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After my split with Adrian, my life continued as normal. I trained with Dimitri, I went to my classes, hung out with Lissa (whenever she wasn't with Avery meaning I hardly saw her), mostly I was with Jill, Eddie and Christian.
Lissa and Christian had split and I didn't blame him, especially after she kissed another guy, her ex Aaron, on their weekend at Court. I had seen the whole thing and told Christian because that was the right thing to do. I know what it felt like to be cheated on.
That was another thing. Yes, Adrian and Avery openly flirted with one another but I never saw them 'together'. No kisses, no embraces, no holding hands. It was just like they were before. But Jill, Eddie and Christian insisted that they had been together before me and Adrian split, and Avery didn't strike me as the sort of person to hide that fact that she was dating someone, especially someone like Adrian and I knew from experience that Adrian liked to flaunt it around.
"I don't get it." I confided in Dimitri one training session. "Everyone told me that Adrian was cheating with Avery and I know they wouldn't lie to me, but there is no evidence at all that they have been or are together."
"Maybe they're private people?" Dimitri offered and I gave him the 'yeah-right' look.
"It just doesn't make sense. Not that I want to see them together. But I'm starting to think that something is wrong. Like the other day, I was in Lissa head, like I normally am and then suddenly I was pushed out. I normally pull myself out of her head or she blocks me out but I have never been pushed out before." I said, taking a sip of water.
Dimitri thought about that for a moment. "Maybe Lissa figured out how to do it and didn't tell you." He suggested. That seemed plausible.
"Yeah, I suppose. But I heard a voice in my head before I was pushed out and I didn't sound like Lissa's voice. I don't know whose it was." I took another sip of water.
"Honestly, I don't know. But what other possibility is there?" he said.
"I know. I'm reading too much into it."
We sat down on the chairs along the length of the wall like we had when I told Dimitri I thought Adrian was cheating. I looked up at his profile and studied him. He was a very attractive man, I have to admit. Strong jaw, deep brown eyes you could lose yourself in. And those lips! Full and soft and they felt good against my lips, my neck...
I didn't know he saw me looking at him or it was just coincidence but he looked down at me, and I saw lust and longing in his eyes. Normally that would make me angry because I was with Adrian. But I wasn't with him anymore; I was a single woman free to do what I wanted.
He reached out and cupped my face in those large, warm hands and I leant into his touch. I leaned closer to him, inhaling his scent, deep and musky and warm. I reached for him too and he gently touched those luscious lips to mine.
We kissed softly for a while and my God it felt good. His lips moved softly with mine and all the memories of the night with the lust charm came flooding back. How good he made me feel with those soft caresses that also had an urgency about them, those soft kisses that trailed all the way down my body and left a trail of fire after them, the way I felt in his arms, safe and warm as if we were the only two people in the world.
Dimitri tangled his fingers in my, now loose, hair and then it hit me. I was kissing Dimitri. I shouldn't be doing that. I loved Adrian, whether he cheated on me or not, I loved him and wanted him back.
I wrenched away and quickly stood, grabbing my bag.
"Roza?" I heard Dimitri's confused voice behind me but I ignored it as I ran from the gym, crying as I went back to my room.
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I was so confused. I was still in love with Adrian despite him being a cheating asshole, but I just kissed Dimitri, the man I thought I was in love with before I met Adrian. What an idiot.
I told Dimitri that I had extra classes after school to help get my grades up to avoid going to practices and then decided to just not turn up to any others. I think he knew I wouldn't show and if he didn't he was stupid. Nobody knew about the kiss and I wanted to keep it that way, I just gave them the excuse that I was still upset about Adrian, which wasn't entirely false.
Graduation, and my birthday, was in about three weeks and everyone was working flat out to get everything sorted. Eddie and I spent every moment we could sparing and training in the gym and it was nice to train with someone else, but I couldn't help but think about Mason during those times.
Since I had learnt to block out the ghosts, I hadn't seen him and I have to admit, that upset me a little. Although seeing ghosts had been frightening, it also made me feel safe, like Mason was looking after me wherever he was. I missed him a lot.
Avery, Lissa and Adrian spent more and more time together meaning I had to resort to going into Lissa's head just to see what she was doing because she barely spoke to me anymore. After that first time, I hadn't been pushed out of her head anymore so I didn't think of it too much. Maybe, Dimitri was right about Lissa pushing me out.
It was a Sunday after church, I hadn't bothered to go, and Lissa was arguing with Christian.
"How can you accuse me of cheating when you are obviously screwing my sister? All the time you say you're 'helping her' with her magic! I'd put money on the fact that you and her are at it!" she shouted at him.
I noticed Avery was there beside Lissa but there was no sign of Adrian. "Lissa, Rose said she saw you kiss Aaron and I know she wouldn't lie to me. And I am not with Jill, she is with Eddie and I would never betray you like that, no matter how much of a bitch you're being right now." Christian said calmly, trying to stop a full blown argument in front of everyone.
"Bullshit! Rose would lie about anything! Maybe you and her should get together, compulsive liars are suited for each other!" she shouted.
"Yeah, maybe me and Rose should get together. I hear rebound relationships are the best kind." He leaned in close to her ear and Lissa's heart raced. That was interesting. Did she still have feelings for him? But then why did she kiss Aaron? Why the accusations of cheating? "I hear it is the best sex as well. I can imagine Rose is amazing in bed, apparently all dhampirs are. Maybe I should give it try. " He whispered. I knew he was joking, we'd never get together.
He turned and walked away with a smirk on his face and Lissa turned to face Avery. She was crying.
"How could he say that to me? I was the only person who ever paid attention to him. Who ever loved him." she sobbed and Avery reached out to touch her shoulder. That was a drastic change of mood.
"He isn't worth it, Liss." She said and looked into Lissa eyes. "You are worth so much more than him. That is why you are friends with Adrian and I, elite royals should stick together. Think of how much better things are now without Christian or Rose hanging around us."
So she did have something to do with Adrian and me splitting! But she never said that they were together...
"Yeah, but I do miss Rose. Eddie said she was devastated when she dumped Adrian. Were you actually with him? Even now he denies it." she asked.
"Well...he did spent the night in my room..." she trailed off.
They hadn't been doing anything! Oh my God! But why would everyone lie to me?
"But you aren't going to tell Rose that nothing happened are you." Avery said to Lissa and her eyes went blank.
"No. I'll tell Rose you and Adrian were having an affair." She said, a dreamy tone to her voice.
Compulsion! Avery was using compulsion on people! But she is an air user. She told us so. How can her compulsion be that strong that she can compel everyone to...
Christ, don't you leave Lissa alone for one minute?
And just like that I was back in my room. Weird. That had happened before though. Being pushed out of Lissa's head. I assumed that Lissa and, somehow, felt my presence and pushed me out but that wasn't Lissa's voice I heard.
I was Avery's. And Avery was using strong compulsion on everyone to get them to lie to me and I suspected she was compelling Lissa and that was why her behaviour had been so erratic. She was a spirit user! I had to tell everyone!
Getting up from my bed, I wrenched the door open only to be confronted by Avery's guardian, Simon.
I lashed out at him but he knocked me aside so I hit the wall. I ignored the pain and went to attack again but he was quicker. Grabbing me around the throat he cut off my air supply and repeatedly banged my head against my desk.
"You will not disrupt our plans." I heard him spit at me just before I lost consciousness.
Please don't hate me! I'm sorry that Rose and Dimitri kissed but it seemed appropriate... Sorry, guys :(
I feel so bad I made people cry. I actually feel so guilty, more so now that I have written this chapter. I'm a terrible person :(
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