It's been a long week.

I stretched my arms over my head as I tried to relax into a comfy hay bail and watched my comrades. We had just got done with a very intense invasion and the soldiers were celebrating. Even though the enemy nearly got the better of us a few times. Not to mention we lost a majority of our foot men.

I watched as my best friend Olivia danced gracefully, her movements fluidly gracing everyone. Even with her small baby bump she was more graceful than I. To my amusement Gaius was trying to copy the small girl, the poor ginger haired thief failing poorly. I saw Henry cheer on his small pink haired wife the man covered in crows and what I hoped was red wine. Him, Panne and Gregor all watching the festivities as Gregor had his arm around the bunny woman who seemed more than content with having her husband with her.

Sully was seen dragging and apparently leading a dance with Kellam the man accepting his fate but seeming to enjoy that she was happy. Nowi could be seen dead in the thick of the festivities as she changed from dragon to small girl in her drunken state.

Minerva and Cherche could be seen flying in the skies Minerva blowing fire into the sky. I watched as Minerva and Cherache landed Gaius happily ran over to the pink haired dragon tamer and gave her a huge kiss.

Libra, Stahl, Lon'qu, Ricken, Vike, Virion, and Donnel were all participating in an arm wrestling match Libra being the one to determine who won and making sure everything was fair. Cordelia stole glances at Libra as he smiled back at her occasionally the two easing into conversation after a while. Anna could be seen flirting with Virion. She had been on him ever since she found out he was a big shot duke.

Miriel had trapped some young soldier into a debate while Fredrick joined, the two seasoned fighters getting heated on the topic while the poor soldier was unsure of what to do.

I then saw Lissa and Maribelle both girls laughing and enjoying themselves.

I watched as I saw Sthal drink a shot of alcohol, everyone around the table cheering him on. The knight then went up to Mariblle. He exchanged words with her leading the small girl to blush as he led her to a dance.

Lissa was smiling and rooting the two on. To my surprise, and the rest of the group, I saw Lon'qu then approach Lissa the two easing into a conversation.

I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand. I suddenly scanned the crowd for Tharja hoping that I could get sights on her but to my dismay I couldn't find her.

Well there goes any hope of sleep tonight.

I looked over at Sumia who was happily dancing with Chrom the two completely oblivious to anyone else.

To be honest it had been a really long week for me. My muscles ached and my brain was slow from the lack of sleep. I felt like a wringed out rag. I also had to postpone the training with Priam and barely got any sleep at night nowadays.

The battle plans for the invasion had been compromised so I had to come up with new ones on the spot much to my horror. They were sloppy and half thought out and because of that we had lost a lot of good men and women over a hundred foot soldiers. I felt a huge weight on my chest as I thought about what I could have done to avoid the loss of life.

I should have done better.

I threw my hood up as I sighed and tucked my knees into me resting my chin on them. I just wanted to disappear for another three days to sulk. Chrom had dragged me out of my tent while I was in the middle of hand writing letters to the fallen solders families since I had felt so responsible.

I should have tried better or read more. Just something or else those men and woman would be with us here tonight.

"Would you care to dance with me?"

I felt my gaze snap up to find that the owner of the rich voice was none other than Priam. I was surprised I didn't get whiplash since it was enough to make my hood fall back.

I blinked a few times. The question completely throwing me off guard.

"What?"

The man was always so calm as he shot me a sincere look. "Would you like to dance with me?"

He held out his hand to me.

I felt my body instantly ache at the thought of getting up. I smiled lightly, nodding my head and took his hand. I instantly loved the fell of his hand in mine I decided. He thankfully didn't say anything as slow songs started playing. He was pretty gentle as he started just doing a basic sway.

I was surprised to see that he was very relaxed as he swayed gently with me. I didn't even know he liked to dance.

I sadly didn't enjoy his company as much as I would have at any other moment. I felt my mind wander back to the subject I had been thinking about.

"You know," I heard the blue haired man start.

"When I took you on as my pupil I didn't understand how much of an amazing technician you were."

I frowned. I'm not that good of a technician.

He noticed and gave me a confused look as I seemed to damper at the rare compliment. I saw his face change into a caring look as he stated.

"Let me guess, this wasn't how you wanted the invasion to go?"

I looked him in the eye my eyes felt watery as I felt all the guilt and hopelessness hit me at once. I hated feeling like this. Emotions caught in my throat as I took my hand off his shoulder and threw my hood up really quick.

I bit my lip, I would never forgive myself if I cried in front of anyone, especially Priam.

"No," I croaked. I looked down at the ground as I felt all of my doubt and hopelessness fill me.

"I should have done better."

I had let my army down, I had let my friends down, everyone. I could have lost someone here right now due to my stupidity.

I failed catastrophically.

I avoided looking at Priam and felt the swaying stop. His huge warm hands resting on my shoulders as he quickly lead me to the shadows of a nearby tent. I was overly grateful for him for moving me as he looked straight at me. I felt tears over fill my eyes as I finally sobbed lightly. I saw his hard expression melt as he drew me in for a hug.

I pressed my face close to his chest my hand trying to wipe away tears as I sobbed.

"We lost so many people today, and it's all my fault." All of that loss. All of those families. The men and women that made this army.

Priam held me in a gentle manner, his huge frame warm and comforting. Like a shield from the world.

I cried pitifully into his shoulder. The weight of my actions hitting me fully. I felt like all eyes were on me.

I hated this feeling.

"War is not merciful, much along with death." Priam started his voice taking on a much deeper tone, "they do not pick sides and they do not discriminate. No matter how righteous and honorable the path you chose to follow. But I choose to believe that what you are fighting for. The world that Chrom wants to make. I choose to lay my life down for that world." Shadows of fire danced on his face his eyes boring into mine.

He paused as I soaked in his words. "Along with all those men and women who sacrificed themselves today. They fought knowing that they were going to make a better world following you. They chose who to fight for, as I have. And their loved ones understand that." a light blush had dusted his face as he continued.

"Besides look around us." He let go of me and gestured to the festivities as he took both my hands and stated. "We are all still alive because of your spirit and passion."

His eyes held such a strong gentle softness to them as he looked me in the eyes and stated, "You are enough, and you always will be. And as long as I have breath in my lungs I will fight for the world you and Chrom are going to create."

I felt tears stream down my face as I felt the weight of guilt taken off of my shoulders.

Tears gathered in my eyes as I felt like laughing as well. I tackled Priam in a huge hug the man grunting from the impact.

"Thank you, Priam." The two of us gladly stayed like that for what seemed like blissful eternity.

I heard him mischievously state. "You won't be saying that when you catch up on training."

I pushed him away playfully and laughed. "Aww, come on! I was leading an army!"

He smiled at me. "Excuses, excuses." The two of us smiled as I heard and upbeat tune start playing he gently took my hand and asked. "May I?"

I smiled and taking my hood down stated.

"Yes you may." The two of us smiled as we joined with the rest of the dancing.

Indienote: Hey fam, so I lied. I got to update a little earlier than I thought! Yay for me! (Also I was mega-excited and couldn't contain it.)

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