Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Sequel to Epiphany, Jeff and Dixie are trying to have a baby, what happens when it is likely to be more difficult than they first thought?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for either of them to be used.

A/N: This is a direct sequel to Epiphany, please read that first to understand this story :) Reviews are welcome :)

Thank you to BeethovenRIP and chan. nelson4444 for your reviews, you're lovely people. Enjoy the chapter.

Please note there is some adult content in this chapter, I take no responsibility for you not liking what you read if you continue, you have been warned.

Chapter Sixteen.

Dixie made sure that the kids had everything packed to go home, she didn't want them to go but she had to send them home. Jeff was already feeling sad, she could see it in his eyes, it got harder for him to let them go every time that they came to stay. She wished that she could make it so that there was a more permanent solution to the problem. It hurt Jeff and the kids every time that they were torn apart from each other, Dixie didn't know what to do about it, perhaps a solution would present itself to her in time.

Jeff sat with John and Sophia in the lounge, the time to take them to meet Lucy was getting too close for his liking. 'Kids, you know that I love you don't you?'

'Yes daddy,' Sophia said.

'Yes dad.' John was quiet, he was always thinking. Jeff wished that he knew what his son was thinking of. 'I want you to always remember that, no matter what happens.' John and Sophia both nodded, he was afraid that Lucy would try to convince them that he didn't care for them. He was going to tell her today that Dixie was pregnant, he couldn't put it off any longer. Jeff didn't know how Lucy was going to react; whether she would be angry or whether she simply wouldn't care. The worst thing that could happen would be that she would never let him see the kids again, as long as that didn't happen then he could cope with anything else.

'Come here kids.' Jeff hugged Sophia and John tightly, he didn't want to let them go home.

Dixie noted that Jeff was very quiet throughout the drive to meet Lucy, she was worried about him, he always struggled to get back to being himself after giving John and Sophia back. She'd gone with him this time as she wanted to support him, she hoped that with someone there it might be a little bit easier. The kids were quiet in the back too, Dixie felt sorry for them, Sophia was definitely her daddy's girl and she hated going home. Sophia had asked more than once if she could stay, it hurt to have to tell her that she couldn't stay. Tamzin had told Dixie that Sophia had said to her that she wished she could stay with Jeff permanently. It almost broke Dixie's heart to hear that. How long would it be before Sophia told Lucy? Dixie thought that Lucy wouldn't be too pleased if Sophia told her that.

Jeff parked the car and took the kids cases out of the boot, Lucy was already waiting for them, he put the cases into Lucy's boot and then stood back. 'Jeff.'

'Lucy, we have something to discuss.'

'I can't imagine there is anything to talk about.'

'Dixie's pregnant, I've already told the kids.'

'Oh, a mistake was it?'

'No, the baby is quite planned.'

'So, why are you telling me?'

'I thought you might want to know.'

'Why should I care, you don't mean anything to me Jeff. I put up with seeing you because the kids want to see you.' Jeff tried to hide his hurt, he didn't want to give Lucy the satisfaction of knowing that she had got to him.

'I don't care for you either Lucy, the only people I care about are stood over there.' Jeff pointed in the direction of Dixie and the kids.

'Just give me the kids and then I can get out of here.'

'Fine.' Jeff went over to the kids. 'Okay kids, it is time to go.'

'Daddy, do we have to?'

'Yes, Sophia. I'm sorry my little princess but you do have to.'

'I want to stay with you and Dixie, daddy.' Jeff tried to hide the tears that were gathering in his eyes, Sophia and John were upset enough and he didn't want to make them worse.

Dixie saw that Jeff was getting upset, he was hugging John and Sophia tightly, it upset her too but she was trying to keep it together for Jeff. Dixie hugged Sophia and John when they came over to her. 'I am going to miss you kids, promise me that you'll be good.'

'We will,' John and Sophia said together.

'Good, we will see you soon. Don't forget to call us. John, take care of your sister.'

'I will.'

'Very good.' Dixie hugged the kids again and then let them go to Lucy, she went to Jeff and put her arms around him. They waved at the kids as Lucy drove off. Dixie looked at Jeff, he looked so sad, she almost felt her heart break for him. 'Come here love.' Dixie pulled Jeff closer and held him tight, she really felt for him at this time.

Jeff just let Dixie hold him, letting the kids go had hurt him even more than Lucy's comments did. He had loved her once, it wasn't all bad at the beginning really, just at the end. What hurt him most was the comment about the baby he had made with Dixie. 'Come on love, let's go home.'

'I'm going to miss them Dixie.'

'I know, I see it every time you have to let them go.'

'It is not fair on them Dix.'

'You can't stop seeing them Jeff, they've only just got their dad back.'

'I know, it would be selfish of me.'

'Give me the keys Jeff, you're not in the best position to drive right now.' Jeff got into the car, he didn't feel like driving so he gave the keys to Dixie, he just wanted to think over the memories of the time he had spent with John and Sophia.

Dixie took Jeff home and let them into the house, Little Abs ran up to them immediately. 'Hello mate.' He looked for the kids and he almost looked sad that they were no longer there. Dixie watched Jeff take his shoes off and go into the lounge. She followed him in and sat next to him. 'Jeff, talk to me.'

'I'm fine.'

'No, you're not, it's okay to miss them.' Dixie picked up something she had got for Jeff before the kids had left. 'Here, open it.'

'What is it?'

'You'll see, just open it.' Jeff opened the little package and Dixie saw him look at the little picture.

'When did you get this done?'

'On the last day, now you have another picture for your wallet.'

'Dixie, thank you.'

'You're welcome. Come here love.' Dixie took Jeff into her arms and hugged him. 'I love you Jeff.'

'I love you too Dixie. I told Lucy about the baby.'

'What did she say?'

'She said she didn't care, that I don't mean anything to her. She asked if the baby was a mistake.' Dixie was angry, Lucy had hurt Jeff with her comments.

'Forget her, we both know that our baby is no mistake. Our baby is the result of the love we share for each other. Jeff, I care for you, you mean everything to me and she's a horrible woman. Please forget what she said.'

'I'll try.'

'Good. Your kids love you too Jeff, that is all that matters.' Dixie held Jeff tight, she wanted to make him feel better.

Jeff took comfort from the warmth of Dixie's body and her words, he knew that she meant it. 'Dixie, thank you for the picture.'

'You're welcome love.' He looked at the picture again, it was of himself, Dixie and the kids when they had gone out to the park for the second time. They had put the camera on timer and then stood together for the photo. Sophia and John looked so happy, he noticed that Dixie was looking up at him and she was smiling. It was a brilliant picture. He tucked the picture into his wallet and closed it. 'Come on love.'

'Where are we going?'

'We're having an early night.'

'Dixie, I'm not sure that we should.'

'Why not?'

'It might hurt the baby.'

'Trust me Jeff, it won't hurt the baby.'

'Are you sure?'

'Yes, don't worry love, nothing will happen to the baby.'

'Okay, I have a condition though.'

'What is it?'

'That you go on top, I just want to make sure you and the baby are safe.'

'All right, if it will make you feel better.' Jeff was feeling very protective of Dixie and their baby, he didn't want anything to happen to either of them. Lucy had taken his kids just like that, he was afraid that someone would take Dixie and the baby away from him too.

Dixie sat Jeff down on the bed and kissed him, she loved him and wanted to help him feel better. She lay back on the bed and beckoned to Jeff, she smiled at him as he lay down beside her. 'Are you feeling any better?'

A little bit, I just miss them Dixie.'

'I know, I miss them too.'

'I wish they could be here with me, sending them back to Lucy nearly kills me every time.'

'Yes, I know it does. Come here love.' Dixie held Jeff in her arms, she was trying her best to comfort him. She felt Jeff bury his head in her shoulder and she just kept him close to her in the hope that it would help him feel better.

Jeff just lay in Dixie's arms. 'Dixie?'

'Yes love.'

'Am I a good dad?'

'You know that you are.'

'I'm not so sure sometimes, maybe I should have stayed away, then they wouldn't be going through this.'

'Nonsense, your kids need their dad.'

'Do they?'

'Yes, listen to me Jeffrey Collier, your kids need you and they love you. I have seen it every time they come here, I don't want to hear you say that your kids would be better off without you because it is just not true.'

'Thanks Dixie, what would I do without you?'

'I don't know, you're never going to find out because I'm not going away.'

'I could always bump you off and claim the insurance.'

'That is nice, I'll come back to haunt you if you do that, every moment of every day.'

'Okay, I won't do it, for now anyway.' Jeff smiled, somehow Dixie always managed to cheer him up, he didn't know how she did it but she always managed to make him feel better.

Dixie saw Jeff smile and she knew he was feeling a bit better, it would take a couple of days for him to feel totally better but he was joking about and that was always a good sign where Jeff was concerned. Dixie leaned in and kissed Jeff, she wanted to feel him again, it had been too long since he had been inside her. She felt his hands run down her body and then one of them settled on her stomach, she looked at it and then at Jeff. 'Dixie, are you certain?'

'Yes, very, I want you Jeff.' Dixie lifted her arms as Jeff took her top off and threw it to one side.

'You will tell me if you need me to stop, won't you?'

'Yes, I will love.' She removed Jeff's shirt and let him take off her bra, they continued removing clothing until they were both naked on the bed. 'Jeff, it has been too long.' Dixie moaned as Jeff's fingers slipped inside her, he slowly moved them and Dixie shuddered as his thumb brushed against her clit. 'Like that Jeff, don't stop.' Dixie moved herself against Jeff's fingers, she loved that he could turn her to jelly with just a few strokes of his fingers.

Jeff watched Dixie's face as he pleasured her body, her moaning was rapidly turning him on and he felt himself getting harder. 'Touch me Dixie.' Jeff groaned as Dixie's hand wrapped around his length and she started stroking him and coaxing him to full hardness. 'Where did you get so good at this?'

'It is a secret.' Jeff groaned again, he wasn't sure he cared where Dixie got her talent from, not when she was touching him the way she was. 'Fuck, Dixie, I want to be inside you.' Jeff rolled onto his back. 'You promised, remember. You said you would go on top.'

'Jeff, you're not going to hurt me or the baby but I will humour you this time.' Jeff watched Dixie straddle his legs and then he guided himself inside her. He just wanted Dixie and the baby to be safe, he would hate it if something he did ended up hurting either of them.

Dixie slowly rocked her hips, she'd never done this before with Jeff and she wondered why. She could feel everything, Jeff was buried deep inside her body and it turned her on considerably. Dixie felt Jeff sit up and his arms go around her, holding her close. 'Wrap your legs around me Dixie.' She did as he asked and she felt Jeff's eyes lock onto hers, it was intense, she saw passion, heat and love in them. She moved herself up and down Jeff's length, their movement was limited but she felt closer to Jeff than ever before.

'Jeff, I can't wait.'

'Don't wait Dixie, let go.' Dixie moaned as she felt Jeff's lips on her neck, he was gently sucking on the one spot she found highly pleasurable and she cried out as her orgasm worked its way through her body, it was stronger than she'd ever felt it before.

Jeff heard Dixie moaning and felt her body spasm, he held onto her and rocked his own hips, he loved watching Dixie like this, she always closed her eyes when she came. He kissed her forehead as he moved inside her and groaned. 'I love you Dixie.'

'I love you Jeff.' Jeff buried his head in Dixie's shoulder as he came inside her. Jeff pulled Dixie close to him and held her. He slowly moved backwards until he was lying back against the pillow with Dixie snuggled against his chest. Jeff lay still and enjoyed the feeling of being connected with Dixie, he stroked her hair and gently kissed her head. 'Come on Dixie, get under the covers before you get cold.' Jeff supported Dixie as she moved to the side and he pulled the covers over them both, he pulled Dixie into his arms and stroked her back. He was still sad over the kids going back to their mum but he would talk to them tomorrow after he got home from work. Lucy would not stop him having contact with them.