Chapter 7.
The cream couch was soaking wet, the water from Blake's dress and hair had covered the couch; which was also stained from the salty tears she had cried. She had managed to call Ryan about 20 minutes go and apologised she didn't make it to their dinner. She made up some excuse about how she got a call from a friend, and that she was rushed over there for the night. Ironic that it was the other way around.
She sat nervously as she twiddled her thumbs and her eyes darted around the room, not knowing where to look. She was expecting her friend Katie to show up 5 minutes ago and she was getting impatient. She needed to get it off her chest; the secrets of last night had been eating away at her, threatening to take over her. Before she knew it, Blake was absorbed in her memory. Last night had been repeating itself in her mind ever since it had happened and already she could feel the taste of Penn's lips on hers. She could smell his scent as it encompassed her until she felt like she couldn't breathe. It was enough to drive her wild. She could feel his hands on her waist and the curls of his hair in her hands. His tongue swirled around hers as...
"Blake! I'm here!" Katie's outburst abruptly interrupted her thoughts. Blake unlocked her hands and it almost felt like she was unlocking them from the tight grip she had in his hair.
Blake got up from the couch and walked to towards Katie standing in the door way.
"Hey" Blake spoke softly, but her eyes remained firmly on the floor. She couldn't believe what she had done, she needed to get it out but she knew once she did it would somehow make it all more real.
"Blake, what's going on? It's 10 o clock at night and you're drenched! Where have you been?" Blake slowly backed towards the couch and beckoned Katie to join her.
They sat in silence for what felt like hours, in reality maybe only a few minutes. Katie looked at her, worried. She hasn't seen Blake like this before and it scared her. Although she wanted to know what was going on, she knew she shouldn't push her and she'd eventually tell her when she had the courage.
"I kissed someone." Blake confessed. Guilt wrapped around her as the words fell from her lips and immediately she wished it had never happened.
"Wow. Okay. Who?" Katie knew it wasn't really important who it was but she knew Blake would have to tell her at some point.
"That doesn't matter right now. The point is I cheated. I'm a cheater." And with that tears erupted from her eyes as she looked up and Katie.
"Come here", Katie stretched out her arms and Blake cried onto her shoulder as she let her words sink in. After a minute or two, Blake pulled away and looked at her. She looked lost, confused, vulnerable. Words that would never normally come to mind when describing Blake Lively.
"Have you ever had someone who used to be the most important person in your life, but you drifted apart, and then something happened and you thought you were gonna lose them forever?" Blake looked away from Katie's hard stare and hoped she wouldn't guess who she was talking about, even thought it was pretty obvious; especially since Penn's accident had been all over the news.
"Are you talking about Penn?" Blake flinched slightly at the sound of his name. She nodded slowly; she couldn't really cope with admitting it with words.
"Oh god Blake, how did this happen?" Katie's tone was kind, but tinted with a slight hint of judgement.
"I thought he was gonna die, okay? I mean god, Katie it was awful. I got a call from his mom and she said that was it. And that his time was running out. I was scared and confused but all, all I knew was that I had to find him. I…" Blake trailed off, not sure what to say anymore. Her eyes had been focused anywhere and everywhere but Katie's while she spoke, but now she felt the courage to face them.
"So what does this mean? Do you wanna divorce Ryan?!" Katie words had a touch of anger stained to them as she spoke; she'd always had a soft spot for Blake and Ryan.
"No! God no! I mean I don't know what came over me. I just…seeing Penn in the hospital..lying there…and then when I thought that was it…I...just I…I missed him. I missed him like I've never missed him before and…" Blake stammered through her words.
"Okay, but this is just a mistake right? I mean you're not gonna do anything about it are you?"
"I don't know! All I know is that I'm scared. I can't stop thinking about him. Wondering...I mean what if we'd stayed together? What if I hadn't run out on him…I mean maybe...maybe we'd be the ones married now, Katie!" Blake's words hit her like a tornado and she almost felt like collapsing in that very moment. We'd be the ones married now. Would they? I mean after all he was never keen, especially at such a young age but god maybe she'd made a huge mistake.
"Blake will you please stop jumping to conclusions! I never said I never wanted to get married! Just not now! God Blake, can't you see we're too young?!" He stepped towards her, reaching for her arms but she moved away.
"No, Penn. This is what I want! It's what I've always wanted, and if it's not what you want, then I don't think we can be together" Blake shouted, all the emotion inside her exploded at her last few words. No matter how much she wanted to get married, she'd never wanted to leave Penn. She loved him so much. More than she'd ever loved anyone. He was everything to her.
"Blake, please. God, please don't say things like that! I love you." Penn's voice was calm as he spoke, trying to get Blake to calm down and just listen to him. He couldn't lose her. He wouldn't.
"I love you." It was almost as though it was a question, said so sincerely but somehow he felt like he needed to convince her it was true. Not that she didn't know it already.
"Blake listen to me." He grabbed at her hands and pulled them towards his face. He tilted her chin up so she was staring into his chocolate brown eyes.
"I love you." He pleaded.
"Please." His eyes begged for her to stay with him. He titled his head to the side, as he made the most desperate attempt not to lose her. The echo of his words made his eyes gloss over. The thought of losing her was unmanageable.
"Please don't leave me! If you just wait, Blake. Wait for me and we can get married! We can have a life together." He paused.
"You and me." He said optimistically, hoping the promise of a future together would turn her around. Blake's hands trembled in his and her eyes began to fill with tears. He pulled her hands towards his lips in once last attempt to keep her. He kissed them and looked back at her, even though her eyes had now met with the floor again. He had run out of the things to do, he didn't know what to say or what to think. All he knew was that he couldn't lose her. Blake pulled her hands away from his tight grip and planted them by her sides.
"I'm sorry." Her words got caught in her throat. She started to turn away from him.
"Blake." He poured every inch of his love for her into that one word. Blake. Her. His love. She reluctantly looked back, knowing she'd never forget the look of his broken face. The man she was madly and hopelessly in love with. The love of her life. Her everything.
"Goodbye, Penn" she choked. And with that she was gone.
Blake hadn't spoken for several minutes and neither had Katie. Blake stared at her hands which quickly blurred into one as the tears clouded her vision. Her body shook at the memory and it made her heart ache.
"I made a mistake." Blake's eyes grew wider at her new found revelation. Katie sighed.
"Okay, I'll go get the phone and you can tell Ryan. Tell him what happened, I'm sure he'll be forgiving in time, Blake. But don't worry he loves you."
"No." Blake was confident.
"No that's not what I mean. I made a mistake breaking up with Penn, not kissing him. I never should have left him, because..." Blake paused; making sure what she was about to say was true. But it was, it so was.
"Because I love him." She almost leaped out of her chair as the words fell from her mouth; and she quickly wiped the tears away from her eyes.
"I have to go." Blake looked at Katie and nodded, not to Katie but to herself. This was what she wanted. It was what she always wanted.
A/N: Sorry, again. Although I had an idea for where this was gonna go, it was only a rough one, so I struggled to know what to write. But it's here now and I hope I didn't dissapoint. I definitely know where I'm going with the next chapter, so if you're lucky and I have some time and inspiration, it'll be up in the next few days!