Author: Raven Shadowrose

Rating: M

Pairing: ?/?

Summary: Sequel to Epiphany, Jeff and Dixie are trying to have a baby, what happens when it is likely to be more difficult than they first thought?

Disclaimer: I do not know or own any of the characters from Casualty, any original characters and the story are my property and I do not give permission for either of them to be used.

A/N: This is a direct sequel to Epiphany, please read that first to understand this story :) Reviews are welcome :)

Thank you to BeethovenRIP, olivia. c. king1 and chan. nelson4444 for your reviews and support, it is time for a bit of Jeff and Dixie love :)

Chapter Forty-Eight.

Jeff had hurried home after his shift, he had spent the evening with the kids and Dixie while they had tea and the kids did their homework, he loved them all so much and spending time with them made him happy. He remembered feeling so content as he put Sophia to bed, it had become a nightly ritual that he would go into her room and hug her, he would kiss her on the head and sit with her until she fell asleep. Then he would go in and say goodnight to John too, sometimes John wanted to talk for a little while and sometimes he didn't, Jeff was quite happy to do whatever his son needed him to do. Dixie would always say goodnight to them too, he was pleased that Sophia and John loved her as much as he did. After that they would put Sam to bed as well, he usually went right to sleep after he had been fed and he would sleep for several hours until he needed feeding again. Jeff was happy that they were getting into a routine with Sam, he was sleeping better now and Dixie was getting more rest each night. He was still taking some of the feeding but mainly during the day as Dixie didn't want him to be tired at work. It made him feel good that Dixie cared about him and loved him the way that she did.

Dixie sat on the bed in her bathrobe, she was a bit nervous about tonight and making love to Jeff, it had been a while since she had been with him and they had made love to each other. She wanted to be with him and have him make love to her again but it made her feel a bit on the apprehensive side too. Her body had changed quite a bit since she'd had Sam and she wondered what Jeff would think of her now. She looked up when Jeff came into their bedroom and he stood in front of her. 'Come on princess, the bath is ready for us.'

'Okay.' Dixie put her hand in Jeff's and she let him lead her into the bathroom, once they were inside he shut the door and went over to her, taking her into his arms. 'Jeff, do you have the monitor?'

'Of course I do love, it is just over there and it is turned right up.'

'Okay, that's good.'

'Relax princess, if Sam cries then we will be able to hear him and we will go to him.'

'I know we will.' Dixie watched Jeff take his clothes off and he got into the bath.

'Come on princess, the water is warm and it feels nice.' Dixie slowly slipped off her robe and got into the water with Jeff, she snuggled up to him and his arms immediately wrapped themselves around her, the feeling of safety and comfort returned to Dixie and she closed her eyes.

Jeff rested his head against Dixie's and he gently stroked the bare skin of her arms and back as he held her close to him. He heard Dixie sigh quietly and he kissed her head. Jeff put his fingers under Dixie's chin and he kissed her softly on her lips, he licked at them and slipped his tongue inside her mouth when she opened her lips beneath his. He kept the pace of the kiss slow and careful, it was important to him that Dixie felt comfortable with everything that they did. Jeff slowed the kiss down and then pressed a kiss against Dixie's forehead. 'I love you Mrs Collier.'

'Love you too Mr Collier.' Jeff rested his back against the edge of the bath and he moved Dixie so she was lying with her back against his chest. He put his arms around her and pressed a kiss against the bare skin of her shoulder. 'Dixie,' he whispered.

'Yeah.'

'I love you, I just hope that you know how just how much. I know that sometimes I tend to say everything wrong, I've never been one for poetry and fancy words but I need to say this. You and the kids are my world princess, I don't think I've ever been happier than I am right now. I can't wait to come home to you all at the end of the day. All of my thoughts are of you, I make it through each day because I know that I have all of you to come home to.' Jeff kissed Dixie's shoulder again and he felt her snuggle back against him.

'That's beautiful Jeffrey, for someone that thinks he says everything wrong you got that just right. I love you, always.' Jeff was pleased that Dixie had loved what he said to her, he meant every word and he just wanted her to know that she was special and how much she meant to him.

Dixie smiled, Jeff's words made her feel special and loved, she felt his fingers running up and down her arms in random patterns and she sighed quietly. 'Dix, we should get out, the water is getting a bit cold and I don't want you catching a chill.'

'Okay, it is cooling down a bit now.' She carefully stood up and then climbed out of the bath, she picked up her bathrobe and wrapped it around her body. Jeff pulled the plug out of the bath and let the water go and then he put his own robe on. 'Come on princess, let's go into our room.' Dixie picked up the baby monitor and took it with her as Jeff led her into their bedroom, she put the monitor close to the bed and then sat down. Jeff sat next to her and he took her hands in his again. 'Dixie, I'm not going to rush you, if you're not ready for us to make love then we can wait. I don't want to hurt you.'

'You won't hurt me. I trust you Jeff.'

'I'm going to take it slow, if you want to stop then you can just tell me.'

'Okay. Can I have a hug?'

'Of course you can princess.' Dixie snuggled herself into Jeff's arms and sighed in happiness as he held her against his body.

Jeff lay back on the bed and pulled Dixie with him, he held her close and looked into the eyes that he loved so much. He leaned in and pressed his lips against Dixie's, her mouth opened immediately and he slipped his tongue inside her mouth. Jeff lost himself in the kiss that he was sharing with Dixie, he tangled his fingers in her hair and ran his other hand up and down her body. He had missed being with Dixie while she was pregnant and then after the birth. Jeff felt Dixie's hand move inside his robe and touch the bare skin of his chest, he pulled her closer and tugged at the tie holding her bathrobe closed until it opened and revealed some of her naked body to him. Jeff helped Dixie out of the robe and he took his own off too, he looked down at Dixie and smiled at her. 'You're so beautiful my Dixie.'

'Do you really think so?'

'I do, very much, you're gorgeous.'

'Even though I have stretch marks on my belly and need to lose some of the weight I've gained from carrying Sam?'

'I don't see those things Dixie, all I see is you, my beautiful wife.' Jeff saw the smile on Dixie's face and he kissed her, he wanted her to know how beautiful she was to him.

Dixie interlocked her fingers with Jeff's as he kissed her, she wanted him and needed him. Their kissing was growing more passionate by the second and she felt Jeff's lips move away from hers and down to her neck. 'Jeff,' she gasped as his lips caressed the sensitive skin of her throat and his hand settled on her breast, his fingers gently stroking her nipple. 'My Jeffrey.' Dixie moaned as Jeff's gently kissed his way down her chest, he was being gentle as she was still feeding Sam and sometimes she still felt a bit uncomfortable. She looked into Jeff's eyes as his fingers moved their way up her inner thigh and settled at the top. 'Dixie, let me know if I hurt you, if you're uncomfortable then I will stop.'

'Okay, I will.' Dixie felt Jeff gently part her legs and then he slipped a finger inside of her and held it still.

'Are you okay princess?'

'Yeah, I'm okay.' Dixie moaned as Jeff slowly moved his finger inside her, he gently added another one and moved them both in her. 'I've missed this Jeff,' Dixie moaned quietly and she closed her eyes, she wanted to feel everything that was happening to her.

Jeff watched Dixie carefully to see if she was in pain, he wanted her to enjoy herself and he was going to make sure that she did so and wasn't hurting at all. He slowly moved his fingers inside her body and moved them a bit faster when he was certain that he wouldn't hurt her by doing so. Jeff groaned when he felt Dixie's hand stroke his rapidly growing erection, her moans always turned him on and right now it was very hard to ignore. 'Don't stop Dixie, please don't stop.' He was aware that he had begged her not to stop and he stilled his fingers inside Dixie's body to avoid hurting her while she touched him and coaxed him to full hardness. Jeff felt Dixie's hand slow and then stop, it moved up his body and her fingers lazily circled his nipple. 'Jeff,' he heard Dixie say quietly. 'I want you inside me.'

'Are you sure princess?'

'Yeah, I've never been more sure of anything.'

'Okay, tell me if I hurt you or you're uncomfortable.'

'I will, I promise.' Jeff slipped the condom on, they were going to have to use them while Dixie was breastfeeding Sam and couldn't go on the pill. He didn't want Dixie getting pregnant right away, he wanted her to recover from this pregnancy fully before they even thought about having another baby. Jeff parted Dixie's legs again and he slowly started to push his length into her body. He watched Dixie's face for any sign that she was hurting or uncomfortable.

Dixie felt Jeff stop moving when his full length was buried inside her body. 'You okay Dixie?' She nodded and Jeff rested his head against her chest, she gently stroked his head as they just lay together with their naked skin touching. It wasn't often that Jeff let Dixie hold him like this, he liked to be the one holding her and protecting her with his arms. Dixie made the most of being able to hold Jeff in her arms and cuddle him close to her. 'Make love to me Jeff,' she whispered and he nodded.

'Okay princess.' Dixie looked up into Jeff's eyes as he slowly started to move inside of her, she didn't feel any pain and she lifted her hips to meet Jeff's movements. Dixie saw the love that Jeff held for her in his eyes, she moaned into Jeff's mouth as he kissed her and she felt his finger brushing against her clit. 'Love you princess.'

'Love you too Jeff.' Dixie felt Jeff kissing her neck and she moaned again as he made love to her.

Jeff moved inside Dixie, he was being careful to make sure that he wasn't hurting her. He gently kissed Dixie's neck and ran his fingers over her nipples, he smiled when she moaned and he pressed a kiss to her forehead. 'Look at me princess.' Jeff locked his eyes onto Dixie's as he moved inside her body, it was intense and satisfying. He moaned and buried his head in Dixie's neck as he made love to her. Jeff stroked Dixie's clit and he heard her moan. 'Come for me princess.' He carried on stroking her clit and moving inside her, he felt her body squeeze him and Dixie moaned as she came around his length. Jeff timed his movements with Dixie's to make her orgasm last longer.

Dixie looked into Jeff's eyes as he continued to move inside of her, she stroked her fingers over his spine and she kissed him as his movements became uncontrolled. She felt Jeff arch his back and he groaned as came, he slowly lowered his head to her chest and Dixie put her arms around him. She stroked her hand over Jeff's back and up to his head. Dixie just held Jeff until he slowly moved out of her and removed the condom, he got rid of it and then climbed back into bed. Dixie snuggled herself into Jeff's arms and she felt him stroking her hair. 'Dix?'

'Yeah love.'

'Are you okay?'

'I'm fine.'

'I didn't hurt you, did I?'

'No love, you didn't.'

'Good.' She felt Jeff pull the covers around them and tuck them up around her shoulders. 'Are you warm enough princess?'

'Of course I am, you're holding me.' Dixie snuggled closer to Jeff and took comfort from his closeness and warmth.

Jeff held Dixie in his arms, he was pleased that he hadn't hurt her while they made love. He gently stroked her hair and kissed her head as he watched her fall asleep in his arms. Jeff checked the covers again and tucked them around Dixie to make sure that she was warm enough and would be comfortable throughout the night. Jeff loved to watch Dixie sleep, it made him happy. 'Night princess,' he whispered and tightened his arms around her. Jeff closed his eyes and rested his head back against the pillow, it wasn't long before he drifted into a peaceful sleep.