So don't say I am not loyal to reviewers! I got a request to add a new chapter as the last one seemed unfinished. I also want to apologize for spelling errors in the story, I type these on my phone and spell check kind of hated me and warps every other word I type -_- Also I would go back and change the errors, but I am still new at the fan fiction world and I fear if I tried to edit the story I would somehow erase it! Also, thank you for everyone who has reviewed, followed, and even favorited this story! Don't forget about me! You can check out my Harry Potter AND Avenger fics anytime! And maybe another Hunger Games one in the future! -oooooh
PS anyone know how to switch a story from in progress to complete? Thanks!
The next morning I am all to ready to leave, and I am trying to get us out of here early so that we can say bye to Cinna at the train station. The original plan had been to say goodbye to him last night, but after coming here I am in no hurry to return, so I would feel better about seeing him again before we part for an undetermined amount of time. The kids are not overly excited to see him again, but Rose, at least, understands Cinna is somehow important to me and does not protest when she learns we will be seeing him again. It's not that they don't like him, it's simply that they still are not used to dealing with new people... Maybe we should come here more, for them.
I pull Rose into my lap while Peeta finishes packing our suitcase, and I run a brush through her hair before I begin braiding it. "Mommy, why are we seeing Cinna again?" She asks me sweetly. "We'll he's a friend of mine, and I don't know when we will be seeing him again, and I would like to say bye to him!" She nods her head, pulling strands of hair through my fingers as she does. "Oh, ok." I finish her braid and we sit together in silence. "So every time you leave someone you should say goodbye?" Rose asks me this innocently, but the simple words make my throat tighten with unshed tears as I think of people who left me that I never got the chance to say goodbye to. I swallow and say in a voice I hope sounds normal, "Yes, you never know when you won't be able to say bye to someone so you should say it every chance you get."
Thankfully Peeta slams the lid of our case closed, and it's time to leave. In the flurry of doing a final sweep of the room and making sure all luggage is accounted for Rose seems to forget our conversation, but it may be one that will haunt me forever. We walk out of the hotel and somehow my mind is in two places at once. Half of me is calling for a shuttle, and loading kids in the car. The other half is wondering what I would say if I could tell lost loved ones goodbye.
We don't have time to meet at Cinna's, so we will just say goodbye at the trains departure. He is standing in a waiting room, empty thank goodness, and it may be my imagination but he looks happier than he did last night. I give him a quick hug, and I am delighted when Rose does the same! We sit down on the plastic seats, waiting for our train to arrive. Cinna leans forward and speaks to me. "I want to thank you Katniss, yet again you have helped me." How have I helped him? By letting him be tortured and put in prison? "What did I do?" I ask.
He smiles, "last night for the first time in a long time I took out a blank notebook and started designing again. Oh since I got- out, I have done some doodling of vague ideas. But no real designing! Last night though I filled up half a notebook with ideas!" Joy is filling his face. " I mean, finally after talking with you I really feel like I can start my life anew! After last night I fell freer than I have in years." I reach out and squeeze his hand. "Oh wow, that's wonderful! Really! I am just so glad for you" we hug yet again. "So what are you planning to do? Who will you design for now that they don't need you for tri-" the word tributes sours in my mouth so I swallow it back down. "For Tv?" He kind of shrugs. "Well I was thinking that I could spend a while just designing, then just see where it goes from there. Maybe I can sell a few outfits and they eventually could be marketed. I really don't know, we'll just see what happens.
We talk for too short a time before our train arrives. We hug goodbye in the waiting room, a private train always draws attention and I don't want to be recognized when I have managed to go undetected for so long. The kids give obligatory hugs, and after Peeta says his farewell they leave to board the train. I hug Cinna tightly to me and as we hold onto one another I hope that we WILL see each other again soon. "Thank you for coming Katniss, thank you so much for coming." I swallow my dry mouth. "Thank you for not- for not-" for not hating me for letting you rot in a prison. For giving up on you. For never even telling my children about you because I couldn't stand to. I am about to say all these things when he opens his mouth- "Shh, Katniss, it's ok. I know. It's all ok. Lets leave the past in the past and move on. There is nothing to forgive, I hope to see you and your beautiful family soon." I gasp from the emotions fighting in me, and as I pull from his embrace all I say is- "Thank you Cinna. I will see you soon, ok?" He nods and smiles. As I get to the door he says, "Katniss!" I turn. "Yes?" A playful grin marks his scarred face that suddenly looks like his old one. "I'm still betting on you."
/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\/\ /\/\/\/\
I stay composed when I board the train, but I do scoop my son into my arms hugging him close. I stay composed when the train drives away and I look back at the windows of the room Cinna is in, only to find they are tinted so I can't wave goodbye. I stay composed when the tribute building zooms by us.
It is when I look down out my window and see gleams of metal shine in the sunlight and I realize it's the memorial that I visited, when I break down. I don't cry because the kids have seen my tears enough times, but I do bow my head and let the sweet agony of grief wash over me. The train has already long since passed the gleaming metal I saw, but as we pull out the city I whisper my goodbyes to everyone. To Finnick. To Prim. To everyone who has died. But then, after, I compose myself and pull Rose close to me, and sit her down besides her brother. "Rose, have I ever told you about who you were named after?
-fades black, dramatic music starts playing, this is the END! See this is why I did not want another chapter, I fear it is awful :p Please tell me what you think! Thank you for every read, follow, favorite and of course review! My goodness thank you for the reviews! But remember just because the story has ended does not mean the reviews have! So review people! Lets just say if you don't review that the train Katniss and her family are on may have a tragic accident :o :o :o SO REVIEW PEOPLE!
Raven's Dusk- I ADORE ERAGON! It's one of my fave books! Why do you ask? Do you possibly want a new fic? ;) BTW Everyone I totally take requests!