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Previously...
"Well... Morgause is worried about Morgana, that's why she's doing all that." Merlin pointed. "So that means she truly loves Morgana, she wouldn't do anything to hurt her or the baby." He concluded.
"That's an interesting observation, Merlin." Gaius said. "Morgause is afraid of Uther being bad to her sister and doesn't see that Agravaine could be much worse to herself."
"And now Morgana is worried about her sister as well!" Merlin completed.
"Come on, men!" Kevin got up. "We have no time to waste with this futile talking!"
"Kevin!" His father reprehended him.
"We have ladies in danger to save!" The boy finished.
Chapter 21
Morgause was trying to relax in her warm bath. Goddess! Now Agravaine knows the way she feels... Oh, and he was the guilty one for Merlin having found out she wasn't in Camelot! If she hadn't stood for so long with him... well, she knew she was trying to delude herself. She was the guilty one! He had insisted, of course, but she, Morgause, was the one who decided stay there with him. Oh, Agravaine, why?
"Sister?" Morgana's voice came from the corridor after a soft knock.
"Come in, Morgana!"
She entered.
"Come here, I'm bathing!" She called her sister when she listened to the door closing.
"Maybe I should be back later?"
"Of course not, my queen!" Morgause emphasised Morgana's new title. "I'm finishing... and we're sisters, right? It's not like I'd feel embarrassed or something."
Morgana smiled at that. Morgause had never been the one to be embarrassed about anything.
"So, Morgana? How was your honeymoon?" She smiled sincerely. Oh, she still thinks Uther was a dangerous traitor... but she also wants Morgana to be happy. So her little sister would have something nice to remember when she and Agravaine finally get rid of the king!
"Oh!" Morgana smiled and blushed. "It was wonderful!"
"Come on, Morgana!" Her sister smirked. "We're grown up women, what about some details?"
If possible, the queen blushed even more.
"Fine!" Morgana sighed and took a seat near of the tube. "I'll tell you some details... but only if you tell me some details too." She smirked, happy about her strategy.
"Oh?" Morgause gasped. "Wh-what are you talking about, sister?" She looked a bit scared at Morgana. Had Merlin told her something? No, he wouldn't interrupt the royal honeymoon just for that, right?
"Well... you're such a gorgeous woman, Morgause... Maybe there is someone..." Morgana tried to sound innocent.
"Oh!" Morgause sighed in relief. Well, why not? "Yes, there is someone..." Morgause smiled, a light blush colouring her cheeks.
"I knew it!" Morgana tried her best girlish voice. "Tell me, sister, who's he?"
"It's... it's so confused, Morgana!" She said sincerely.
"Sister... it doesn't have to be." Morgana said.
"It started almost innocently. Gazes and smiles... and soon I went to his bed." Quicker than 'soon', but Morgana doesn't have to know that little detail, right?
"Oh, I understand... so it's just sex for you."
"It's always just sex for me, Morgana." Morgause said serious. "Well, it always used to be... and sincerely I preferred it could still be."
"And why it can't be?" Morgana insisted, hoping her sister wouldn't stop talking about her own life.
For Morgana's great surprise, Morgause sighed.
"He... he was so great in the bed and so nice out of the bed." Morgause told her sister. "I had never known someone who matched me so well, Morgana."
"So you love him?" Morgana smiled.
"I think so." She whispered.
"So you have a beautiful story to live!" Morgana smiled.
"I-I can't." She looked down.
"Why not?"
"Oh, sister, you're so innocent!" Morgause smiled sadly. "I'm not sure he'd like to live a beautiful story or something, it doesn't fit him." She said. Agravaine was supportive when she told him about her feelings... but he was very clear, he thinks he feels the same. He thinks... "Moreover, he is not here anymore." She told her sister as if it didn't affect her.
"Sister!" Morgana said shocked. Even already knowing about everything, it was so weird to see Morgause talking and reacting in that way! "You're in love with Agravaine!"
"What do we do next?" Kevin asked, still sounding like a brave knight.
"Morgana is talking to her sister, trying to make her see that Agravaine isn't a nice man for her." Uther told them, pacing around the physician's chambers. "The best we could do now is trying to put an end in Morgause's spell."
"Oh!" Kevin went to the king. "But, sir... she will be so sad if she knows Agravaine doesn't love her anymore... even if he isn't here anymore."
"Oh, well, she didn't thought twice before playing with other people's feelings!" Merlin said bitterly.
"Merlin!" Gaius reprehended him.
"I'm sorry." The lad said and the room was suddenly in an awkward silence. "I... uh... I'm going to take some magic books, so we could search for a way to stop the spell. Come here, Kevin, help me with the books!"
Soon the boys were back with lots of magic books.
"Mother of god!" Uther looked at the books very surprised. "How did you hide all these books from my guards for so many years, Gaius?" He sounded genuinely surprised and curious.
"A physician has his methods!" Gaius smiled. "And, if I can say, sir, your guards were never exactly fans of reading..." Uther smiled at that.
"That's why Morgana enjoys so much coming here for reading..." The king commented thoughtfully.
"And she could read even more if you gave her a break!" Merlin said with a smirk, his bitterness already gone.
"Merlin!" His mother was very shocked. "Did I teach you to act like that?" She said a bit angry, what amused Uther.
"Oh, that's fine..." Uther said still smiling proud of himself.
"We're losing time!" Gaius said. "Come on, let's start searching something in these books!"
"Morgana!" Morgause was very shocked and, she must confess a bit scared. "It... it is not like that!" She smirked, denying her own feelings. "Look, I don't love Agravaine..."
"Sister, you've just confessed!" Morgana smirked. "And you're even blushed!" Morgana remembered how Arthur used to tease her and Uther about their relationship. And, the queen had to confess, she was having some fun doing that!
"Oh!" Morgause covered her flushed cheeks with her wet hands. "Why... why do you think he's Agravaine?"
"Let's see... The way you talk about him, the way you say his name, the way you're still blushed and smiling, what else?" Morgana said dramatically. "Oh, of course, all the time you used to spend together, the exchange of glances..."
"Do not delude yourself, Morgana!" Morgause tried again. "Lord Agravaine looks like that to every woman." She got out of the tube and wrapped her body with a soft towel. "By the way, he was very disappointed when he knew you'd get married..."
"I know." Morgana said. "But I don't use to look back in the same way."
Morgause looked at her younger sister and knew she couldn't deny it anymore. She paced around and ended up in her bed. So the lady sat heavily and covered her face with her hands.
"Fine, Morgana! I'm completely in love with Agravaine!" She finally said.
"Sister!"
"I miss him so much!"
Morgana couldn't help but embrace her sister.
"Oh, sister... don't be like this!" She tapped Morgause's back and, for Morgana great surprise, her sister embraced her very hard, she really needs someone to comfort her.
"You were right, Morgana!" She said with tears on her eyes. "Love eventually found everyone."
"Calm down, Morgause... see? It's fine!" Morgana calmed her. "Don't you feel better after telling someone about the way you feel?
Morgause pulled away and sighed.
"Y-yes." She wiped her tears. "How could I, sister?"
"Well... I don't think falling in love is something you choose..." Morgana said thoughtfully. "I love Uther, see? In the beginning everybody was shocked because he's older and he used to be my guardian."
"And how did it started?" Morgause asked curiously.
"Oh!" The queen smiled. "I... I was very sad because of my father's death. And he used to be always there to make me feel better."
"Oh?" Morgause was a bit shocked.
"Oh, not like that!" Morgana blushed. "He... he used to embrace me when I cried... invite me for rides and teas..." She smiled. "And time passed and passed... and when I figured out I was in love... sister!" Morgana remembered. "It scared me, of course!" Morgause sighed, feeling more normal. "I mean, of course he would never feel the same! He was the king, he was older, he was my father's best friend!" It made Morgause smile. She could almost see a younger Morgana saying all that. "I tried to forget, but he was always in my mind."
"I understand." Morgause said dreamily. Few weeks ago she would think all that an absurd.
"And one day, we were having an afternoon tea." Morgana told her sister. "And we confessed our feelings." She smiled. "I felt so lucky, sister!" Morgana was happy because Morgause finally seems to understand her. "People should never be afraid of this kind of thing... of course it can be all wrong. But on the other hand, you may find love and happiness." She said. "It's your choice."
"So you think I should insist about Agravaine?" Morgause sound so hopeful and her eyes shined so much that Morgana felt sorry for her sister.
"Sister... you know you should be very careful... Agravaine is not a nice man." Morgana started.
"Don't talk like that about him!" It surprised and amused Morgana a bit. "He... he's good to me, Morgana. He's the first one who really understands me, we match in every way."
Goddess, it was much worse than Morgana had thought!
"Look, sister... Agravaine and Uther..."
Stop that, Morgana." Morgause said very seriously. "I don't like the idea of you and Uther being together too. But what did I do? I respected your decision!" She said very rationally. Even knowing it wasn't completely true. "May you respect the mine?"
"Morgause, it's different... Uther has changed." Morgause chuckled. "No, he seriously did! I saw the way he did it, slowly changing since I've arrived in Camelot, years ago." Morgause remembered how affected the king uses to be each time Morgana has a sight. "Agravaine, on the other hand, is someone who lost his mind because of his fury." She took a breath. "Can't you see it, Morgause? He's spoilt by his eagerness of revenge!"
"Only because he thinks your precious Uther is guilty for his sister's death."
"Morgause, you know it's not true." Morgana said seriously.
"Fine, Morgana." She sighed, trying to finish the topic. "What do you suggest me to do? Forget about him? Oh, I've tried that! Deny my feelings? Oh, I've tried that too!" Morgana had a shocked face. "The point is, I need Agravaine in my bed!" She sighed. "Ok, not only in my bed!" She admitted when her sister smirked. "And don't think I feel happy about that!"
"Oh, sister..." Morgana couldn't help but feel sorry. "But as you've said, he's far away now..."
Oh, Morgana, he's not! Morgause hide her smile.
"Morgana, look... I really don't know what to do!" Morgause said sincerely. "I feel so lost! I see how you've been dealing with the fact you're in love and... and I just can't deal with it in the same way."
"Why should you deal with it the same way I do? Try your own way..." Morgana smiled. "Oh, and realizing it wasn't something that calm for me too, sister." She told Morgause. "Does he feel the same way?"
Morgause stood in silence for some moments. For the first time she wondered if Agravaine really feels the same or if his reaction to her was just because of her spell.
"I... I think so." She looked at her hands.
"At least he had no problem with your magic the way Uther had when I found out about the mine." Morgana remembered that dark days.
"The bastard!" Morgause got up in anger.
"Sister!" Morgana was shocked. "That's fine!"
"How could it be fine, Morgana? He could have you killed, you know that?"
"He... he would never harm me." She said very securely. "And thanks to that reaction of his and my... uh... insistence, now magic is free." Morgause looked very seriously at her sister, in silence for many seconds. "Love is the most powerful magic, Morgause." She told her sister. Maybe there was still hope for Morgause... maybe even for Agravaine?
"Maybe." Morgause said. "But that's enough of talking about me and Agravaine..." Morgause said with a sincere smile. "Now tell me how your honeymoon was!"
"Oh!" Morgana smiled remembering. "It was great!"
"Come on, Morgana... details!" She smirked.
"Sister!" She blushed a bit. "I... I love the way Uther takes me." She told and noticed the way Morgause's face was softer. "He's always so eager, so willing..."
"Does he spend his time giving you pleasure?" She asked worriedly. Morgause cares a lot about sexual life, she knows women who have a nice sexual life use to live... happier. "Or is he just worried about entering again and again?" She smiled when Morgana blushed.
"He's great!" Morgana confessed. Well, he was the only one she have had... but she heard many stories of maids and royal women about how some men doesn't care about pleasuring the women. "He always teases me until I'm mad and begging him for taking me." She told her sister, who was listening carefully.
"Oh..." Morgause smiled, remembering about Agravaine. "I'm glad to know..." She said, trying to put Agravaine out of her thinking. "So my little sister enjoyed her wedding night... and had an orgasm, I presume?"
"Many of them!" She smiled completely blushed.
"Wow!" Morgause smiled. "I'm really glad to know, Morgana. I care about you and, even if I don't... uh... like you husband, I'd like you to be happy."
"Thank you sister." She hugged Morgause. "I want you to be happy too!"
"Oh!" Morgause got an idea. "So that means you're going to help me with Agravaine?"
"Wh-what?" Morgana pulled away a bit shocked. "Sister..."
"Morgana, I can't keep him out of my mind!"
Morgana and her sister looked at each other in silence for some moments.
"Sister... may I ask..."
"Anything, Morgana!" Morgause interrupted her.
"What about... uh... what exactly happened between you and Merlin?" She tried to sound calm and innocent.
Morgause freeze. Well, she doesn't really think that topic would only die...
"Merlin..." Morgause looked at her hands. "Merlin was a big mistake." And, in every sense, that was so true!
"Well." Morgana wouldn't tell her sister she knew the truth. Morgause would guess it, she was smart. "Perhaps you should tell him that. The boy is completely devastated."
"Morgana..."
"I'm serious, Morgause. Merlin is a very dear friend, almost a brother." She said very seriously. "I don't know for sure what happened between the two of you since each of you has a different version... but I know what I can notice, Merlin is becoming bitter and sad. And I know he doesn't deserve that."
"Oh, maybe that will teach him to act like a man!" Morgause said angry.
"Sister!" Morgana couldn't believe Morgause's coldness. "What if... what if someone you really care about... Agravaine! What if Agravaine did the same to you?"
"I know when it's just sex, Morgana." She didn't notice the way she has just confessed Merlin wasn't guilty.
"Don't try to fool me sister! Agravaine is much more than sex to you!" Morgana said angry. "What if he used you the way you did to Merlin? Would you like that?"
"Of course not." She said looking down. Well, but she didn't have to worry about that, right? She has made that spell, so Agravaine would always stay with her! "Look, it was just... I thought Merlin would be with me... oh, no, sister, no like a couple!" She added when Morgana smiled. "Even because at that time I was already in love with Agravaine, I think."
"Oh!" Morgana was shocked. If she was in love with Agravaine and probably already with him, why on earth she had to be so bad to Merlin?
"I... was worried about you marrying the king and... well, I know how influent Merlin is. The great Emrys, right? I thought he would help me to make you see some sense."
"You what?" Morgana was mad now.
"I know, it went all wrong." She said.
"Sister, how could you?"
"I... I thought telling you Merlin raped me, you would be mad at him... and so he would stay by my side because we had a bond." Morgause confessed looking down just like a little kid who confesses having broken a window. "I'm so sorry, sister."
"You're sorry!" Morgana paced around, she couldn't believe that. Well, she knew that, but hearing from Morgause and knowing her intentions was completely different.
"It was a big mistake, right?" Morgause said more self confident. "I recognise it, Morgana." She said sincerely. "Will you ever forgive me?" She asked worriedly.
"I... well, I love you, sister!" The blond woman really looked sorry. "It was a really big mistake..." Morgana said.
"A terrible one." Morgause said looking down.
"But I really believe you can be a better person than that." Morgana said.
"Thank you sister!" Morgause smiled. And, for her great surprise, she felt much better after that. "I'm really sorry for that!"
"So you really should tell Merlin you're sorry, sister." Morgana said calmer, but seriously.
"Wh-what?"
"Sister, he's a nice boy! He didn't deserve that."
"Are you asking me this as the queen?" Morgause said.
"No. I'm suggesting it as your sister because I love the both of you and I want you both to feel better." Morgana said, making her sister very surprised.
"I... I'll try." Morgause said. Morgana was always so sweet, Morgause never could say 'no' to her little sister since they were kids.
Gaius' chambers were silent. Everybody had a magic book in their hands, reading and taking notes. That was when a soft knock broke the silence.
"Come in!" Gaius said.
"Morgana!" Uther smiled. "How was the conversation with your sister?"
"My sister is completely in love." She told them, standing near of Uther, who wrapped his arms around her waist and brought her to sit on his lap. "I... I really don't know what to do!" Uther kissed her forehead tenderly. "Whatever happens, she would suffer so much!" Hunith looked at the couple with a soft smile. They were so cute! "I don't want her to feel bad."
"Maybe she'll learn not to play with people's feelings!" Merlin said.
"Merlin!" Hunith was shocked. "What's happening to you, son?"
"I'm so sorry." He got up and walked to his room.
He needed some comfort and, as Hunith was using his bed while staying in Camelot, it smelled so softly and sweetly like his mother.
Morgana followed him.
"Merlin!" She said. He was lying on his bed, face down.
"I'm sorry, Morgana... I didn't mean to offend you." He looked at her and sat.
"You didn't." She said, sitting with him. "Morgause really needs to learn how to deal better with people. But even so, I saw how much she loves Agravaine..."
"Oh, Agravaine!" Merlin rolled his eyes.
"Yes, I know." Morgana said. "I'm worried, Merlin. I feel so insecure!"
Merlin looked at his friend. Living his own personal drama he hadn't noticed Morgana's trouble.
"I wish I could help you." He told her. "But look at me! The king committed a big mistake making me the official warlock! I can't even take care of myself!"
"Oh, Merlin!" Morgana hugged him.
It was so comfortable, so warm, so right! All he could notice was Morgana's little and soft body against him. Uther was really a lucky man!
"Don't feel so bad!" She said. "Of course Uther didn't commit a mistake. You're Emrys! You'll be a legend, Merlin."
"I do everything wrong!"
"No..." She pulled him away and looked at his eyes. "Everyone has bad days sometimes." He smiled at her optimism. "Look, my sister confessed me what happened that night."
"She did?" Merlin was very surprised.
"Yes." Morgana said. "She's really sorry. And I think she wants to tell you that she's sorry."
"Oh!" Merlin smiled at that. "And did she tell you about the spell?"
"No. But she confessed she loves him." Morgana said calmly. "And considering it was my sister, that means something!" Morgana smiled, causing the boy to smile too. "It's the first time she falls in love. She doesn't know how to act."
"And now you're worried about Agravaine being bad to her." Merlin pointed.
"Well, yes." She looked away. "Even if he's far away."
"I think I understand..." He doesn't have siblings. But if he has, he'd probably feel the same way. "Curiously she feels the same about you and Uther." He said.
"Oh... uh... well, Merlin, you know as much as me how my and Uther's love changed the both of us."
"And Camelot." He added.
"Yes, and Camelot." Morgana said. "I just hope... whatever happens... maybe this feeling could help me to bring my sister back to what she used to be... No dark magic, no hate and feeling of revenge. Just Morgause. My sister."
Merlin leaned in and kissed Morgana's forehead.
"I promise I'll do anything to help you." He said.
"Thank you, Merlin." She smiled sweetly. "You're a very loyal friend.
"Now try not to worry too much." He suggested. "That isn't good to your baby." As he expected, his recommendation brought one more smile to Morgana's lips.
"Come on, Merlin. They need us to help with the books." They left Merlin's room.
So? I know, this chapter was slow, more based on dialogues than in actions, but that was necessary to keep the story on its line. I hope it wasn't too boring or too slow? On the other hand, we had some feelings revelled here... important feelings, by the way!
Next one we'll finally have a try of stopping Morgause's spell!
See you next Friday! Have a nice weekend! =D