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Chapter 34

"I missed you in class this morning." Blaine said softly, Kurt was sitting opposite him at his desk, his blue folder of work opened and they were about to start working on his Math assignment.

"I had a doctor's appointment." Kurt smiled.

"Oh, are you okay?" Blaine frowned. Why hadn't Kurt told him he was going to the doctor's? Was everything okay? Was he sick? Blaine shook his head, he was panicking over nothing. Kurt was right infront of him, he was smiling and looked completely healthy.

"I just wanted to talk about my medication." Kurt answered honestly. Blaine gave him a questioning look and Kurt chewed his lip. "I wanted to see if I could make it stronger."

"Oh." Blaine frowned. "You hadn't said..."

"I was speaking to my dad about it." Kurt said quietly. Blaine nodded, glad Kurt had said something to someone about it. "Are you...are you disappointed in me?" Kurt whispered not looking at him.

"Kurt, why would I be disappointed in you?" Blaine frowned, what on earth was Kurt talking about?

"Because i was too weak to manage on my own with the smaller dose."

"Kurt." Blaine sighed. "You are not weak. I'm proud of you for coming to the mature decision of getting a higher dose."

"They wouldn't give it to me." Kurt mumbled.

"What did they say?" Blaine asked, though he knew he still had more to say on how Kurt thought about himself. He wanted to make sure that Kurt knew just how amazing he is, he wanted to make Kurt see the perfect, handsome young man he saw every day when he looked at him.

"That I needed to give this dose more time, and that I was making good progress." Kurt sighed.

"You don't believe them?" Blaine said gently.

"I do, I just wish that I could be better now." Kurt sighed resting against the table.

"Well I think you're perfect." Blaine smiled and stroked his hand softly. Kurt smiled up at him. "Three weeks left of school."

"I know." Kurt grinned. "I just got to get these exams over with and then I'm free."

"Free to do whatever you like." Blaine smiled. "Any ideas?"

"Sleep." Kurt nodded, his face completely serious which only made Blaine laugh more. "Honestly, I don't know."

"Well, I think I found something that you might be interested in." Blaine said, he had been meaning to talk to Kurt about this for a while, ever since he had seen the sketches in Kurt's books he knew what he thought Kurt needed to do in his life.

"What's that?" Kurt asked, raising an eyebrow when Blaine pulled out a brochure from his desk.

"It's a college in Westerville." Blaine said, hoping this went well. "It's close enough for you to drive, you wouldn't have to stay." Kurt stared at him, he couldn't believe after everything they had spoken about Blaine wanted to bring up college. "It's an arts and design college, it has several classes on making clothes and fashion that I know you would love."

Kurt looked at the brochure and sighed. "I'm not ready for college."

"It doesn't have to be now Kurt. They take applicants of all ages." Blaine said, hoping he was encouraging him.

Kurt sighed and closed the book. "Can we study for my math exam now?"

"Of course." Blaine sighed feeling a little rejected.

"Thanks." Kurt mumbled, he put the brochure under his blue folder and started to study.

"Kid, you okay?" Burt frowned when he saw Kurt sitting at the kitchen counter, his head down.

"I'm not hungry." Kurt said back.

"Okay, that's not what I asked you." Burt chuckled and sat down beside him. "Want to tell me what's going on in that head of yours?"

"Blaine wants me to go to college." Kurt sighed.

"Okay, he's a teacher, naturally he wants the best for you."

"I'm scared." Kurt mumbled.

"What are you scared of?" Burt frowned. Hearing his son tell him that he was scared wasn't something he liked hearing. He wished he could take all of his insecurities away, he wanted to wrap him in his arms and make sure nothing hurt him again.

"Being away from Blaine. Being in a new place. New people to judge and hate me."

"No one is going to hate you, and if people judge you then that's up to them, not you." Burt rubbed his arm softly. "And college isn't going to pull you away from Blaine. I promise you he is always going to be there for you."

"I know, but I'm just..."

"You don't have to make any descions now, why don't you take a year out? Get yourself together, you can work for me at the garage, i'll pay you, and then you can see what you feel like."

"I'd like that dad." Kurt whispered. "Thank you."

"Nothing to thank me for." Burt smiled and rubbed his arms. "But promise me, you'll really think about this college."

"I promise." Kurt whispered.