Sam looked at us and I knew he was conflicted. He wanted to tell us why he trusted Ruby. At the same time he looked at me and I could feel the fear rolling off of him. I cocked my head to the side was he afraid Dean and I would be mad or was it something else entirely? I really wanted to help Sam through this, but I didn't know how to reassure him that he could tell us. "When you died Dean I did anything I could to try and get you back." Sam started.
"Come on where are you?" a drunken Sam yelled. "Looking for me?" a demon said behind him. Sam turned around and looked at the demon. He was extremely pissed off and didn't want to play the demon's games. "Give me Dean I'll do whatever it takes." Sam replied. The demon however just chuckled clearly he wasn't going to give Sam what he wanted. "No can do Dean's right where we want him." the demon said. Sam got even more pissed and slammed Ruby's knife into his hand. The demon even though he was in pain still laughed at Sam. "No demon is going to make a deal with you." he said right before Sam killed him.
"What does that got to do with Ruby saving you?" I asked. I was very confused so far it just seemed like Sam was scared and hurt and wanted his brother back. I completely understood where he was coming from; I was the same way when I first lost Jason. Sam gave me a sad smile and said, "I'm getting to that part just give me a minute." I wasn't really sure I wanted to hear the rest of this story what so ever, but if it helped me to understand why Sam used his powers and why he trusted that slut Ruby then I would gladly listen.
Sam drove the Impala down the road toward the abandoned home he was staying in pissed at everything. He had tried so hard to save Dean and it had got him no where. What was he suppose to do without his big brother? He felt completely lost. He saw a woman standing on the side of the road and picked her up. "Hiya Sam." she said. Sam looked at her confused. "Ruby?" Sam asked. "Yeah and man am I hungry I think I deserve some french fries after how much work it took me to climb back out of hell. Cause when Lilith gets mad she gets creative." Ruby answered. "Whose body are you in Ruby?" Sam asked. "She's a dental hygienist." she replied. Sam demanded that she let her go and take her home. Ruby agreed and got out of the car. Sitting in the home Sam was drinking himself away. After all what did he have to live for anymore? He had lost his mom as a baby, his girlfriend, and his dad after just getting him back and now his brother. Why not drink himself to death, it was better than living the life he was living right now. A knock sounded on the door. Sam grabbed Dean's old sawed off shotgun and put it behind the door before answering it. A girl was standing there. "Here." she said handing papers to Sam. The papers stated that the person who the body belonged to no longer occupied the body. "See I can do the green thing and recycle it's all me in here."
I was really beginning to feel sorry for Sam here he was all upset hating life. Then that stupid bitch Ruby wouldn't leave him alone. The one who promised she could save Dean in the first place. Couldn't she have just left him alone to mourn? Was it really that hard for her to understand what he was going through? Sure she was a demon, but they felt emotions too. I guess it was a good thing they couldn't feel my emotions because at this point I wanted to kill Ruby not understand how she had saved Sam, but I figured I'd let him continue.
Ruby had convinced Sam to use his powers. She had told him it was the only way to get rid of Lilith. Of course Sam wanted revenge, who wouldn't in his shoes? So he started using them and practicing. A demon was tied to a chair under a devil's trap. Sam had a screwed up look on his face trying to concentrate. The demon was being pulled out but then he went right back in. "Come on Sam concentrate." Ruby told him so he tried again. This time he was able to pull the demon out but at the cost of a horrible nose bleed. He wasn't strong enough to do it without hurting himself yet. Ruby got rid of the body as Sam walked back into the building. They started talking about how well it was going and how he would get better the more he practiced. Ruby then kissed Sam and at first he started kissing back. Then he pushed her away and sat down on the couch. "Come on Sam it's all me in here nobody else and I know you want this." Ruby told Sam as she started putting his hands up her shirt. Sam tried to fight it then gave in and put her on his lap kissing her hard and taking her shirt off.
"Whoa that is way too much information." Dean said. "Sorry you asked for detail so." Sam replied. I sat there hiding the anger and the tears. I wasn't really sure what to think of the situation. So far Ruby had manipulated him by using his grief. She had also got him to sleep with her. I was beyond livid. The only thought running through my mind was how to kill her next time I saw her. I was starting to like Sam and what he was telling me made me see red. Ruby didn't know what was coming. First chance I got she was dead, not going back to hell, dead. Dean's feelings on the matter weren't helping either he was also pissed that Ruby was using his brother and didn't see how any of this constituted saving Sam. His anger was feeding mine and I willingly let it happen when I knew I shouldn't of, not when Sam needed my understanding. I stormed into the bathroom slamming the door. I could feel the emotions in the other room. Sam was confused as to why I was mad. Dean on the other hand understood. I sat down on the toilet and tried to calm myself down. I knew it was the best thing to do so that I could be there for Sam and Dean if he needed it after the story was finished. After about ten minutes I calmed down enough to go listen to the rest of the story.
"Listen Sam the signs are showing Lilith is in town." Ruby told him. Sam had already figured this out for himself and planned on going after her. "You aren't strong enough Sam don't do this." Ruby tried to stop him. "Look I'm doing this with or without you Ruby you can't stop me." Sam replied. "This isn't what Dean would want." Ruby tried to reason. Like she could really know what Dean would want. Of course he wouldn't want Sam dead, but he would want revenge just as bad. Sam left any way. He went in the house where Lilith was supposed to be only to get ambushed. Sam was trying his hardest, but there was too many. Ruby showed up and killed one of the other demons giving Sam a chance to save the little girl and get out of there. Sam then came back and using his powers finished off the demon Ruby was having trouble with.
From what I'm gathering she manipulated Sam, used him and then finally saved his life. I still really hate Ruby, but I can see as to why Sam trusts her. He was in a vulnerable place in his life and Ruby was there for him. At least she kept him from killing himself and getting killed. I could feel the understanding coming from Dean. He wasn't going to trust her, but he was thankful for Ruby saving Sam's life. I on the other hand still wanted to kill her and would when the opportunity presented itself.
After Sam had told his story on how that bitch Ruby had "saved him" I was so angry at how he couldn't see that she was using him. Why on Earth would a demon want someone to have the power to send them back to hell without having to say an exorcism? It didn't make any sense to me what so ever, but I buried my anger because right now it would do me no good what so ever. Sam needed me to understand where he was coming from and I was doing my best to do that for him. If Dean could understand then so would I. I think I was having more trouble understanding because I was seeing the things they weren't like her manipulation. Plus I could feel her emotions anytime I was near her and they weren't happy ones about Sam being alive. They felt more like accomplishment and satisfaction. What did she feel so smug about anyway? "Sam I understand what you're saying and how she saved you, but I can't, no scratch that I won't promise you I will be nice. Because if I promise you that and break it I would hate myself and I'm tired of hating myself" I told him.
Before Sam could reply Dean said something to make me laugh, "Man if I had a body like that I could never hate myself" I shook my head and gave him a hug grateful that he had made me forget my anger if only for a moment. "Now Dean did I say I hated my body? Of course not, how could anyone hate on a body like this" I replied. It was Dean and Sam's turn to laugh after that. "I got to say I definitely don't hate it. Of course sometimes it bothers me like when we sleep in the same bed, but hate it no never." Dean said truthfully. And I knew he was being truthful because when I would wake up right before him I could feel his arousal rolling off him in waves. Of course I wasn't going to say anything about it and make it awkward. Although now that I think about it, this is Dean we are talking about. Knowing him if I mentioned that I could feel his arousal he probably would make some snide comment about how I would feel it better in me, thinking I was referring to his cock. Okay just get those thoughts out of your head Cassidy before you embarrass yourself.
"Hey Earth to Cassidy? Whatcha thinking bout over there?" Sam asked. I hadn't realized it but I had completely zoned out after Dean's last comment. Luckily for me a knock sounded at the door. "House keeping," The person said. I looked at the boys a little funny. I was picking up the same feelings I got when I was around Ruby. Also another thing we had just checked in, the room was already clean and we had towels so house keeping shouldn't even be knocking on our door. "Not now." Dean answered. "Sir, I've got clean towels." The person replied. Now I knew something was up because we already had clean towels. Dean then opened the door and said, "Couldn't you leave them at the door." The big black lady ignored what he said and walked into our room like she owned the place. I could feel that he wasn't happy about it in the least little bit and neither was I for that matter. When she walked straight up to Sam and said "I'm at this address." I knew exactly who it was and I went to run straight at her fist raised. Of course Dean and Sam both grabbed me and prevented me from hitting that smug bitch Ruby.
"Cassidy calm down why are you going after the lady?" Sam asked. I looked at him like are you really asking me that right now? "That isn't a lady Sam that's Ruby and I told you I wasn't promising to be nice." I replied. I could then feel his disappointment and I realized that I shouldn't have gone after her at that moment. Of course I didn't regret it, but it was not the time or place we needed to get to Anna to protect her. I nodded letting the boys know it was okay to let me go and sat down on the bed. While I sat there trying to keep myself from killing Ruby because it would kill the poor lady she was in, she told the boys where her and Anna where and to go through the bathroom window. I looked up at that confused why did we need to go through the bathroom window? She then explained that there were demons in the hallway and parking lot. Oh that's why we couldn't just go through the front door.
The boys and I walked through the woods and came upon a cabin. I could feel Ruby and all her nasty smugness. What I wouldn't give to hit that bitch just once, but for now I had to keep my cool. I could also feel Anna's emotions and I still didn't quite understand them. She felt safe which is a good thing, but there was another kind of feeling coming from her that I didn't understand. Maybe it had something to do with her being able to hear the angels. I wasn't sure all I knew was the more I was near her, the more confused I became on what exactly was going on with her. We walked in and Sam asked her how she was. "I'm okay, Ruby isn't like other demons, she saved my life." Anna answered. I wanted to snort at that but I held it in. Not like other demons my ass, she's just better at playing the long game than most from what I can see.
Dean replied with, "Yeah I hear she does that." He then looked at Ruby and said "I guess I uh you know" "What" came Ruby's reply. Bitch you don't have to be so rude he's trying to apologize to your slutty demon ass. Of course for Sam's sake I kept those thoughts to myself, but I made sure to give her looks that could kill if that sort of thing was possible. "I guess I owe you for Sam. I just want to you know." Dean once again tried. "Don't strain yourself." Ruby replied. I snarled at that one not able to hold back again. "Hey I know she was a little rude to Dean, but please don't do anything." Sam whispered is my ear. I nodded my head letting him know I heard. I didn't hear what Dean had said after because I was paying attention to Sam, but I knew it was important.
Anna watched our exchange not saying a word. That is until it was done with and then she asked if it was safe to make a phone call. How were we suppose to tell the poor girl her parents were dead? I knew the pain of hearing those words and I didn't look forward to saying them to her. Sam was the one who told her the bad news and I felt how much it pained him to do so. I walked over and placed my hand on his shoulder offering comfort. However someone needed to comfort Anna as well. Her pain and heartache were practical screaming at me. "Anna I'm so sorry this happened. I know what it's like to loose your parents. I promise though it does get better." I told her. Yes she made me feel weird cause of that one emotion or whatever it was coming off her, but that didn't mean I couldn't say something nice. "They're coming." Anna said which freaked me the hell out not only could she hear the angels, see demon faces, but now she could sense them coming. What was going on with this girl and what did it have to do with the Winchesters and me for that matter?
Then the door flew open, but it wasn't demons it was the angels. I didn't know if I should be happy about that or not. Dean was hoping they were here to help, but something told me that wasn't the case. However I couldn't help but chuckle when Uriel called Ruby a stain. Sam shot me a pointed look and I just shrugged my shoulders. "We're here for Anna." Castiel said. I could hear the threat in his tone. "Are you going to help her?" Sam wanted to know. "She has to die" was Castiel's reply. "Okay yeah the girls is weird and she can hear you guys but kill her, really isn't that a bit extreme?" I asked.