I must've been hallucinating maybe fear made me hear all of those things that Kendall said….who am I kidding? I heard him right. He said that he loved me well he didn't exactly say I love you James Diamond…But he said and I quote: 'I mean how could I possibly love a guy with beautiful mesmerizing hazel eyes, with soft silky hazelnut hair, with amazingly build body, with a beautiful soft angelic voice… how could I love a sweet innocent guy that endured my bullying and my harsh insults for years…. How could I love a beautiful person inside and out, how could I love such guy? How could I love the amazing James Diamond'…I never thought I would live to see the day when someone says those things about me, let alone the Kendall Knight.

I'm trying to convince myself that he didn't say that but I can't…if he really thought I'm beautiful, if he really loved me then why would he hurt me so bad…I know he must be a closet gay but did he really have to act like a homophobic pig..I mean I didn't do that to gay people when I was still a closet gay…this really brings back bad memories all back to the day I decided to come out to my parents thinking foolishly that they would still love me no matter what.

~Flashback~

"James don't just go around joking about this." My mother said thinking I wasn't being serious about this.

"I'm not joking mom, it's true." I replied…still hoping she would accept the ugly truth.

"It can't be true James we raised you better than this." My father said still not bothering to look away from his laptop...of course his business was better than me…his own son.

My family was one of wealthiest in Minnesota due to the fact that my mom owns this huge cosmetics company and my father being one of the best business men in the U.S.A. It was sorta hard to live here without being unnoticed...but now that I've decided to suck it up and come out to them I'm getting really scared.

"I can't help it dad, I know you guys raised me well but this is who I am." I said, beginning to tremble and I knew that right now I was in the danger zone because they both looked up to meet my eyes and boy it was like seeing the devil.

"So you're one of those things now." My mother said, the look in her eyes made me feel more terrified if that was even possible.

"W-what's that supposed to mean?" I stuttered out, trying to hide the fact that I wasn't scared.

"She means that you're a filthy faggot and no longer our son." My dad hissed coldness was evident in his poisonous words…but that word...I never thought that my dad would say that about anyone but there he said it to me.

"P-please don't do this! I am still me I just like guys…it doesn't change who I am I'm still James Diamond your son." I said unable to control the tears making their journey down my face.

"Not anymore." My mother growled…I felt worthless, my mom said that, my mom used to say that she loves me…but apparently not anymore.

"As of this moment we're cutting you loose. You can take your stinking guitar and your disgusting gay clothes with you and we will burn the rest of your belongings, we don't want anything to remind us of you." Dad said, staring me down like I was some trash and not his son, which I guess I'm not anymore...

"You can't do this to me" I whispered enough for them to hear still not believing they just disowned me, they were supposed to love me. They're my family for crying out loud.

"We can and we just did…just keep in mind that it's your fault for choosing to be a fucking fag." My mom said, each word dripping with more and more hatred and venom. I had never heard my mom being this cruel.

"B-But I-I didn't choose this, I was born this way" I stuttered out, trying to convince them to not let me go but I knew in my now broken heart, that I couldn't. Their mind was already made.

"And don't even bother going to that expensive private school anymore. Your mother and I will make sure you go to a public school; we have friends in high places James. We will make sure you suffer there….and we'll also make sure that your friends know about everything...I can already see the disappointment they will have." My father spat out in pure disgust.

"Please mom, say something!" I said, tears still running down my face. Now I was truly scared, they're ruining my reputation and they're throwing me to some public school…why did they have to be rich and famous,why did I have to be their son?

"Please mom say something…get out of my face James." My mom said mocking me.

She didn't help me; she just sent another blow to my heart. Making it break even more.

"Your heard your mother James, Get out of our faces and good luck finding a job." My father said coldly...

How could they do this to me? I thought that they loved me enough to accept the truth but I was way wrong because here they are kicking me out of the house and hating me for being gay.

"I believe it's time for you to leave now, we will have the guards getting you your things. Just go wait at the door and we better not see you here again James!" Dad told me authority present beneath each syllable uttered.

I looked at them one last time and then closed my tears-filled eyes, chocking back the sobs. I had shut my eyes tighter hoping to wake up from this nightmare.
"Get the fuck out you faggot!" I heard my father yell out making my eyes snap open as I ran out of their sight.

~End of flashback~

AN: I'm really sorry for taking so long to update, but you know school work and everything….I've been really busy and I still am but I didn't want to keep you waiting any longer. Nevertheless I hope you enjoyed…And if you guys haven't checked my new story 'Falling inside the black' please do :) It's also a Kames story….just saying :p