So as promised here is the next chapter with the 'break up scene'.
Enjoy reading.. and don't forget to leave a review, kei? :)
QUINN's POV
FOUR YEARS AGO...
It's a miracle I made it home after driving with blurred vision due to the tears that keeps on running like crazy. I should've known this would happen when I received that call from my dad. The thought of him made me grip the wheels harder until my knuckles turns white. I hate him! I so fucking hate him right now!
I wiped the tears then compose myself. After few deep breaths, I decided to go up to my apartment. I'm about to do the second hardest thing I need to do in my life , after giving up Beth.
Every time I step up the stairs, my heart becomes heavier every second. Gripping hard on the railings to support my weak knees, worried it will give in any second now. Finally I reached my floor. I stopped for a while and compose myself before getting my keys.
"Hey I'm home." I called out to Santana as I close the door. I almost scream when all of a sudden she wrapped her arms on my waist and hugged me tight from my back.
"I was so scared that shit convinced you to ditch me." she said while her face buried on my nape. I could feel her breath and tears which melt my heart.
I turned around to face her then cupped her face with my hands. Her head down so I made her looked into my eyes while my thumbs wiped her tears. I smiled at her wholeheartedly and kiss her forehead.
"I love you San and no one can make me change how I feel about you." I leaned in to kiss her gently and slow. I want to memorize how her lips feel like against mine. Soft and moist, sweet and tastes like cherry. How she smiles every time I gently bit her lip. Perfect.
When our lips parted I hugged her tight feeling her heart beats opposite to mine. Memorizing her sweet smell of vanilla and how tight and heartwarming her hugs are. Perfect.
"Everything's gonna be okay babe." I heard her whisper into my ears.
"Yeah." I let go of our hug then smiled at her. "Let's go out and have fun!"
"Let's just stay, I wanna get my cuddles on? Watch movies if you like?" she said pouting.
"Come on S, I heard there's a very cool karaoke bar near here. I wanna try it. Please?"
"Urg, you're lucky you're cute. Give me a minute to change." she gave me a quick kiss on the cheek then turns around and changes in the bedroom.
It took us twenty minutes of walk to finally find the karaoke bar. Good thing there's not much people inside so we easily spotted an empty table. We decided to eat a light dinner first before drinking.
I could see that she can sense something was wrong but I tried my best to ignore her questioning looks. We would talk and laugh. Sometimes we even laugh to those people singing who can't even manage to do a simple melody. I know it's rude but come on! They are worst than Sugar and I thought before that she was the worst. When Santana excused herself to go to the rest room I grabbed the opportunity to sign up at the counter for a song. I know after I sing this, everything will change.
I waited for her to sit by our table before I went up the stage.
"Give it up for our next performer, Ms. Quinn Fabray." the announcer introduced me. When I looked at Santana, she has this confused look with a smirk. I smiled back at her hoping it would do the trick of calming my nerves, which it didn't.
I sat on the chair then grab the microphone. "I would like to dedicate this song to someone very special in my life. Let the song be the words I can't get myself to speak. I love you and I'm sorry." I glanced at the operator to start the song.
I could see her expression changed when the music starts to play. Pure confusion and hurt registered on her face.
Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
I closed my eyes, I can't bear to look at her right now. I need to finish the song before I cry.
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
When I open my eyes she's not looking at me anymore but I know she's still listening. I know she got the message because she's now crying but her gaze are now fixed on the floor. I want to run towards her and tell her everything was a lie. I wish.
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
The bar was quiet, some of them are even looking at Santana then me. I think they knew what was going on between us. I gathered all my strength to finally finish this song so I could go to her.
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, it's never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye
It's done. No one even dare to clap which I don't know if I should be thankful for or be ashamed of the awkwardness in the room. I stand up and wipe my tears. I handed the microphone to the announcer and when I looked back where Santana is seated, she's gone. I panicked and hurriedly went out the bar. When I looked outside, I saw her walking fast.
"Santana!" I called her name while I'm trying to catch up but she didn't look back.
"Fuck off, Quinn!" She yelled back. I grabbed her arm for her to stop walking and make her face me.
"Will you please listen?"
"Listen to what? Haven't your song said enough?! Or are you gonna sing another freakin song here?" I let go of her arm. I can't even look at her eyes. It's fool of hate and hurt.
"I-I just.. I'm so sorry San. You know that I loved you so much, I .. I just thought it would be a bit.. easier in that way." I'm not even making any sense right now, all I know is my chest hurts so bad.
"Huh, you're full of shit Fabray." she said in a lower but firm voice. I looked at her eyes hoping she could see how much I'm hurting as well.
"S, I'm s-so sor-ry." I said pleading. She let out a heavy sigh, obviously calming herself.
"We could still fix this Q. I won't ask you to chose between me and your mom since you already did that, but we can still be together." She said while holding both of my arms. "Look at me Q." so I did even though the tears gave me a hard time to see her.
"We can break up until your mom is all clear. We can out smart him." I knew she would suggest that.
I let out a sigh. "Santana, my dad asked.. no.. ordered me to live with him in Canada." emphasizing on the word. I wait for her to say something, but nothing. She was shocked.
"Shit! shit! shit!" she curse while pacing back and forth trying to think.
"San." I beg her to stop but she just keep on pacing.
I was watching her and waiting for her to calm down a bit when something or someone on the other side of the street caught my attention. I grit my teeth for being reminded of the task I need to do. I've never felt more hopeless in my life. Here I am breaking up with the girl I truly love against my wishes and I can't do anything to stop it.
"I got it, Q, I'll call my dad and see if he could help us, your mom, I'm sure he'll help." I turned my attention to her. She's oblivious to the death glare I gave a while ago from the person few feet behind her.
I quickly gave that person a glance then tried my best to direct to Santana the frustrations that I'm feeling right now.
"Don't you get it S? He won't just let me happy. I need to do this. For once will you stop being a selfish bitch?" The words are out before I realized what I've said. Her jaw drops quickly followed by hurt.
"San, I-I..I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say it." I tried to stop her from walking away from me.
"I give up Q. I've had enough, if you won't fight for us then I won't either. You're right, I'm selfish, because I want you to be happy with me. I want to be the only one to love you. I'm a selfish bitch not wanting to see you get hurt by anyone but me, which I would never do intentionally. And because I'm that big of a bitch, stick it into your pretty head that you're mine until the day that fucking ass, which you call father, decides to set you free. By that time, tell me you don't love me anymore then I'll finally let you go."
After telling me that, she leaned in to give me a kiss. It's different this time. I could feel the hurt that's overflowing her. I could taste the saltiness of our tears combined. Then she finally pulled away, turned around and walks away without giving me any second glance.
I just stood there as tears keep falling. Then someone approached me which I didn't even bother to look. Maybe my eyes are still hoping to see Santana running back at me.
"You do realize this is not what you were asked to do Quinnie." A very serious voice spoke behind me.
"I know."
"Good. Everything will be okay eventually." then I felt a warm hand placed over my shoulder.
"I doubt it as long as he's my father." I said then I walk towards the car on the other side of the road. Once we were inside I just focused my stare through the windows, avoiding any eye contact with the person beside me. Then a phone rang.
"Yes, she's here with me right now. We're on our way to the hotel.. yes dad." I can't help but grit my teeth. Once she put down the phone she started to talk. "Look, Quinnie.. I-"
"Just fucking drive, Fannie!" I snapped at her. Yeah, this is my family. Fuck my life!
QUINN's POV
PRESENT DAY
"Quinnie wake up." a light shake on my shoulder wakes me up.
"Mom, go away, I need some sleep." I tried to grogly slap her hands.
"Sleeping is done during the night sweetheart. It's already one pm." Still shaking my head, this time with a bit of effort.
"Urg! Stop! I'm awake." I tried to slowly open one eye then the other. Just to regret it after wards because my trigger happy mother opened all of the curtains. "Mom, leave the curtains alone, I don't want to be blind on my wedding day." I complain as I shield my eyes from the light with my arms.
"Oh Quinnie, don't be such a baby." She sits on the bed thankful that she's shielding the sunlight. Her expression is serious.
"What now mom?" I asked her a bit irritated.
"Nothing, I..it's just, my baby is getting married in less than two weeks." I rolled my eyes. Ever since I told her about the engagement, sometime I would catch her looking at me this those puffy eyes.
"Come here mom." I motioned for her to give me a quick hug. "I'm still your baby girl. I love you and nothing will change okay?" I assured her.
"I love you too sweetheart. And thank you for what youd-" I didn't let her finished. I don't want to hear it.
"Mom. let's not mention the past, okay?" I smiled at her. "Now i need to get ready, my friends will be here any time soon."I said as I pretend to be in a good mood.
I bet this day will be full of pretentions. I sigh as I grab my robe to take a shower.
Well there, i tried to keep the break up as light as possible..:D
Next chapter is where the fun starts. Many characters will be present which means more chalenging for me. Wew! Hope to give justice to their characters. LOL *fingers crossed*
Take care beautiful people..:)