Since Wes had agreed to remove the coin Sam and I figured we would go with him after all it was a pretty simple job. Just follow the guy watch him remove the coin. Then take the coin and melt it down. How hard could this be? I mean he had agreed to do it, even if it was under duress. "I can't believe how easy this case turned out to be." I told Sam as we walked down the stairs to the Impala. He looked back at me and said, "I know what ya mean if only all cases worked out this way." I had to agree with him on that. It was nice to have a case were the worst thing that happened was Dean getting sick to his stomach. How often does that happen in a hunter's life? To be honest, it never happens because we are always putting our lives on the line, people are dying and worst of all one of us either dies or gets hurt. I was happy with the way this case had gone. "So Wes I know I threatened you but I really did mean what I said about the love thing." I told him as we rode to Lucky Chin's. He looked at me sitting in the backseat of the car. Sam was driving because Dean had seen a young boy and decided to chase after him and talk. I have no idea why, but apparently the kid had made a wish. "Do you know what its like to love someone and not have them be with you?" Wes asked.

I knew he meant not paying attention to you or knowing who you are but I still knew the feeling. "In a way I do because I was so in love with someone and he was my best friend. We never did have the courage to tell each other and once we finally did and got married, I was only married to him for three years before he passed away. I still love him and I don't have him with me." I replied honestly. Sam gave me a sad smile knowing how I felt. Sam and I really connected on that. Dean and I did as well because of him losing his dad, but it wasn't quite the same. I was glad I had those two. They were really helping me through everything. We soon pulled up in front of the restaurant. "Well this is it Wes." I told him as we went to walk in. I then hear thunder and look up. A storm cloud is over Sam. Everything seems to go in slow motion. I watch as a lightening bolt comes down. I let out an ear piercing scream that I couldn't hear. My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. I went running toward Sam, but I didn't think I was going anywhere or at least didn't feel like I was getting there fast enough. I got to him just as he fell to the ground. His weight made me drop with him on top of me, but I didn't care. I sat up and held his head in my lap. I tried to find a pulse. Anything that would show me he was still alive. I couldn't find any, but I refused to give up. I wasn't going to lose someone else that I cared about. I just couldn't let it happen. Like I said before, the boys were my only family along with Bobby and I was not about to lose them. "Come on Sammy...wake up I can't lose you too. And what about your brother and Bobby? They will be devastated." I said crying. I was rocking back and forth holding Sam when all of a sudden he woke up.

I looked down at him and smiled. However I didn't know what to think. How had Sam come back to life? "SAMMY you're okay." I said hugging him even tighter. "You called me Sammy." Sam said standing up looking at me confused. I didn't care that I had called him by the nickname he only allowed his brother to use. I was just happy he was back. Wes then walked outside to where we were. Handing me the coin he said, "Here do whatever you have to with it. I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused. Hope doesn't even remember who I am. But I couldn't let someone die because of me." I felt sorry for Wes. Here he was in love with a girl who was probably never gonna love him without his wish. But like I had told him; it's better to have real love than fake love. "Let's go meet Dean and get rid of this thing." I told Sam climbing back into the Impala. "You looked so happy back there when you realized I was alive. What was that about?" Sam asked as we drove toward the pier we were going to meet Dean at. I didn't really know how to answer his question. Well I knew why I had, but I didn't know how to word it so that Sam would understand. "Ummm well look, I don't really know how to explain." I said. I then sighed and said," I didn't want to lose someone I care about again. I've come to care a lot about you and Dean. And when I thought you were dead it tore me up inside. I thought I had failed you and Dean; failed as a hunter and I had promised myself I wouldn't fail again like I had failed Jason." Sam looked over at me and grabbed my hand. "You are a great hunter and a great friend. Dean and I are glad to have you along with us. And you could never fail us." he reassured me.

Parking the Impala Sam pointed out that he already saw Dean. I started walking toward him while Sam turned off the car and began following me. It had been a long hard day and all I wanted to do was sleep. I couldn't believe that a job that seemed so simple turned out to be so hard and traumatizing. "Hey Dean how's it going?" Sam asked. I looked at Dean and cocked my head. He looked like he had been in a fight. "I got beat up by some kid who wished for super strength then when the wishes were reversed I pretended to be afraid of him so the bullies wouldn't start beating his ass again." Dean said. I nodded understanding that Dean had done a nice thing for a little kid. We melted the coin down and tossed it in the lake then started walking back toward the car. I was just trying to forget the whole day had ever happened when Dean looked kind of somberly over at his brother and said, "The things that I saw. There aren't words. There is no forgetting. There's no making it better. Because it is right here... forever. You wouldn't understand. And I could never make you understand. So I am sorry." as he pointed to his head.

Things had been pretty tense between the boys after Dean's confession. I felt sorry for him and everything he had went through. I knew he didn't want to talk about it and I respected that but at the same time I wanted him to talk about it. I wanted him to let those emotions out so he could begin to heal. We soon climbed back into the Impala. I sat there quiet. I wasn't sure what to say to Dean to try and help him through this. I also wasn't sure what to say to Sam. I knew Sam was hurt that Dean had lied to him and I understood that. All Sam wanted was to help Dean through his pain and the memories. Hell, it was all I wanted to do. But I also understood why Dean didn't say anything to either of us. This was his pain, his hurt, and his memories. He felt he had to deal with it on his own and didn't want to speak of it. Maybe for him the pain was still too near for him to speak about it; he barley slept and he was drinking himself into oblivion.

I could tell the memories were eating at him and I hated seeing him go through that alone. I hated that Sam wanted to help his brother and couldn't. These poor boys had been through more than anyone should every have to go through in there entire lives. I had lost my husband and I knew how much that hurt, but these two I could only imagine the pain they felt. They had lost their mother and father. Sam had gone through the same pain as I had losing the one he loved. And Dean going through what he was hurt both of them. After all Dean was gone for four months, that had to have taken its toll on Sam. And I could only...No I couldn't even begin to imagine what Dean had gone through while he was in the pit and truthfully I didn't want to. It would seem all of us were broken in our own way. Even though I had accepted that my husband was gone I still missed him and I probably always would.

Even if I moved on I would always love him. Growing tired of how eerie the silence was I decided to talk to the boys. "So what now? I'm hungry and as far as I'm concerned the world can wait for a day. Cause we need a break." I said looking at Sam and then Dean. Dean looked at me with his infamous smirk and replied, "I agree we've been bustin' our asses tryin' to save the world and what do we get? Nadda so I say we take it upon our selves to kick back and relax." Sam smiled and nodded his agreement. Pulling out his phone he looked for the closest motel. "We're about twenty minutes outside of Newport. We can stop there. Maybe hustle some money up." Sam said after finding us a place to stay. Dean turned up the radio. I chuckled as Rainbow in the Dark played. It was one of my favorite Dio songs and for just a little while the evil of the world didn't seem to be as close. "There pull into that hotel." Sam said. Dean listened and whipped the car into the closest parking space.

Looking through the door to the lobby I noticed it was a male working the counter. I decided now would be a good time to show Dean he wasn't the only one with charm. "I'm gonna go book us a room and see if I can get us a discount." I told the boys as I started toward the doors. It only took a few seconds and I was through the door. I had on tight blue jeans and a white spaghetti strap that showed off my curves. I sauntered up the counter a smile plastered on my face. "Hi sweetie, um my brothers and I were looking to book a room." I said twirling my hair. The guy behind the counter was about five foot five, extremely scrawny, and wore glasses. "Sure um we have a room with two beds and a couch with a pull out. It's supposed to be ninety-five a night, but I can give a discount and get it down to seventy-five." The geek replied. I smiled real big at him and said,"Thank you, that means a lot to me. However can I repay you?" It was then I noticed the geek's name was Ron. I new that he was surprised a female was talking to him and saying such things. It showed in his eyes. "Well I could think of a few ways." Ron said seeing how far his luck would run. "Well I'll have to sneak away from my brothers, but I'll see what I can do." I said giggling as he finished booking the room for us and giving me the key.

I gave him a small wave as I walked back out the door. "I got us twenty dollars knocked off." I told the boys as I showed them our room. Dean and Sam shook their heads at me chuckling. "And how did you manage that?" Dean asked. I smirked and replied;" Ahh young grasshopper the master can not reveal all her secrets." We then all busted out laughing. The night was going great so far. All of us were starting to relax and have a good time. I went first to take a shower and change clothes. I hurried as fast as I could. I was ready to go out and drink and have fun like I hadn't in a long time. I quickly finished my shower and began to get dressed. I threw on a pair of skin hugging white washed jeans that had jewels in the design of hearts on the back pockets that drew attention to my well rounded ass. Then I put on a black spaghetti strap similar to the white one I wore earlier. Over top I wore a flannel t-shirt. It was a dark blue with white and black stripes then a gold stripe went underneath the breast drawing any male's attention there. Normal I didn't wear makeup but on occasion I wore dark eye-shadow with black eyeliner which is what I wore tonight. And then finally I slipped on my cowgirl boots and hat before walking out the bathroom.

As soon as I stepped out the door the boys whistled. "Damn woman you clean up nice. Dean might not go on the prowl tonight he might just try to convince you to crawl into his bed." Sam said laughing. "Hey now you ain't far off Sammy if she wasn't our friend and I didn't know her I probably would try to convince her to warm my bed." Dean replied. I chuckled because even though Sam was joking I knew Dean was being serious. I knew the boys too well to only warm their bed for the night. If I was to sleep with either of them it would lead to more than a one night stand. The boys hurried up and finished getting ready. All of us climbed into the Impala eager for a night out on the town. "So boys ready to see this hot little number hustle some pool?" I asked as we pulled into the parking lot of a bar called The Midnight Riders. "We'll see who does better you or Sam." Dean replied. I knew Sam was good, but I decided tonight was gonna be both our nights. That way we could hustle up a little more cash than usual.