Hey y'all! Sorry I didn't update in a while. I had a moment of weakness and was convinced I was never going to write again, but I'm back! And those people who made me want to stop can just keep their mouth shut. Anyway, here's a new chapter. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: This chapter contains minor adult themes. So if you're not 15 above don't read. Read at your own risk.

Chapter 16-Can I really keep this up?

RYDER's POV

I read Tori's last text message five minutes after my phone dinged. I was busy thinking and planning my next move. Should I let them know that I was faking it or make it look like I got my memory back? But if I do that then what will happen with me and Jade? I stood up and looked under my mattress just like Tori instructed. I found an envelope tucked under it. I pulled it out and took the contents out. Collages of pictures, a cd and a letter with my name on it came out. I took the pictures and smiled as I remembered when they were taken. Then I remembered that Tori and I would be celebrating our first year anniversary in a few days' time. She must have prepared this for me ahead. I set the photos down on my desk and picked up the cd. I put it in my laptop and waited for it to load. A video popped out and Tori was smiling at me as if she was right in front of me. My breath picked up as she sat back down on her bed. Her room was dark so it looked like she shot this video sometime in the night before she went to bed. She was wearing a purple tank top and her hair was down in loose waves that looked so smooth it made me want to reach out and rake my fingers through them.

"Hey, babe. It's almost year one for us and I just wanna let you know that I'm so happy being with you. I love the way you make me smile, the way you touch my ear when we talk seriously, the way you rake your fingers through your hair when I say something ridiculous, the way you pick out the yellow colored fruit loops from your bowl, the way your eyebrows meet each other when solving a math problem. I love the simplest things about you so you can just imagine how much I love the special things about you. I know we didn't start at the best note but I'm glad I gave us a chance. Here's one to celebrate our year one together."

Tori smiled and the video changed to a music video. I saw myself being followed by a camera. I was doing all the simple things Tori just mentioned. Her voice flowed sweetly through the song she wrote for me. I saw her pulling me into a hug after I gave her the customized jacket I had made for her birthday. We looked so happy. The song broke my heart and I almost lost my will to keep this on. I thought about Jade and how she looked the night I kissed her and my resolve remained. By the end of the song, tears were threatening to spill out but I wiped my hand across my eyes before they did. My heart ached for Tori. I can't imagine the pain I'm putting her through but one has to sacrifice. It may sound selfish that I'm making Tori sacrifice, but this is as much of a sacrifice for me as for Tori. I closed my laptop and read Tori's letter. After doing so, I realized that I shouldn't have done that. Her letter said so much. I lay back on my bed careful not to put weight on my broken arm. Tori's face ran through my mind like a slideshow of her happy moments with me. Tori was really a great girlfriend. The greatest one guy can ask for. I was lucky to have her but Jade just does it for me. Her tough exterior around others melt away when I touch her and it really makes me happy that I'm the only one aside from Beck who can do that. I make her feel things others can't and vice versa. Beck also came into my thoughts. How will he react when he finds out we're brothers? I still didn't want to accept it but that was the truth. We had the same dad. I wanted to confront my dad about it right away but I know if I did, this would ruin my parent's marriage. Another secret I had to keep to myself. I let out a loud sigh when I heard a light knock on my door. It was almost 11pm so I wasn't expecting anyone.

"Come in."

The door opened and I saw Jade's boots step into my room. I sat up and hid the things Tori gave me before she saw them.

"Hey." Jade walked sullenly towards me. The look she had on her face made me want to kiss it away.

"Hey. I wasn't expecting to see you until tomorrow."

Jade laid on the other side of my bed and snuggled to me.

"I needed to check on you and see how you're doing."

"I'm doing better. Thanks."

We stayed quiet for almost a minute when Jade spoke.

"I talked to Beck before I came here."

That made me sit up.

"Really? What did you guys talk about?"

"We broke up for good."

"Why?"

"What do you mean why? Didn't you want that?" Jade snapped taking a sitting position.

"I did but why so sudden?" I rubbed her back to calm her down.

"He called me and I didn't pick up but he just called right back. He asked me how I was doing and how you were doing. He told me that since it seemed like I didn't mind being your girlfriend by memory better to end it for good. He was wondering why I didn't protest. Then he chuckled and said he knew it. He knew I liked you. He said no hard feelings and declared at least he didn't have to bother worrying about how I'd react once he and Tori start shooting the movie."

I didn't know what to say to that. I felt anger surge through my veins. I totally forgot about the movie he has with Tori. Can I really just ignore the jealousy I felt?

"So I'm officially single now. Beck sounded hurt over the phone and I wanted to say something to justify what's going on but it also sounded like he saw it coming."

"He couldn't have seen that coming, Jade. He loved you and I can tell he still does."

"I don't think so. He sounded off over the phone."

"Of course he would sound off. This situation probably wasn't in one of the ways he thought would cause you to break up."

"Maybe. What about Tori? What are you going to do about her?"

I let out another sigh and closed my eyes.

"I don't know. I'm just hoping I'd be able to keep this up. I'm just going to play it as we go along. At least we'll able to go out in public now."

"I feel bad for Tori. What we're doing is wrong." I looked at her incredulously.

"Don't tell me you like Tori now? Since when did you develop a conscience where Tori is concerned?"

"I don't particularly feel for her but I'm just trying to put myself in her shoes. I pity her cause we pulled the rug underneath her feet."

"We'll work this out. Everyone gets over a break up eventually."

"Not this kind of break up. We totally crushed her, Ryder."

"I know. I feel awful about it but this is the only way I saw that we could be together without having to admit that we cheated."

Jade and I talked for another half hour before she got up and kissed me goodnight. I held her face in place right in front of mine. I looked at her gray eyes and down to her lips. Just looking at her makes my mouth water. I pulled her for another kiss and I kissed her deeply. She let out a moan and lowered herself on top of me carefully. My hands were buried in her hair and her hands were travelling down my chest. I carefully rolled over so that I'm halfway on top of her. I broke the kiss and let my lips travel to her ear down to her creamy neck. Jade shivered and gripped the back of my shirt tightly. I kissed under her ear and kissed her on the mouth again. We both came up for air and stared into each other's eyes. Right there and then, I saw the reason why I had to do this. I wanted Jade more than anything else. It didn't matter anymore what I had to do just to win her.

A/N: Wow so this chapter makes my blood boil. I made my own blood boil…haha. Well I just wanted to build up the right emotion towards Jade and Ryder; not to hate them but sort of see their reason why they're doing this. Anyway, I'll upload the next chapter right away too. This is my peace offering to you guys for waiting so long and making you not hate me anymore. LOL