Well sorry for the delay, my uncle, his girlfriend and her son took me with them to greece for autum vacasion for a whole week and I just looked over the chapter. Sorry for any misspellings, and short chapter but I hope you'll like it :)
Warning: This chapter contains heavy cursing, brain-fucking and a bad aussomptsen of Jiraya-sama's first novel 'tales of a gutsy ninja' Your now warned :3
I grinned as I watched how exhausted the children looked. Sweat bullets rolled down their faces, labored breaths and they lay limp on the ground. Kakashi leaned on a tree and looked kinda shocked. "What? These kids need to train for real and not just petty training." He raised a brow as he kicked himself off the tree and walked over to me. I suddenly felt a desire to growl at his height. He must be over 1, 80, while I'm… merely 1, 61.
"What?" I growled and noticed his slight hesitation to answer. "I want to speak to you after training." My mouth turned into and 'o' and he nodded softly before he turned to his still exhausted students and put his hands on his hips, leaning just barely backwards, yet his head leaned towards them. From the side, it looks so stupid and amusing without words, but from the front, it's really super scary really. His face looks big, his eye, mask and hair bigger and his hands near the weapon pouch look way small, yet big in a weird way. Scary as shit. "You did well this session, your all dismissed." With that, the students walked away. Naruto walked after Sakura, who followed Sasuke, ranting about a date.
"So, what did you want to talk to me about?" I asked as I walked closer to him. He had withdrawn to the shadows of a tall sakura tree in the outskirts of the training ground. "Please sit down." He said in a lazy voice, but there was something more to it. "Sure, why not?" I said off-handedly as I sat down. Kakashi sighted tiredly and used a hand to mess up his hair, a habit he had had since the day I first saw him. A habit, or sign, for when he was nervous or so focused on something. Yet, he barely used it anymore. "Naruko…" I sighted silently. As long as it wasn't about Obito or Rin, I would survive just fine.
"Why are you crying?" Was that what he had wanted to talk about? Just why would he… wait "What?" I sniffled, suddenly discovering that I did cry. "Oh, sorry… don't know what hit me… honestly." I laughed as I whipped my tears blinking a couple times before turning to him again. His lone eye met mine, a flicker of something made me blink before I met his eyes again, but it was gone.
"Naruko…" He tried again. I took a deep breath and nodded. "Yes, Kakashi?" It was his turn to take a breath. The next second, I felt a hand on my cheek, another one around my waist and something cool and soft on my lips. It was strangely familiar, yet I just couldn't say what it was. I opened my eyes and few colours met me. Black, gray, dark blue and pale skin. My eyes widened as I remembered. I fisted earth from the ground as I held back. I'm not sure what urge or whatsoever I held back, but I just sat there, doing nothing. It really felt like an eternity while Kakashi kissed me, but when he sat down again, looking away, it felt like it lasted just a second.
I looked at him. He refused to meet my eyes this time, looking away, shifting and plainly ignoring me. I sighted. He had kissed me… for the second time and he acted the same(1). Standing up, I looked down at my hands. Blood rolled down from under my nails, colouring the dirt red. What did I feel about him? Rin always knew the right thing to say and ask. She always knew about everything. That made me realizes something. Did she know Kakashi liked me? Well, correction loved me. Another light lit up my mind. Did he still love me? Again, back to Rin ingenious question 'do you love him?'. "W-well, see you tomorrow Kakashi. You'll show up ten, right?" Then, I lost myself for a brief minute. I leaned down, cupped his cheeks and kissed his lips over the mask before I left in a swirl of smoke and leafs.
"What the fucking glowing shit of hell did I just do? I asked myself as my back hit my bedroom wall. What will he think? What the hell should I do next? I let my body fall against the wall, hitting the wooden floor. Tears started to hit the floor before I realized it. Damned shit from the shittiest shit holes in land of shit in fuckings hell. What have I gotten myself fucking into? "Aw shitty hells fuck shit!" I groaned as I curled down on the floor. The cold floor sent shivers down my body, but it felt nice to think about something else than what I had done. Kakashi is Rin's after all. Not mine… But why does it feel like this still? Like a stone is sinking in my stomach. "SHUT UP HEAD!" I cried as I clenched my head and started hitting it in the floor. A mission. I'm still an anbu, so a really bloody mission would do.
I looked out at the bridge. Lifeless for exception for me. I showed up two hours before the children would come. Jiji had denied me an anbu mission since I only got assigned to seam 7 yesterday. I groaned loudly as I thought about it. I put my hand in my pouch and got up my little book. And no, it's not icha icha paradise if you wonder. It was my godfather Jiraya's first novel, a book about this great ninja called Naruto. I opened it on page 37. The hero, Naruto, (2) had just saved an orphan from a katon jutsu an enemy ninja had cast.
"Naruto put down the fragile child and for the first time, got a good look at her. Red short hair hung down her face, re-coloured by mud. Her silver eyes had a pink touch to them from crying. 'Don't worry little one, I'm here to help you.' He said, patting her head before he looked over his shoulder and at the enemy ninja. His nasty grin widened as he growled. 'What? Can't you stand a little child being hurt in war?' He growled again, glaring at the man as he got up. 'I don't. I don't like it when innocent children are being punished for what their elders have done.' The man growled…"
I smiled as I reached one of my many favorite parts. My eyes started to water as the man managed to kill the child. The details killed parts of me, yet it was replaced by other new pieces, completing me every time. I sobbed as I reached page 50.
"He glared at the new comer. Her eyes glared back. 'Don't you ever get tired of killing people?' She asked, a tear falling from her eyes. He looked at her, feeling slightly scared over her sudden change. 'I know I am… this war… it feels like it will never end. And I'm getting tired of doing this… tired of everything…'. Her voice trembled and more tears fell from her eyes…"
She ended up begging him to kill her, wanting to escape this cruel world.
"'I will do it… only answer me one question…' She nodded and dried away tears. 'Why do you want me to kill you?' She sighted, walking closer to him. 'Then my family will think of me as the though ninja I was when I left. They will think I died defending them. I'm selfish really, wanting to devise them, but it's for their own good… does that answer your question?' He nodded slowly. Then got a kunai and walked closer to her. 'Any last wish?' He asked sadly. She nodded and slowly put his hand with a kunai to her neck. 'For this bloody war to end soon. And… thank you… Naruto.' She smiled as he ended her quickly. Her body fell limp in his arms. Then, he slowly put her down on the ground and smiled. 'I'll try my best to make that wish come true.'"
I dried away my tears and took some deep breaths.
Well here's the chapter, will try to continue it, hopefully faster too.
(1)- This is what I warned you about. Well Naruko (main caracther if you haven't noticed yet ;3) curses like a sailor when she's frustraited, angry, irritated or.. yeah stressed too I guess. I couldn't resist, 'cuz it's an habit I have too. (like two weeks ago I though I had lost my wallet and ran around cursing bloody murderes to a burning hell and stuff... my friend had taken it though... phew ¤.¤
(2)- yup, plainly how I imagened it. Please don't hate me because of it. Gotta say I mainly used it to fill the chapter a little, don't plan to make Naruko read it out loud more... I think o3o
well ja ne ;3