Sam and I dove right into looking for anything we could find to help us. I loved reading and doing research just like Sam; it was something we bonded over. "Here. In March '85, a meteorite vanished in the night sky over northwestern Ohio. It was sighted nine months before Anna was born, and she was born in that part of Ohio" Sam told us. "Yep he's right." I said glancing at what he had been reading. "You're pretty buff for a nerd." Ruby said. I chose to ignore her because a) there is nothing wrong with being a nerd, b) if I didn't I would attack her and now wasn't the time and c) Sam was my nerd buddy. "Look, I think it was Anna and here, same time, another meteor over Kentucky." Sam continued as if Ruby hadn't said anything. It made me smile knowing he was ignoring her as well.
"And that's her grace?" Ruby asked. "It might be." Sam replied. "All right. That just narrows it down to an entire state." Ruby shot back. I gave her the meanest look I could and said, "Way to kill the mood." She ignored me, but I didn't care. "Look, it's a start." Sam told her. And it was a start at least now we didn't have to search the entire United States to try and find it. "Sam...I'm sorry" Ruby said. I raised an eyebrow at that. I knew she wasn't feeling sorry that she was only worried about herself, but calling her out on it wouldn't get me anywhere so I let it go. "For what?" Sam asked. I hated that he couldn't see her for what she was, but she had put on a good show for him and it was going to be hard to convince him otherwise. "For bringing you this mess. If I had known, I would have kept my trap shut" Ruby replied.
"Yeah well we'll muddle through." Sam replied. I nodded and said, "I agree with Sam we always do." Ruby looked at me like I was lower than dirt. "Not this time. You do not want to get between these two armies. It's Godzilla and Mothra. If one side doesn't get us, the other one will" she told Sam. Which things did look bleak, but that was a hunter's life and we always found a way through. "So, what do you want to do? Dump Anna and run? Forget it. Look, I know the angels freak you out." Sam said trying to get her to see our point. I put a hand on his shoulder letting him know I was here for him. "Forget the angels. It's Alastair I'm scared of," Ruby told us. "Uh who's Alastair?" I asked.
"You met him in the church. Practically the grand inquisitor downstairs. Picasso with a razor." Ruby answered. Oh that dick, my head and ribs still hurt thanks to that jackass. I'd like to give him a piece of my mind. "And?" Sam asked. "Yeah he's just another demon what's the big deal?" I asked. "The big deal is he's powerful. And you should pull him out and throw him back in the pit... if you weren't so out of shape" Ruby told Sam. Sure she had answered my question, but she directed her answer to Sam. I growled at her pissed for insulting Sam. He was pretty unhappy with her as well. "Ruby..." he started but she interrupted him. "No, your abilities, you're getting flabby" She told him. Flabby really because he couldn't pull a demon, she considered powerful, out. "Well then how do I tone up?" Sam asked. His anger at her was something I wasn't expecting, but it made me happy. "You know how. You know what you got to do." She told him. I looked back and forth between them wondering what she was talking about. "No, I'm not doing that anymore" Sam told her. "Sam..." she started but Sam interrupted her this time, "I said no." She shook her head and said, "Well, then you better pray that Anna gets her groove back, or we're all dead."
"Sam ignore her, it'll be okay." I told him. He looked up at me and smiled. I grabbed his hand and squeezed while looking him in the eye. "I promise we will get through this. You got me and Dean. Plus we're pretty smart we should be able to find Anna's grace together." I reassured him. He squeezed my hand back and said, "Thank you for being here for me. You make me feel less alone and I haven't felt that way in some time." Sam said. "I feel the same way so you don't have to thank me." I replied. He then stood up and hugged me.
While we were inside researching Dean had took Pamela home and was now outside talking with Anna. "Pamela get home okay?" she asked; which was kind of a dumb question since she wasn't with Dean. "Yeah. She said she was sorry. It's just after last time, she, uh... This is just a little too rich for her blood" Dean answered her. They were both now leaning against the Impala. "I don't blame her. You guys should do the same." Anna told him. "Well, we're not that smart. Can I ask you something? What do they want me for? Why did they save me?" Dean asked. It was a good question and maybe Anna had the answers he was seeking, after all she was an angel. "I'm sorry. The angels aren't talking about it. And it was after I fell." Anna told him. Dean let out a sigh unhappy about what she told him, but it was to be expected. "That's another question. Why would you fall? Why would you want to be one of us?" Dean asked. "You don't mean that." Anna replied. Of course Dean meant it. He had seen just how horrible humanity could be and couldn't fathom why someone would want to be like us. "I don't? A bunch of - of miserable bastards... Eating, crapping, confused, afraid." Dean said.
After that their conversation went back and forth starting with Anna, "I don't know. There's loyalty... forgiveness... love" "Pain" "Chocolate cake" "Guilt" "Sex" "Okay ya got me there." Dean said. And of course she did because Dean absolutely loved sex. "I mean it. Every emotion, Dean, even the bad ones... It's why I fell. It's why... why I'd give anything not to have to go back. Anything." Anna told him and she meant it too. Sure there were bad things about being human, but she preferred it. "Feelings are overrated, if you ask me." Dean said. And he did feel that way because he had never had the chance to form feelings for someone other than family. "Beats being an angel," Anna told him.
Dean was very confused at her answer and said, "How's that possible? You guys are powerful and perfect. You don't doubt yourselves or God or anything" Anna looked at him and sighed. "Perfect... Like a marble statue. Cold... no choice... only obedience. Dean, do you know how many angels have actually seen God? Seen his face?" Anna asked. Of course he really had no clue, after all until recently he didn't believe in the angels and had questioned God. "All of you?" his reply was more of a question than an answer. "Four angels. Four. And I'm not one of them." She told him. "That's it? Well, then how do you even know that there is a God?" Dean asked.
It was a good question too because if they hadn't seen him how were humans suppose to believe? "We have to take it on faith... Which we're killed if we don't have." Anna told him. Man that was harsh death for not believing was way too extreme. "I was stationed on earth 2,000 years. Just... watching... silent... invisible... out on the road... sick for home... waiting on orders from an unknowable father I can't begin to understand. So don't tell me that..." Anna gets interrupted by Dean's laugh.
"What is so funny? What?" Anna asked. "Nothing, sorry it's just I can relate." Dean told her as we walked up. " Hey." Sam and I said once we reached them. "You find anything?" Dean asked us. "We think so." Sam replied
Sam, Dean, Anna, and I walked back into Bobby's so we could show them what we found. Once in the house we went to the library and showed Dean the article Sam had found on the internet. "Union, Kentucky. Found some accounts of a local miracle" Sam said. "And in our line of work where there are miracles there is always something going down." I put in. "Ain't that the truth." Dean agreed. "Yeah, in '85, there was an empty field outside of town. Six months later, there was a full-grown oak. They say it looks a century old at least." Sam informed us. Man if we could get stuff to grow that quick all the time we would be rich.
Dean was curious about the whole thing and wanted Anna's input. "Anna, what do you think?" he asked her. She looked at us and slightly shrugged saying, "The grace. Where it hit, it could have done something like that, easy." I smiled happy that Sam and I were on the right track. We needed a win after everything that had been going on lately and this seemed to be heading that way. "So grace ground zero, it's not destruction. It's..." Dean started and Anna finished, "It's creation." Well isn't that interesting the guys that we had met seemed hell bent on destruction but grace, the thing that gave them power, was capable of creation. "Wow that's amazing. Let's just hope it's still there." I told the guys. They agreed with me before we all went out side and got in the Impala.
Dean was driving with Sam in the front. I was stuck in the back with Ruby and Anna, which I promise you I was not happy about in the least little bit. Anna was unsure how to feel about the prospect of getting her grace back while Ruby just hoped it worked so she would be safe. Sam was feeling a little sorry for me knowing that while I got along with Anna I didn't exactly feel comfortable with her; and that while I was playing nice I still didn't like Ruby. I could feel Dean's amusement and then he looked in the rear-view mirror and laughed. "What's so funny?" I asked while Ruby said, "What?" Dean shook his head and smiled at us before answering, "Nothing. It's just an angel, a demon, and a hunter riding in the backseat. It's like the setup to a bad joke... or a Penthouse Forum letter." I couldn't help but laugh. "Dude...reality...porn." Sam told him. "Well yeah it would never happen, but he does make a good point Sam." I told said. Sam rolled his eyes at me and didn't say another word.
We arrived at the huge oak where Anna's grace was supposed to be and I was amazed. It really was a beautiful sight and in a sense it was a miracle since grace created it. Anna and Dean got out and walked to the tree. I stayed in the car with the door open so I could still hear their conversation. "It's beautiful." Dean said. I could feel his amazement as well as his appreciation for its beauty. "I have to agree with him it is pretty amazing." I told Sam. He looked back at me and smiled his eyes alight with his wonder and appreciation, but I wasn't 100 percent sure it was directed at the miracle we were witnessing. "You're right it is beautiful." Sam said.
I almost blushed knowing Sam was talking about me; his compliment while veiled was sincere and I wasn't use to that. Most of the time when guys complimented me they only wanted one thing, Sam wasn't like that though, he actually cared about how I felt and it made me as giddy as a kid in a candy shop. "It's where the grace touched down, I can feel it." Anna told Dean. Sam and I got out of the car at that point to help them look for Anna's grace we needed to do this sooner rather than later. "You ready to do this?" Sam asked. I could feel Anna's trepidation and gave her a reassuring smile. "Not really," she replied. I couldn't blame her; she had run from that life and now was searching it out to protect herself and others. "What are we even looking for?" Sam asked. It was a good question considering we couldn't find it without knowing. Anna walked up to the tree, placed her hand on it, and closed her eyes. "It doesn't matter. It's not here. Not anymore. Someone took it." Anna told us. Well piss that's not good at all. We all got back in the car and left trying to think of a plan b.
Dean drove us back to the cabin we were staying in before going to Bobby's. "So what now?" I asked. I was truly hoping one of the boys had another plan. Hell at this point I might have even listened to a plan from that bitch, Ruby. Everyone was upset about Anna's grace being gone and they all felt worried about what was going to happen next. "We still got the hex bags. I say we head back to the panic room." Dean said. "What, forever?" Ruby asked. "I'm just thinking out loud." Dean replied. Ruby looked at him like he was stupid which pissed me off. I was so tired of her thinking she was better than everyone. Why couldn't I send her ass back to hell already? Oh yeah because Sam trusts her and I care about him deeply.
"You call that thinking?" Ruby asked. "Hey it's more than you're coming up with." I defended Dean. Dean was grateful for my defense and I smiled at him letting him know it wasn't a big deal. "Hey! Hey, hey, hey. Stop it" Sam shouted. He was trying to get us to stop arguing so we could come up with a plan, and I understood that; arguing wasn't going to help us. "Anna's grace is gone. You understand? She can't angel up. She can't protect us. We can't fight Heaven and Hell. One side maybe, but not both. Not at once." Ruby told us. Right like we couldn't have figured that out on our own; we aren't stupid. "Well no duh." I said sarcastically.
"Um... guys? The angels are talking again" Anna informed us. "Oh goody." I said under my breath. Sam was sitting beside me and put his hand on my knee for comfort whether for me or him I wasn't sure. "What are they saying?" Sam asked. This ought to be good; they had been quiet way too long. "It's weird... like a recording... a loop. It says, 'Dean Winchester gives us Anna by midnight, or..." Anna started before Dean interrupted, "Or what?" "...or we hurl him back to damnation' "Anna finished. I looked at Dean surprised and then Sam with worry. "Would they really do that?" I asked. Sam squeezed my knee and replied; "We won't let them" I nodded letting him know I heard him. He then turned to Anna. "Anna...Do you know of any weapon that works on an angel?" She looked at him wondering what he meant. "To what? To kill them?" She asked. Sam nodded his head letting her know that was exactly what he meant. "Nothing we could get to right now." She told him.
Well damn even if there wasn't a weapon what were we supposed to do? Last thing Sam and I wanted was for Dean to be thrown back to hell. Of course I wasn't keen on Anna being killed either it just didn't seem fair. "Okay, wait, wait. I say we call Bobby. We get him back from hedonism" Dean said. While I would feel better having another hunter with us, I don't think Bobby would be of much use. "What's he gonna tell us that we don't already know Dean?" Sam questioned. "I don't know but we got to do something." He replied. Dean went outside to be by himself, Anna followed not long after, but I didn't say anything. Sam had gone to the bathroom and Ruby left.
"Where'd Ruby go?" Sam asked as he came back to the living room. "She didn't say but maybe she has a plan." I told Sam. He looked at me and smiled before sitting down on the couch beside me. He turned toward me our knees touching and I could feel his longing as well as his caring and acceptance. My arousal shot through the roof from just that small bit of contact. "I know you're worried and I don't blame you. Dean and I have been hunting for years and never had to deal with something like this before." Sam told me. I smiled, laced our fingers together and replied. "It's not because I haven't been hunting long and I feel overwhelmed." Sam looked at me confused before asking. "Well what is it then?" I sighed and answered, "I care about you guys a lot and I don't want to lose you. I've been through the pain of losing the one you care about most and I don't want to go through that again." I was rubbing the side of his hand with my thumb and looking down.
Sam used his other hand to push my chin up and make me look him in the eyes. "I care about you a lot too and I don't want to lose you either. Unfortunately that's the life we live. Thing is the past few weeks my feelings for you have changed. I know you can feel that I want you. And since we might not have another chance to be together I want you to know now." Sam told me. And yes I could feel how his feelings had been changing over the past few weeks but I wanted him to come to me about it instead of me invading his privacy anymore by bringing it up. "Honestly Sam I feel the same way." I told him.
After I had admitted my feelings for him Sam leaned in and kissed me. His hand that had been holding mine slowly crept down to my waist while his other tangled in my hair at the back of my head. I let my hands rest on his chest and could feel his racing heart as well as his powerful muscles. His lips were so soft and I loved the feel of them on mine. Sam's tongue soon licked my lips as if asking for entrance which I granted. We sat there kissing for a few minutes before he gently laid me back on the couch. Sam kept one hand on my waist while he used his other to hold himself up. I ran my hands under his shirt feeling his muscles quiver at the touch. We soon broke apart so I could take his shirt off. I looked at him admiring how gorgeous he was before he bent down and started kissing my neck.
He slightly nipped the right spot causing me to let out a moan. Sam came back up and kissed me again. I was rubbing my hands all over his body enjoying the feel of him, but I wanted more. I sat up a little and broke our kiss so I could take off my shirt and bra. Once it was off I lay back and continued kissing him. He broke the kiss to trail kisses along my jaw-line, down my neck, across my collarbone and finally reached my chest. He took my left nipple in his mouth, gently sucking and twirling his tongue around it. I moaned and arched my back in pleasure. Sam took the hand that wasn't holding him up and starting rubbing my other breast with rolling the nipple in between his thumb and index finger. I was in heaven and we hadn't even got to the sex itself.
Sam switched nipples after a few minutes so that both got the same attention. I ran my hands through his hair and over his body while moaning in pleasure. He let my right nipple pop out of his mouth before trailing kisses down my stomach when he got to my belly button he dipped his tongue in and then continued. Once he reached my pants he undone them and I arched my back to help him slide them and my underwear off. He then laid his head on my right thigh and blew out air on my sex. I shuddered and moaned out, "Please Sam." He decided not to tease me and used his hand to pull my lips apart so he could flick his tongue against my clit. I closed my eyes and groaned at how good it felt. Sam continued to lick my clit while sliding a finger into me. It didn't take long for me to be close to the edge and Sam knew I was right there. He began to lick faster causing me to tumble over the edge. My body tensed and quivered as my release hit me.
Sam slid back up my body once my orgasm was over and kissed me again. I helped him out of his jeans without every breaking the kiss. Sam pulled back once he was completely undressed and looked me in the eyes. I nodded letting him know he could go ahead. He thrust his cock in me slowly letting me get used to him since it had been so long since my last time. Once he was all the way in he stopped for a few seconds before he started to slowly thrust in and out. "Please Sam faster." I begged. He complied and sped up his thrusts. We began to moan together loving the feel of how close we were. I could feel his pleasure as well as my own and it pushed me over the edge again. My sex tightening around his cock was his undoing. Sam came not long after me and laid his head on my shoulder for a few minutes. Sam and I cuddled up on the couch the best we could and got some sleep.