Hey guys! I know it's been like… forever! But hey, that's what cegep does to my life! I had three of the biggest exams of my semester this week, and they all went well, so now I'm giving myself a little break from all the study, and I decided to translate the next chapter of my story! I gotta say it's more interesting that biology and English! Maybe not as interesting as my advanced calculus class, but hey! (I know I'm crazy!) :P No but seriously, I hope you all enjoy this new chapter! :)
Officer McNally. Good lunch? Tasty Dessert?
I'm sorry I'm late, sir.
My eyes where stuck on the two rookies that were fighting only a few meters in front of me when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I quickly turned, curious to see who was behind me.
"Sam, can I talk to you a minute?" Said Noelle while taking her hand off my shoulder, pointing the door that leaded outside where we could talk without having to scream like we were doing just now.
"Absolutely" I said, asking myself what was so important that she had felt the need to come and talk to me tonight, while everybody was more preoccupied by partying than talking.
I followed her out and closed the door behind me, leaving all the noises coming from the fights that were still going on inside. The woman in front of me took a few more steps to remove us from the curious ears that could be around and I looked at her with a puzzled face.
"Where were you all night?" I asked her, realizing that I hadn't seen her at fight night.
"I was with Andy" she said, looking around to be sure that nobody was close enough to ear us.
"Where is she now?" I asked, suddenly thinking that I hadn't seen her for more than an hour.
"That's in fact what I wanted to talk to you about" she said softly, her eyes serious again.
I was starting to worry a bit and I raised my eyebrows, silently asking her to explain me what had happened that was that important.
"We went to answer a call from the woman that McNally took care today. You know, the case of domestic abuse?" she started explaining, waiting for me to agree with her before continuing.
I nodded and told her to continue.
"Well, the husband was released and he went to see his wife. You know McNally, she wanted to go see her to be sure that she wouldn't go back to the man that was beating her, and so I went with her" she continued before pausing again.
"Yes, but I don't understand what is so important in that situation?" I replied, starting to be little impatient, after all, I really wanted to do the best of this night, just like everybody who was still inside.
"When we got there, the woman was already going back with her husband" she said, looking at me with a strange look.
"Okay, that's sad, but unfortunately, it is often like that with those cases" I assured her, wondering why someone who had done this job for several years now could still be moved by those kind of things.
"I know that Sam, I've done this job long enough, that's not the problem; it's about Andy. She seemed to take it pretty much personal" she replied while I was finally starting to see what she was worried about. "And when the woman told her that she couldn't understand, she replied that in fact, she knew really well the situation in which she was" finally said Noelle.
"And you think that something happened?" I asked her, not quite knowing what she was expecting from me by telling me this.
"I don't know, I just thought that I should talk to you about it, after all, you seemed to have been partnered up with her a lot in the last few weeks, and that maybe you would want to know. She didn't look like she was feeling that well when I left her at the station, but you know, me and those big emotional conversations" said Noelle while raising her hands.
"What makes you think that I love those kinds of conversations more than you do?" I asked, using the same excuse that she just used.
"Sam, really, do you think I'm that blind? Even in a few little weeks I saw that there was something between you and her, I'm not saying that I approve it, but maybe she needs to talk tonight" she said finally before turning back to the building behind us.
She wished me a nice evening and she went back inside. My eyes followed her until she disappeared to join the others while I stayed outside in the warm air of this spring evening. I took the bridge of my nose between my fingers, wondering what I should do with the information that she had just given me.
Yes, it was true that I had some kind of attraction towards McNally, and normally we weren't supposed to have relationships with our rookies, but it just seemed like I couldn't get her out of my head. Never.
It was more than a simple sexual attraction, and even more than a certain desire to protect her because she was my partner. However, tonight I really didn't know what I was going to do. I wanted to go see her and ask her how she was, but I knew that I probably wouldn't be able to stop myself from wanting to take her in my arms. If what Noelle said to me appeared to be true, I knew that I would just want to hold her and promise her that I would take care of her. And being her training officer, I wasn't allowed to do that.
I was still lost in my thoughts when Jerry got out of fight club and came to see me. I looked at him, trying to hide the concerns that were still tormenting me.
"Do you wanna come take a last drink at the Penny?" he asked while getting close to me.
"I don't know, I was thinking about going home" I said, not mentioning that I was probably going to see McNally instead.
"Come on, just one drink! I'm buying!" he said before walking to his car that was parked a little further than mine.
"Just one then" I finally said before walking toward my truck too.
After all, it would give me the time to think about what I was going to do with this entire McNally story.
I crossed my arms, leaning against the top of the bar while Jerry finished telling me about this case that happened today. I nodded smiling; pretending to be listening to his chatter while I was in fact busy playing in loops in my head what I had finally decided to do.
If Andy came to the bar, I would go see her, and if not, well I would just simply go home. I didn't know which option I was loving the most, but at least this way I would stop torturing myself with was good or not.
The bar door suddenly opened and I turned towards it a few seconds later to see who had just came in. I saw her instantly; she was wearing a nice tank top that was highlighting her perfect shape, her shoulders and her arms. She was wearing a pair of jeans which, I confess, she wore very well.
I followed her with my eyes while she was crossing the room, obviously looking for someone, and that's when I saw Luke a little further to my right. I never really liked that guy, I said to myself as Andy was waking closer to him. I didn't let her out of my sight as she was talking to him, and I would've given a lot of thing to know what they were talking about.
She smiled to him, and I couldn't stop myself from wanting to be at Luke's place, to be the one who she was smiling to. I finally turned my eyes back to the bar while he was signaling the barman for a drink for her.
I had never thought that seeing her with another man would be this hard, but right now, I would've really liked to be the one who was buying her a drink. I turned back to Jerry, trying to understand what he was now talking about, and I nodded to I don't know which question he had just asked me.
"It looks like McNally just got dumped by mister the perfect detective" said Jerry a few minutes later, and I turned to look at the woman in question.
She looked at Luke while he was walking towards the door before finishing her drink in one sip. She turned to the door as well a couple of seconds later. Apologizing to Jerry, I hurried to follow her through the crowed bar, finally getting to her while she was exiting the bar.
"So your boyfriend abandoned you?" I asked when I got close to her.
She turned quickly and when she saw it was me, she raised her eyes to the sky.
"First of all, he's not my boyfriend, and second of all, they just found 5 dead bodies in a disaffected building and it's probably linked with the case that Luke's been working on, so he had to leave" she answered me on a harsher tone that I was used to.
"If I had the chance to offer a beautiful lady like you a drink I wouldn't have run off to go see I don't know which cadaver" I said while offering her one of my charming smile.
"Did you have something more important than that to say to me, Sam?" She asked me with an annoyed look, even if I was able to see that she was not completely indifferent to what I had just said.
"I was just wondering if you needed a ride home" I lied while getting my keys out of my pocket.
"Thanks, I was going to walk" she just said, joining the gesture to support her words and starting to walk towards the street.
I silently followed her before finally sitting on one of the bench that were facing the sidewalk, waving my hand for her to come and join me. She sat down next to me, not without rolling her eyes and giving me a look who was asking me what on earth I wanted from her.
"Noelle told me what happened tonight" I started slowly, looking at her reaction while she was processing what I had just said to her.
"So what?" she replied trying to hide how all of this had affected her earlier in the evening.
"So I was wondering how you were holding up" I just said in a voice that I wanted steady.
"I'm fine" she said turning her eyes away from mine.
"McNally, I'm starting to know you a little better, and I know that you're not as fine as you would want me to believe" I said while sliding my hand under her chin, forcing her to turn back to me.
"It was just a lot of bad memories, I would've really wanted her to take the help that we were offering instead of going back to this jerk that she has for husband" she said shaking her head, looking at her hands that she had joined together before placing her elbows on her knees, leaning forward.
"It's not your fault, you wanted to help her, but she wasn't there yet" I said while placing my left hand on her shoulder as she sighed.
"It makes me sick" she said turning head to look at me, leaning into her hand.
I saw her eyes shining with the tears that she was preventing from running on her cheeks. I would've wanted so badly to take her in my arms and hold her close to me, tell her that it was over, that everything was going to be alright. But I just continued to gently caress her shoulder with the tips of my fingers.
We stayed silent for a few moments before she finally decided to speak again.
"I mean, I once was in a situation like hers, and I would've really wanted someone to come and help me, but I had to make it alone, and her? She could've stayed there, but she decided to foolishly jump back into his arm like everything was going to change. I don't understand" she finished before raising her eyes to look at the starry sky.
"You're not alone anymore Andy" I simply said, not being able anymore to resist the temptation to slide my hand in her back softly.
She nodded and plunged her big brown eyes into mine. They were glimmering with tears and I couldn't help but be completely saddened by those eyes. She blinked and a tear escaped from the corner of her eye while she finally lowered her eyes, as if she feared not being able to stay strong if I continued looking at her like that.
Before I even realized I was doing it, my hand was on her cheek, and I softly dried off the little droplet of water with the tip of my thumb. I was totally attracted by this woman and I felt myself being drawn almost imperceptibly to her, my eyes dropping to her lips before returning my gaze to hers.
"Sam…" she started saying while backing off a little. "I can't, I just told myself that for once in my life I would pick the right guy for me" she explained, looking at my reaction.
I felt hurt by those words more than I thought I would be as I realized what this phrase meant. I wasn't the good guy to her, she preferred staying with Luke.
"And I'm not a good guy?" I only asked my voice a little more harsh than I would've wanted.
"I don't know…" she answered while biting her inferior lip, I could almost see her weight the pros and the cons while she was silent.
"Stop thinking that much" I started. "Who's there with you tonight?"
"You, but…"she tried to say before I interrupted her.
"And where's Luke? I continued.
"He went to work but it isn't…"
"There aren't any "buts" or excuses, there are only facts, and in the facts, I do not like seeing you like that, at all" I said with a half-smile, trying to convince her.
"Okay" she said in a small voice.
"There is no good or bad boy in this situation, but I can tell you for sure that there's one that is here with you now, and that would give anything to not see you sad" I finished in a breath as she closed her eyes.
I felt her shiver while she acquiesced slowly, nodding her head before opening her eyes again, looking at me. I slide my right hand in her hair, getting closer and closer to her, offering her a heartfelt smile. She smiled back. It wasn't a big smile like the one she had given to Luke, but it was a smile full of promises that told me she understood what I had said to her.
Bringing my hand back on her cheek, I slowly caressed her lips with the tip of my fingers, feeling arise in me something that I had not felt for a long time. She seemed so vulnerable right now, and I imagined that it was like torture for her to let down those barriers and to let me see her like this.
Erasing the space between us, I got a little more close to her, sliding my nose against hers in a light caress, before lightly bringing my mouth to her lips. I stayed there a few seconds, trying to make her understand in the best way I could that I would always be there for her, even if I wasn't really looking like the "good" guy.
When I was done kissing her and I had moved back, she leaned in again, kissing me for a second time, always ever so gently. She finally moved a little away from my lips and she rested her head on my shoulder, and I felt like this spot had always been made for her. I put my arm around her shoulder, cuddling her against me.
I kissed the top of her head slightly before letting my cheek rest on it, my fingers caressing her left arm. She sighed slightly from something that I imagined was well-being, and I closed my eyes, enjoying the heat of our embrace in the freshness of the night which was now well installed. I felt like we were alone in the world, and I would've given everything I had for this moment to continue on forever…
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