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QUINN's POV

My hands are getting sweaty while waiting for Rachel's reply. I can't understand how I feel. It's like a combination of fear and excitement. I know in my heart that I want to see Santana but I'm worried that I won't be able to stop myself from running into her arms once I see her again.

Maybe it won't be that bad. Maybe things will be different this time. It's been more than four years and maybe she moved on already. I sigh. Well if she did then that's great! Unfortunately for me, I didn't. I don't think I you could forget someone when every time I close my eyes I can see her face and taste her sweet lips in my dreams. Yeah, good luck with that!

'WTF Quinn, you're engaged. In two weeks you will be married to the most gentle-loving and perfect man, which happens to be your best friend as well.' my inner thought scolds me.

Then a new email came in.

From: RachelB.

To: QuinnF.

That's pleasant news! Well, my manager just emailed me my new schedule, which she cancelled all of my engagements for the next two weeks, so I'm good to go. Kurt finished all of his work today so he could have the two weeks off as well. We're just waiting for Santana to clear up her schedule. You know, being the top her class gave her a lot of offers after graduation. :)

I had no doubt they will all make it in New York. They are awesome that way. It warms my heart to know that Santana's doing great with her career. I'm really proud of her. I tried hard to shut my friends for the past four years. I can't risk it and besides I had to do what I did. And if I let myself get close to Santana before or yet hear any news, I won't be able to stop myself from getting her back.

I feel that familiar pain in my chest again. The corner of my mouth quivers as I try hard to contain the tears starting to build up in my eyes. And before I could realize what I was doing, I already dialed Rachel's number.

"Hello, Quinn." she answered. It's good to hear such a familiar voice.

"Hey Rach, I hope I'm not disturbing you? I just want to..umm..talk for a few minutes, umm, well if that's okay.. with y-you?" I stutter, still composing myself.

"Of course it's okay Quinn." I sigh in relief.

"I'm really thankful that you will all be here. Y-you had no idea." I try so hard to not let my feelings take over me.

"We wouldn't miss the chance to finally meet the man who captured yo—" Rachel was speaking when I heard 'her' voice from the back ground noise.

My body stiffens. Gosh, how I missed that voice. I knew my strength evaporates when I felt tears running free on my cheeks. I bit my lower lip to prevent myself from making any noise.

I was listening to both of them. I know she was making fun of Rachel but I can't even bring myself to smile. Gosh, I missed her like crazy!

'Should I just hang up?' I asked myself. 'I can't do that! Berry might think something is wrong.' I reasoned out. 'Berry huh? Admit it Quinn, you just want to hear her voice.' my inner self retorts.

I felt like someone punched me in the gut when I heard she was going out with some friends. I know I don't have a right to be jealous and probably I should just ignore her but my heart does differently.

"Urgg.. Hey, Quinn?" I heard Rachel said from the other line.

"Still here. She seems happy." I said more like a whisper. What the hell Quinn?! "Anyways, just call or text me when you're coming okay? Bye Rach." I hope shedidn't noticed what I said. Please don't.

"Okay, bye Quinn." Yes! I was relieved that she didn't ask or respond to what I said. I wiped my tears dry then take few deep breaths.

I lie on my back and stare at the ceiling. Why did my life became this complicated? Urg! I so hate my life right now. I closed my eyes and try to get some sleep. Lately I've been dreaming about her a lot. That night when my heart was torn into pieces because I had to let her go. The same night I thought I died while watching her run away from me.

SANTANA's POV

"hmm..Quinn.." I softly moaned her name when I felt someone placing kisses on my neck.

"Who the fuck is Quinn?!" Oh no. Did I just say Quinn? Shit! I had no choice but to open my eyes and see a very pissed blond on top of men waiting for me to explain myself. Her eyes are narrowed, I bet she's pissed off, big time! There's no way I can get out of this so I just shrug with an apologetic smile.

"Hey, I-I.." Nice work Lopez. What should I tell her? I'm sorry and thank you?

She rolled her eyes then quickly jumps out of my bed. I wanted to say something, anything to make her calm down but I could not think of any words. I just watched her pick her things up.

She's busy dressing up when she said, "You know I don't give a shit if you're in love with.. that Quinn girl, what I hate is hearing other girl's name when I'm fucking that person." My jaw dropped on the ground. She walk out of the room and slammed my door. That was rude.

I can't believe that I did that, again! Yes you heard me right. The first one happened one month after we broke up. It was a hot blond I met on the bar but the most memorable one was the one from two years ago. She threw a fucking comb at me! Could you believe that? Well third one is the charm. I felt guilty anyways so I let her walk out, alive.

I shook my head then rolled out of bed. I put on some clothes then went to the kitchen to get some coffee. Kurt and Rachel are sitting on the dining chairs talking. When they heard me approach them, they both turned their heads at the same time with that dumb smirk on their faces. I grabbed som mug then pour some coffee into it without giving them a glance. Hoping I could sip some coffee first before they start annoying me.

"So, dropped the Q word again? What did that one threw at you?" Urg! I gave him a sharp glare but they just laughed at me.

"Whoa! No need to let Snix out on this very fine morning dear. I'm just returning your usual 'morning greetings'." Kurt said smiling.

"Touché." I said.

"Okay, enough of that so Santana, have you talked to your manager? Kurt and I already arranged everything with work and we're just waiting for you to finally give us a go to buy tickets. I'm so thrilled to see our friends. Wait Kurt, did you know that Tina's pregnant?" She turned her head to Kurt.

I shook my head, same old Berry, give it to her to ask a question and turn it into a paragraph. I snapped my fingers at her to get their attention. "Hey! Yes I'm ready. I just have to pack my clothes."

"Umm, okay." she answered like it's no big deal then she went back on talking to Kurt about our other friends. I finished my coffee then went back to my room.

I sat on my bed thinking of things to do and decide on things to bring. I don't I could ever get ready for this. Seeing her again would definitely bring back old memories and feelings, specially, heart aches. I let my body fall back on the bed and then close my eyes hoping it would prevent the tears trying to escape in my eyes.

"Quinn.." It's more like a whisper. I missed saying her name. I tried so hard to avoid saying it but I know I had to face the fact that she and I will never be together. I knew it since that night I walked away from her. "Shit!" I said as tears now freely falling on my cheeks.

'Why does it still fucking hurt so bad? What do I have to do to forget you?' I asked myself before drifting into a deep sleep.

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