Sam's large frame was nowhere in the hall when I followed after. I watched him get into a car with Ruby and jumped in the Escalade we had stole before and quietly followed. I did my best to stay back so they didn't notice me. Last thing I needed was for them to take off and lose me; I had never chased anyone before. I parked the car a distance from theirs and walked toward them. "Look, I know what I gotta do. It's okay, I'm just saying, Dean's better off as far away from me as possible. Cassidy too for that matter. Anyways. Doesn't matter, let's just get this done with," Sam said as I walked up. They went to climb in the car so I jogged up grabbing Sam's hand. I could feel his surprise and Ruby's anger. I ignored her and focused on Sam. "Don't you say that Sam Winchester. We are not better off away from you," I told him. I pulled his hand and put it on my chest. "You feel that?" I asked. He nodded his head. "Before you I thought my heart had quit working Sam. I know you think you've become a monster, but I know you love me and that tells me you aren't a monster. Cause monsters don't know how to love. And I love you more than I thought possible," I said. Sam's eyes began to water as he pulled me in for a kiss. All the sadness and anger from his fight with Dean and his love for me poured into that kiss. I held him tight letting him know I wasn't letting go anytime soon. We all climbed into the car and headed for the hospital.
Sam used his powers to pull the nurse toward us and slam her into a wall. "So. We need to talk," Sam told her calmly. We took her with us back to the farmhouse cellar for interrogation. A small fire was lit in the corner providing warmth and light to the room. I hung back staying out of the way; torture wasn't my thing. "What, no devil's trap?" the demon asked as she struggled. "I don't need one," Sam replied. Watching him made me wonder if demon blood made his powers stronger would angel blood do the same to me? Not that I wanted to try it and find out I was just curious. "Look at you - all 'roided up. It's like A-Rod and Madonna over here. And little angel in the outfield watching," the demon mocked. "Where's Lilith?" Sam asked. "I'm not scared of you," the demon replied. Sam looked at me and I nodded my head letting him know she was. "Yeah, you are, actually. And with good reason," Sam told her. "Look... what's my upside? Okay, I tell you, you kill me. I don't tell you, you still kill me. I get away somehow, Lilith will definitely kill me. So where's my carrot?" she enquired. She honestly thought we should give her something for the information? Like that was going to happen. "I think what you should be worrying about is what happens before you die," Sam told her. He held his hand up and began to concentrate. The demon on the table began to writhe and scream in agony. It hit me for a moment, but then I took a deep breath and concentrated; I knew what she felt, but didn't feel it myself anymore.
The demonic nurse continued to scream in absolute agony. After awhile I had put my ear phones in listening to music to block it out. "Stop! Stop! Please!" she begged. I took my ear phones out noticing she was talking. "You'll tell me where she is?" Sam asked. "Fine. Fine. Just... let me die," she pleaded with him. Sam dropped his hand ending the torture. "Deal," he told her. "Tomorrow night, midnight. She's gonna be at a convent - St. Mary's, Ilchester, Maryland," the demon said breathing heavy. "A convent?" Sam questioned curiously. "Lilith... She's gonna break the final seal," the demon explained. "And what is the final seal?" Sam questioned. "I don't know," she replied. Sam began to torture her again making me squirm. I really didn't like this side of him. I hated how Ruby made him like this. As soon as Lilith was gone I was killing that bitch and that's final. "Aaaah! I don't know! I don't know! I don't know! I swear! Please! I'm begging you. Kill me, please!" she screamed in pain. "Fine," Sam said reaching his hand out to kill her. "Wait. You can't," Ruby stopped him. "Why not?" Sam asked. "Because we've got to take her with us. It's the final run on the Death Star, and you need more juice than I got," Ruby said.
Wait does she mean what I think she means? "You mean for him to drain her?" I asked. She looked at me smirking. "Yep she's a walking, talking can of whup-ass," Ruby replied. "You promised," the demon said. "I know. Just can't trust anyone these days," Ruby told her. "Tell me about it," I said looking her dead in the eye. "Well, least you won't be able to crack me open that easy," the demon said confusing me. "That so?" Ruby asked. "Don't forget - it's not just me you're bleeding. In fact, I think I'm gonna take a little... siesta in the subconscious - hand over the wheel for a little bit," she replied. I looked at Sam in confusion knowing he was just as confused. "What are you talking about?" Sam asked. "Cindy McClellan, R.N., come on down!" the demon yelled closing her eyes and relaxing. "What..." she lets out a groan "Where am I?" she struggled to get free "Oh, my god, I can't move. What's going on? Help! Help me, please," she begged. "Great," Ruby said annoyed.
Back in the motel Sam started reaching the convent. "You got to be kidding me," Sam said at the same time I said, "Damn. "What?" Ruby asked. I was standing behind him my arms resting on his shoulders reading the laptop along with him. "Get this. St. Mary's - abandoned in '72 after a priest disemboweled eight nuns," Sam read the article out-loud. "What's black and white and red all over?" Ruby joked. I snarled at her not enjoying the joke one bit. "That's not funny. The priest said it wasn't his fault. He said a demon made him do it. And that he even remembered the demon's name," Sam continued to read. "Yeah?" Ruby questioned. "Azazel," Sam replied. "Wow. So, Lilith, Yellow-Eyes - all the A-listers are paying visits. Certainly gives the joint credibility," Ruby said. I nodded my head in agreement then shuddered in disgust; can't believe I agree with her. "As a place where the final seal goes down," Sam said. "Well, it's good enough for me. Let's pack up Nurse Betty and hit the road," Ruby said making me frown. I didn't like the idea of them killing this woman for Sam to drink her blood. "Hey, maybe, um... look," Sam started. "What?" Ruby interrupted. "M-maybe we can find another demon," Sam told her. "Sam, no. That blubbery 'don't hurt me' crap - it's just an act. She's playing you," Ruby told him. "No she isn't trust me," I said. "Even if she's not, there's still a hell-bitch snoozing in there. I mean, come on. It's not like you haven't done this before, right?" Ruby questioned. "This is a little different we never had to hear the pleas of the innocent being possessed before," I told her. Sam looked at me then Ruby. "She's right Ruby that's an innocent woman," he told her. "You do realize if he doesn't do this Lucifer will be free. Who knows how many people he will kill. Is one life really more important than the rest of humanity?" Ruby questioned.
I hated how right she was. I never thought I would see the day I would be willing to sacrifice an innocent. It made me feel dirty and sick to my stomach. I sat in the car as Sam drug Cindy from the farmhouse and toward the car. Sam's hatred for himself at having to do this was overwhelming. I curled into myself and held back a sob. I was supposed to be helping Sam get past this not sitting back allowing him to kill this woman. I just didn't know what to do because as much as it pained me to admit it Ruby had a point; it's the lives of the many versus the lives of the one. "No. Please don't. Just listen to me, okay? My name is Cindy McClellan. I'm a nurse in the NICU over at Enfield Memorial. I have a husband named Matthew, okay? We've been married six years. He's got to be worried sick about me. And I don't even know who you are, and I'm not gonna tell anybody anything. Please just let me go," Cindy begged as Sam brought her closer to the car. He opened the trunk and she started screaming, "No! No! Please, no! Please—" Sam shoved her in and shut it muffling her cry, "—Help"
Ruby was driving down the road Sam sitting in the passenger seat staring at his phone; Dean had left him a voicemail. "What are you - a 12-year-old girl? Just play it already," Ruby told him. "Mind your own business," Sam and I said. Cindy once again thumped against the trunk screaming to be let out. "God, I wish she would just shut up," Sam said. "I don't get it. All the demons you cut with the knife - what do you think happens to the host? How is this any different?" Ruby questioned. Didn't I explain that to her earlier? "Is that supposed to make me feel better?" Sam asked. I ran my hand through his hair trying to calm him. "I know that you're having a tough time here, Sam, but we're in the final lap here. Now is not the time to grow a persqueeter," Ruby griped. Sam isn't the only one having a tough time, but I'm finding it hard to find a way out of this; we have to
stop Lilith. "Would you drop the friggin' attitude? I'm about to bleed and drink an innocent woman. While she watches," Sam replied aggravated. "And save the world as a result," Ruby told him. "I don't know. I-I just... I'm starting to think... maybe Dean was right," Sam said looking down at his lap. "About what?" Ruby asked. "About everything," Sam replied. I wrapped my arms around him from the back doing my best to hug him. "We're gonna see this through, right, Sam? Sam?" Ruby questioned.
I sent her a glare. "You shut that trap for once," I said turning toward Sam. I put my mouth next to his ear and whispered, "Dean is not right. If you were a monster you would have no problem killing that woman. And I know it pains you to have to do it. It hurts me knowing you have to. Do I agree with what you are doing? No, but I promised you I would always be there and if that means letting you drink demon blood so you can kill Lilith and stop the apocalypse then so be it. I love you Sam and we will get through this." Sam pulled my hand to his lips and kissed. "Marry me," he said catching me completely off guard. I didn't think I had heard him right, no I couldn't have. Earlier he said being as far from him as possible was the best thing and now he's asking me to marry him. "What?" I asked confused. Completely ignoring the fact Ruby was there he turned in the seat and looked me in the eyes. "If we make it out of this marry me," he said. I looked at him in surprise. "I'm serious. You've seen me at my worst and are still willing to be here with me. I love you with everything in me and as hunters we aren't promised tomorrow so I'm asking now. If we survive killing Lilith will you marry me?" Sam asked. I had tears pouring from my eyes only this time they were happy ones. "Yes Sam. If we survive I would love to marry you," I replied.
We stood by the car staring at a sign that reads St. Mary's Convent—2 miles. Cindy was still screaming in the trunk of the car. Sam let out a sigh still upset about having to do this. I grabbed his hand threading my fingers through his. "It'll be okay I promise," I told him. Sam pulled his phone from his pocket to and looked at it. He hit the button to play Dean's voicemail. "Listen to me, you bloodsucking freak. Dad always said I'd either have to save you or kill you. Well, I'm giving you fair warning. I'm done trying to save you. You're a monster, Sam - a vampire. You're not you anymore. And there's no going back," it said. Sam's heart broke and I squeezed his hand in comfort. How could Dean say something like that to Sam? I couldn't believe it…no I refused to believe it. Something seemed off about that voicemail and I planned to find out what. "Do it," Sam told Ruby as I pulled out my phone calling Dean. It was all static and I knew something was I was right; something is off, but what?
Sam rounded the corner in the convent and Lilith slammed the door between them. He didn't let that deter him though as he stalked forward and opened the door. As soon as he was in the room he flung his hand out forcing Lilith into the altar and onto the ground. Sam and Ruby advanced while I hung back knowing if I was in the room Sam would be distracted. I didn't want him to die because he lost concentration. Sam flung his hand out again forcing Lilith against the altar. I looked beside me hearing footsteps it was Dean. Maybe now I could get to the bottom of that voicemail. Before I could say a word the door to the sanctuary slammed shut. "What's going on Dean?" I asked. "Lilith isn't breaking the seal. She is the seal," he told me. My eyes widened as I ran for the door and started pounding on it, but it wouldn't budge. "Sam!" Dean yelled. I could feel Ruby's excitement. That bitch, I knew she had been playing Sam all along. She wasn't trying to stop Lilith she was trying to make sure Sam killed her. Dean grabbed a large candelabra and began to beat on the door trying to bust it down.
The door finally gave way and Dean pulled the angel blade handing it over and pulled the demon blade for himself. This was a long time coming we both wanted her dead. "You're too late," Ruby said smugly. "I don't care," Dean said as we advanced toward her. Sam stood up and grabbed her from behind giving Dean and I the chance to stab her. She flickered white and then crumbled to the floor dead; finally. "I'm sorry," Sam said sounding so broken. I grabbed his hand to pull him out of there as Dean said, "Sammy, let's go." A brilliant white light shot into the air and the convent began to tremble. Sam grabbed a hold of me tight pulling me in between him and Dean. Dean was holding Sam's jacket tight making me into a sandwich. "Dean, Cassidy…he's coming," Sam said. Another bright light flashed and then everything turned black.
I regret to announce that this is the end. I can't believe I've finally finished this. But I'm so happy with how it's turned out. I hope all of you have enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. Please comment if you have. Also just so you know there will be a sequel. I already have the name figured out it's Keeping Love Alive