"Are you alright James? You've been distracted for the entire day." Dak asked offering the sad looking boy a warm smile.
"I'm fine Dak, really." James muttered while playing with the food that Dak bought him. It was lunch time and he haven't had a decent meal in a really long time but he was distraught that he just couldn't bring himself to eat.
"Why don't I believe you? Did something happen?" Dak wondered as he gave James a skeptical look.
"N-nothing happened" James stuttered as pictures of his previous encounter with Kendall flooded his mind.
"You're stuttering and shaking now. Did Kendall hurt you because I swear to go-" Dak growled but was soon cut off by James's weak voice.
"He didn't Dak, please just drop it."
"Then please tell me what's wrong" Dak pressed still determined to find out the reason behind James's sad features.
"Just a bit stressed is all."
"Okay" Dak whispered as he gave up his interrogation for the time being.
"Hey James, Dak." Kendall said as he slowly and cautiously approached their table.
"What do you want?" Dak hissed as he gave a cold glare towards Kendall.
"To talk to James" Kendall said whilst ignoring Dak's burning gaze.
"Well, talk" Dak hissed as he gently grabbed James's shaking hand.
"Alone" Kendall added.
"No way in hell" Dak protested with a low growl.
"It's fine Dak, he won't hurt me" James finally looked up at Dak as he stood up and gently unhooked his hand from him.
"But babe…"
"I'll be right back" James said as he followed Kendall to the school's music room.
"Okay, um talk"
"Actually, I brought you here to sing you a song." Kendall said shyly as he avoided James's gaze.
"I didn't know that you sing"
"There's a lot you don't know about me." Kendall breathed out and started strumming his guitar.
I want what I can't have
I wanna make you mine
I don't care what it takes
I'm fearless with my heart
I'll take it any place
I don't care if it breaks
I wanna tell you things
I never tell myself
These secrets hurt like hell, oh
Call me crazy, maybe I'm insanely
Out of my mind but it'll never faze me
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
I'm a rebel even if it's trouble
I'ma pull you out from the rubble
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
Tell me I'm wrong
Turn around and run
Still I'm gonna save my heart for you
I know you want me too
Even if it's not now
I'm gonna wait it out
But don't you dare forget
That moment that we had
I know we both felt it
I wanna tell you things
I never tell myself
These secrets hurt like hell, oh
Call me crazy, maybe I'm insanely
Out of my mind but it'll never faze me
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
I'm a rebel even if it's trouble
I'ma pull you out from the rubble
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
Tell me I'm wrong
Turn around and run
Still I'm gonna save my heart for you
Oh oh
Oh oh
I wanna tell you things
I never tell myself
These secrets hurt like hell, oh
The first time that you smiled
So shyly back at me
I couldn't help myself
Call me crazy, maybe I'm insanely
Out of my mind but it'll never faze me
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
I'm a rebel even if it's trouble
I'ma pull you out from the rubble
If I have to, I'm not afraid to
Save my heart for you
Tell me I'm wrong
Turn around and run
Still gonna save my heart for you
Tell me I'm wrong
Turn around and run
Still gonna save my heart for you
Oh oh
I want what I can't have
I gonna make you mine
No matter what it takes
"K-Kendall." James whimpered as tears started flowing freely down his flawless complexion.
"Please James, don't cry" Kendall whispered as he cautiously wiped away James's tears.
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why do you want me?" James could practically hear his heart in his ear as he tried to avoid Kendall's mesmerizing green eyes.
"Because I love you." Kendall confessed again.
"Don't say that, you don't. No one does." James replied smoothly ignoring the heartache.
"But I do, I'm sorry I mistreated and hurt you. I really am, I was just afraid." Kendall whispered the last part almost pathetically as he let his eyes wonder around the music room.
"Of what?" James suddenly raised his voice and regretted it immediately when he saw the hurt look on Kendall's face.
"Rejection and disowning…"
"D-Disowning?" James questioned as he remembered his own experience with how disowning felt like. He doesn't want anyone to go through what he went through. He has to stop Kendall from coming out of the closet.
"My parents would kick me out if they ever learn that I'm gay." Kendall said as his emerald eyes met James's hazel ones.
"I understand." James assured him with a strong tone.
"You do?" Kendall questioned, confusion adorning his features. What the hell does James mean?
"Yeah." James said with a sad voice, swallowing the lump in his throat willing himself not to shed more tears.
"James, I'm not asking you to leave Dak for me but please say that you at least love me, please. Give me a reason to fight for."
"I can't say that."
"Why? Why can't you?" Kendall said as he cupped James's face.
"Because love doesn't exist, don't you get it Kendall? It's all a lie. There's no such thing as love. You're maybe fooled by it but I'm not. I don't believe in love, at least not anymore." James whisper-yelled, surprising Kendall with his sudden outburst.
"I'm not a fool James, I know it exists because I've seen it and I'm going to make you believe in love again even if it's the last thing that I do." Kendall said with a warm smile as he sealed his promise with a soft kiss on James's lips.
"What the fuck?" A familiar voice suddenly shouted.
AN: Hello there, sorry for not updating this story for such a long time.
Don't be mad at me because it's my birthday. I'm twenty babes ;)