The more Rachel thought about Finn and Brody, the more she realized that Finn wasn't defending her honor as much as he was staking a claim in her. He had no right to do what he did to Brody's face, even though it was sweet of him to drive (or fly?) all the way to New York City just to confront Brody. Or was it? Her first reaction is to see the best in the situation - Finn still loved her enough to fight for what he thought was best involving her. He cared enough to...attack a man who he thought was lying and hurting her. That was sweet, wasn't it?
And yet, a part of her feels... a little disgusted. Finn had driven all the out here to defend her, when she was a grown woman now. She could handle herself - heck, she had proved that today, hadn't she? When she had thrown the money at Brody, made the decision to be mature and move on. Even when Brody looked so heartbroken. God, had she broke his heart? Or was he just as dramatic as she? She could handle herself and the mistakes (was Brody a mistake?) she made were hers to fix. He didn't need Finn to come out here and defend her. Plus, how did Finn even know she needed to be defended for? Brody was someone she chose to be with after Finn. Well, she had chosen to be with him because she couldn't have Finn. Or could she, because Mr. Schue's wedding had proven that Finn wanted her back. And she had slept with him... but left. That meant something too, didn't it? That she had left to come back to Brody. Who, sure, had lied to her about what he did while she was gone (where she had lied to), but...he had made sure that the apartment was special when she came back. Brody was sweet and... gente. Or was he? Did Finn had bruises on his face too? Maybe she would have been okay with everything. They had both lied and sure, Brody's job was... disgusting and she hated it, but... he was just trying to follow his dreams, wasn't he? Hadn't she almost bared it all for a student film because she thought it would help further her career? He was...doing that in order to afford NYADA, to get him in the door, to have people see him as a real artist and not some kid from Montana who liked to sing and dance.
Her mind raced, trying to figure out the right answer. It wasn't fair to have two amazing men in her life who were both so completely flawed. How was she supposed to decide who was the better one to try again with? Try again? Was she already regretting her decision to end the... sort of relationship with Brody? Oh, Barbra, she was. From the moment, he had sent her the misspelled text in the middle of Mama Mia. After her break out in song, she had been so sure that she was making the right decision and now? Now she was laying in bed with an armed pillow, trying not to ask him to come over. Maybe Kurt was content with the pillow, but Tony was just not doing it for her. Not when she had gotten so used to Brody's muscular warm body next to her, snuggled against her, murmuring cheesy broadway-themed pick-up lines as she tried to sleep, only to break out in a fit of giggles. His kiss to silence her in order not to wake up the sleeping room mate once blanket room away.
She sighed and flipped over, grabbing her phone. She scrolled through it and paused at Finn's name. What was she going to do?