THE MIND OF AN ANGEL
Disclaimer: if you think I actually own Evangelion, then you are wrong! (I don't)
Proofread by J says no and 94saturn, thanks to both of you. You get a pie, and a delicious rat. From Mexico!
CHAPTER 12: FRIENDS
"The food was delicious!" Toji stated. And indeed the statement was true; the group was sitting in a circle around the basket that had held the meal. Everyone had had their fill, courtesy of Hikari. Shinji and Rei were sitting together, although not showing any clear signs of affection. Hikari was sitting next to Toji, who was on the grass with the wheelchair by his side. Kensuke was showing the video Kasuki wanted to see, apparently a recording of the 4th angel battle.
"Jeez Aida, you sure do panic…" remarked Kasuki as she continued watching the battle through the camera. The sound of unit 01 crashing on the mountainside soon emanated from the small camera.
"Well, there was an Eva that fell right next to us…" said Kensuke, trying to find an excuse.
"At least Toji didn't scream like a girl" Kasuki turned off the camera before setting it aside, "Is this the only battle you have on tape Aida?"
"We barely snuck out before everyone was in the shelters, so yeah" The boy lamented.
Kasuki sighed in disappointment, "Well, I guess I'll just be watching that one" Kasuki then turned her attention to Shinji and Rei, staring for a bit.
"Kojima, is something the matter?" asked a concerned Rei.
"It's just that I've never seen you wearing something other than your uniform" She said, chuckling a bit, "It's almost bizarre."
Rei's cheeks emanated a very light blush as she turned her gaze to Toji and Hikari,
"Horaki, are you and Suzahara an item?"
Hikari blushed as well, as Toji intervened, "Yeah, we're dating," He scooted a little closer to Hikari as he said "But we just started."
Kensuke then looked at Shinji and Rei, "What about you two? You've been hanging out an awful lot together" He said, probing for teasing opportunities.
Kasuki, with a very similar mindset, continued, "Yeah, were you two doing something… unspeakable in the gym yesterday?"
Now it was Shinji's turn to blush, as everyone but Rei laughed, Hikari less so. It was Rei that came to their rescue however.
"We did not engage in any inappropriate actions Kojima." Rei then turned to Shinji before saying, "We are however, dating."
Everyone paused at the words, Shinji blushing as much as ever. Hikari, apparently the least shocked of them all, asked, "Shinji? Are you really…?"
Shinji raised his head meekly, and nodded. Rei took his arm and cuddled closer, apparently unaffected by the others watching. Shinji only averted his gaze from the stares, somehow hoping something would save him.
Berserker, she wishes a kiss.
What!? Shinji's eyes shot wide open at this, he was embarrassed enough as it is. He didn't know what to do, but he could feel Rei close to his face. He turned to look at her, an expectant glimmer in her eyes. She slowly inched closer…
…And Shinji turned away, burning red.
Why the commander had let the ENTIRE main crew have a day off was beyond her, but she'd be dammed if she didn't take this chance to prove her drinking skills.
"AAAAAAAAA….sorry Makoto, still too slow" teased the triumphant Misato, Makoto putting down his glass in shame. Ritsuko, Makoto, Hyuga, Maya and Misato were all in their favorite bar; determined to finally just have a day for themselves. Unforchenetly, it was barely noon; yet Makoto, Hyuga, and Misato had gotten into a drinking game. And they were all beginning to fell the effect.
"Misato, it's barely noon…" said the blonde, with her assistant at her side nodding in agreement.
"Well, I guess I could pace myself…" Mused Misato as she leaned back on her chair. She was glad to finally have an opportunity to be with her friends, outside of NERV. She was also grateful for the distraction after what happened in the morning.
Forget it, just forget it… Misato told herself, focusing on the people around her instead.
After what happened, there was an awkward silence. Thankfully, it was broken, and everyone continued socializing; deciding they shouldn't probe further. Toji and Hikari were close together the entire time, showing a small sign of affection every now and then. Kensuke and Kasuki were obviously friends at this point, and it was strange to hear somebody else talk about Eva with as much fanaticism. Thankfully, she didn't probe nearly as much as Kensuke.
Rei was more reserved after what happened. She didn't show it, but Shinji could tell she was embarrassed. Shinji was disappointed with himself, but he just couldn't do it. He was also embarrassed with everyone watching, and was wondering how Rei got so daring. Rei was still sitting close to him, he scooted closer and inched his hand to take hers. She turned her head up to look at him, a slight sad look on her eyes. He squeezed her hand a little. She leaned her head on his shoulder, hoping this at least cheered her up.
"Shinji?"
Shinji was snapped from his attention on Rei to Kasuki, who still had a few questions.
"Yeah?"
"How long have you and Rei been dating?" She asked, a tint of curiosity in her voice.
"Just yesterday" was Shinji's response, he wasn't really aware of how short a period it had been.
Kasuki giggled a bit before saying, "You know, Ayanami, a lot of girls are gonna be jeaoulous." She pointed a finger at Shinji then continued, "There were a lot of girls that really wanted to date him."
Shinji changed expressions very quickly at the revelation. As far as he was concerned…
Arael, is this true?
Yes, there are quite a few of your classmates that would enjoy being with you.
Shinji turned to Kasuki, "Are you serious?"
"Yeah," responded the beautiful young woman, "You can ask Hikari, she knows too."
Shinji turned to Hikari now, a look of utter confusion on his face. Hikari blushed a little, but responded anyways, "Well… Yes Shinji, there are some girls that-"
"Some?" cut in Kasuki, "Might as well have been a fan-club!"
Shinji was stupefied.
Soon everyone began laughing; the look of clueless ness and shock on his face was priceless. Even Rei giggled at this, apparently her mood slightly lifted. Kasuki stopped laughing to stretch her entire body in a yawn. Kensuke however, could not resist looking. The shorts she was wearing really showed of her legs, and the stretch enhanced it. Of course he did not simply focus on her legs, but on her ample chest as well.
Kasuki, very aware of his stare, broke in, "See something you like Aida?"
Kensuke snapped out of it, blushing furiously as Kasuki laughed.
Toji intervened with a necessary quip, "Jeez Kensuke, too bad you didn't have your camera huh?" Ksauki and Toji laughed at this, knowing the boys obsession for filming. Hikari, Shinji, and Rei were more reserved, but chuckled at Kensuke's cheeks, practically blazing red.
Rei had noticed that when Kojima was stretching, Shinji had been observing her as well. Even after he held her hand in reassurance, she had heard him talking to Souryu. Rei did not show it, but doubt grew in her heart.
The group disbanded after an hour, each with a different excuse. Toji had to go see his family, Hikari was going to go with him. Kasuki had to study for a test, and Kensuke was apparently helping her. As for Rei, she had an appointment at NERV, but in an hour. Shinji stayed with her as everybody else left, they were already at NERV, and so it was pointless to go somewhere else. They were still outside NERV, lying under a tree, cuddling.
Shinji, however, didn't have peace of mind. He had noticed she was acting slightly differently, and needed to ask.
Arael, is she disappointed?
Yes Berserker, but I believe you should find out for yourself.
Shinji was about to protest, but he decide to trust the angel. He shook his shoulder a bit, to which Rei lifted her head to look at him.
"Rei, is something wrong?"
Rei heard the question, and at first was unsure of how to answer, but after hearing the sincerity in his voice she decided to tell the truth.
"Shinji, are you embarrassed to be with me?"
Shinji recoiled at the question; he was going to ask what would make think that, but stopped when it looked like she would continue.
"-You were apprehensive at admitting our relationship, and also of showing it." She looked down, Shinji unable to see her expression. "I also saw you observing Kojima in the same manner as Aida…"
Shinji was thinking of something to say, but Rei kept going, "I also heard you talking to Souryu." This made Shinji regret this mentally, he should have explained what he meant. "You also expressed emotions when you were informed of other classmate's attraction to you…"
She finally turned to face Shinji, seeing her face was hard. Her expression was of sadness, but with something else mixed in. Something he had never seen her show.
Fear.
"Shinji, if I am not physically attractive to you or you would rather pursue a relationship with someone else…Please do so…"
Shinji's mind was racing for a solution. He fucked up, but she also misunderstood a few things. He needed to reassure her… but how?
"Rei-"
"I will not hinder your pursuit for happiness Shinji…" She added solemnly.
"Rei, I miss Asuka. She has been someone important in my life." Shinji said, continuing before she interrupted, "And I never knew that girls liked me at school, I was just surprised Rei."
"And why were you embarrassed of our relationship?" She asked, her doubts obviously still very evident.
"Rei, I…" Shinji paused, trying to word this right, "I didn't want to show it because they just tease Rei. I'm not ashamed to be with you Rei" Ayanami raised an eyebrow at the response but Shinji continued, "I would rather go without the teasing and stares."
Rei still had the same expression, although slightly lighter. "What of Kojima? Am I not suitable for-" Rei was interrupted by Shinji's lips. Rei at first was shocked, but closed her eyes as he felt he slipped his arms around her. She wrapped her arms around his neck, a small "mmm" escaping her lips as they kissed.
Shinji didn't know what to do to calm her down, so he went with whatever he thought of first. He went for a kiss. He hoped this would show her he liked her. Besides, how could he come up with an excuse for looking at Kasuki without hurting Rei? Comparing them was like comparing Hikari to Misato.
However, what had been a last ditch effort turned into something else, something deeper. He leaned on the kiss more, which made Rei fall backwards on the grass. They parted but began a new kiss, this time Rei's mouth was slightly open, and Shinji's tongue begged for entry. Rei complied. They both moaned at the kiss, before parting.
Shinji looked at Rei, amazed at what had just happened. He had no idea how he had done that. He looked at her, the expression gone from her face. He lied down beside her, looking at her.
"Rei, I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings" He said, his hand reaching out for hers.
"No Shinji, I am sorry for doubting and misinterpreting you" She added, giving a slight squeeze on his hand. She snuggled closer, paying no attention to the grass. They remained that way for some time, before Shinji asked.
"Rei, would you like to come over tomorrow?"
Rei smiled slightly and nodded. She stood up, Shinji followed, knowing she had to leave. Rei turned to him, but Shinji didn't need Arael to tell him what to do.
He kissed her again…
Alas, the evening continued, and the time for measure was abandoned. It was about 6 or 7 or some other number in the afternoon, but only Maya remained slightly sober, enjoying the occasional drink. Ritsuko, Hyuga, Makoto and Misato we're enjoying themselves on the karaoke machine. Maya amused herself as they tried to sing the songs, with horrible results. It was rather funny to see her sempai do something ridiculous.
"Hello Maya!" said a merry voice, as Misato stumbled to the chair in front of Maya's.
"Hello Miss Katsura-"
"Maya, Maya, call me Misato" She corrected, the liquor having very obvious effects on her. "You need to lighten up!"
Maya was uncomfortable; she always was with people that were drunk. Since she rarely herself got drunk, she wasn't use to be around people that were. She didn't go out much, her work having a noticeable effect on her free time. She was glad for the opportunity to be with her friends, a rarity considering their jobs.
Misato composed herself a bit, and stopped slurring to ask Maya, "Maya," she began pointing at the person in question, "Have you ever had feelings or urges for someone you shouldn't have?"
Maya gasped and recoiled sharply at the question. Am I that obvious? She admitted to herself that she felt something for her sempai, but whether these were real feelings were beyond her. She told herself that it was just admiration, but sometimes…
"Well Maya?" urged the drunken Misato.
Maya blushed furiously, "Misato, why are you asking me?"
Misato continued to half-slur her responses, "Oh, its just I need an opinion Maya. Don't worry, this stays between us!"
Maya was debating what to say, she was evidently drunk, and probably wouldn't remember this. Besides, Misato seemed to have good intentions…
"Well… yes Misato I have…" She lowered her head a bit to cover her blush.
"And what did you do?" asked Misato, speaking as if she were singing to a tune.
"Well…It depends on what is going on…but if it doesn't go away, you should tell the person, or even express it" Maya lifted up her head, talking to herself more than answering Misato's question
"But what if there are differences?" Continued Misato, laying her head on the table.
"If the other person shares the feelings…then it doesn't matter." Continued Maya, amazed at what she was saying, "Besides, it's better to know than to wonder…"
"Maya, that is a really good-"
Misato was interrupted by the crash coming from the karaoke machine.
Okay time to go thought Maya.
Shinji had returned home and did nothing in particular. He did his homework, getting that out of the way, ate, and had spent the rest of the time talking to Arael.
Arael, through that entire thing with Rei, you barely said a thing…
Yes.
Well, I could have used a little help…
Berserker, look back and examine the situation. You performed well, and managed to do it without my aid. You will learn to interact with the Ayanami girl better from this.
Shinji was surprised at the excuse, and at the fact it made sense. Besides, if he needed help, he was sure Arael would help… Hopefully.
His debating was interrupted by a knock on the door; Shinji went to see who it was through the peephole. He saw two figures, one carrying the other. One was Maya; he didn't have to guess who the other was...
"Hello Maya," He said while opening the door, finally seeing a drunken Misato draped over Maya, straining to carry her.
"Shinji… little help..?"
Shinji went to put Misato's left arm over his shoulder, as Maya finally stood up and relaxed. She was catching her breath as she asked, "Shinji, I need to take the others back to their place… so can you?"
"Yeah, I'll take care of her…" he answered, wondering if Misato was even conscious.
"Thanks" she said, waving goodbye she disappeared into the stairs.
Shinji slowly made his way to Misato's room, trying to not lose balance on the way. Halfway there, she began to stir. "Shinji…?" she asked groggily.
"Yeah it's me Misato" he answered, hoping she wouldn't throw up. She moved her head a little, trying to get some footing and balance. She couldn't, but Shinji caught her, and continued taking her to her bed. He opened the door to her room, and slowly dodged the dirty clothes to her bed.
"Shinji…you take such good care of me…" she said, half of it mumbled, but Shinji heard it well enough.
He was at her bed, but tripped and fell on to it Misato following. He was somehow under her, on his back. Misato was on top of him, her head on his shoulder. Shinji cursed himself for tripping, and was about to stand up, but Misato was coming to. She held on to him, forcing him not to move. Shinji was wondering what was going on until.
"Shinji...I never show you my appreciation… for helping me so much…" Misato raised her head to look at a bewildered Shinji. She soon closed the distance between their lips, to Shinji's amazement. At first he tried to get her off, but her hands reached for his head to caress him. The feeling of her breasts on his chest, her lips on his, her hand on his cheek; defeated him. He put his hands around her lower back. Soon her tongue gained entry to his mouth, deepening the moment. Shinji moaned, as their hips grinded together.
Something was wrong though, soon Shinji noticed she had fallen asleep on him. Shinji was disgusted with himself, as he got out from under her. He didn't dare move her; he just went to his room. He couldn't even stop himself from tacking advantage of his drunken guardian, how could he date Rei?
As he reached his bed, he fell on it. The impact on his sheets did nothing to better the situation, but only one thought passed Shinji's mind…
I'm so fucked up…
There was a sole figure standing under the only light in the vast darkness. Mana Kirishima, the fifth child, was looking straight forward. She was fourteen, and she lacked neither looks nor smarts. Brown hair to her lower neck, and well developed body were her traits. She was summoned by SEELE to make her objective clear, and was simply waiting for them to speak.
"Kirishima" finally came the voice.
"Yes sir?"
"You are aware you are being transported to NERV by the end of this week"
"Yes" she said, being briefed on it a few days ago.
"Do you have any questions?"
"One, sir. Will I be accompanied by my Eva?" she asked something that hadn't been specified in the briefing.
"Not immediately, It will be sent a few days after your arrival."
She nodded, and asked, "What am I to do until then?"
"You are to socialize with the rest of the pilots, learn information... Anything for the sake of the main objective. Any means necessary"
She nodded, that was what she had planned all along, but also wanted to be clear on all matters. She understood what they meant by ANY means necessary. She would have to exploit others or herself...
"You are aware of the main objective?"
She nodded.
"State it please."
"Kill Gendo Ikari"
AN: TA DA it's been, woah wait, how long? Are you shitting me?! Well… in my defense I can say I had one less week of spring break than most of you!
As for the three weeks before that.. Umm well… shit!
Ok in all honesty, it was writers block and homework. However I can promise a new chapter soon! How soon is up to debate. A week maybe. MAYBE!
So hows everyone liking the story? Good? Bad? Horrifyingly evil? If so, tell me why. Leave a review. I tend to get in much better spirits to write with more reviews.
As for my Proofreaders, I must apologies to J says no. I put this up before he could respond and read my story. Sorry J, but I didn't want to keep the fans waiting another day! As for Saturn, I feel honerd that I proof his story as he proofs mine. I wish I could help him as much as he helps me though.
Well, everyone take care, not even schools are safe anymore! (More than 30! Man, that is a shitload for a school shooting!) I just hope they don't blame videogames.
Well peace all, leave me questions if you have em!
-Squirrel