Alright sorry for the wait, was recuperating on what shiz I got going on in my life. X.X high school is going to be the death of meee….

Anyways lets get to this shall we. A very emotional chapter well…I hope it is.

Chapter 13

Mitzuki

I recalled my sister being silent when we were young. She's always been the action take silent one. The stronger one. And the smrter one. No matter how many fights we had she always made it right.

Now I feel like I need to step up. Stop letting her down as I always did. I need to make things right this time.

My eyes opened to a unfamiliar room. where am I? I wondered. As I sat up I saw I was in the hospital. A hand was gripping mine. Saki's hand. She was passed out. Her head resting on the bed. Her eyes were red, which meant she was crying. Saki….

"Your up!" I heard a woman cheer. I looked up to see my mother smiling as she sat on the edge of the bed where Saki's head is.

"How long have I been out?" I asked.

"A few days…." She frowned as she stroked my sisters hair. She stared at my sister then at me with such sad eyes. "You know…. I never thought a ten year old could get this…"

"Get what?" I cocked my head to the side.

"Anorexia Nervosa. it's a mental illness that makes you starve. Some girls don't come out of it alive. Some girls take years to recover." My mother informed. She laid her hand on my leg. "Your father and I saw how skinny you were when the doctors were wrapping up you wound. It was such a horrid sight. To think you were going through all this alone…."

"Well I wasn't quite alone mama. You see Saki knew about it….tried to stop it…. I just was a lost cause."

"Don't say that Mitzuki. Your ten. You didn't know any better."

"Its funny…. Saki is the same age as me, a few minutes younger and she knew what was going on with me." I frowned. I felt a ping in my chest as I remembered how broken my sister was all that time she yelled at me. "Multiple times she shoved food in my face, yelled at me for skipping lunches… and told me that beauty was nothing if I was dead." I covered my face as I felt tears escape me. I finally wiped my eyes. "How did I let this go on….I was hurting her so much….im the worst…" I struggled as I kept my voice from cracking. It took a few moments to realize that arms were wrapped around me, when I did realize it I looked up to see my dad was holding me. "Daddy?"

My dad looked down at me with soft eyes. His smile was warm. " Cry if you need to. You deserve to let it all out. After what you've been through…you should just cry…."

I stared at him then shook my head. "No… I made my bed now I lie in it-"

"Not alone I hope."

"Alone."

"No." my mom said. "Sure Saki was the first out of us to find this out…but now all of us know. And cause of that we a family will stay here and fight this illness with you."

I felt my dad's arms tighten. "That's right…. We are right here." He smiled at me. Which broke me down. Although I held back till my dad said. "Go on. You've been strong long enough. Its time to just brake….so you can build yourself up all over again."

I stared at him like he was a genius before I started crying in his arms. I turned to burry my head into his shirt as I let it all out.

"Daddy…." I sobbed. "Im sorry…..im sorry…. I am. I never meant for this to happen…." I cried. I only felt his strokes as he stroked my hair. His kisses kept hitting my head softly and his soft words healed some of my bleeding heart.

For the first time in a long time….it felt like….

I could breathe again…..

Saki

Waking up to my sister smiling down at me was the best. I felt so relieve that I got to see her smile again. "Mitzuki… your okay!" I cried as I hugged her neck before kissing her cheek.

She smiled. "Yes. I have been for hours, sleepy head."

I blushed. "Sorry."

"No need."

"So how are you feeling? Have you ate? Did you bathe yet? Is your wound doing okay!?"

"Saki, Calm down sweetie one question at a time." Mitzuki chuckled.

"Sorry. How are you feeling?"

"Better. My wound is stinging but not too bad."

"Have you ate?"

"Not yet. Mama and daddy went to get us some food."

"Michael?"

"He I think is at baseball practice or the science lab. And before you ask no I havent bathed nor do I want to."

"Why?"

"I don't dare want to see my body….." She said with hollow in her voice.

"You have to bathe sometime."

"No….." She hugged her body. "I cant…..I told mama to get a recent picture of me…..that photo we took at the common grounds…."

"You mean that last week-"

She nodded. "I saw how skinny I really was…..we were in our bathing suits…..I saw my bones. I looked sick. Scary….ugly…" I saw her eyes water up. "How could you look at me…..how did you stand me…..why didn't you just give up on me…like I did myself…."

I took her hand which made her eyes meet mine. "Skinny or fat…..your always beautiful. Annoying or not…your amazing… and giving up on my sister….on the person who was at my side from the beginning is not an option for me."

"But Saki….im no sister….I failed as a big sister….." She frowned. I got up and laid beside her. "Saki?"

I hugged her neck as I rested my head against hers. "You mess up sometimes….so what. It just means your not perfect…and frankly that's great." I smiled at her as I held her at arms length.

"What?"

"I never expected you to be someone your not. You're a big sister that I will forever be proud of, no matter how many mistakes you make….I will be proud to call you my big sister…"

Her eyes grew wide with shock. Tears streaked her cheeks. "Saki…."

I smiled as I engulfed her in a hug. She hugged my waste as she cried. "Thank you…." She whispered in sobs.

"Don't thank me….. Sister…"

Its what sisters do….

Shay

"So what you going to be a baseball player now instead of the doctor?" I asked my boyfriend. Michael just smiled at me then laid his hat on my head.

"Baseball is fun but I choose not to make it a career. I don't think I want to be a doctor either…"

"What? Why?"

Michael smiled. "I found other activities im interested in."

"Like?"

He winked. "A secret."

I was about to ask him to spill when I heard someone call for him from the field. "Its your turn to clean up!" the guy said.

"Alright!" Michael replied with a shout. He looked down at me. "I have to. it's the rules."

"Say no more. Besides I have to go places." I said putting his cap back on him before walking off.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

I turned back to him. Winked. "A secret." I mimicked what he said then left him to wonder.

"So its true…." My mom frowned as she stared at me.

"What? Give me." I grabbed the thing that she held in her hands. I stared at it. Completely baffled. I looked at her. "I am…."

"What are we going to tell your father…."

I gasped. "What will I tell Michael!?"

"Your going tell them something….."

"We should tell the doctor…..get it checked professionally."

My mother nodded. "Right."

It was a long wait for a doctor but once we saw one we went on ahead with the testing. We waited for a long time before getting the results. Once the doc came in my mother and I stood.

"So tell us…." My mother gulped. "Is she…."

The doc gave us a poker face as she stared at the charts. "Well…"

"Well?" I urged.

"I have some good news…and bad news."

We both nodded. We sat. waiting for the doc to spill her news out.

"Your about six months pregnant."

I gasped along with my mother. My mother grabbed my hand. "The bad news?" She asked. I squeezed her hand.

"Your daughter will be at risk if she proceeds with the pregnancy…."

I widened my eyes. "What does that mean doc…."

"It means….there's a high chance that….you will die."

I will….die…if I proceed…no!

Okay I was battling on if I should give her an illness or pregnancy…since I couldn't decide….I decided to do both…. Although some sacrifices will be made and death will come…..soon….sadness but hey at least its getting good. Right?

Fun Facts

1.) Michael is fond of baseball recently

2.) Shay and Michael had sex in Shay's room while her family was away, she was on her period and they had unprotected sex

3.) Mitzuki is has no confidence in herself anymore, not since shes been bullied.

4.) Saki adores her sister and has high hopes for her sister in the future. She believes anyone can make it in this world. Shes naïve as ever.

-MIKI-