Chapter 11.

Penn unlocked the car and they jumped in; both soaking the seats in the process. Penn looked at her and laughed.

"You're drenched!"

"So are you" She giggled as they smiled at each other; their faces getting closer by the second. Their faces were centimetres apart and their heads were almost touching. Smiles still plastered all over their faces as they gazed into each other's eyes. Blake broke their stare as she bit her lip and pulled away.

"We...we can't."

"What? Why" Penn grinned as he leaned towards her, maybe he was a little drunk.

"No." She put her hand on his shoulder and pushed him away. "We're going to talk. Right?" He suddenly felt bad and realised he needed to restrain himself.

"Right." He nodded and turned to put the key in its socket. "I'm sorry." He looked down, avoiding her eyes.

"Hey." She spoke softly as placed her hand on his arm. "Don't worry, I mean we...we both got carried away."

"Yeah, we did" He looked back up at her. A ringing came from Blake's purse. She stared at the screen of her phone as she glanced wearily back at Penn. He looked confused so she tilted the screen so he could see. "Oh."

Blake gulped as she put the phone next to her ear. "Hi" Blake felt so guilty already.

"Hey. How's the movie?"

"Umm...it hasn't started yet." Blake lied.

"Yeah some err, some technical difficulties."

"Oh. So when do you think you'll be back?" By now Penn had started driving as she looked over at him; his eyes were on the road ahead. She bit the corner of her lip as she watched him. His hair was wet and his shirt clung to his body; she'd never known anyone to turn her on as much as Penn did. She rubbed her hand across her face as her eyes darted away from him, trying to distract herself.

"Umm maybe 12:30. 1 at the latest." Ryan groaned on the other end. "I'm sorry, but I'll be home before you know it, okay?" Hoping to make him feel better.

"Yeah okay, bye." Before she had a chance to say 'bye' back, he'd hung up. At least he wasn't giving her one of those long; 'I love you and I miss you' speeches. That would've made her feel even guiltier than she did already.

When they arrived outside his house, Penn glanced over at Blake who was twiddling her thumbs; busy thinking this was a bad idea.

"Hey. We're here to talk. Only talk." He mimicked her earlier words and she smiled at him.

"Yeah."

"Time to get wet again!" Penn said, mocking enthusiastically. Blake put her hair behind her ear as she smirked at his comment. Penn dramatically tilted his head as he looked at her. "Really?" She giggled.

"I'm sorry, I just...I watched this movie the other day and..."

"'Nough said." Penn chuckled as he opened the car door and stepped out onto the driveway. Blake followed him into the house.

They both stood in the living room uncomfortably looking around until their eyes landed on each other. Blake bit her lip as she stared at him. His hair was still curly despite the rain, and if it was possible it looked even better now as water droplets dripped onto his already soaking shirt. His white shirt clung to his muscular body and it was now almost completely see-through. She breathed in a little, her upper lip still caught on the bottom one. Penn's eyes were wide and travelled all over Blake's body as he stared at her. He couldn't stop staring as he wondered how he ever let someone this hot and beautiful get away. The combination of the rain and the thin material of Blake's dress made it almost transparent. He licked his lips as his eyes landed on her breasts. Her hair had unwrapped itself from the wavy ponytail she had had previously, and it now clung to her body, much like it did when she showed up at his house and kissed him a week ago.

"Uhhh...want a umm..." He couldn't really get his words out as his eyes were still focused on her chest. She snapped out of her long stare and looked back at his eyes; which was pretty much the only place she'd hadn't been looking. "Uhh..." Her nose scrunched up as her eyebrows burrowed together and her lips formed a slight smirk. "A uhhh...a drink?" He finally removed his eyes from her chest and focused them on her eyes. "A drink." He said firmly. Blake chuckled.

"Yeah I don't think a drink's a great idea." She laughed, referring to the way they had been staring at each other.

"Right, yeah." He grinned. "Well how about water?"

"Yes. Water would be great thanks." Blake flopped onto the couch as she looked around. It was weird being here; she never thought she'd see this place again.

"Here you go." He handed her her glass of water. She noticed he'd removed his jacket and now she could see all the muscles on his body as his shirt tightly gripped to his arms. She gulped at the sight. Either he was trying to turn her on even more or he was more stupid than she thought.

"Ummm do you think, maybe you could umm...get changed first?"

"What?" He furrowed his eyebrows, confused. She fidgeted in her seat.

"Umm yeah or at least dry your hair and put on another shirt and pants." He chuckled as he realised what she meant.

"Oh yeah okay. Well if we're gonna do that you're gonna need to dry off too." He said trying to steer his eyes away from her breasts; which he swore were becoming more visible every time he looked at them. Blake laughed at their obvious lack of restraint.

After they'd both dried themselves off, separately; they sat on the couch, sitting as far away from each other as possible. Blake's hair had been dried and it was still wavy, but was now a little frizzy and out of control. Penn had changed into a plain dark blue shirt and was wearing a pair of chequered cotton pants, which looked a lot like pyjamas bottoms. And his hair was now dry and also a little frizzy. Blake spluttered out her drink as she noticed his pants.

"Oh my god. Are they...?" She looked at him as a grin displayed across her face.

"What?" He said nonchalantly.

"Come on. Either you're a psychic or you remembered that I hate those pants!" He pressed his lips together as he debated telling her or not.

"Well since I thought you and I were planning on just talking we needed to you know, look at our worst." Blake laughed. "But I can say one thing's for sure, nothing's gonna happen tonight. I mean I'm wearing the weirdest pants ever and your hair is a total mess!" Blake giggled as her head moved closer to his. Penn rolled his lips around in a smile as he gazed back at her. "I think I've seen more of that smile tonight than I've seen in a long time" He said genuinely. Blake's look turned more serious.

"Okay, you're not allowed to say things like that. This is strictly..." She paused as she looked deep into his eyes. "Talking."

"I was only talking" Penn fired back.

"Okay, very funny."

They were having so much fun she'd forgotten how they used spend practically all their time laughing together.

"Okay. So where do we start?" They both displayed little expression on their faces now, knowing they needed to keep things serious.

"Uhh...well I mean do you wanna tell me about why you came over the other night? The first time." Blake looked at her lap uncomfortably, she was sure this conversation was gonna be more embarrassing for her than for him.

"Umm...well, I guess it all started with watching you in a coma; I mean god Penn that was pretty horrific. Knowing there was a chance you'd never wake up again was really, really scary and so just watching you there...it made me realise how I'd feel if I lost you." Blake diverted her eyes away from him.

"Wow." Penn mumbled as he sat back in the couch, a little shocked. She sipped on her drink to try and reduce the feeling of awkwardness inside her. She looked at him briefly and he didn't look like he was about to say anything anytime soon so she decided to continue.

"Watching you there, just imagining life without you; was the worst feeling in the world. I mean I know...I know we haven't seen in each other in two years and I still can't believe that but...I mean at least I knew you were there, you know? Even if we couldn't be together, even if we couldn't even be friends I could still watch you become so incredibly successful, because I know you will be, Penn. You're so talented; and I know one day I'm gonna be so proud of you." Blake could feel herself tearing up. "I already am." She looked at him as her eyes began to water. His eyes had now returned to hers as they looked at each other. Blake's words were slowly sinking in one by one, and each word made his heart melt. 'Shit. I'm falling in love with her.' He realised. He raised his hands to her cheeks and slowly brushed the tears off her face.

His warm hands on her face caused a feeling in her stomach she couldn't describe. They gazed into each other's eyes as they heads drew closer and closer together. Their foreheads were now touching and his hands were still on her cheeks.

"Mmm" She sighed as she gently put one of her hands on his leg. His eyes flickered about her face until they landed back in the deep blue of her eyes.

"I love you." He whispered. She felt so happy it scared her a little. A soft smile crept across her lips as she put her spare hand on the back of his neck.

"I love you too." He beamed in return and pulled her towards him. The moment their lips touched Blake forgot about everything that had been on her mind, all she could think about was him. He moved his hands so they were on her waist and gripped her tightly. Blake began to moan feeling his hands on her waist and his tongue in her mouth. They both started rising from the couch and stumbled towards the back of the room as their tongues battled against each other. They were about a metre from the wall and Penn hastily put his hands under her legs and lifted her up. She quickly wrapped her legs behind his back as his hands gripped against the bottom of her thighs. Her hands firmly clutched onto his shoulders as her back slammed against the wall. They moaned against each other's mouths as Blake moved her hands to the bottom of his top tugging at it harshly. He pulled his lips away from hers and she lifted the shirt off and tossed it onto the floor. He moved one of his hands from her leg to her neck and kissed her gently. They smiled against each other's lips as Penn carried her up the stairs. They stopped every few steps so they could kiss and then continued making their way up the staircase.

Penn slowly set her down on the bed as he clambered on top of her. He kissed her nose and she smiled as she stroked his cheek. They looked at each other for a few seconds until he put his right hand on the zip of her dress and slowly pulled it down following it down her body. She watched him with eyes full of lust. Once he reached the bottom of zip he kissed her skin there and pulled the dress off her body completely. Penn kissed all over her stomach opening his mouth on her skin as she moaned at his touch. Blake watched him with waiting eyes as he kissed her skin repeatedly. He wrapped his fingers around the top of her underwear and began to pull it down slowly as she watched his every move, biting her lip with anticipation. He'd almost tugged it off completely until he pushed it back on again and climbed back up to her face where his lips hovered over hers.

"If you don't pull them off in the next 5 seconds I'm going to leave." He winked at her and lowered himself back down to her pants and ripped them off and she moaned at his harshness. She pulled his head back up to her face and kissed him passionately. She caressed his back as her hands travelled to the top of his pants, the second her hands met the material she briskly yanked them off and chucked them onto a heap on the floor. He wrapped his hands around her neck as they continued kissing on the bed, moaning into each other's mouths. Their tongues were wrapped around each others as he lowered his hands to her breasts. He began to massage them slowly as she groaned in his mouth. Her hands tugged at his back as he brushed his thumbs over her nipples. She separated her lips from his and breathed a hot breath into his ear.

"You wanna know a secret?" She paused. "I need you now, Penn." He gulped at her words and the feeling of her mouth on his ear was indescribable. Blake brought her head back onto the pillow to look into his eyes, the feeling inside her was the most amazing feeling in the world and even if she'd questioned her love for him over the past few weeks; she knew now she was totally and completely in love with him. He rested his hand on her cheek as he gave her a quick peck on her lips before he pulled off his boxers. They were both now completely naked, lying one on top of the other. They lay there for a few seconds as they gazed into each other's eyes; not wanting the night to come to an end. They'd both been waiting for this moment for song long, they just didn't know it.

"I think that's enough waiting, don't you think?" Blake giggled after a few seconds as she brought her hands down to his length. But he grabbed at her arms before she could reach him and pushed her hands behind her head before he thrust himself into her. A loud moan erupted from Blake's throat as she felt him inside her. She gripped at his shoulders as he pumped inside her; faster with every second. "God, Penn" she moaned his name repeatedly in his ear as he held onto her waist, while her legs were pressed firmly against his back.

Both their bodies rocked against each other as they moaned out in pleasure. Blake's head was arched back as Penn sucked on her neck. "God this is amazing." Penn breathed into her neck as he kissed her continuously.

"Mmm" she sighed as she watched him. She locked her hand around his neck and pulled his face up to hers. Their lips smashed together with such intensity as he continued to thrust inside of her. Their tongues were enveloped together to try and suppress their moans. Her hands dug into his shoulders as she knew she was getting close. Their lips separated to get their breaths back. "Faster, baby" Penn pushed as hard as he could and they both screamed out in pleasure.

He collapsed on top of her and his head fell to her chest as she stroked his hair; both breathing heavily as they tried to regain their breaths. After his breathing returned to normal he raised his head to face hers as he shifted his body so he was closer to her.

"Wow." They looked into each other's eyes for what felt like forever as their hands gently rested on each other's face. She smiled at him sincerely;

"That was incredible." Penn brushed his sweaty palm against her cheek. "Can I kiss you?" He wanted to make sure this was real and that she wasn't going to run away and go back to Ryan. She nodded her head in excitement as she beamed at him. He slowly wrapped his hand around her neck and pulled her lips against his. It only lasted a second or two but that was long enough for them both to feel like they were in the right place.

He rolled off her and lay on the pillow next to her. She turned her body onto her side and snuggled next to him. He wrapped his arm around her and placed his other arm on hers that was draped across his body. She twisted her head until she was comfortable on his chest when a smile appeared on her face. Blake was so happy she felt like she might explode.

"So dare I ask...?" Penn glanced at her. She tilted her head so she was watching his face.

"What?"

"What...what was that? I mean...are...are we...err..." He was so nervous she'd say it was just a one time thing or that she'd made a huge mistake.

She smiled cheekily at him; "Yes. We're back together." She moved her head so it was hovering over his as she smiled against his lips.

"Really?" He beamed.

"Really. If that's what you want?" She was the one who was nervous now.

"Yes. God of course it's what I want, Blake. Because I love you." Blake didn't think it was possible to feel this content, this happy, this in love. This was all she ever wanted. Him. She had always wished for everything with him. Not Ryan. Ryan had been a lie, a mistake, a way to bury her love for him. But he was it for her. He was everything she wanted and she wanted everything with him. She wanted a family with him. She wanted to marry him. Him. Only him. It was all she had ever wanted.

"I love you too. So much" She sighed. "I love you so much." She kissed him again as she watched his eyes dance around her face. They lay in silence; their bodies tangled together.

"So I was thinking..." Blake played with his fingers; too nervous to look into his eyes. "I...I want everything with you." Her head still on his chest while she interlocked her fingers with his. "I umm I want to marry you." She looked up knowing she'd want to be looking in his eyes when he told her he wanted that too.

His body tensed. The words stunned him. His heart actually stopped for a few seconds. His jaw clenched as he watched her wait for his response; anticipating the 'I want that too' or the 'I can't wait for us to get married'. Shit. He had nothing to say. How could he say anything? His words would ruin her like they once did before. He couldn't watch her go again. He couldn't let her go. He wouldn't lose her this time. This time was supposed to be different. But it quickly became clear to him it would end in the exact same way.

Her smile had faded as she watched him stare at her with a look she could only describe as fear and guilt. Blake gulped as water quickly filled in her eyes. Her face began to tremble as she removed her hand from his.

"Blake..." He had started to tear up now too and it was a battle to who would begin crying first. She couldn't bear to look at him. Her eyes traced the room as her body shook with fright. He was lost for words. He knew he should say something, but deep down he knew there was nothing he could say to make her stay. Nothing left inside him to keep her. Nothing to stop her slipping away. Nothing to prevent his world from falling apart.

Suddenly words came to him like a jolt of electricity. He grabbed at her arm and pulled her to face him. Tears had already stained her cheeks and she looked desperately into his eyes. Praying he'd have the words to keep her. The words that would allow her to stay there with him forever.

"I love you, Blake." She shook her head. It wasn't enough. "I'm not gonna lose you this time." His eyes were wide as he stared into hers, searching for her soul inside of them. "I love you. I love you. I love you so much. I wanna be with you, Blake!" He would put everything he had into this; he would do everything in his power to stop her walking out that door. "As long as we're together, that's all that matters!" Blake's eyes were firmly locked on her hands. She wouldn't let his words tear her away because she knew his eyes could kill her. "God, Blake. I don't have to be your husband in order to prove I love you. That I wanna be with you for the rest of my life." He emphasised.

He gently placed his hand over hers so she was now staring at his; until she looked up at him. Tears still ran down her cheeks as he watched her heartbroken face. He removed his hand from its resting place on hers and gripped them both around her neck. She was looking down but he soon altered that.

"Hey." He tried to catch her eyes in his. "Look at me." She tore her eyes away from the bed sheet to look at him. "I" He spoke slowly, softly; calmly. "Love" "You. "I love you." She diverted her eyes from his again. "Look at me, Blake." She did. "I want to be with you. I want to spend my life with you. I need you in my life because you complete me. I need you because you are the only person that can make me happy. You. Blake I need you. Please." His face trembled now too as his tears dripped down his face. "Please don't leave me again." Tears ran freely down both their cheeks as they stared into each other's eyes. She delicately put her hands on his arms and slowly tugged him away. His face shook at her action, a pool of water resting at the bottom of his eyelids.

She reached the door of his bedroom. He was sat up in the bed, eyes locked on hers.

"And I love you. But I want a marriage. I wanted that with you, but..." She struggled to finish her sentence as her words got caught in her throat. "I guess second best will have to do."

A/N: Wow that chapter was hard to write in places. I bet you can guess where..but I hope that scene's okay. I've never written a sex scene before so it was kinda difficult and awkward, but I hope you guys like it none the less, haha. Sorry about the ending but it had to be done.