Bound to love
By Pandakelly
Chapter Five
A/N: I own nothing. Thank you for all the reviews from last chapter they really boasted my spirits. I know that I am totally failing at updating but after a great visit from my sister I feel ready to write more.
Sheldon's Point of View
Long after Penny went to bed Sheldon stayed "awake" processing all that the two had discussed, he had surprised himself at how open he was being with the blonde, he had told her not only about his previous owners but he soon found himself sharing some of his deepest fears. He explained the frustration of knowing that he was supposed to have a purpose but due to a lack of author his questions remained unanswered. Sheldon also discovered that most of his experiences with his previous owners had all followed a set pattern, as he traced the pattern to each owner he noticed that he always felt that he had to love them and receive the love that he was offered. It was almost like he had no choice in the matter it, Sheldon found himself wondering how his lack of free will would affect his relationship with Penny.
Sheldon started to notice Penny growing more haggard and downtrodden over the next few months and vowed to make each moment that the two of them shared filled with as much joy as he could muster and promised himself that he would never hurt the blonde who had warmed her way into his heart. Sheldon was not sure how he would maintain this goal but he knew that he needed to at least try especially as he realized how much her friendship meant to him. Slowly but surely the two developed a routine that worked for them, will Penny was at work Sheldon would try and solve the world's mysteries, he knew that he was close and he was certain that if he could only solve one of life's mysteries his purpose would be revealed further. Once Penny returned from work she would eat dinner, and start a fire, Sheldon had long ago discovered that he loved the warmth of an open fire and was glad that his new owner shared his affection, for orange dancing flames. With an roaring fire before her Penny would crack his worn spine and read one chapter, talk to him, read a chapter and so on. As the months grew Sheldon found his affections bloom into the spring blossoms of friendship. He never felt like he had to be more than Sheldon for her as the months grew they each developed their own nicknames for each other Sheldon became Jim, while Penny became Queen P.
Penny's Point of View
One night as Sheldon tried to explain a complex mathematical equation I found my mind drifting back to work, it had been a particularly hard week, the director and all the rest of the cast seemed to all the sudden turn against her character development and were not listen to any of the notes that she had made in the read-throughs. Penny wanted her character to break out of the hard shell she had been forced into, Penny wanted her character to meet a new scientist who would show her that there is more to life than science, but when she had pitched the idea at a meeting, the sweet friendship turned into a dysfunctional relationship that the writers hoped they could draw out for several seasons.
Sheldon instantly caught her mood change and allowed her to vent about her work problems. Penny wasn't quite sure how to explain to Sheldon that it was his alter ego Jim that had really inspired her to stand up for herself, recently Jim had not only been betrayed by his "best friends" and had sulked back to his hometown only to accept them back into his life, but had also been set up with a women who seemed to be his female counterpart.
Lately Penny had been having a hard time finding the differences between Jim and Sheldon especially as she started to enjoy Sheldon's company more and more she wondered if there was even a small amount of Jim in Sheldon. This of course made Penny worried about whose company she was really enjoying. Sheldon had become the knight to her queen and was her closest confidant; all new ideas and plans were screened through her mysterious book. After the first year Penny's mind started to wander to how her friends might react if she told them about Sheldon or what they might do if they met him. Mustering up all her courage she breeched the subject one warm July night, her companion's reaction was immediate, for the rest of the night getting Sheldon to start a topic of conversation was like pulling teeth and when she did ask him a question she received one-two word sentences.
Sheldon's Point of View
All the rest of the next day Sheldon engaged in a mental battle straight out of the American Civil War, his heart wanted to meet all of Penny's friends and family, but his brain constantly reminded him of the hell that Leslie. He didn't want to lose his best friend and his brain was well aware of that, after several more battles his heart relented, finally admitting that lying to Leslie had just about kill it. Sheldon was certain that Penny was the best and only friend he had ever truly had, he wasn't sure but his brain was willing to bet that he was falling fast for the green eyed beauty and that for the first time the love was pure, innocent and a simple bi-product of their time together. Sheldon waited a few days and simply asked Penny to keep him a secret for a while longer; hoping that later would never come. Penny clearly was not happy about the idea but Sheldon continued his resolve and she finally relented. Sheldon was well aware that whatever his pages were covered in was drawing Penny in more and more than his own presence. Sheldon found himself jealous of himself for the first time and was not sure how to ask Penny what was really going on afraid of the answer, he knew for a fact that she preferred tragic dark stories to the happy romantic stories that filled most of his previous owner's shelves. Penny was so engrossed in the story that she took him to work for a whole week, the idea of being at Penny's work thrilled Sheldon, the sets and the cast were very intriguing and he found that he enjoyed watching Penny act. Sheldon became so comfortable in the sleeve of Penny's chair that he almost didn't realize that he was being picked up by someone other than his Queen. He had never been opened by someone who didn't own him and was very nervous. Should I be talk to this person? He wondered to himself, as the face of the male lead peered down onto his pages, Sheldon slinked back to the far reaches of the book and decided that he did not trust this man who simply picked up other people's books without permission. The mysterious face soon turned from intrigue to anger as the man flipped Sheldon's pages with more and more purpose; At last the man slammed Sheldon shut hatred filled his voice as he whispered that he could understand what he had just read. Good Sheldon thought, my words are not for you. But the man continued, "How could anyone even pick out a single word on the page with them all typed on top of each other." Sheldon then felt himself being thrown into a large duffle bag. all he could think was Maybe Penny had given this man permission to take me home with him, maybe he is my new owner.
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