There is a new edit in the polyvore collection for this story. One for Lily's sister Poppy, the link to the collection is on my profile. And Poppy is portrayed by Princess Estelle (her name isn't Princess just so you know. She IS a princess. Really!)

And, one more note- about English not being my first language. If I do something wrong and you want to tell me about it, please tell me what I do wrong. Then it will be a whole lot easier for me to figure what I do wrong and change it. If you just tell me I do something wrong and I don't even know what it is… Thank you!

"We're going shopping." Michelle said about herself and Keena at the end of the day I had tried to tell Michelle who Ethan was, but never got the chance. "You don't have to worry about prices. I have my dad's credit card."

"Does he know about that?"

"None of your business. But as a matter of fact… not exactly. But he's fine with me using it anyway. I do it all the time and now I'm not in Hawaii anymore I do need some more clothes for the fall and the winter. Are you two coming?" She glanced to me and Lily. "Or is it just me and Kai?"

"It's Keena."

"Well whatever. Are you coming?"

"I have to go and pick up my sister from daycare." Lily answered while I was still hesitating. Maybe it should have been enough of a warning to us that this girl was trouble when she couldn't even remember Keena's name. "Then we're going home. See you tomorrow."

"Pick up your sister from daycare." Michelle snorted. "Isn't that kind of your parents' job?"

Lily frowned, her parents were both doctors and worked a lot. But I had known Lily all my life and I knew she loved her sister more than anything in the world and she really didn't mind it when she had to get her from daycare or anything. She was dreading the day of the future where Poppy could go home on her own.

But of course, Michelle didn't know that.

"My parents are working late, so I have to go home and take care of her." She started backing away from us. "Sorry if I'm being boring but that's just the way it is. Have fun."

"Wait." It didn't take more than one glance to Keena and Michelle before I made up my mind. "I'll come with you. See you guys tomorrow." I waved back on the other two. "Now… before you say anything. I did try and tell them about Ethan this morning. Heck, why else would I be wearing a shirt with dinosaurs?"

"Isn't that the shirt your dad gave you? That you refused to wear all until now?"

I sent Lily a meaning glare. Of course it was. Wearing dinosaur-prints were more of Ethan's style than mine. I guess I had just always been too obsessed with being popular and making friends… Well, at least the latter I had succeeded with Lily and Keena.

Ethan was already waiting by the bus stop when I and Lily came up, and the bus towards area was just pulling up. I quickly decided I didn't want to see Ethan right now. More because I hated myself than anything I had against Ethan and pretended that I was going home with Lily. Then with a last glare towards me, that I pretended not to notice Ethan stepped into the bus that was soon out of my vision.

"You're going to have to face him sooner or later you know." Lily stated and I winced- yes, I knew. "And the more you drag out on this, the more lies there are going to be and the harder everything is going to be. Including that you're going to get into a whole net of lies where nothing makes sense and you have to…"

"I know, I know, I know." I interrupted- oh so now it was easy to interrupt! "But it's not like you have never told a lie. And I have covered up for your lies before. So don't you dare let me down on this or everybody will know… will know… will know…"

I silent when I realized that there was literally nothing I could use against my best friend on this. Of course she had better and worse traits, but she had probably never told a lie or kept a secret in her whole life.

"No you won't Emma."

"I won't."

I didn't dare saying anything more. The only thing missing right now was for me to have a fight with Lily, my very best friend in the whole world. So I only kept with what I was doing and got on the bus after her, then sat down in between her window seat and the mid aisle and looked past her out the window where I could soon spot Lily's sister Poppy with one of her teachers that had come with her to the bus stop.

"Hey Emma. Hey Lily."

Poppy always seemed just as happily, like only small kids would I could guess. And I couldn't help but envy her when I saw the bright smile she was wearing looking from her sister up to me.

"Hey Poppy." Lily greeted back. "Did you have a good day?"

All seats on the bus were taken, so when Poppy came up I lifted her onto my lap while she happily waved at the teacher who had followed her to the bus stop. The teacher waved back, and then as the bus started moving turned and walked away.

"And then…" Poppy had started telling Lily and myself about her day but I suddenly realized I had barely heard half of it. "Max wanted to be a princess. But Miss Nicole said boys can't be princesses. But I said that my mum says that anyone who wants to be a princess can then anyone can be a princess. Because my mum doesn't lie. And then Jason said that my mum did lie because boys are princes and girls are princesses. And…"

I had lost track of all of the names Poppy was mentioning out loud after about two and a half seconds. Soon I had stopped even trying to concentrate and stopped listening to all of the names still trying to get a picture of what the story was actually about.

"But I said that Miss Nicole is wrong, and so is Jason. But by then Max was crying because he just wanted to wear a dress but they wouldn't let him. That's not fair. If he wants to wear a dress so badly he starts crying when he thinks he can't then why can't he? It was just about a stupid dress. And boys can wear dresses too if they want. Can't they Emma?"

"Mhm."

The thoughts about what had happened earlier and what I should do about Michelle, Keena and Ethan in the best possible way was spinning in my head. So to the point I barely heard what Poppy had just told me. And when she finally ended with speaking my name I was so far into my own thoughts I barely heard it at all.

"Emma? Are you listening to me?"

"Mhm." I shook my head and forced myself back to reality. "Yes of course. Dresses, boys can wear dresses all they want for all I care."

Poppy had her head turned and watched me up and down for what must have been at least two minutes straight before she finally figured anything to say. And then finally for something that I guess I should have expected for not listening.

"You don't seem like you usually do Emma. What's wrong?"

I hesitated for a bit about whether I should tell what was going on or not. The most practical right now would be for nobody else now to know about it and just solve it somehow. But how long wouldn't that take and how was I supposed to tell another lie when Poppy looked at me like that.

"I think you should tell her what you've done Em." Lily told me after obviously she thought I had hesitated for long enough. "If nothing else then you Poppy will know what not to do."

"Please tell me. I want to know."

(Poppy was sneaky as few I knew since before. But of course, as were most four year olds)

"There is a new girl at school." I started explaining after hesitating for long enough. Poppy would know sooner or later anyway. "Her name is Michelle. And she is spending the time along with me and your sister and our friend Keena. Then she saw Ethan, my brother. She thought he was wearing a silly shirt, so she made fun of it. And then I thought it was a bit embarrassing so I told her that I didn't know him or even knew who he was. And even when he was wearing another shirt that said little bro. And Michelle said that if she had been his sister then she would have been embarrassed. I still said that I didn't know him and didn't know who he was. And now Ethan is angry and hurt and won't even talk to me."

And now, when I had explained it all for Poppy to understand I felt worse than ever.

"You shouldn't have done and said such things then Emma." Poppy scolded. "You lied. And you should especially not tell lies when they hurt someone you love. Or hurt someone at all. But Ethan is hurt now and it's because of you. Now you're the one that has to do something about it."

I leaned my chin against Poppy's shoulder and gave a deep sigh. Well, it didn't make it feel it any easier that a four year old could tell me I had done wrong.

"Why do you have to be so wise? You're only little so you shouldn't be wise especially not wiser than me."

"What does wise mean?"

"Well…" I hesitated and tried to figure a way to explain it. "It's kind of like smart. When you're wise you can be smart without anyone having to tell you what is smart or not. You just kind of understand what is right or wrong and why."

"I am smart." Poppy stated. "I can count to a hundred. My friend Marcus is born only one day after me and he can only count to forty."

"You are very smart." I agreed and then lifted Poppy down from my lap and stood up as it was time for us to get off the bus. "But wise is when being smart isn't about being able to count the furthest or knowing how to spell to hardest words. Even though it is great to be able to do so too."

Poppy bit her lip thoughtfully where she walked holding onto her sister's hand along the pavement down the short block to the West's house. At first she was looking towards the end of the road and their house, then she looked up at me again and held up her hand.

"One, two, three, four." Poppy held up one more finger for every number that she counted. "I'm this many."

"I'm this many." I held up both of my hands with all fingers out. "Plus this many." I clenched my fists and then opened one hand again. "And those are many. I should be smarter than you."

"You're not!"

"POPPY." Lily scolded. "That is not a nice thing to say. Why would you say something like that? Now say you're sorry."

"No. You're right Poppy." I said before Poppy had the time to say anything at all. "It is about as stupid and unsmart as it gets when you know perfectly well what is right to do and not. And then you end up doing the wrong thing anyway. And that's what I've been doing now with Michelle and not telling her that Ethan is my brother. And then I tried but she interrupted before I got the chance. So I did it again." I sighed deeply and held onto Poppy's hand while Lily unlocked the door. "Anyway, I need to catch another bus and go home. I'm meant to go home and start dinner before mum and dad gets home."

"Wait for a minute here." Poppy suddenly looked as if she might have had an idea. "I have an idea for what you could say to Ethan. I just need to get something." Before I could tell her to hurry so I could take the next bus she ran through the hallway, through the living room and up the stairs to hers and Lily's room.

"What do you think she might have?"

"I don't know." Lily answered, and she knew her sister better than anyone else so if she didn't know then there was no chance of me figuring either. "But I'm pretty sure that she can't make anything worse for you at this point." Poppy soon came back into the hallway, smiling and running straight up to me. "Now, what have you got?"

"Ethan gave me this for my last birthday." Poppy handed me a pillow and I turned it to see the print. "It says that rawr means I love you in dinosaur. Just like you and Ethan say in that handshake you do. You say rawr because you love each other. I think you should give that pillow to Ethan. And maybe he will remember he loves you."

"Aw, thank you Poppy." I gave her a quick hug. "And that you're right about. We do say rawr in our special handshake too. And we do have that handshake as a silly way of showing that we do love each other. Now, I'm sure that if I show him this he'll remember it."

I wasn't so sure- not really. But seeing the smile on Poppy's lips was worth the knowledge of having lied for what felt like the millionth time since just yesterday morning.

"There's a bus back towards my area in a minute." I started backing towards the door of Poppy and Lily's bedroom. "See you tomorrow Lil. And thanks for the pillow Poppy. Now cross your fingers that it will work for Ethan and he won't be angry with me anymore."

The sisters both held up each hand to show me they had crossed their fingers. As if that sort of stuff actually helped- or more because it felt alright knowing at least I had them on my side, I smiled gratefully and then left the house.

In knowledge that I could just as well gotten off an earlier stop going in the opposite direction with the sisters and I would have been home long ago. But of course, then I wouldn't have gotten the pillow from Poppy. Even though standing outside the door to Ethan's room and knocking I felt worse than ever, how on earth could I have trusted a four year old to help in any of this?

Well, like Lily had said- there wouldn't be much chance for Poppy to make anything worse at this point.

"Give it back to Poppy."

I barely had the time to give it to him before Ethan shoved the pillow back into my hands, then turned and threw the door closed before I had the time to say anything more. I let hear a deep, heavy sigh before I turned and walked into my own room, carefully closing my door behind me as if that would change the way Ethan had closed his.

Obviously the wearing a dinosaur shirt and trying to catch Michelle's attention first thing in the morning hadn't worked. Neither Keena nor Michelle still knew nothing about who Ethan was. And I didn't really feel like trying again. And Ethan was more hurt and angrier with me than ever before.

Now what was I supposed to do next?

Random fact

I could have gotten this chapter up so much earlier than I did. I was working on it last week, but I was also working on a one shot that I wanted up more. Then I finished that one shot and was going to work more on this one and another chapter (this was Saturday night last week) But then I had a seizure (I have Epilepsy) so I was tired and I don't know what the English word is now… Anyway, I didn't get much done on Sunday if I say it like that.

But then, now when I have finished it is down so I can't put it up anyway.

But anyway, there was the chapter, I hope you liked it. Everybody who reviews will get a shoutout.