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Chapter 27- Wide Awake
I bit my lower lip as I awaited my father's reaction. "Dad. Say something." I said finally breaking the silence. Charlie sighed and straightened his posture. "Why are you telling me this without Edward present?" Charlie questioned. "Edward is away." I answered bluntly. "Well this is a good start." Charlie snickered. I sighed as the awkwardness became unbearably.
"I'm going to go to my room." I announced. "Night." Charlie shouted as I walked upstairs. I shook my head in frustration as I closed my door. I sat on my bed contemplating whether Edward would believe that Charlie saw my ring and I had no choice but to tell him. I knew Edward would be angry but I didn't want to waste any time. "Bella." Someone whispered.
"Jacob?" I asked unsure. Within a few seconds Jacob was standing in front of me. "What are you doing here?" I whispered. "Bella. You can't make a choice without exploring your other options." Jacob stated. "There is no other option. Jake, I'm sorry but Edward is the only person I want." I said sternly. Jacob gripped my arms and pulled me closer. His warm breath hit my skin causing me to tense. "Bells. I love you." He declared. "I love you too. But not in the way you want." I responded.
"I don't buy it." Jacob insisted. "Jake." I whispered. I became startled when someone knocked on the door. "Bella. I'm going to head to La Push for the night. I promised Billy I would go over." Charlie informed me. "Ok, dad. Drive safely." Was all I could manage as Jacob held me close. "Night kiddo." Charlie said as his steps became faint. I gulped as we heard Charlie pull away.
"You should really put a shirt on." I commented. "Why? Do I make you uncomfortable?" He smirked. "No. not at all." I lied. "You're lying." He smiled. "Jake. You need to leave. I'm engaged to be married." I choked out. Jacob pulled himself closer and parted his lips slightly. "Tell me you feel nothing for me at all. And I'll walk away." He proposed. "Jake. I love you like a friend." Jacob silenced me as he placed his fingers to my lips.
"You know what I'm asking." Jacob corrected. I closed my eyes as he gently brushed the bottom of my chin. "It wont change anything." I looked into his dark eyes as my heart pounded furiously. "I love you." I confessed. Jacob smiled victoriously. "That's all I needed to know." Jacob smiled. He pressed his lips against mine. Our lips moved slowly but passionately.
He wrapped his arms around my waist as I ran my fingers through his hair. The kissing became more intense as we sat on my bed. "Jake." I said out of breath. "Yes." Jacob responded as he hovered over me. "We shouldn't be doing this." I said bashfully. My brain was telling me to shut down but my body had other plans. "Stop." I said softly. "Jake. Stop." I pleaded. Jacob became forceful as he continued to kiss me. "Stop please!" I yelled as Jacob ignored my pleas.
My eyes went wide as Jacob was pulled off of me. Edward let out a growl as Jacob ready his stance. "Edward. I'm so sorry." I cried as the tears streamed down my face. "She might of chose you for now. But it wont be long before she comes to me." Jacob grinned. "In your dreams mutt!" Edward spat furiously. I watched in horror as Edward and Jacob prepared to tear each other apart. I quickly jumped in the middle hoping they would end me in the process.
"Bella." Someone whispered concerned. My eyes sprung open as a scream escaped my lips. "Bella. Are you alright?" Charlie asked concerned. "Dad." I said not fully awake. "I'm here." He responded softly. We sat in silence as I held my father's hand. "Bells. I know we've been thru a lot this year. But I just want you to know that I love you. And you will always have a home with me." Charlie confessed.
I threw my arms around him as he held me securely. "I love you too." I replied. "Ok. Kiddo get some sleep. We have a long day ahead of us tomorrow." He reminded me. "Night." Charlie left as I became wide awake. I bit my lip as I tried to decrypt my dream. Was it possible that Edward and Jacob were my weakness? Though I chose Edward, would I always secretly yearn for Jacob?
I shook my head hoping those thoughts would erase themselves. I closed my eyes drifting into a slumber. I cringed as a bright light shun on my face. I opened my eyes ready to curse whoever was disturbing my sleep. I sighed as I realized it was the Sun shining thru my window. Morning already.
I became startled when my phone rang. I fell off the bed landing right on my back. "Hello." I said in pain. "Bella. Are you alright?" Edward responded worried. "Now that I've heard your voice. Yes." I replied chipper. Edward chuckled. "Someone woke up in a good mood. "Well today I get to see my Fiancé after a whole three weeks." I smiled. "I've missed you." He said with a hint of sadness in his voice. "Edward, what is it?" I asked immediately. "It's nothing. We'll talk later today. I love you." He said sweetly. "I love you." I answered.
The call was disconnected causing my heart to ache. I missed him so much it was excruciating. I ran to the bathroom and brushed my teeth as I contemplated what to wear for today. Edward loved me in blue. My thoughts were interrupted when someone knocked on the door. I rinsed my mouth with water before opening. "Dad." I stopped instantly as Jacob stood there emotionless. "Your Dad left early this morning to rent his Tux." Jacob revealed.
"Good morning." I greeted shyly. I walked past him to my room. I really hoped he didn't follow. "Bella. Why are you acting weird?" Jacob accused. "I'm not acting weird." I answered nervously. Jacob raised his brow as I sat on my bed. "So. What's up?" I asked. He leaned against the door frame crossing his arms. "Just stopped by to see when your blood suckers returned." He confessed. "Oh. Later today." I replied quickly.
My palms became sweaty as his dark brown eyes focused on mine. "Bella. Are you sure you're feeling ok?" He asked slightly concerned. "Totally." I lied. I scanned the room trying to stare at anything but Jacob. "Ok. Well later then." Jacob said awkwardly. "Later." I smiled. Jacob began to walk away when I tried to contain the words that were about to escape.
"I love you." I blurted out. I clasped my hand over my mouth as Jacob froze instantaneously. I slammed my door shut wishing I could live in my room forever. Tears streamed down my face as Jacob closed my front door. I knew I made the situation worse. I had said I love you but never in the way he yearned for. That was until a minute ago. But I figured I had to be honest in order to make this work.
I quickly slipped into a pair of white shorts and a blue tank top. I curled my hair and pushed the front of my hair back with a black headband. I applied black eyeliner and a light brown eye shadow. I rolled on my lip gloss as I placed my engagement ring where it belonged. I didn't want to hide my happiness anymore.
I grabbed a granola bar as I locked the door behind me. I started up my truck and waited patiently. Within seconds I had a new message from Jacob. I unlocked my phone and knew he was right. We needed to talk. I drove away as I headed to La Push. Jacob and I had to come to terms with each other. The nervous in my stomach increased as I got closer.
I stopped the truck when Jacob was in sight. I hopped out not bothering to close the car door. "Jake. I love you." I declared. Jacob's face became unreadable as absorbed my words. "I do. All this time I knew." I confessed. I stepped closer as Jacob remained still. "And the truth is you will always have a certain pull over me." I stopped letting my confessing sink in. Jacob gazed into my eyes as he searched for the reason.
"I don't want to walk down the aisle without you knowing how I feel. But it doesn't change how I feel about Edward." I stated. "So you love me?" Jacob questioned hopeful. "yes." I answered truthfully. Jacob stepped just a few inches from me extending his hand. I took his hand embracing the feeling I suppressed for so long. "This doesn't change anything does it?" Jacob sighed.
"I've felt unfair to you because he's always had my heart. I love him." I announced. Jacob held my hands to his warm chest against his heart. "But I have a piece of your heart." Jacob corrected. "Truth is if I had never met Edward. It would belong to you. But I do know Edward. And he makes me more me then you know. I kissed Jacob's lips softly and quickly. I pulled away and gave him a smile. He knew what that kissed meant. I walked away as Jacob stood there pondering our converstation.
I drove off as the sky began to drizzle. Jacob deserved to know how much I really cared for him. He also had to know it didn't change the way I felt about Edward. I sighed in relief as I felt alleviated. The truth always felt better then lying. I focused on the road as the rain poured with all its might. I blasted the radio as I sang along. I felt different and I liked it. I was wide awake for the first time in a long time.
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