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Chapter 15- Bleeding Heart

I turned the faucet off as I cleared my head. When I saw Edward again I needed to be calm. Edward would surely be angry with my coming to Italy. But I couldn't go another day without him.

"Hey. Bells." Jacob called out. "I got us dinner." Jacob told me. "I'll be right out." I responded. I slipped into my black sweats and a long sleeve white blouse. I combed my hair and pushed the front of my hair back with a black head bang.

"I got us chinese." Jacob grinned. "Leave it to you to find Chinese food in Italy." I giggled. I watched Jacob as he ate and stared at the TV. Truth was I was grateful that Jacob was here with me. And though I was here to find Edward I was glad I didn't have to miss Jacob.

"Come on." Jacob muttered with a mouthful. "Gross." I teased playfully. I sat down and rested my head on his shoulder. "Thank you." I whispered. "Anything for you." Jacob replied. He kissed the top of my hair as I closed my eyes. "Bells. Can I ask you something?" Jacob asked in a shaky voice.

"Sure. What is it?" I asked. "Are you a virgin? I mean did you and Cullen do it?" Jacob asked timidly. I bit my lower lip as Jacob's question sunk in. "That's none of your business." I snapped. "I know I didn't mean it in a bad way. I was just curious." Jacob admitted.

"I'm sorry. Its just that's a touchy subject for me." I confessed. Jacob nodded in a way which I knew he understood. But I could see the truth in his eyes. It was eating away at him. "Yes and no." I sighed. "Really?" Jacob smiled. "Yup." I said.

"That's terrific." Jacob smirked. "Jake." I glared. "Sorry." He said. I laid on the bed as Jacob chose a movie. "How about we watch The Notebook?" Jacob suggested. "That's fine." I said shocked. "What? Just because I'm a guy doesn't mean I only watch action movies." Jacob winked.

I snuggled under the covers as Jacob sat on the floor. "You know I don't mind if you sit up here for the movie." I told him. Jacob got up slowly and laid down next to me. "You know that night we fell asleep together?" Jacob asked.

"You mean when you just decided to lay next to me? Yeah I do." I teased. "That was the best night of my life." Jacob declared. I gulped as Jacob's eyes locked on mine. "Jake." I said softly. "Don't say anything." Jacob pleaded.

"I know why we're here." Jacob said. Jacob traced my lips with his warm fingers. My lips parted softly as he gently stroked the nape of my neck. "Jake. We." I said breathless. "Bella." Jacob sighed. Jacob crushed his lips against mine.

I couldn't stop the yearning of his body against mine. Jacob ripped my shirt off as our lips radiated with passion. "I need you Bella." Jacob grunted. "Jake." I moaned as his lips found my neck. "You don't have to be afraid with me." Jacob stated.

I ran my fingers through his hair as Jacob took my pants off. "Jake." I said breathless. "Bella. I love you." Jacob said. Jacob laid on top of my nude body. "Do you want this?" Jacob asked. "Yes. I want you to make love to me." I stated.

Jacob removed his clothes and pressed his lips against mine. My body trembled as it highly anticipated Jacob's body. I moaned slightly as Jacob hovered over me. "Your mine Bella." Jacob smiled. My back arched as Jacob gripped my waist firmly.

My eyes opened at the sheer pleasure my body was experiencing. I gasped as I looked around the dark hotel room. "Bella. What is it?" Jacob asked still asleep. "Nothing. Go back to bed." I demanded.

Jacob yawned loudly as he stretched. "Nightmare?" Jacob asked. "Uh. No." I answered shyly. Jacob got up slowly and sat up. "Guess the Notebook knocked us out." Jacob chuckled. "Uh huh." I said nervously.

I ran toward the bathroom. I rinsed my face with cold water and took a deep breath. I couldn't believe I had such an intense dream about Jacob and me.

"Bells. Are you alright?" Jacob asked. "I'm fine." I yelled back. I opened the door and stopped immediately. "Jake." I called out desperately. I walked over to the open window. "Jake." I whispered.

"Bella." Jacob touched my shoulder causing me to scream and jump forward. I fell out the window but Jacob grabbed my ankle and effortlessly picked me up.

"Bells. You have to be more careful." Jacob said as he hugged me tightly. I sobbed quietly into his chest. I loved Jacob and I've known this for awhile but I missed Edward.

I couldn't stand being away from him for so long. "Your ok." Jacob assured me. "Jake. I'm so sorry." I said in a hoarse voice. Jacob's eyes became wide with shock. "Why are you apologizing?" Jacob asked. "Because I can't respond. I know how you feel about me Jake." I told him.

"I love you. But I-." I was cut off mid sentence. "Bella. You don't have to explain yourself. I know why you came here. But all I ask of you is to be certain." Jacob said. "You say you want Edward but you always look for me. And you get jealous if you think I'm with someone." Jacob stated.

"Because your my best friend." I defended. "Bells. There's a fine line between friendship and we've crossed that line. There's no going back." Jacob said. "What are you saying?" I gasped.

"I'm saying that when we head back to La Push you have to let go." He said with a hint of pain in his voice. "But Jake." I muttered. "Bells. I can't keep standing by you. It takes a lot to just see you with him. The way you look at him or the desire in your eyes. I just can't." Jacob confessed.

Jacob walked away as my heart broke in half. He didn't want to see me anymore. Deep down inside I knew he was right. It was selfish to keep him around. But it hurt me more the it should. I walked back to the bed as Jacob laid on the floor.

I pulled the sheets over my head. I turned on my side and let the tears stream freely. I sobbed quietly as I hugged my pillow. I had to pull myself together. I closed my eyes as I imagined my encounter with Edward.

"Edward." I smiled. "Bella." Edward replied. Edward hugged me tightly as I buried my face in his chest. "Oh Edward. How I've missed you." I cried. Edward stepped back to take in my reaction. "Jacob." I whispered.

Jacob was standing in the corner with a pained expression. "What is it Bella?" Edward asked concerned. I opened my eyes slowly. I smiled as I watched Jacob sleep. He looked so peaceful. I got up quietly and changed in the bathroom.

I slipped into a pair of dark blue skinny jeans. I grabbed my white long sleeve blouse and put it over my head. I straightened my hair and let my bangs fall just above my eye. I stared in the mirror as the dark circles under my eyes popped out. I sighed.

I applied a bit of foundation and blush. I smiled when the circles faded. "Here I come." I whispered.