Song for this chapter: I'll Be Good by Jaymes Young

"You can't do this," Connix insisted as she followed Leia and Anya toward the escape pod.

"Connix, go back to the bridge." Anya said.

"No, this is dumb, you're going to get killed," Connix yelled grabbing Anya by the arm.

"Kaydal," Leia said.

"We don't have time for this. They are literally trying to blow this ship out of the sky if I don't leave now I won't get to the Finalizer in one piece."

Suddenly Anya felt a wave of anger rush through her.

"Anya," Leia said grabbing her shoulder but when Anya looked over it wasn't Leia standing next to her but Ben.

His rage was fuming and Anya could feel it.

She didn't even bother trying to talk. Ben's rage was blinding him so much he couldn't even see Anya this time.

Anya jumped as Ben slammed his mask into the side of the glass elevator.

"Failure," She could hear him say in his thoughts. "Disappointment."

Anya sighed sadly as she looked at Ben. He was always like this when they were training. He was ungodly hard on himself. Snoke's voice in his head didn't help that.

"A child in a mask," The voice's taunted.

Ben quickly dropped the remains of the mask to the ground.

The elevator doors opened and Ben and Anya were greeted by two people.

"Prepare my ship!" Ben screamed leaving the elevator and Anya in it.

Slowly Anya bent down picking up the shards of the mask. She didn't know if this was the end of Kylo Ren or the beginning of an even bigger issue.

Closing her eyes she dropped the mask and when she opened her eyes she was back with the resistance.

"He's coming here." Anya said to Leia.

"Who Ben?" Connix asked.

"Yes, and he's mad, Snoke pissed him off, made him feel like a failure, which makes him do stupid things. I have to go now, this is my last chance." Anya begged.

Connix quickly let go of Anya looking at the floor.

Anya pulled her in for a hug. "Take care of my brother. He may be mad now, but he will get over it."

"Be careful up there, if you die Poe's gonna kill me." Connix laughed as she broke away.

Anya then turned to Leia who looked at her with sad eyes.

"Bring him home, Anya" She pleaded as she hugged Anya.

"I will, Ben's going to come back to us, I feel it."

"If it comes down to you saving Ben, and you making it out alone…" Leia started seriously.

"I'll save Ben," Anya responded.

Leia and Connix looked at each other.

"No, Anya, if it comes down to saving Ben, you get out of there and come home." Leia insisted.

"I will," Anya lied, honestly her plan was to fight for Ben. She would fight for Ben until the end. She would die before she gave up hope for him. "I have to go," She said giving Leia another hug before she crawled into the escape pod took off.

The minute Anya left the transport ship the feeling of aloneness, hit her. The fear that she could be killed at any moment. The fear that Ben would be too far gone and he would kill her.

"Ben please remember me. Please still be you." She thought as the escape pod flew closer to the Finalizer.

Suddenly she felt a wave of grief rush over her. It was so strong she let out a scream of anguish as she slammed her hand onto the window of the escape pod.

She watched it happen just as Ben had, the bridge with General Leia, a woman who the two shared as a mother figure, was blown away.

"No," Anya sobbed collapsing to her knees tears in her eyes as the escape pod passed through the shield of the finalizer.

"Stop, get yourself in control, you have to get onto that ship," Anya told herself as the escape pod crashed into the loading dock sending Anya flying forward.

Using the force she caught herself steading herself.

She took a deep breath before she pushed the door and found herself face to face with an army of stormtroopers.

She brought her hands up in surrender when suddenly she felt someone grab her hair, which she had pulled back into a long ponytail and yank her out of the pod and then pushed her down to her knees.

"Rebel scum!" She heard someone yell as she felt a blaster be placed against the back of her head.

"I request to speak to Captain Phasma." Anya screamed causing everyone to freeze. "I have information about the resistance."

"What does this scum want!" A loud booming voice rang out. The stormtroopers parted as one stormtrooper whose suit was silver came marching down the aisle.

"I have informat…" Anya started when Phasma quickly slapped her across the face.

"Why should I believe that you aren't some spy sent to destroy the Finalizer," Phasma said.

"Take me to Kylo Ren's room." Anya said seriously as she stared at Phasma.

"What did you just say," Phasma said raising a hand to strike Anya again.

"Take me to Kylo Ren's room." Anya said more forcefully.

"That's it," Phasma said roughly grabbing Anya's arm pulling her to her feet. "I'm taking her to General Hux."

"What, no!" Anya screamed the plan falling apart around her.

Phasma began to drag Anya away.

"No, no I have information, valuable information." Anya continued as Phasma dragged her out of the room.

"Hux will deal with you, you rebel scum." Phasma snapped.

"Take me to Kylo Ren's room!" Anya screamed and Phasma froze.

"I'll take you to Master Ren's room," Phasma said monotony as she loosened her grip.

Anya smiled as she gladly strode next to Phasma as they walked down the hall. Suddenly Phasma stopped next to a room. She quickly input a keycode and the door slide open.

"I have taken you to Kylo Ren's room." She said.

"Good, now you will say that General Hux took care of me, and then you will forget me." Anya said stepping into the room.

"I will tell everyone that General Hux took care of you and then forget about you."

"Alright see ya later, chrome dome." Anya laughed as she shut the door.

She then gave herself a moment to breathe. She had done it, however, the hard part was still to come.

Slowly she began to look around. There wasn't much in the room. Just a bed, a table, and some chairs. But it was what was on the table that interested Anya.

"He kept it." She said noticing Ben's old lightsaber from when they both trained with Luke. AS she walked towards the table that's when she saw the drawings on the table which caused her to gasp.

Spread on the table were different drawings of Anya and her name was carved into the table.

"Oh, Ben." Anya gasped tears in her eyes.

Slowly she walked towards the giant window The first thing she noticed was that the resistance flat was gone, they had made it. She could also see the remains of the dreadnought debris floating so she prayed her brother had made it back alright.

"What?" She heard someone say and she turned around to see Ben standing in the doorway holding his old saber.

When she turned around Ben's eyes went wide as he dropped the lightsaber.

"Hi Ben," Anya said smiling.

"What… how…" Ben stuttered confused. "Is this another vision from my father."

"No, Ben I'm here, I'm…" Anya started taking a step forward.

Ben quickly threw out his hand to get his lightsaber, but Anya quickly did the same and the saber threw to her.

"Get the fuck out of my head," Ben screamed as he reached down and grabbed the old lightsaber turning it on charging at Anya.

"Ben don't!" Anya cried as she turned on her lightsaber just in time for the two lightsabers to clash sending sparks flying. Anya stared at Ben the blue from his saber reflecting into his eyes. "Ben please it's me."

"Stop calling me Ben!" He screamed pushing forward causing Anya to kick him backward."Ben Solo is dead?" Ben screamed as he lunged at Anya again but this time she dodged out of the way falling onto the bed.

"Please, it's okay. It's me, it's Anya, I'm alive." She begged as he lunged at her again getting on top of her the two sabers clashing again, Ben's saber slicing her arms again slightly. Anya screamed out in pain.

Ben's face quickly softened as he turned off his lightsaber throwing it. He then ripped the other lightsaber out of Anya's hands and throwing it as well.

Ben then grabbed Anya by the shoulder ripping her up.

"How are you here!" Ben screamed shaking Anya.

"I'm alive Ben," Anya cried.

"No stop saying that!" Ben screamed tears in his eyes. "I killed you, 6 years ago I killed you!"

"Ben I'm right here, I'm alive you didn't kill me." Anya said trying to get through to ben. "Open your mind, let me in."

Ben stared at Anya for a moment and then he nodded.

Slowly both of them closed their eyes and Anya thought of a memory from when they were both were training with Luke.

They had been training just the two of them, running along in the sands near the temple.

"Ben, wait up!" Anya called laughing trying to keep up with him.

"Come on Anya you're too slow!" Ben laughed running even faster.

Anya had been training with Ben and Luke for two years. Ben and Anya quickly became each other's best friends.

Anya quickly bent over trying to catch her breath when suddenly she got an idea.

"Ben!" She yelled with fake panic.

"Come on Anya" Ben laughed as he came back towards her.

"Ben I…" Anya gasped as she fell to the ground.

"Anya!" Ben screamed in terror as he sprinted to her sliding on his knees as he picked her up into his arms. "Anya wake up." He pleaded.

Anya quickly began to laugh causing Ben to drop her with a relieved sigh.

"Oh, you should have seen the look on your face." Anya laughed.

"Don't scare me like that," Ben said as he pinned Anya's hands above her head straddling her.

Anya smiled as she wrapped her legs around his waist and flipped them over so she was on top.

"Nice try Solo…" She started when suddenly Ben leaned up his lips crashing onto Anya's

Anya was taken aback for a moment before she intertwined her fingers in his curls deepening the kiss. This lasted for a while before they both broke apart eyes wide.

"We should…" Anya started straightening herself out. "Master Luke he…"

"Yes," Ben said as he quickly took off running again. Anya followed this time purposely staying behind Ben. Both couldn't contain their smiles.

Back on the Finalizer, Ben stumbled backward starting at Anya.

"Anya?" He asked as he took off his gloves and slowly brought his hand up and placed it on her cheek. The minute his skin made contact with hers he knew it wasn't a dream and he pulled her into his arms enveloping her in a bone-crushing hug. "Anya!" Ben exclaimed his voice cracking as his knees gave way and they both collapsed to the floor. "I thought I'd lost you, I thought I had killed…" Ben started his tears falling into her curly brown hair.

"Hey," Anya said pulling away, placing her hand on his cheek. "I'm ok, I'm right here."

They both stared at each other for a moment before Ben spoke.

"You look different, your hair is longer." He said smiling however his smile faded when he noticed the side of her face was bruised. "Who did this to you." He growled angrily.

"Captain Phasma wasn't too happy with me making demands." Anya laughed trying to get Ben to calm down but she could see the anger fuming in his eyes.

"I'll kill her," He snapped trying to get up but Anya quickly wrapped her arms around his neck as she straddled his waist.

"Hey, it doesn't matter now." She soothed staring into his brown eyes which softened.

"I've missed you," Ben sighed as he ran his fingers through her hair.

"Ben," Anya sighed as she leaned closer into him.

Ben quickly leaned forward placing his lips on her.

Anya deepened the kiss intertwining her fingers in his hair. The scene playing out exactly as it had so many years earlier.

Ben quickly placed one hand on the back of her head and wrapped his arm around her waist standing up her legs locked around his waist.

Suddenly they both felt an energy heading towards them and their heads snapped to look at the door.

"Hux," Ben growled as he let Anya back down onto the ground. "You need to hide." Quickly he began to scan the room for a place for Anya to hide. His eyes landed on the closet. Ben grabbed Anya's hand as they walked towards it. "I'm sorry about this." Ben sighed.

Anya walked into the closet moving the clothes so she had a spot.

Before closing the door, Ben leaned in and kissed Anya again.

"Please don't disappear." He begged shutting the door.

Just as Ben turned around Hux burst into the room.

"What do you want!" Ben snapped.

"We have a major issue. There is a resistance spy running around the ship."

Ben's thoughts instantly went to Anya.

"Shit!" He heard her think.

"What do you mean?"

"There is a resistance escape pod in the loading dock. The men say Captain Phasma said that I took care of the girl, but Phasma says she has no recollection of it." Hux sighed annoyed.

"Are you certain you didn't misplace the girl." Ben sneered and he could hear Anya snicker in her head.

"Good one." She laughed causing him to crack a smile.

"Very funny, just keep your guard up." Hux snapped fighting the urge to pull out his blaster.

"Will do," Ben said and Hux nodded turning to leave.

"One more thing, the med bay says they are ready to stitch up your face whenever you have the time," Hux said almost laughing then he turned back towards the door. He stopped however when he saw the drawing on the table. "Who's this," He smiled picking up the picture causing Ben to grit his teeth. "Friend of yours?" Hux began to look at the drawing more intensely. "She's very beautiful." Hux sneered causing Ben to clench his hand into a fist. "I would get rid of these if I were you. You wouldn't want Snoke finding out about them." Then Hux crumbled the paper stuffing it into his pocket as he left.

"Is it safe to come out?" Anya asked in her head.

"Yes," Ben sighed sitting on the edge of the bed.

Anya quickly emerged from the closet. "God he's awful, how do you not just punch him everytime he talks."

"It's hard…" Ben said as he looked at the floor.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Anya asked kneeling in front of him.

"What were you thinking," Ben growled.

"What?" Anya asked taken aback.

"You flew in a resistance escape pod! What if they would have killed you as soon as you got on board!" Ben screamed.

"Well, they didn't so…"

"And then you just hoped that you could Jedi mind trick your way into my room and expect that everyone would just forget about seeing you!"

"I'm not planning on being on the ship for very long!" Anya snapped back.

Ben sighed as he stood up walking towards the window.

"Anya why are you here?"

Anya felt like she had just been hit.

"Ben, I came to bring you back."

"Back to where the resistance. There is nothing left for me there. My mother is dead, and I killed my father. You think the resistance will just let me join them again after everything I have done. Your brother will be the first one lining up to kill me."

"Ben," Anya gasped.

"Do you not understand what I have done! I've killed people Anya. Lots of people, people who had families, husbands, wives, children. And I didn't care! I killed my own father for fuck sake!"

"Ben I came to save you!" Anya cried tears in her eyes.

"I can't be saved!" Ben screamed as he held out his hand causing Anya to fly towards him his hand wrapping around her throat. "I don't want to be saved! I'm not a good person! Why can't you understand that!" He screamed as he tightened his grip on her throat.

"Ben," She tried to gasp.

"Snoke isn't going to let me just leave, I can't leave," Ben said his anger subsiding.

Anya quickly threw her hand out sending Ben flying backward allowing her to fall to the floor gasping for air.

Ben looked up angry, but when he saw Anya all the anger subsided and the guilt hit him. He thought of the vision he had seen of him grandfather and grandmother when Anakin believed his beloved Padme had betrayed him. "Anya!" He gasped running towards her.

Anya winced as he reached out to her. She looked up at him with fear in her eyes.

Up until that moment that look of fear had fueled Kylo Ren, but as Ben saw it in the eyes of the women he loved, he knew he had to be better.