THE MIND OF AN ANGEL
Disclaimer: if you think I actually own Evangelion, then you must really be retarded….
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AN: hello fans, I have returened, to replace this chapter (which I thought was very weak) with a more suspenceful ending. For more notes, go down.
Chapter 7: Things to come
Shinji arrived at Asuka's room and entered.
Then he saw her on the bed…
Her hair was a mess, and lacked the red glow it had before. She was wearing a hospital gown, and it was a crumpled mess. Her legs were covered by the sheet, which was barely hanging on to the bed. Her face had some scratches but her eyes…they were slightly open…
They had no expression…no life…
What the hell did you do to her! He screamed mentally
I was trying to incapacitate her mentally.
Shinji was startled by how calmly he had answered, even though he had screamed at him.
Yes I raped her mind; yes I made her relive the memories she hated,
But I did not cause this, because if had, you would be in the same situation.
Shinji sat down in one of the chairs next to the bed.
Why did you do it?
What?
Why? What would you gain by it? What are you angels trying to do?
There a small pause…
Are you asking the reason why we are trying to destroy you?
Shinji blinked at the response, he hadn't expected an answer.
Yes…
There was a much longer pause this time, then he could have sworn he heard Arael sigh before he continued:
I understand your need to know this… but by telling you I would be revealing something you may not want to know.
But I need to know why I'm fighting…
Very well… But not here, when you return to your home…
Shinji wanted to protest, but he knew he had other matters at hand. He simply nodded at thin air and turned his attention to Asuka.
After looking at her for a few seconds he finally spoke:
"Asuka…can you hear me?" He asked, almost, expecting an answer.
She cannot.
He lowered his head; he had hoped she would answer.
But I thought coma patients could still hear?
I believe she is merely rejecting everything, even her senses at this point.
Shinji sighed and lowered his head again. He felt useless…
Berserker, there is nothing you can do. Besides, do you not have more pressing matters at hand?
Shinji raised an eyebrow at the comment, what could possibly be-
The Blue one?
Shinji went form his slumped position on the chair to sitting straight up and attentive.
Rei…you're right, I have to-
He would have continued, but he saw the once red-goddess on the bed…
-Not here…
Arael noticed his sudden change of mind, it is as he suspected.
Berserker, you held feelings for her as well?
Shinji slumped on his chair again, and lowered his head as he said in the quietest tone possible.
"…yes."
So you share feelings for both the red one and the blue one?
He couldn't bring himself to answer this time, he just nodded.
Even Arael knew this was important, he waited while Shinji sobbed.
The blue one has showed mutual feelings, but the red one?
I can't, I feel like I'm betraying Asuka…
Even though Ayanami obviously shows interest?
It's not that easy and stop switching between color and names.
You think you will distract me with that? Why is your decision so difficult? The red one had no feelings for you, and frankly, treated you badly.
This had made Shinji shoot his head up to look at Asuka. Although subtle, one piece of information had truly stung.
Wha-what?
Berserker, I saw her memories. She did not share your affection.
This hurt, hard. He had never appreciated the way she treated him, but he always thought it was simply a way of protection. He had always hoped…
He looked at her one more time, tears filling his eyes, and had one thougth:
You…
You bitch…
He immediately stood up, his feelings between utter rage and complete sorrow. He wanted to say something, but remembered it didn't matter. He slammed the door open as he ran out, he wanted to be alone.
Kensuke saw him leaving and was shouting at him, he didn't care at this point. He couldn't believe it, she was pretending, that was really her. All the insults, orders, commands… it was on purpose. HE tried to save her. Everything was a blur as he ran, losing track of time. He wanted to be alone and think what to say to Ayanami. Of course he never was alone…
In his mind, the Angel simply watched, for he had to monitor this closely. The reason may have been unknown to Shinji, but it was rather simple:
Arael had lied.
The President of NASA sat behind his desk as the person in front of him just stared. Tyler Lance hated NERV, and he had too many problems to bother with this shit. He lit up a cigarette before asking:
"What the fuck do you want?"
"Mr. Lance, you're reputation precedes you. It's as-"
"Yeah, Yeah I'm a dick, asshole or jackass; let me make it a bit clearer: WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!"
The other person simply kept still and said:
"I believe we sent you the file."
Tyler raised his eyebrow and turned to look at his computer screen then laughed. He rubbed his temple as he said:
"Are you shitting me? I thought that was a fucking joke," he turned to look at the NERV agent "You want to use the new space shuttle for that?!"
"Was the file not clear Mr. Lance?" the man replied coolly.
"You want to use the U.S.'s most powerful piece of technology, for that!? Are you insane?!"
The man took out a few files and said: "We are willing to pay."
Lance waves off the papers, as he replies: "You could blow me and wouldn't change my mind. You realize that you're asking us to bring something of THAT SIZE?!"
The man remained quiet as Lance continued his rant.
"You realize what would happen if something went wrong? And the possibility of something going wrong? You've got some balls to ask me this-"
"Because NASA is in enough trouble?" interrupted the man.
Lance leaned up to a few inches from the man's face, "and I hate NERV…"
The man's eyes kept track as Lance paced the room.
"If you hadn't convinced the president to use the grant on you're fucking Evangelions, which exploded mind you, I wouldn't have gone trough this shit!"
"I understand why you-" but was interrupted by Lance.
"SHUT-THE-FUCK-UP!" screamed Lance "You realize what it cost NASA to finish the shuttle?! Billions and we finished it!"
Lance finally calmed down a bit and sat back down; he hated NERV for more than just that: his brother had died at the explosion of Unit 04.
"While everybody was focused on YOU PEOPLE, they didn't realize we had built the shuttle that could possibly take us to Mars, and who knows what else."
He smoked for a few seconds before continuing: "I had to lay off my friends, and now we might have to sell the fucking shuttle to China, to cover the costs of Unit 04…"
"You're machine is functional though, you launched a few months ago" said the man, losing patience.
"That," began Lance as he pointed his cigarette at the man, "was a test launch, we only circled the Earth."
Knowing what the man was going for Lance added, "Even if we weren't in debt, the risk is too high in case you don't know"
Lance stood up and extended his arm towards the door. "Go."
The man simply said in monotone "We are willing to pay off all your debts"
Lance was stupefied.
"What?"
"All of them" repeated the man.
Lance sat back down; their debt was close to a billion.
"And success is not necessary" said the man as he put the files on the desk.
Lance couldn't believe it, "How can NERV pay for this?"
"We are not NERV, but closely associated to them."
Lance stared at the files, they checked out.
The man stood up, "Do we have a deal?"
Lance grabbed his cigarette and simple said: "Yeah"
Then he threw the cigarette at the man, before saying:
"Now get the Fuck out of my office."
AN: FIRST OF ALL I'm sorry I was gone so long, but there many things that contributed to that. School mostly, but I finished my first semester and im used to High school.
And yes, I replaced the second part of Chapter7, it was rushed and not what I wanted. Unforchenetly I spoiled a twist. (Asuka will wake up, but not now). To introduce two new ones! Good trade of no?
And to all my fans, im sorry I left, I cant guarrentee ill uptadate as soon as I want, but I will within this month.
Also I need a proofreader, sience my grammar stinks, and for simple storyline help.
If you review I appreciate it, and want to apologize again but I hope you can accept it.
Thanks
-Squirel.