything in it yet." Blaine pouted.

"I'll do it for you. Come and sit." Kurt pointed to the floor in front of him and smiled when Blaine sat down. Kurt was glad his back was to him, he didn't want to see his face as they started to talk. Kurt grabbed the hair product and a comb and started to do Blaine's hair, trying to ignore how good it felt between his fingers, or how Blaine would make a happy sighing sound and lean back whenever Kurt scraped his nails across his scalp.

"The idea of you being with someone else hurts." Kurt whispered quietly. "That's why I couldn't see you today."

"You can see me now though?" Blaine frowned.

"I just needed to talk to you." Kurt shrugged, applying some gel on his fingers before running it through his hair slowly.

"Okay," Blaine said gently. "The idea of me being with someone else hurts too. But I thought this was what you wanted, Kurt. We both agreed that this would be better until you finish school, until you feel good about yourself."

"I know." Kurt whispered.

"I'm sorry that you're hurting, Kurt. I really am. But I think this would be good for both of us. I can't promise you that nothing will come out of this. Matt, he's a nice guy. He's not you, but he's nice." Blaine breathed.

"He's a grown up." Kurt smiled, twirling a strand of hair at the back of Blaine's neck.

"He's older yes," Blaine chuckled. "But that doesn't mean I think of you as a child. I really don't." Blaine said honestly. "It's just dinner tonight, nothing else."

"You won't bring him back home?" Kurt asked quietly.

"What do you take me for?" Blaine laughed.

"Isn't that what grown ups do?" Kurt frowned.

"Some. But not me." Blaine smiled, turning his head and looking Kurt in the eye. "When you're...When we're ready for us, you'll understand."

"Okay." Kurt sucked his lip, completely confused by Blaine's comment.

"Is my hair done?" Blaine asked. Kurt nodded and pulled his hands away.

"Thank you." Blaine grinned, looking in the mirror. Kurt had done a fantastic job and made his hair look more natural than Blaine thought it could. "Now, when I was in the shower did you find a nice shirt?"

"I found a whole outfit." Kurt smiled, pointing to the door where he had hung it.

Blaine smiled and took the clothes and walked into the bathroom, coming out a few minutes later wearing a cream shirt, and dark chinos. "What do you think?" Blaine asked, frowning when he came back into an empty room, a note on the bed where Kurt had been sitting:

'I bet you look beautiful Blaine, but I can't see you dressed like this until you're ready to take me out on a date. I finish school soon, my heart will always be waiting for you. I hope no matter who comes into your life the part of your heart that's mine will find mine again. I want to hear about your date Blaine. I want to hear that you had an amazing time, that he brought you flowers and he charmed you, and you're smitten. I don't want you to lie to me. We need to be honest with each other, I'm a coward for writing this down, but I have to tell you somehow. I love you Blaine. I've fallen head over heels in love with you and everything about you is perfect. But I understand why you have to do this. I'm sorry for being a child today and ignoring you, but I was trying to find the words to write this. To tell you how I feel. How i always will feel.

Text me after your date, and we'll get hot chocolate tomorrow after school if you're not busy. I hope you have a nice time tonight Blaine, I really do. Because you deserve romance and love, and I can't give that to you yet. But one day I will. One day I'm going to make you the happiest you've ever been, and I'm going to wake up beside you the happiest man alive.

But for now, I will talk to you later.

Love your best friend, Kurt. x

Blaine wiped his eyes as he read the letter and held it close to his heart. He sucked on his lip wishing that it was Kurt he wasn't going out with tonight, but knowing it would be Kurt one day made the pain in his heart hurt a little less.