THE MIND OF AN ANGEL
Disclaimer: if you think I actually own Evangelion, then you are wrong! (I don't)
Proofread by 94saturn, thanks to you I'm still writing, have a Mexican peanut.
CHAPTER 14: Understanding
Misato lay on an unfamiliar bed, the sheets partly covering her bare body. A fan whirled above; creating a small, pleasant breeze that passed over her. She turned to face the right end of the bed; she saw some clothes and underwear strewn about. Some she recognized as hers, others were not. She turned to ceiling, trying to remember what had happened last night. She didn't feel a headache, and she was strangely relaxed. She was going to sit up on the bed before she felt movement on her left.
Ohhh…She thought, finally remembering. She turned her head left to see a man sleeping, his nudity also being covered by the sheets. Misato recalled now, sitting up on the bed. The sheets were going to slide off her chest, but she clung on to them to remain covered. She felt a slight soreness in her thighs, and sighed. You'd think it'd get easier with age she thought.
She had left her apartment after letting Rei in, and went straight to a bar. At first, just to drink and debate the entire Shinji situation. After a few beers, she had come to the conclusion that she was horny. Following this epiphany, she proceeded to sleep with the next living thing that hit on her. This was the result. She couldn't really remember how it went; only remembering her cries of passion in the night.
She didn't feel right. Misato couldn't put her finger on it but it was something. She felt a rustling on her right as he woke up. He blinked a little before turning to face her. She didn't recognize him; he was brown haired and well built. He looked at her, a smile on his face. He didn't need to say anything; Misato knew he was asking 'again?' She debated; on one hand she was still horny. On the other, this was her first day back since she had been suspended. Finally a thought rang through her head, as she smiled at him seductively.
Fuck it, if I'm going to be late for work…
Shinji again woke up to the sound of Arael's humming. He blinked a few times, letting his eyes get used to light entering from the blinds. He yawned and stretched like a cat; the sheets almost sliding off the bed. He looked around, scanning for the alarm. When he found it, it said 5: 58 He reached to deactivate the machine before it began its annoying chirping.
Thanks for waking me; I prefer you're humming to the alarm.
You are not the only one that detests that contraption.
Shinji chuckled at Arael's almost human humor. He got up and headed for the door, his stomach beckoned. The headaches weren't that bad anymore, so his hunger was priority. It had been a while, but he was still eating for two. He shuddered, that sounded like he was pregnant. He made some toast and served himself some milk; he didn't have a caffeine addiction like Misato.
Speaking of…where was she? He froze, realizing he had come out with only boxers and an undershirt. He hoped she didn't come out, lest the teasing begin.
She is not in the vicinity Berserker, you may remain relaxed.
Shinji raised an eyebrow; he wasn't used to getting this information. He relaxed at first, but then wondered Wait, so she already left for work? This is unusually early for her.
No human, I never sensed her arriving in the first place.
Shinji took his toast and began eating it, not bothering with a plate. Did she pull an all nighter at NERV? No, no, she had been suspended until today…
He finished his toast an immediately went for the other piece, wolfing it down just as quickly. He then considered the option that maybe she had slept somewhere else. He tried not to let his mind wander into other images, but it made sense. It wasn't the first time this has happened, it just hadn't happened lately.
Shinji finished his milk and emitted another yawn. He had slept plenty, but he was still slightly tired Arael, any ideas when you're side effects on my body will wear off?
They will always remain. They may dull or sharpen depending how active my powers are, but they will never disappear.
Great he answered sarcastically. Rubbing his forehead; he headed to his room to change.
Shinji changed and left Misato's shortly after changing, he had left a pot of coffee in case she came back but he doubted it. His walk to school was the same, along with the stinging every time a truck passed by. He usually thought while walking today was no different.
Yesterday… He thought I almost got to second base… And we've only been dating for three days! The kissing and making out he could take, but the fact she had almost removed part of her clothing was mind-boggling. Was it the moment? Or did she think it was custom? Or did she really want to move that fast?
Berserker, correct me if I am wrong, but is that not a desirable?
Shinji stopped walking at that. What?
Is it not the goal of many your age?
Well um, he stuttered, blushing slightly, Yeah but I don't want to…
Oh what is it now, Berserker?
I don't want to go that fast… he said. He knew if any teenager heard that, they would have punched him and called him an idiot. But he really meant that. He had no experience, and didn't even know if this was standard procedure. Not that this meant that he didn't want to get physical…he just wanted to go slow and show her respect.
Shinji groaned, he would tell her…somehow.
The classroom was busier than usual, many people were talking in groups. School girls giggled, and school boys teased. In this classroom, it was as if the angels did not exist. Rumors were passing around, Toji was finally returning from the hospital. However, it was not common knowledge why he had ended up on the hospital before today. When the accident happened, few knew the actual truth. Those that did instantly distanced themselves from one of the two pilots.
Poor Shinji walked into the classroom unaware of the situation. He yawned and stretched, then opened his eyes to meet the stares of the class. Shinji lowered his arms as the students stared at him with malice. Shinji walked to his desk slowly, as some whispered to each other. As he sat down, he found a folded note on his desk. He opened, and wished he hadn't.
Nearly killing his sister wasn't enough asshole?
Shinji sunk his head as some kept staring, others simply talking behind his back. He wanted to correct them, explain, but not when he almost felt the same way. This went on for a few minutes, until Kasuki entered and talked with a group of her friends. Shinji, meanwhile, spoke with Arael.
So he's coming back to school already?
That is what I can gather.
Why do they… look at me like that?
They are sheep, Berserker. They do not comprehend the situation you were in. They judge as this, but do not thank you for saving them. Lilum are quite strange.
Shinji sighed at that. That we were, he was about to ask what lilum meant when Kasuki sat next to him. He sat up abruptly, almost surprised by her being near him. He had gotten used to the idea of perhaps spending the entire day alone. She leaned back on the chair, accentuating her breasts as she spoke.
"I don't judge you that way Ikari, and I won't hang out with my friends until they think differently," She then looked at him, "Which means you're the only one to talk to at the moment." She said with a chuckle.
Shinji chuckled slightly at that, thankful for some kind of human contact. "So," Shinji began, trying to find a topic "Did you study for the test today?" he asked, embarrassed at having resorted to school as a topic.
"It's not my best subject," she said, "But Kensuke helped me study, so I think I'll do ok"
Shinji remembered they had left the picnic on Saturday to go study. He had thought that was just an excuse… "So how'd it go?"
"Oh we were doing fine studying," She began, smiling a little as if trying not to laugh, "Until my heroin crazed ex-boyfriend burst into my room, and punched Kensuke right in the solar plexus."
Shinji's eyes shot open at that. Was she kidding? He couldn't tell since she was laughing now, whether if it was a joke or because it actually happened he didn't know.
She speaks the truth Berserker.
This elicited a "What?!" from Shinji directed at Arael, although Kasuki answered.
"My ex apparently still had the keys to my place, and thought I had dumped him for Kensuke. After wrenching him off of Kensuke, I told him to get out and that it was over," She puts her hands on the back of her head, "I took back the keys and kick him out."
"How did Kensuke take it?" asked Shinji, worried that is friend might have gotten an injury.
"Not too good," she said with a frown, "My ex was buff, and Kensuke is a twig. He practically collapsed on the ground."
Shinji cringed at the thought of Kensuke getting hit by someone. "So then what happened?"
"Well," She mused, as if saying to thin air, "I said I was sorry about that, and said I'd make it up to him" Then she turned to Shinji with a seductive smile and said, "So I kissed him."
Shinji had jumped at the mentioning of this, and gears in his head immediately went to work to find some way to explain the phenomena. They had been together during the picnic at NERV, but he hadn't thought that to be more than just two friends. Arael said she liked him, and it was pretty obvious Kensuke liked her. Was Kensuke finally getting a girlfriend?
Throughout the entire debate in his mind, he simply got out, "Wh-w-what?"
She sat straight on the desk again, "It was the least I could do, I mean, my ex-boyfriend punched him!" She the looked at Shinji, raising an eyebrow, "What was I gonna say? Oh sorry about that?"
Shinji would have agreed, if Arael hadn't interrupted. She simply wanted an excuse to show affection to him without sounding, in her words, "slutty"
He was wondering why Arael was being so helpful all of a sudden, before Kasuki changed the subject.
"Anyways," said the beautiful woman in front of him, "How's it going with Rei?"
Shinji wasn't going to bring up the date, but his red cheeks did not help him. Kasuki noticed his blush, and proceeded to smile before saying,
"Ohh, did something naughty did we?"
This did not help Shinji's blush, he wished he could away from teasing women. At home with Misato, and it looks like Kasuki is very much the same. He tried to defend himself and Rei but failed miserably,
"No! We didn't do anything; sh-she just came over."
Real smooth he thought.
"Oh really?" She inched closer to Shinji, with that seductive smile of hers, "Hopefully you used protection?" Kasuki was laughing inside, she knew there was no chance of that actually happening, but this kid was so easy to tease. Always so flustered, it was kinda cute in a way.
Shinji desperately tried to defend his relationship with Rei, but his stutter wasn't helping.
"N-n-no! We just saw a movie!" He breathed easily at that, she couldn't misinterpret that. He was about to relax, but he swore he heard laughing in his head.
"That so?" Asked Kasuki, her smile gone now, "What was it about?" She knew exactly what could happen in these things, and asked the question her friends used on her.
"Umm," began Shinji, trying his best to remember, "It was about a couple in Osaka and uh…"
"Aaaaaand?" she asked, waiting for the rest.
Shinji looked down and cursed himself. His blush became more evident as he said quietly "I can't remember."
Kasuki sat back on the chair, putting a bit of distance between herself and Shinji (Lest more rumors begin to spread). "Nice job Shinji," she said sincerely, before her teasing returned, "How far?"
Shinji kept his head low to avoid her teasing. "Second? Third? Oral?"
Then a light turned on in Shinji's head. He wanted to go slower with Rei, but he didn't know how to break it to her. Kasuki seemed trusting enough, and well, she had experience. He had no idea about this, but he might as well.
"Umm, Kasuki?" he asked, his head still looking down, "Can I ask you a question?"
Kasuki's expression changed from teasing to serious. She got this tone a lot with her friends, a question about the relationship. "Sure Ikari, shoot."
Shinji raised his head to meet her gaze and at first fumbled with the words. He took a deep breath, and when he noticed she had no intention of teasing him, he began. He told her the entire thing. He is already telling her this much, might as well. Through the entire thing, while a few more students arriving into the classroom. He had apparently arrived early than he thought.
When he finished, still blushing, he lowered his head again. It didn't feel right trusting personal experiences to someone else, but he needed help. Kasuki leaned back on the chair again and stretched, accentuating her body. Shinji looked away to not let his imagination wander. Kasuki yawned before saying.
"Well, Ikari," she said, still half yawning, "You're problem is much more common than you think."
This made Shinji look quizzically at her, but she continued, "You felt she was going too fast, and you wanna go slower but don't know how to tell her, am I right?"
Shinji nodded.
"Then tell Rei that. How you feel." She said, "That's usually the problem. Don't make anything up; just tell her what you told me."
This earned another confused look from Shinji, and Kasuki elaborated.
"Shinji, sometimes girls are unsure of the pace of the relationship," she said, feeling awkward for some reason, "Sometimes we think we have to go that fast, sometimes we think that's what you wanted, other times it's just the moment."
She looked around again, noticing there were more students. With this she leaned closer to say it quieter, "So if you tell Rei how you feel, she'll know the limits"
Shinji felt very emasculated at this, "Aren't the girls the one's that set the limits?" Shinji really had no idea what to say or do in these situations, and Arael wasn't talking
"Not always Shinji," she answered, "I've dated plenty of guys that have said they wanted to go slower." She sensed that he felt bad and added, "Look, this doesn't mean she likes to move quickly, she could just be confused. That's why you have to tell her how you feel, and she'll tell you how she feels."
Shinji got it now, like bulb lighting up in his head. "Thanks Kasuki, I'll do that…"
Kasuki smiled, "No problem Ikari, if you have a problem, I'll help ya out." She then added teasingly to relieve the air of seriousness, 'Cause you two just make an adorable couple."
Shinji blushed again, and Kasuki giggled. She thought that he might as well have a sign that said "Tease me" on him. He was too damn easy, and always had the same response: that blush. She was going to continue, but she saw Kensuke come in. She stood up and greeted him, as Shinji watched and continued talking.
That helped, I just wish I didn't have to go through the teasing.
I do not mind. I find your struggling humorous.
Shinji was annoyed at the response, but couldn't retaliate since Kensuke just sat at the desk next to him. Shinji looked at the freckled boy, finding an odd amount of happiness in his face. Shinji decided to ask, "Why are you so happy?"
"My friend…" he began dreamily, "During this weekend something amazing happened, and something not many get to experience-"
Please stop his poetic nonsense.
"So her Ex did come in and punch you, and Kasuki kissed you in forgiveness?" he asked, amazed that the story was actually true.
The reaction he got from Kensuke was rather funny. His face changed from sublime to confusion. "How did you know about that?"
"I talked to her for some advice, and she told me the story." When he saw that Kensuke was obviously looking for a compliment he said, "Congratulations I guess…"
Kensuke beamed and basked in his so-called victory. He thought that even if both Toji and Shinji had kissed they're girlfriends; he had definitely kissed a much, much, much more beautiful girl. Unbeknownst to him was that Shinji had indeed gone farther than Kensuke. Kensuke snapped from his moment when he noticed the crumpled piece of paper below the desk he was sitting at. When he read it, he looked at Shinji confused.
"Oh yeah, Toji is coming back today." He began, his tone going low, "Now they think I put him on the hospital on purpose." Shinji didn't feel like talking about it, so he just looked around for a way to distract himself.
"But you didn't have a choice," said Kensuke meekly, but he could tell Shinji wanted this to be left alone. He looked around as well, and his eyes caught Kasuki again. She looked at him as well, and gave him a small smile. Kensuke blushed, but something else caught his eye. Rei had just entered the classroom.
Kensuke nudged Shinji and pointed at the new arrival. He smiled, but it disappeared when he looked at her. Rei looked tired, and she wasn't walking as straight as before. Shinji began standing up, but the teacher entered at that moment with Toji in his wheelchair and Hikari.
The class burst with activity as they surrounded Toji. Shinji sunk his head to avoid some stares, as they welcomed Toji back. The teacher soon broke it up, and Hikari began her usual ritual. Class began, and Shinji wished he were somewhere else.
Rei sat looking at out the window. She occasionally stole a glance at Shinji, but to avoid attention she did it infrequently. She yawned, trying to keep it from the teacher's notice. When Rei had gone to NERV, she had expected some of her usual tests. But yesterday had been one of her harsher experiences.
She had never particularly liked the tests, but she always detested these. Aside from the physical and harmonics test, they had another thing left to do… It had been painful. It had invaded her mind. She did not know what pilot Souryu felt when the 15th attacked, but she could imagine…
Rei stole another glance at Shinji. She went unnoticed. She smiled slightly.
Would she ever tell him the truth? What she was? What she was meant for? Her heart raced at what could happen if she did. He would run. He would leaver her. Rei would lose him…
Rei's eyes drooped slightly. Her thoughts of fear were replaced with drowsiness. Her head leaned on the glass, and she succumbed to sleep…
The bell rang, and everyone went to the bliss that was lunchtime. Everyone practically dragged Toji and Hikari out, desperate to hear about the accident and their relationship. Shinji stayed seated, but he was still nudged by a few students. Shinji was going to talk to Rei, but he saw her sleeping.
Let her rest, she is weary.
Shinji was going to ask why, but decided to ask her himself later. He left the classroom with his lunch, and sat in a table alone. There was a small crowd around Toji and Hikari, who were sitting together. He got some stares, but forgot about them as Kensuke and Kasuki joined him.
"Hey there Shinji," began Kasuki, "Mind if we eat with ya?"
"No…not at all" replied Shinji, surprised by the sudden arrival.
Kensuke noticed Shinji was still feeling down from the stares, and tried to cheer him up.
"Just ignore them Shinji, they'll start kissing your ass again once an angel attacks."
This elicited a chuckle from both Kasuki and Shinji, and helped liven the overall mood. Of course, being with two Eva fanatics, he knew the questions were coming eventually. Shinji didn't mind so much, he preferred this to no human contact. Both were stopped almost unexpectedly at one point, when Kasuki nudged Kenuke.
"Anyways, Kensuke, would you mind helping with a quick review before the test?" she asked, there was something subtle that Shinji didn't pick up on.
Kensuke looked confused, but then said 'sure' and they both left the table rather quickly.
Shinji was rather confused, until he heard a familiar quiet voice.
"Hello, Shinji," greeted Rei, "May I sit with you?"
Shinji looked up to see Rei, slightly less tired. Her feature were different, haunted. She had slight bags under her eyes, and overall looked weak. Shinji was too stunned to speak, so he just nodded. She sat down, and Shinji noticed her eyeing his food. Shinji could tell she was hungry.
"Rei," he asked quietly, "Did you bring any lunch?"
Rei shook her head slowly. Shinji looked down at his bento, and then pushed it slowly to Rei. She looked at him, with an expression somewhere between gratitude and disbelief. Shinji just handed her the chopsticks, and she squeezed his hand in thanks.
Shinji watched her eat. Rei was eating rather ravenously, something he hadn't seen before. He decided to hold his questions and other thoughts while she ate.
He looked up at the crowd around Toji; all were laughing and asking questions. He saw someone from the class start to whisper something to Toji.
He was snapped from the scene when Rei spoke.
"Thank you Shinji," she said, looking into his eyes, "I was not able to eat breakfast, and could not acquire lunch from the shop."
"Rei," asked Shinji, "They called you for more tests yesterday right? At NERV?"
Rei nodded, and opened her mouth to speak, but a crash interrupted them. They looked at the source, and found the body of the student that had whispered to Toji. Apparently, he had been flung to the table he crashed on. The way he had landed seemed to indicate he had been thrown from…Toji's direction?
"EVERYONE LISTEN!" screamed Toji as he wheeled himself out of the crowd, "If anyone, ANYONE, DARES to blame Shinji for what happened-!" he pointed at the student that had crashed on the table, "They'll end up like him, clear?!"
Toji signaled Hikari that they should leave, and she followed him with a light blush.
For a moment, everyone stood surprised. Some stared at the student that had flown five feet, then to Shinji. Shinji sat very uncomfortably, and he felt Rei shrug too.
He looked at her and said, "We should go somewhere more private…"
She nodded, and they both stood up to leave. They decided to go outside to sit under a tree. They passed some students, some offering apologies, others staring at the two pilots walking together. They found some shade under a tree. Shinji looked at his watch, they still had fifteen minutes.
They sat down together. Rei was to Shinji's left, and she leaned her head on his shoulder. She searched for his hand, and lightly held it. Shinji looked around, and saw some girls staring.
I guess what Hikari and Kasuki said was true…
Shinji sat there quietly for a bit, holding Rei's hand. She was breathing in heavily and slowly. Shinji decided to talk to her now, before she fell asleep. "Rei, was it my father that called last night?" Shinji had gathered this by her 'sirs' during the call.
Rei had her eyes closed, falling asleep. She nodded.
"Well, what for?" asked Shinji. He didn't know of any reason to call back a pilot for tests, except for maybe a harmonics test.
Rei tried her best to not change her expression, "There was a modification to my Eva, and required that I synch with it to ensure it was safe." She lied, quite convincingly at that. She, however, could not lie to the being inside Shinji's head.
Arael wondered if he should tell Shinji what she said was false. Rei was not telling Shinji this from fear of rejection, or of fear that he would not like her for what she was.
Yet Arael had not revealed what she was. Besides, Arael saw no way of how this could hinder their relationship. Rei would tell Shinji in due time, no need to hurry.
"When did you get to your apartment then?" asked Shinji as she yawned.
When she finished, she said, "Three A.M."
"You only slept three hours?!" exclaimed a surprised Shinji. Why had the tests taken so long?
She nodded, but made it very clear that was all she would talk about of the matter. She then leaned on his shoulder again, closing her eyes. Shinji sat there, listening to Rei breath and holding her hand for a bit. He was considering talking about last night, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to disturb her…
Berserker, the blue-one is tired. This is a private matter, and you will gain nothing but stares and attention here. Perhaps you should return home?
Shinji thought for a moment about what Arael had suggested, and agreed with it. Some girls were staring at them, and after the scene with Toji…Well, he just wanted to talk with Rei.
He shook his shoulder slightly, and as Rei slowly opened her eyes. She adjusted her head slightly, enjoying the body contact with him. Her crimson eyes stared as she emitted a small 'hmm', as if asking what was wrong.
"Rei…" he asked, "Would you like come to my place for a while?"
Rei kept staring; Shinji assumed she wanted to know why. "I don't think it'll do you any good to stay. You need to sleep," he glances around at some of the people staring, "and well…I'd like to be somewhere more private…"
Rei lifted her head from his shoulder. She almost misinterpreted, but she caught the slight tone of seriousness in his voice, "Shinji…is there something you wish to speak of?" she asked, a slight tone of concern in her voice.
Shinji lowered his head, "N-not here Rei…" He looked around, and saw some students staring again.
Rei noticed this, and began standing up. She could tell he did not like the attention of the other students. A knot had formed on her stomach; Shinji's tone was not reassuring.
"We may leave. I am sure that NERV will excuse our absence."
Shinji stood up as well, and they both began the walk back to Misato's apartment.
Mana Kirishima sat on her bed, a light bulb flickering on the concrete ceiling. Her small window at the top of the bed shook slightly from the wind. She hated these cold nights. Her all-concrete room did nothing to improve this, in fact, doing the exact opposite. She clung to her single sheet, and cursed herself for not asking for another from the helpers here in the military base.
She got up from the bed. Mana decided to walk around a bit, trying to warm herself up. She shivered slightly as the sheet slid off, revealing her shorts and small t-shirt. Despite the cold, she didn't have warm clothes. She put on her slippers and started pacing around the room.
She looked at the only pieces of furniture in her room. The dresser, with the three pictures she had on top of it, which was only half-full. Opposite of the dresser was a desk and a chair, some documents and a knife scattered on top of it. She went to it and opened the folder on the top of the pile. It was a list of the classes and training she was taking. Just the finishing touches.
She had expected martial arts, bomb making, sniper training, knife fighting, but not the last one:
'Daily, 1900-2000, Seduction'
She threw the folder back on the pile. SEELE were very serious when they said she should seduce one of the pilot's given the chance. The first class had been today. They had given her a folder of the three pilots, a psychological report. She had to read it, to know what buttons to push. They were also teaching her other things as well…
Mana shook her head. She didn't want to think about it. She shivered again. She was sore all over from all the classes. She was tired, but couldn't sleep. She went to the door next to the dresser, which lead to her small bathroom.
She took showers whenever she could, they always relaxed her. The bathroom was small, the shower and tub taking a third of the space in it. A hot shower would warm her up, not to mention loosen up her muscles. She took off her clothing, placing them neatly on the toilet. She got into the tub, closing the screen behind her. Then, she turned on the water at its hottest.
An 'mmm' escaped her lips as the water collided with her tender skin. It was momentarily cold, but it soon heated up. The water slid of her smooth white skin; her dirty-red hair now clung to her young face. She turned around, letting some of the water hit her back as well. It pelted her shoulder blades and slid down her form, soothing her muscles.
She didn't bother shampooing or anything else. The young woman had taken a thorough shower two hours earlier. She just let the water hit her back and shoulders. She was always sore from training, but today had been especially grueling. Lowering her head so her neck would be massaged as well, she recalled something the instructor had said…
"Two of the pilots are female, Kirishima, so you must also learn how to seduce women as well," Mana remembered her instructor was an attractive women, apparently experienced in this matter, "I have no orders to engage in anything with you, but the easiest way is to practice with yourself, alone."
Despite being in a hot shower, she shivered again. She hoped SEELE didn't force her to do anything. The thoughts of sleeping with another girl were frightening to her. Her thoughts turned to what the instructor said about 'practicing with yourself'. She gulped; she easily understood what it meant.
Her hands were almost moving autonomously. She did this rarely, but the need for release and the hot water combined were too much.
Her left hand slowly slid down, sliding over her skin on the way there. Her right slowly drew circles around her right nipple, and pinched it. She moaned, as she slowly sank to her knees.
She now had a deep blush, noting how electrifying her fingers were. Her left hand descended to below her waist, then, in between her smooth legs. There was no hair in the way, since she liked to be shaved, so her hand slowly circled around her petals with no impediment.
Another moan escaped her lips, as her right hand fondled her right breast and nipple. She was completely lost in the moment now, as a finger parted her petals. This elicited a small spasm from her, as she lowered herself down on the floor of the tub. Her head was on the floor, but her legs were still up, raising her hips in the air. The hot water was raining exactly on her hips, enhancing the experience immensely. Drops trickled down her back as she continued fondling her breasts. She soon began moving her left hand and hips in unison, filling her with pleasure.
Her body now had a blush to it; the hot water combined with her raising arousal was almost too much for her. Mana now had both hands between her legs, hips in the air. She was breathing sharply and quickly, her climax was building and all she wanted was to get it sooner. She kept fingering herself as her right hand rubbed her vulva. Her forehead on the tub floor, she gyrated her hips for even more pleasure.
Soon, she climaxed. Every muscle in her body clenched. Her eyes clamped shut, and her back arched. With her legs shaking, and her entire figure spasming, she felt her secretions on her fingers. The water cascaded down her young body washing away the evidence of sin. She collapsed completely now, her legs no longer able to support her.
Oh my god… was all she could think. Water continued to rain down on her exhausted body. She hated to admit it, but, doing this always made her feel better.
She would always feel ashamed afterwards, thinking that it was evidence of lack of self-control. Deep down though she knew she enjoyed this feeling more than anything in her troubled life. As Mana breathed deeply, she knew she would experience more of these once in Japan…
The door to Misato's apartment slowly opened, and the young couple entered. The place was the still how Shinji left, Misato had apparently not returned. Pen Pen's fridge door was open, and the penguin was now in front of the other fridge, rummaging for food. Rei giggled quietly at the scene, as Shinji groaned.
The penguin turned to see the new guests, and his body almost expressed happiness at the sight of the Provider. The penguin gave a squawk, and pointed its flipper at the fridge.
"Is he always," Rei asked with amused speculation, "This demanding?"
Shinji nodded as he made his way to the fridge to get the bird some fish. Rei slowly made her way into the living room and as Shinji was getting the fish, she asked.
"Shinji, may I use your bed?"
Shinji finally grabbed the fish, "Yeah of course Rei" he answered, too distracted with feeding the bird pecking his leg to realize what he said.
Rei slowly walked and opened the screen to his room, giggling at the sign that read: 'Shinji's lovely suite'. Rei proceeded to lie down on the bed, facing the door. The albino wondered what it was he wanted to talk about, as fatigue defeated her…
Shinji meanwhile finished appeasing the bird, as it devoured the delicious contents of its bowl. He looked around for Rei, not seeing her anywhere. He wondered where she went, and looked in the living room, thinking she had fallen asleep on the couch. When she wasn't there, he was confused.
Where'd she go?
Berserker, while you were feeding the bird she asked if she could use your quarters. You accepted.
What? Rei is in my room?
Do you not remember this?
Shinji didn't bother answering; he simply went to his room. His screen was indeed half-open, and the slumbering figure of Rei lay on his bed facing him. It was dead quiet, only her breathing was heard. Shinji slowly walked inside. He sat next to the bed, his head only a foot from hers. Her hair covered half of her face, as her chest expanded and contracted. The only light was coming in from the window, and the sunlight was almost making her glow.
Shinji didn't want to wake her up, she looked so peaceful. So beautiful. It occurred to him that he could ask Arael to read her opinion on yesterday and just act differently. To find out why she acted so boldly. No need for any more misunderstandings, he would understand her now…
He could have but he didn't…
Arael had told him before. The angel helped him when needed, and when told. It was, so Arael said, to help him learn. Shinji knew this. Simply taking the answer from her wouldn't do it.
Though it pained him, he lightly shook Rei's shoulder. Her eyelids slowly rose to reveal her crimson eyes. She blinked a few times, as consciousness seeped back to her. Almost instinctively, Rei's hand reached up to hold the one on her shoulder. She squeezed it softly for a second, before adjusting her head a little on the pillow.
"What is it that you wished to speak of Shinji?" she asked softly, almost in a whisper.
"Rei, I-um" he stuttered, he still didn't know how to phrase this; "I wanted to talk about last night…" he finished meekly.
Rei continued to look at him, only blinking in response. Shinji continued,
"A-about what we did," he began, blushing while saying it, 'o-on the couch?"
This being said, Rei looked away with a blush, "W-was my performance…u-unacceptable?"
"N-n-no!" exclaimed Shinji, holding her hand tighter in reassurance, "no, no it's not that…"
Rei looked at him again, the blush still on her cheeks, "T-then do you wish for our relationship to e-"
Shinji lunged up to hug her as best as he could from his angle. Rei gasped at his sudden move, and held him as well. Shinji was kneeling next to the bed now, his head on top of hers. Shinji was holding back a tear, he always cried when Rei got hurt. He should have been clearer…
"S-Shinji?" she asked, with fear in her voice.
"Rei, I'm not leaving you…" he stated, despite his state he tried to sound as calm as possible.
Rei turned her body now, facing up at the ceiling. Shinji's face hovering slightly above hers.
"Then…what?"
Shinji didn't know what to say, what if she misinterpreted again? He didn't want to confuse her or hurt her anym-
Be direct Berserker.
Shinji took a deep breathe, the angel was right. Very quietly, more of a whisper, he said, "Rei…I think we're going too fast…"
Shinji looked at her, waiting for her reaction. She blinked a few times, making it seem as if her eyes were flickering.
"Phy-physically?" she asked in a whisper, a large blush on her face.
Shinji nodded, "Yes Rei…I mean, we've only been dating for 3 days…"
Rei sat up on the bed, so that they were facing each other, "I...I don't understand, is this a problem?"
"No Rei it isn't, or it is or…" answered and undecided Shinji, rubbing his face with his hands.
"Shinji," began the blue headed girl, "Please tell me, I will not judge you" she said softly, cupping his cheek with her hand.
"Rei," started Shinji, taking a deep breath before telling the truth, "I-I like being with you, I like holding you and kissing you. I enjoy it. B-but…I don't want to look at our relationship and just think it's physical. I want to go slow Rei, to get to know you better. Besides, I haven't dated before…so I don't know what to do when…." He said that last part with a tint of shame.
Rei leaned closer, speaking softly, "Shinji…you must not be ashamed of your inexperience, I have none as well."
Shinji opened his mouth, but words failed him. Rei saw him fumbling for words, and decided it was her turn to speak.
"Shinji, I-I was very bold yesterday. But, when you hold me, kiss me, and touch me, it is unlike anything I have ever felt. Yesterday, I do not know what came over me. I wanted to be closer, I wanted more…"
Rei was blushing as well, but continued, "I understand that we may have been…hasty thus far. To answer your question Shinji, I agree. We have not learned much of each other, and should proceed at a steadier pace."
Shinji looked up at Rei, happy that she understood. She was smiling at him as well. Shinji smiled back; glad that they had cleared this up. He raised his hand up to her cheek, and leaned in to kiss her. The couple closed their eyes as their lips meet.
It only lasted a few seconds, but that kiss carried something heavier. Understanding. Rei broke the kiss, but her lips remained only an inch from his. She spoke softly to him.
"Shinji?"
"Yes, Rei?"
"Though we may go slower, will you continue to hold me, and kiss me, even among others?"
Shinji looked into her red orbs, "Of course Rei"
Shinji kissed her again, and was about to stand. He wanted to let her sleep. Rei placed her hand on his shoulder, stopping him.
"Please, Shinji, stay…" she said, pulling him down for another kiss.
Shinji, with a blush, complied. He sat down on the bed and continued to hold and kiss her. She cradled his head, and he held her tight. Both teens soon fell on the bed, still kissing. Rei parted to ask.
"Is this-" she kissed him again, "-acceptable?"
"More than…" was all he said, as the girl smiled and continued to kiss him.
The couple kept kissing for ten minutes. They grinded against each other, held each other, kissed each other. Their hair would get in the way, were in they would part, remove the encumbrance, and continue. Shinji's tongue met hers, as they explored the depths of their mouths. Shinji felt Rei's soft orbs through her clothing, and Rei felt his arousal.
Shinji's hands almost instinctively moved for more, but Shinji had resolved to go slower. Rei had noticed this, and was almost sad when he stopped himself. But she understood his wishes, and her school uniform was in no way easy to remove in their present state.
The couple parted for more than a second for the first time. Both were breathing quickly, not noticing how little they had been breathing. Rei leaned in for a final kiss on his lips, and rested her head on his shoulder, content. She fell asleep quickly, because of her exhaustion and Shinji's breathing lulled her to leave consciousness behind.
Shinji held the blue haired beauty in amazement, amazed at how they made out. It was incredible how this apparently timid girl kissed him continuously. Now, only their breathing was heard. Eventually, he got up and slowly rested Rei's head on the pillow. She didn't wake up, and Shinji left the room.
As he looked at her sleeping form, he was glad this had been settled. He sighed, and somehow knew things would be better now.
And that Berserker began the angel, Is why I help you only when needed.
AN:
I thought I couldn't top my last chapter but jesus… I must have at least matched it with this one. I am mentally tired from this, but I'm not taking breaks just slow. Other reasons why I took a while: Comic con, 2 weeks of school, and rabid monkeys. It was an eventful 2 months. I took less time than the last chap though…
Anyways, here's something for all my faithful. There is a pop culture in this chapter, whoever can come the closest to guess it wins a price!
The price: You will have a choice to put something in the next chap, these include: A lime, a preview (of what!) ect… You can PM me with your answer or leave it in the review. If you win, ill tell you more details. Be as specific as possible.
Hints: Something Kasuki says, comedian.
I'll see you people with my next chap when I see ya. The story will continue with its twists.
EXTRAS:
-This was my hardest chapter simply for the amount of times it was proofread and corrected. I would like to thank Saturn for the many, many times he helped me. What you are about to read is a dramatization of the writing process.
Me: (type, type, type, type) Ohh, got a cool scene here, I'll send it to Saturn. (Send)
Saturn[Adjective scene, here's what else you should do.
Me: (Looks at suggestions) Hey these are really good…but they aren't my ideas… (Horrible guilt for using the suggestions)
-Days later-
Me: K, here's what I got so far, need some help with [x scene
-Days later-
Me: He's taking a while…should I keep writing or wait? Ohhh…
Saturn: Sorry for taking a while[x scene is good, but horribly executed, do this.
Me: But I worked soo hard…(Sees suggestions) But these are really ideas…fine I'll start over…
-Days later-
Me: Finished! Hurry up so I can post it!
Saturn: Just got to polish it.
Me: Ohh, maybe I did well this time! (Sees amount of errors, corrections, and suggestions) OH THAT'S FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!
What I'm trying to say, I would work faster if it weren't Saturn. Then again, my work would also be not so good. Not soo good at all. Thanks Saturn, just having a good life.
-Proofread by 94saturn, thanks to you I'm still writing, have a Mexican peanut.
Saturn's response: (I'll settle for a shot of Tequila and an inexpensive hooker!)
Ill see ya people, leave reviews and your answers in reviews or PM me!