AN: This is kind of fillery. But I wanted to get something out to you guys while I'm working on the outline and fate of the rest of this story. Thanks for your patience. The next chapter will cover most of/all of break and then back to school. I love your suggestions and I really like when I can incorporate them into the story so please feel free to keep them coming.
TRIGGER WARNING: Flashback to some noncon. Not graphic. Not between Brittany and Santana at all. Ever. Promise.
Santana woke up, and she had no idea what time it was but she knew it was still dark, she knew that she still had a very naked Brittany wrapped around her, and she was so thirsty she might die. She tried to ignore it for as long as she could which was about a minute. She didn't want to wiggle her way out of the hold Brittany had on her but if she didn't get some water she'd never fall back asleep. So after a few minutes of untangling limbs, and leaving kisses all over her, she climbed out of the giant bed and went into the bathroom.
Brittany felt Santana moving her limbs around gently and figured out pretty quickly that she was trying to get out of bed. She could have just rolled over but it was way more fun to make Santana try to move her without waking her. She was also pretty fond of the little kisses she was leaving on her face, neck, and arms. Once Santana managed to extract herself without the continual distraction of Brittany's naked body she walked towards the bathroom. Brittany watched, her being awake still unnoticed. She watched as Santana flipped on the bathroom light and got some water. And as Santana turned around to look at something, she looked at her perfect breasts and toned muscles and her soft cock resting on her balls between her legs. Even soft it turned Brittany on. "I love you like this. I love you always. But this you is my favorite."
Santana was only a little startled when Brittany started to talk. But her heart warmed to her words. She smiled gently. "What do you mean?"
"Just natural and happy and carefree. When you feel like you don't have to hide anything." She could feel herself getting turned on just watching Santana standing there. "I want you to know that having you inside of me was the most amazing feeling I've ever had." She watched the subtle shift in Santana. "I wish I could have that feeling all the time." Santana could feel herself getting stiff. Brittany noticed too. "And when you came inside of me. God Santana. Knowing that I'd made you feel like that. I can't even explain it. Just thinking about it makes me wet."
Santana swallows thickly. "Touch yourself Britt. Let me see." Brittany thinks for anyone else she'd never be able to. But for Santana, she leans back onto the pillows, bathed only in the light from the bathroom, and spreads her legs. Santana can see Brittany's arousal coating her folds already. She subconsciously licks her lips, which turns Brittany on even more. Brittany slowly runs her hand down her body and cups herself before dipping one of her fingers through her folds, gathering her own juices, before circling her clit the way she likes when Santana does. It doesn't feel the same. It doesn't feel bad though but the look Santana is giving her is turning her on more than almost anything. She watches Santana reach down and palm her now hard dick tugging on it a few times.
"I have never seen anything hotter than this" Santana's voice is more raspy than usual and she's having a hard time not diving onto the bed. Brittany nods and then turns it up a notch. She spreads herself before pushing her finger inside. It's nothing compared to Santana but she can see Santana trembling with the effort to not get on the bed with her.
"Baby. I need you inside of me." Brittany whined. She was surprised Santana had lasted so long but she didn't want to wait anymore. Santana didn't either, if her speed in which she made in onto the bed was any indication. Santana climbed on top of Brittany, she grabbed the hand that had previously been rubbing her clit and pulled it to her pouty lips and sucked Brittany's finger into her mouth savoring the flavor she had come to know and love. The act had Brittany almost to the point of begging Santana to fill her. She felt more wetness pool between her legs. "Please Santana." When Santana heard the desperation in her girlfriends voice she immediately wanted to give in. She sat back on her heels and lined herself up and started to push inside. Immediately feeling how amazing Brittany felt around her again.
"God Brittany" She moaned as she pushed slowly in. "So tight". She felt amazing. So wet. It felt like Brittany was made for her. They were made to fit together like this. When she felt herself press completely into Brittany's body, she leaned forward so she was lying over top of Brittany, braced up by her arms and kissed Brittany fully on the mouth. Brittany moaned into her mouth as she ran her hands up and down Santana's ribs. While continuing to thrust in and out of Brittany at a steady pace, she kissed her way down her neck to where her breasts were bouncing, to take a pink nipple into her mouth and suck gently.
Brittany can hardly form words as she focuses on the feeling of her nipple in Santana's mouth and the feeling of her hard cock sliding in and out of her. She couldn't form words but she couldn't stay quiet either. She gently guided Santana back up to kiss her again, needing to breathe the same air. Santana's heavy breasts pressed into her own making Brittany moan into her lover's mouth. "Baby I want you to cum too this time." Santana says breathlessly, almost as if it's a question. What does she need to do to make Brittany cum.
Brittany thinks if Santana would rub her clit she might explode. She tries to form the words to tell her that. "San. So good. Touch clit." Santana immediately lifts her body higher and snakes one of her hands between their bodies and dips her finger between Brittany's folds. She can feel herself going in and out and she has to grit her teeth to stop herself from cumming to early at the sensation. She needs Brittany to cum too. She wants to make her feel good more than she wants anything. She starts making tight circles around Brittany's swollen clit. Brittany throws her head back and moans Santana's name while digging her fingers into the muscles of Santana's shoulders. She speeds up the circles she's making around Brittany's clit because she's going to explode and collapse any second. "Oh God baby" Brittany's fingers tighten, not quite painful, but close.
"Fuck Brittany" Santana says through gritted teeth as she starts to speed up her thrusting. She can feel Brittany getting tighter around her.
"Gonna. Uh. Cum" Brittany screams. And then Santana feels Brittany's muscles convulsing around her still thrusting dick and Brittany arches underneath her. Santana slows her circles around her now twitching clit and works her cock into Brittany with slower deeper thrusts, feeling her balls tighten, knowing she's going to explode any second. After a few more thrusts, while watching Brittany come down beautifully below her, she pushes into her as deep as she can and feels herself explode into her.
Brittany feels Santana's hot cum inside of her and smiles. She can hardly move her body feels so good. Santana kisses Brittany's blissed out face and collapses on top of her, unable to hold herself up anymore. She pulls herself gently out and notes how wet both Brittany and the sheets beneath her are. Brittany hardly seems to notice, as she seems to have gone into some sort of sex coma. Santana smiles, proud that she can make Brittany feel that way and rolls off of her. The motion, combined with the cold air that hits her damp body causes Brittany to pout. "Where?" She mumbles.
"Come here baby. We kind of made a mess." Santana laughs and scoops Brittany into her arms and pulls her into her body away from the wet spot and covers them both with the blanket because she can feel Brittany trembling slightly.
"Most amazing sex ever." Brittany mumbles into her neck where she has her face pressed. Santana nods in agreement, running her fingers over every bit of naked skin she can reach. She doesn't think she'll ever feel less lucky that she gets Brittany in this way, and that Brittany loves her back. She feels her eyes sting but she refuses to cry even happy tears, she doesn't want to upset Brittany.
"I love making love to you Brittany." Santana whispers. Brittany hears how heart achingly honest that statement is. But then, "Shit that was cheesy. I'm sorry." Santana covers. Still scared that the depth of her feelings is going to somehow chase Brittany away.
Brittany pulls her face away from Santana's warm neck to look into her eyes. "I love making love to you too. You don't need to take back beautiful things that you say. I love hearing them." She kisses Santana's lips softly. She continues in a near whisper "I love the way my body feels after you make me feel like that. Like it's humming and like the only thing it wants is to be as close to you as possible. I never ever thought sex could feel like this." She keeps laying gentle kisses on Santana's neck and ear. She feels Santana's arms and legs tighten their hold on her and she settles in, tucking her head gently under Santana's chin so she can hear her heart beat.
"I'm glad this night turned out so perfect. It could have gone so wrong." Santana tried not to think of what could have happened to Brittany tonight. Almost as though she can read her thoughts though, Brittany tries to ease her racing mind.
"Don't think about it baby. It's over, he'll be on his way back home. And we're here together and perfect." Santana kisses the top of Brittany's head as a way of agreeing.
"Do you think he'll tell your parents what happened? What if he tells them you're dating a girl?" The thought hit Santana rather suddenly, and she can't help but get nervous again.
"Then he tells them. I'm not hiding anything from them, it just hasn't come up yet. We don't really talk for more than a few minutes at a time. But if he tells them then I'll deal with it. I don't think he will though."
"Why not?"
"He'll be embarrassed that I've moved on and am ok. Also that he got beat up. He will either lie and say he never came, or say he decided he wasn't ready to take me back and that I need to work a little harder."
"He is such a dick Britt. Why did you date him in the first place?"
"Everyone wanted me too. I was sick of being nothing but a disappointment to my family and they seemed so happy that we'd gotten together. It wasn't too bad at first. He made me make out with him in front of his friends but that was pretty much it. But then it got worse as you know."
"Why did you stay?"
"Like I said I didn't want to disappoint anyone. And at some point, he and my family managed to convince me I needed him. That nobody else would love me. Sometimes it felt like everything I knew was based around this relationship. It felt like the only thing my parents even liked about me was him. And then I got scared to leave him because I didn't know what he would do."
"Why did you? What changed?" Santana asked against her better judgment, knowing that the answer would make her mad. She felt Brittany stiffen in her arms. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. But no matter what it is it wouldn't change anything with us."
"I left him because he hurt me again and it was the last straw. I was on my period and he came to my house and wanted to have sex. I told him I was and he got mad. But then said it's ok because I could just blow him. But I didn't want to do that either so I told him I had a sore throat. Then he got really mad and told me that that was to bad because he was already turned on and once guys got turned on they can't stop. But I didn't want to do anything so I went to get up and go downstairs because he wouldn't do anything in front of my parents. But he grabbed me and pushed me on the bed on my stomach and pulled my pants down. I tried to kick him but couldn't get my leg back like that." Santana felt her stomach turning as Brittany continued her story. But she wanted Brittany to have the opportunity to get it all out. And she didn't want to stop because that would mean finishing the story another time, and she didn't think she'd be able to handle hearing the pain in Brittany's voice again.
"He tried to…have anal sex with me. It hurt so bad but he barely even got anywhere before I managed to move enough to get him off of me. He slapped me and I pulled up my pants and ran downstairs. He followed me and I told him to get out and I never wanted to see him again. That I was done. I couldn't do it anymore." She could feel Brittany shaking now too. Even though she couldn't see her face she could hear the tears in her voice. She held her even tighter, stroking her hair and back. Pressing kisses to her hair to try and sooth Brittany in any way she could. And by soothing Brittany and making her feel safe, hopefully sooth herself a little.
"My mom was there." Brittany sniffed. "She heard me tell him I was done. After he left my mom told me that whatever he did wasn't an excuse to break up. Give it a day or two, and call him and maybe if I'm lucky he'll take me back. I never felt more unloved in that moment." Brittany was full on sobbing now. "I'm sorry I'm ruining all the good feelings."
"You aren't baby. Shhhh. You aren't." Santana adjusted herself so that she was now lying eye to eye with Brittany. "I hate him. That's hardly worth mentioning. And if I ever see him again, the only thing that will prevent me from killing him is the thought that I'd go to jail and not be able to hold and see you anymore. But I don't even want to waste energy on those bad feelings. I do want to tell you that I will never hurt you. Not like that, not in any way. Ever. Ok?"
"I know." Brittany sniffs.
"I know we have talked about it but I want to say it again. This" she runs her and up Brittany's side. "This is your body. And I love it. And I love making you feel good. And I love the way you make me feel. But it is your body baby. Yours. And if you ever, ever even just kind of don't want to do anything, that will always be ok. Even if we go a really long time. That's ok. Because it's your body, and I will never ever abuse that. Ok?" Brittany nods and smiles. "Not only that. But I will always do what I can to protect you. I will always try and keep you safe. I want you to always feel safe with me."
"I feel safer like this, in your arms, than I ever have in my life."
"Good. Get used to it." Brittany smiled a little. "Because I have absolutely no intentions of letting you go." She tickles her fingers along Brittany's ribs a little, Brittany giggles, effectively lightening the mood slightly. "I love you."
"I love you. A million times over." Santana could feel the heaviness of the conversation weighing on them but not in a bad way. It felt like trust and bad pasts and a plea from Brittany to please keep her safe all wrapped together. So she did what her body was telling her to do and pulled Brittany into her again and wrapped her arms and legs around her tucking her into her body as close and as protected as she could.
"We should try and go back to sleep."
"Tell me a happy story first?"
"Ok. Like a for real story? Something that has happened? Or make one up?" Brittany yawned before answering.
"Real. This time." Santana was happy to feel Brittany's tense body relaxing into her.
"Ok. Ummm. So, when I was little, and my parents had decided to raise me as a girl I was really scared my brothers weren't going to get it. I was old enough to know that it wasn't the most normal thing. So on the way home from the doctors, where we had kind of made it final, I asked my parents what we were going to do. My dad told me not to worry about it, and that he would take them to dinner and tell them. I guess they knew on some level that something was different about me, because I'd been telling them I was a girl but they were all so much older than me and I think they just thought I was confused. I was so scared they were going to make fun of me and I loved them so much. So my dad took them to dinner, and my mom took me shopping for some new clothes and to dinner. And I came home and all I wanted to do was try on all of my new clothes but I was scared about what my brothers were going to say. Caus I knew my dad had talked to them."
"I love your brothers."
"Me too baby. So when I got home, my mom carried my stuff up to my room and put my bags in there and I went to see if I could find any of them. I found Luis in his room, and he had a baby doll. And I asked him what he was doing. And he told me he was trying to learn how to braid hair, since he had a little sister and all, he might need to know. And I was only five, but I knew for sure that I was the luckiest, now little girl, in the world. He picked me up and hugged me tight and sat back on the bed and said he loved me and everything was ok. I remember asking him if I was still his favorite buddy. Caus he always called me that. And he told me that I would always be his favorite buddy. I told him that I was nervous to find my other brothers. I was close with all of them but I'd always been the most close with Luis. So he took my hand and he and I went to the game room where the other three were playing video games. And I walked in and Diego just looked over at me and said hey baby sis. Want to play with us? And I just looked at Luis who nodded and then I ran over and Miguel pulled me into his lap like he always had and handed me his remote even though he knew I'd kill his guy right away. And that was it. It was never weird or difficult to be around them. But we never really ignored the situation either. I was a girl, which became even abundantly more obvious when my body started developing. But I still had a penis. And they explained boners to me. And Luis taught me about condoms and other birth control that other girls would have once it became clear that I definitely liked girls. They have been amazing my whole life. I don't ever even remember them being mean like a lot of boys are. They were always amazing with me."
By the end of the story Brittany's heart felt significantly lighter. "They are amazing. And they helped me even though they don't know me that well."
"Babe my brothers love you. And once they decide they love you they'll protect you no matter what. They're the same way with Quinn."
"Thanks for telling me about them." Brittany yawned and closed her eyes, feeling the signs of sleep hit her body.
"Anytime love."
"Wait. Did Luis ever learn to braid hair?"
"He totally did. Braids hair better than almost anyone I know." Brittany could hear the smile in Santana's voice and pressed her lips to whatever skin was closest to her lips. They mumbled their I love yous before drifting off to sleep again. Bad mood settled, and excited for the rest of break.