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Chapter 31
Kurt sighed as he listened to the continuous ringing of Blaine's phone, he knew he wasn't going to answer. If he was Blaine he wouldn't have answered either. Kurt went to hang up, he would try again later but he stayed on the phone, he needed Blaine to hear what he had to say and if that meant he would leave a desperate voicemail then he would do that. He waited for the beep, not knowing what he was going to say.
"It's me. Well...I...Listen Blaine, I'm not good at this at all. I have no idea what I want to say, and I'm probably going to delete this, but you need to know how sorry I am." Kurt rushed. "I never meant to push you. I don't even know why I did it. Today has been a crazy day for me, Blaine. I think a part of you knows that, but you've been trying to keep me distracted from everything that I've been feeling, and I'm so grateful for that. I guess it all just got too much. I'm sorry for pushing you, and for what I shouted at you. I didn't mean any of it. I swear to you I didn't. You've done so much for me, If it wasn't for you I don't know where I'd be." Kurt paused and sucked on his lip and let what he had just rambled settle in. "I think if it wasn't for you i might be dead by now. Before I met you...I wanted to die. Everything in my life was so out of my control, I just thought if I ended it, then I could lose myself in the darkness and that would be okay. But then you came, you were this light that shone so bright and made me believe that I could shine too. You've made me shine. I'm doing so much better in school. My dad said I'm eating more, and I'm smiling more too and I know it's because of you." Kurt fiddled with his comforter on his bed and wished desperately that he could hear Blaine speak. Instead he kept talking. "You saved me. You've done so much and I think that's why I don't want to go to college. I hate the colleges around here. They're depressing looking and I know they're going to be just like high school. Full of people who know me, of people who know that I'm a freak. I always thought if i went to college I'd move somewhere amazing like New York, but the idea of moving to New York is terrifying because I know you'll be so far away. That's why I don't want to go to college. I'm not saying I'd never go. But i think it's too big a step right now for me to take on my own. I don't want to leave my dad, not now when we've gotten so close. The distance might just pull us apart. And I can't leave you. I know you're sort of dating someone else, and I'm just waiting for you to realise it's me you want to be with, and you won't realise that if I'm miles away." Kurt wiped his eyes, not sure when he had started to cry. "I love you Blaine, and I need to hear you tell me that you forgive me and that we're okay. Call me back, please." Kurt hung up the phone and curled in a ball, staring desperately at his phone waiting for it to ring.
Kurt woke up in the morning, his body aching from sleeping in the same position all night; curled up in a ball. He hadn't even remembered falling asleep, he stretched, groaning as his muscles ached as he did so. He looked at the blanket that had been draped over him and smiled when he realised his dad must have tucked him in. Sitting up, Kurt reached to the bottle of water he kept on his side and took his tablets. It had become a routine for him not even to think about taking his medication on a daily basis. He reached for his phone and gasped when he saw three missed calls, two text messages and one voice mail. He saw they were all from Blaine and smiled. He read the texts first. The first one; 'I love you too.' Kurt's stomach did flips as he read that. Blaine loved him. He saved the message and sat up cross legged and read the second. 'Your dad said you're sleeping. I hope my calls didn't wake you. x' Kurt smiled and rolled his eyes at the text, Blaine must have called his dad to make sure Kurt was okay. Blaine cared. Blaine loved him and Blaine cared. Kurt dialed his voice mail and put his phone on speaker, he cuddled his pillow to his chest and listened to Blaine ramble.
"Kurt, it's me. Blaine. Well I think you know that by now." Blaine chuckled nervously. "I forgive you Kurt, I know you didn't mean to push me. I was insensitive for saying what you should do. I just know you deserve more than this, more than Lima and i think college would be what you need. I respect that it's your choice and I'm not going to push you Kurt. I promise. Whatever you decide, I am always going to be there for you. Whether you work in a cafe in Lima, or if you're an amazing superstar in New York. You would always be able to phone me and I will always answer." Blaine sighed on the phone and Kurt wondered what he was thinking. "I'm not dating anyone. I ended whatever it was with Matt tonight. It wasn't fair to string him along, and it wasn't fair to make you watch. I really am truly sorry. You have two months left of school. Kurt. In two months will you go on a date with me? I'm hoping you'll say yes, it will give me two months to think of the perfect night for you, because that's truly what you deserve. I'm having lunch with my mother today, she's in town for a charity event and then I will be over to watch the game with your dad. I hope you sit with us and pretend to care what's going on as you secretly read Vogue." Blaine giggled softly, and so did Kurt. "I'll see you soon. Bye."
Kurt grinned and jumped up. Blaine wanted to go on a date with him. He jumped around his room grinning from ear to ear. Today was going to be a good day he could feel it. He grabbed his phone and stared at an empty text message, he wanted to send something to Blaine but he didn't know what to say. Letting his fingers do the talking he typed 'Hope you have a good lunch with your mom, bring me the new issue of Vogue ;) x' he grinned and skipped to his bathroom for a shower, and then he was going to find the best outfit he could that would make Blaine wish two months was here sooner rather than later.