Well, hello everyone. It's time for another chapter of LLNO and I would like to apologize for last chapter. See someone told me that a tissue warning would've been nice, and being as when I am spell checking I don't exactly go back looking at the emotions, just at the grammar and spelling, and even while I'm writing I don't know how emotional it is because if I go back to read more than a few sentences, I get stuck, so I just keep going.

So due to this, be warned that this may also be tissue warning worthy...

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Alright, so you know the drill SM owns Twilight and all it's wondrous glory. Me, I just own my raunchy details ;) Guess I just gave you what the Big O stands for... darn.

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Chapter 11: Big Brother and Big O

I laid in the bed swiping at my face a few minutes as I took a much needed couple of deep breaths. I was getting my memories back, slowly, but surely… Charlie didn't blame me… and I, well, I still did but it was lessening. I'm sure the moment I see my Bella all the self loathing will come back full force. I sighed and let my hand fall back to the bed with a drop. A few minutes later, I heard my brother knocking at the door. He poked his head in and a big smile crossed his face. As he walked into the room I took a longer look at him. His eyes were sunk in, deep purple bags underneath, and his smile looked pinched, like he was trying to force it. I knew what he was doing, but I figured he needed it more for himself, than for me.

"Well, well, well, couldn't find anything to give your girl for Christmas, so you extended your due date, eh bro?" I knew he was trying to make light of the whole situation. "Yea, definitely not the best idea I've ever had." I replied back to him.

He shook his head and plopped down in the seat beside me. "Yea, you probably should've just told her you didn't get her one yet, instead of wrecking your precious." He spoke the word precious like that ugly green thing off those lord of the ring movies. He always made fun of me for loving my car so much. We both laughed, and then the laughing got stunted, and finally stopped all together. We knew we couldn't keep the pretending up and I just waited him out. He was bent over at the waist, elbows on his knees and his hands running over his face.

"Man, you can't ever just do something simple, huh." He put his palms into his eyes and took a deep breath. "We're going to hell."

Well, that sentence threw me off track. "Why?" I asked slowly.

"For trying to make light of all this. I shouldn't have said what I said. I know it's not your fault, and I don't want you thinking you had anything to do with it, and I CERTAINLY don't want to be making a joke of everything that happened."

"Emmett, that's what you do. You help by making things better, by laughing at them. I'm not angry with you for trying to make me feel better." I spoke quietly. He nodded but was still looking down. "Emmett look at me." It took him a few moments but he did as I requested. His eyes were rimmed red, face splotchy, and there were small tear marks on the sides of his eyes. "I'm fine."

He nodded his head rapidly and then just as quickly started shaking his head side to side. He jumped from the chair and walked over to my window facing the parking lot outside. I could hear his breathing getting faster and saw his hands that were resting on the windowsill turn into fists. "I wanted to kill the bastard that did this."

"…Emmett," but he cut me off before I could say anything else.

"He's fine you know. I saw him when we first showed up to the… and then I saw him in the hospital after they told us you were out of surgery. He was sitting in a chair talking to the police and he had a scratch on his cheek. His CHEEK!" He slammed his fist into the windowsill and turned around where I saw he had tears running down his face. "The fucker that did this had a fucking scratch on his face and you were in for surgery… and Bella…" He started shaking his head again and turned back to the window. "The moment I saw him I started screaming to the police that they better put that asshole in jail. It took both Dad and Charlie to hold me back because all I saw was red. I wanted to do to him what he did to you."

I sighed and let him continue. He definitely needed to get this all out. I hadn't heard about what happened to the other driver, whether he was okay or not, but now that I knew I didn't know how to feel. He put me and Bella in this position, but I would never wish this on another person.

"I watched the guy's eyes go wide and he started standing and apologizing to me. When I heard him say 'I'm so sorry' I swear I could have ripped his throat out. I mean… how dare he be sorry. He was so drunk I could hear the slurs from his words and the policemen had to grab him under the arms to help him walk away from us, so I wouldn't deck him." His shoulders slumped and he moved his legs back so he could press his head against his folded arms on the windowsill. "I don't think I've ever been so scared in my life." His whisper was so quiet I barely heard him.

"Emmett, I know it must have been terrifying, but I'm okay now. I'm getting better and Bella… well…" I couldn't finish that sentence because I didn't know how things would turn out with Bella.

"It was more than terrifying, bro. Mom was scared out of her fucking mind, Dad wasn't allowed to go with you when you got into the ambulance and we drove like a bat out of hell to get here. They were both going crazy waiting to hear from the doctors and Rosie and I were just…" He sighed and I saw him swipe his face across his arms before walking back over and slumping down into the chair. "Just don't ever do it again, okay. I think I'm already starting to go gray." He tilted his head towards the ceiling.

"How is Rose?" I was shocked that I didn't call her Ice Queen. He looked just as shocked as I did, and then laughed under his breath a little. "She's getting better. She was scared, with nightmares and stuff, but we've been hanging out with Alyssa a lot and she seems to be doing good."

I nodded my head glad she wasn't doing badly. Rose had been in a bad accident before her and my brother got together. Her ex ran her off the road after one too many drinks too, and I was certain it'd bring back some painful memories.

"How is Bella? I've only heard the "doctor" side from Dad, but how is she, really?" I had to ask. I knew he'd tell me the truth, because I'd do the same if it was Rose.

"She's all black and blue, like everywhere man and she's got a bandage going from her hair to her forehead, and then around her neck. They have a tube in her throat to help her with breathing and stuff. She's got the IV obviously and she's still got one of those tubes in her nose. Dad said it was like the one they had for you, you know, for feeding." I nodded my head for him to continue. "Fuck dude, I don't know. They keep telling me shit saying her swelling is going down, and her brain activity is still normal, and something about how her heart is doing well. I don't understand half the shit they're saying other than that she seems to be doing alright. She looks like shit, but they say she's getting better." He shrugged his shoulders and looked at me with an apologetic look in his eyes.

I knew he'd be blunt, he knew what I really wanted to hear, but fuck if all that didn't scare the hell out of me. Breathing tubes and brain activity, and shit were… yeah.

"Thanks. I needed to know. Can you do me a favor man? Can you tell her I love her, and I'll be seeing her soon and to fight. I just… I need her to know that." I knew she wasn't awake, but doctors are always saying to talk to them right? That maybe they can hear us? I need her to know I love her and to fight for everything in her to come back to me. I can't breath without her.

He nodded his head and I knew he was going to leave now. I was exhausted after seeing everyone, and I just wanted to pass out and sleep. He got up and walked over to me, and I grabbed his hand and pulled him down for an oddly angled man hug.

"I love you, big brother. Thank you for finding us," I whispered. I heard a few rattled sobs escape Emmett and he squeezed my hand tighter as he tried to get himself under control.

"You have no idea how glad I was to find you little brother… I thought… I mean… I didn't know if you'd still be … when we got there." He pulled away and used his shirt collar to wipe his eyes.

"What, and miss out on all the ways I can bribe mom to cook for me? Ow, mom my leg hurts, I sure could use a few dozen of your cookies to feel better." He laughed loudly at that and shook his head. "You'll do just about anything for mom's cooking, wouldn't you?" He laughed again.

"Oh, and like you wouldn't."

"Damn straight I would."

We both laughed and we fist bumped as he said he was going to get out of here and let me sleep. I nodded and watched him open the door. He turned back around to look at me and said, "I love you too little brother." He smacked his thumb lightly against the door jamb twice, as I smiled and nodded, and then he left. I wiped my face, feeling the wetness there around my eyes. I smiled and laughed quietly at the fact that a serious amount of crying had been done today, and for once not just by my mother. I didn't even feel… I don't know the word… degraded, for crying so much. I just felt happy. Happy to be alive, happy that my family didn't blame me… definitely happy that Charlie didn't blame me. All I had to do was keep my prayers going that Bella would be okay. I turned the light down until it was low enough to sleep by, and laid down fully in the bed. It was uncomfortable, just like any other hospital bed, but right now I just couldn't care, I was so happy. I smiled as I closed my eyes and let myself fall closer and closer to my dreams… to my Bella.

MEMORIES

"Oh fuck… Bella!" I watched as she moved her tongue across my head, licking at the precum on my tip. So good!

"God, do you know how amazing you looked, holding Alyssa's hand, walking around with us. You were so amazing with her, it felt so surreal. Am I dreaming, Edward?" She enveloped my cock with her tight little mouth and started taking more and more of me across her tongue to the back of her throat.

"Fuck, baby I don't know, but if I am, I really REALLY don't want either of us to wake up. You feel too good." She grabbed hold of my thighs right below my ass and gripped them hard as she bobbed her head up and down on me. As she worked me harder, her throat was getting more and more relaxed until I felt my head go down her throat. At that point she started swallowing around my cock.

"Holy shit… HOLY… God, Bella, move, I'm going to cum… I'm going to… oh FUCK!" She didn't move. She continued swallowing around my cock as the head was at her throat. Fuck it was the best feeling ever to cum down her throat like that, watching her staring up at me as my orgasm abated and she licked me clean.

I picked her up off the ground and laid her on her bed. I kissed her eyes, her cheeks, her soft full lips. I kissed her neck, her breasts, her naval, all the way to the promise land. Okay, that sounded corny, but fuck if I didn't wish I could crawl inside her and just stay there for always.

The first lick I made sent her halfway off the bed. Her back curled so far I thought she'd break in half. I pressed against her hips and looked up into her eyes as I slowly descended down onto her lower lips. Fuck she tastes so good.

"So do you baby." She said. Fuck, did I said that out loud?

"Mhm." She giggled.

Hmm, apparently I have no filter. I shut up and wrapped my lips around her clit, causing her giggles to turn into a long loud moan. "God, Edward more. I need more, please baby."

Your wish, my command. I used my tongue, fingers, lips and teeth to pull her orgasm from her body. She screamed my name, and I wish I could have that as my fucking ring tone it sounded so good coming from her. I licked every drop she gave me before slowly kissing my way back up her body, leaving plenty of attention at her breasts and lips.

She opened her legs wider for me to settle into and the moment I laid further on top of her my cock slid inside her. We both moaned at the contact. And as she wrapped her arms around my neck, I placed mine under her shoulders and started moving much less frantically than before. I wanted to love her, not just fuck her. I pressed against her a little harder, over and over again, getting that much deeper inside her and she wrapped her legs around my waist.

"Bella, fuck I don't think I'll last... you feel so good." I could feel my orgasm coming already, and while I wanted to cum, I didn't want to leave her warmth. I felt movement and looked down, watching her hand snake between us. "Oh fuck, baby. What are you doing to me." I gained more speed, pounding myself into her as she gripped me tightly with her one arm and legs, and moved her fingers frantically around her clit.

"Edward. I'm so close."

"Bella, I can't.. I'm going to.."

"Yes. Do it. Cum, now!"

I felt myself exploding inside her, and her walls started fluttering around me, causing my orgasm to prolong. I moaned long and loud at the feeling of her coming around me, milking my cock. I held her tightly to me, afraid to let go. I didn't want the night to end and for me to have to go to my own home.

"Stay."

I looked down at Bella, her hand reaching up to place her palm on my cheek.

"But Alyssa…"

"She wont be home until tomorrow afternoon. Sleep with me."

I kissed her lips and pulled her against me, so her head laid on my chest. We pulled the blankets over us and moments later I heard her breathing deepen.

Today had been amazing. After picking Bella and Alyssa up, I made them close their eyes until we got to the zoo, to which they both squealed and jumped out of the car quickly. Both Bella and I held one of Alyssa's hand, as we walked and talked about the different animals we saw. To any outsider we would look like a family on an outing. It was that perfect. We stopped for lunch at one of the stands in the zoo, and also picked up some of those ice cream dots. The only bad part of the day was when Alyssa fell and skinned her knee up pretty good. She cried for a good ten minutes and the moment I heard her, I picked her up and held her to my chest as Bella and I walked quickly to a first aid stand. I was able to get some sterile cloths and wipe up the blood and dirt off her knee, before placing a band aid on it.

Alyssa wrapped her arms around me and gave me a teary "Thank you, Edward," and then wouldn't let me put her down for the next half hour. I didn't mind at all.

Later as we were in the car, Sara's mother called asking if Alyssa could sleep over tonight. I'll admit I was a little disappointed to lose some of my Alyssa time, but the look in Bella's eyes as she gave her permission told me that I wouldn't be missing her too much once she got me back to her place. Boy, was she right. I pulled Bella closer to me and as I did, I thought I heard Bella say something.

"Bella, baby, did you say something?" I didn't hear anything so I chalked it up to my mind playing tricks on me, but as I started to fall asleep, I heard it again. Only this time, I couldn't believe what I was hearing…

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