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Chapter 4- Grieving Heart

I sighed as I stared up at the ceiling. They were holding me prisoner. Jacob and Carlisle won't let me leave La Push nor this room. "Good morning." Carlisle greeted. "Morning." I automatically responded. "How are you feeling?" Carlisle asked.

"I told you I'm fine. Please let me leave." I pleaded. "I'm sorry. I can't do that." Carlisle announced. "Carlisle. I'm going insane here. Please." I begged. Carlisle shook his head and left the room. "Ugh." I complained. "Hello dear." Esme smiled.

"Hey." I said guilty. I opened my mouth to speak but Esme held up a finger. "Don't start. Its not your fault and I don't hate you." Esme stated. "I on the other hand am truly sorry." Esme told me. "For what?" I asked puzzled.

"For using you as bait." Esme said ashamed. "Esme. Don't apologize. It was a great plan." I reassured her. "Thank you." Esme said as she kissed my forehead. I sat up slowly and ripped the IV out. I disconnected myself from all the machinery. I slipped out of my PJ's and threw on a black dress.

I looked in the mirror and huffed. I was a disaster. I combed through my hair and put it up in a bun. I let my bangs fall freely. I slipped on my black flats. I opened the door and stepped out of the room. "Bella. Hey." Quil grinned.

I smiled back. "Bella. What are you doing up?" Jasper asked surprised. "I'm ok. And I'm tired of being cooped up in that wretched room." I answered. Jasper threw his arms around me and held me tightly. "Jasper." I whispered. "Its not your fault Bella." Jasper replied.

Jasper let go and lifted my chin up. "We'll be ok." Jasper smiled. I nodded my head in agreement. "Bells." Jacob cried. Jacob ran across the room and tackled me to the couch. "Jake. Ouch." I whined. "I'm so happy your ok." Jacob mused.

I tried to push Jacob off of me but he was far too strong. I heard the door close assuming Jasper and Quil left. "Jake. Thank you." I whispered. "Anything for you." Jacob stated. Jacob traced my lips as he stared into my eyes.

He pressed his body against mine. "Jake." I whispered lowly. Jacob kissed my neck slowly. I closed my eyes taking in the pleasure it produced. My lips parted slightly as he sucked my neck softly. "Bella. I want you." Jacob confessed.

My eyes sprung open and I shoved Jacob off. "Bells. What's wrong?" Jacob asked as he sat on the floor. "I can't do this." I stated. I sat up on the couch and clenched my fist. "I have to go." I said quickly.

I took in a deep breath as I stepped outside. The fresh air was soothing to my lungs. "Emmett." I cried happily. I ran over to him as he picked me up and spun me. I smiled at the bodybuilder like vampire. "How are ya?" Emmett asked curiously.

"Eh." I shrugged. "Where's Rosalie?" I asked. "She's with Esme at the house." Emmett responded. I gasped as I remembered Charlie. "What is it?" Emmett asked worried. "Charlie. Oh my. The house burned and ugh." I said rushed.

"Bells. Its ok." Emmett said. "Charlie knows the house burnt down and that your here." Emmett explained. I let out a sigh of relief. "What does he think happened?" I asked curiously. "Carlisle, told him that Edward was on his way to your house." He paused.

The sound of his name caused my chest to tightened. "And that when he arrived to the house it was burning. Edward ran inside to save you. Carlisle happened to pass by. And witnessed the fire." Emmett explained. "So Edward never made it out but you did." Emmett finished.

I could hear the sadness in his voice as he mentioned his brothers name. "Forgive me." I said as tears began to pour down my face. He locked me in a bear hug and kissed the top of my head. "It isn't your fault. So stop blaming yourself." Emmett told me.

"How can I not?" I asked sternly. "If Edward didn't know me none of this would have happened. Alice and Edward would still be." I couldn't continue as the tears overpowered me. I hugged Emmett's waist tightly as the tears continued.

After what seemed hours, the sun set and the moon rose. "Let's get you inside." Emmett suggested. I walked back unwillingly. "Hey." Jacob said guilty. I knew Jacob didn't do anything wrong but I just couldn't entangle anyone else in my web.

"How long as it been since the incident?" I asked cautiously. "One week." Jacob answered. I gulped as a huge lump formed in my throat. "You hungry?" Jacob asked. "No." I responded.

I walked back to my jail cell. My heart was heavy now and days. Losing Edward and Alice was like losing parts of me. I laid down as I closed my eyes and pictured Edward.

I imagined his lips against mine. The taste of his breath on my tongue. The texture of his cold pale skin. The color of his golen brown eyes. His messy yet perfect bronze hair. I yearned for his touch.

The electricity it produced when I came in contact with his skin. I'd give anything to see Edward again. I giggled at the thought of Alice in heaven. I could picture her starting her own trend. And the other angels jealous of her beauty and spunk.

I squeezed my pillow tight. I'd never see them again. My heart at times felt like it would just explode from all the pain. I heard a low knock on the door. "Come in." I sobbed. The door opened and let in light. "Bells. I'm sorry." Jacob said.

"Its ok." I responded in a hoarse voice. Jacob laid down next to me and hugged me. I held my pillow tight as Jacob held me. Though it was selfish, I needed this. I felt extremely fragile and broken since that day. "I love you." Jacob whispered.

My eye lids became heavy. I let myself drift off into a deep sleep. "I love you Edward." I whispered. I prayed silently hoping that my grieving heart would heal one day. But I knew that was impossible.