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Chapter 12- Skin Deep
Two weeks had passed since Edward had left to Italy. Though to me it seemed like an eternity. Charlie had picked up the late shift so I spent most of my time alone. I didn't want to impose on the Cullens. Even though they insisted I wasn't a burden.
"Bella. What are you doing?" Alice asked curiously. I jumped as Alice pulled me out of my thoughts. "Sorry. I forgot you scare easy." Alice giggled. "I was just uh. Writting a letter." I muttered. "To Edward." Alice stated. "Uh. Yeah to Edward." I confirmed.
Alice flashed me a quick smile and pranced away. I looked back down at the letter in front of me. I sighed as I read it over and over again. "Bella." Jacob said. "Jake." I cried happily. I got up and threw my arms around him. "Where have you been?" I asked.
"Look I'm not here by will." Jacob said harshly. I stepped back letting my arms fall to my side. "Sam wants to know if Edward has contacted you?" Jacob asked? I looked down at the floor as Jacob's coldness stung my heart.
"No I haven't heard from him." I sighed. "When you do if you'd please inform us." Jacob said. I nodded my head as anger consumed me. "What have I done that deserves this coldness from you." I asked. "What haven't you done." Jacob snickered.
"I told you I loved Edward. Your the one who kept on insisting." I gritted through my teeth. "Really Bella?" Jacob snapped. "How about that time I went to your house and you kissed me." Jacob reminded me. "You kissed me first." I countered. "But you didn't stop me. And when I told you I loved you. You knew exactly what way I meant it. You said you did too." Jacob barked.
"Because you were hurting. I couldn't stand to see you in pain." I blurted out. "So you felt sorry for me?" Jacob asked in disbelief. "Jake. I." I stopped as the anger sank away and a new feeling surfaced. Sorrow. "You know what Bells. You only look for me or are thrilled to see me when your leech is away." Jacob said coldly.
"That's not true." I cried. "No. After we fought the vampires in the meadow. And he came back when did you see me? Or even miss me?" Jacob asked. "Did my name ever escape your lips." Jacob asked as he stared at my eyes intently. "I rest my case." Jacob gritted through his teeth.
As Jacob walked away my heart tore in half. I did miss him and I did love him. But my feelings for Edward were much more then just words. Edward became my life and I couldn't live without him. "Are you ok?" Rosalie asked. My eyes were wide with shock as I stared at the blonde goddess.
"Uh yeah." I mumbled. Rosalie giggled and flashed me a smile. "Ah. Young love." Rosalie grinned. "You know its funny when your in love nothing seems to function right. I mean if the persons not there you can't eat or sleep." Rosalie told me. "But then you start to remember what it was like before they claimed your heart." Rosalie continued.
"But you can't because that part of your life is a blur. It seems like an entire century ago." Rosalie smiled. I couldn't help but smile, that was exactly how I felt. But why was Rosalie telling me this? "Bella. I know I haven't exactly been the kindest person to you." Rosalie smirked.
"But I have my reasons." Rosalie confessed. I sat down as Rosalie sat next to me. "I too had to make a choice. When I was human I had everything. The money, the huge house." Rosalie told me. "But I never realized what the important things were. Like my family or friends." Rosalie explained.
"You see my father and mother had an arranged marriage. I'd pry off their weakness. I'd make them feel guilty about me." Rosalie frowned. "I told them I wasn't made out of love like everyone else. So they'd give me anything I wanted." Rosalie said guilty. "One day my father hired a gardener. I was going out to the town when I saw him." Rosalie said.
"I thought my heart was going to burst out of my chest." Rosalie said as she closed her eyes. "We dated secretly for five months. We were planning to run away together." She frowned. "The night before our great escape. My parents informed me that a duke wanted my hand in marriage." Rosalie stated.
"I loved Royce with all my heart. But truth was how were we going to survive? Love wasn't going to get us far." Rosalie told me. "So I decided to stay and marry the Duke." Rosalie opened her eyes and revealed sadness and resentment. "That same night Royce came back and confronted me. I told him I wasn't going with him." Rosalie paused.
"He begged me to reconsider. I refused and told him that I didn't love him anymore." I stared at Rosalie as her words filled my heart. "The week before the wedding I had heard that Royce had become an alcoholic. My heart broke knowing that the man I loved dearly was suffering. But I was too selfish to sacrifice for others." Rosalie snickered.
"The day of the wedding Royce snuck into the church. He pleaded once more for me to leave with him. I simple walked away and left a broken man behind." Rosalie's face was pained and I knew she regretted her choices.
"When I walked down the aisle I turned around and stared at Royce. I knew if I turned back now I'd be poor. But if I married the Duke I figured I'd mend my heart with money and respect for living in the castle." Rosalie sighed. "I walked over to my future husband and held his hand." Rosalie paused for a few moments.
"As the priest began to perform the ceremony. My heart tightened and breathing became extremely difficult. In that precise moment I realized I'd rather live a life with love then without it." Rosalie smiled. "But it was too late. Just when I was ready to run from the church into the arms of my true love. Someone stabbed the groom and the priest." Rosalie told me.
"There was screaming and crying. I had looked down at my dress that was drenched in blood. I faced the murderer and fell to my knees. It was Royce." I gasped at Rosalie's last word. "I remember the look on his face. He wasn't my Royce anymore. I had created a monster. He lifted me up to my feet and kissed me."
"I kissed him with such passion." Rosalie touched her lips. "As he kissed me I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. He stepped back as I shrieked in pain. He had dug a sword into my stomach. He pulled it out and licked it. I fell to the floor as he reached for a dagger and stabbed me in the chest." Rosalie said pained.
I gasped in horror as I covered my mouth. "I told him I loved him and that I was going to run away with him. Royce cried and held me firmly. He begged for forgiveness as he regretted what he had done." Rosalie smiled. "The funny thing was Bella. I had never hated him or blamed him. I was actually grateful that he did what he did." Rosalie confessed.
"The guards entered the church and pulled Royce away from me. Carlisle ran inside and knelt down beside me. I had never seen Carlisle before but he whispered that it would all be ok. I watched as the guards dragged him away." Rosalie stopped.
"That's when Carlisle turned you." I said softly. She nodded and stood up. "Though I'm a vampire those painful memories are skin deep. I'll never forget that day." Rosalie stared into my brown eyes.