When Eyal was first waking up in the morning he felt he must still be dreaming. He seemed to remember that Annie had shown up the day before and that they had talked about so many things, from her trying to process how a Russian spy who had one day been trying to kill her best friend could have suddenly turned into an ally. How Joan had not been willing to back her up when she found out about her heart condition, but had gladly accepted her help and let her put her life on the line when Auggie was in jeopardy and now had asked her to come back to work with her.
They had also talked about more personal things – her relationship with Ryan and how he had backed her up in the field when she needed him and been incredibly supportive of her decisions. Yet what had troubled her was the feeling that he didn't truly understand how conflicted she felt about the life of a spy. How she could on the one hand be so good at it and yet ask herself as often as she did if it was really worth it. She could not marry him if he could not understand that part of her.
Eyal had wondered briefly if he should tell her about him and Ronit, the last time he had tried in Istanbul he had some trouble finding the right words. But he realized that he owed it to her and also that she was the person most likely to understand, seeing that she always looked for the good in people and her empathy was boundless. And she did understand – his situation was not so different from hers after all, Ronit even after all the years that she had known him had trouble understanding his fears and doubts.
When he finally dared to open his eyes and saw her curled up in his arms he could not suppress a smile.