Jalizza's POV

I'm standing here backstage awaiting to be introduced by the one and only Tyra Banks. I mean I remember watching Tyra when I was 11 wishing I could be as cool as her. My parents are in the audience and Demi is onstage right now being her sweet self talking with Tyra. Tyra asks her, "So, I see you are good friends with our next guest Jalizza."

Demi smiles even bigger and says, "Why yes I am! She is like a sister to me; I am so proud of her for not only coming so far music-wise but getting through everything that's been going on."

Tyra looks more interested and says, "And that is?"

Demi laughs, looks at me, and says, "Well you'll have to ask her."

Tyra laughs and says, "Okay, fine. When we come back, I will be sitting down with Jalizza, and then she will be performing her new single 'Happy Ever After'."

The lights then go down and Demi comes running over to me. And asks, "Are you nervous?" I nod. She hugs me and continues, "It's gonna be okay. It's your first time on TV. Even I get nervous to. If you get more scared just look at me."

I look at her and say, "Hey, it worked!"

She laughs as the producer signals me to go sit down on the couch next to Tyra. I walk over nervous but knowing everything will be okay. The On-Air light goes back on and Tyra says, "Welcome back, it's now time for our next guest Jalizza. I heard, you are very excited for this."

I nod my head and say, "Yes, when my manager called me yesterday, I literally screamed out of excitment. I remember watching you when I was younger and being like, 'She's amazing, I wanna be on that show some day.' in a way this is a dream come true."

She laughs and says, "Thank you very much. Speaking about your childhood, how was it?"

I gulp and say, "Like any kids. I always had big dreams so I would do anything to achieve them. I was always either at dance class or doing a show."

She nods and says, "In this century it is almost impossible to not be bullied, did you ever go through any of that?"

I look at Demi who smiles. I get a little less nervous and say, "Well, I don't really perfer to talk about it, but yes I did."

"Wow, someone as beautiful and talented as you. I understand you don't want to get into it, but what kind of effects has that had on you?"

"Seeing that for the first nine years of my education I had to deal with being made fun of, it really did effect me. They would call me bug eyes, and fat. I used to pretend to not let it bother me which worked, but there was always stuff going around and I always heard about it."

"That must've been really hard to always be so strong about it."

"It really was sometimes, I remember getting a message on Facebook asking how I was able to cope with it and why I was always happy since everyone hated me. I think that is where it all changed in my mind. Before I kind of just played it off as kids being kids since that's what everyone told me but that just really hit home."

"What do you mean?"

"Since I was used to being bullied since such a young age, I just got accustomed to the abuse and thought it was normal. But when that person asked me that, it clicked in my head that I was really hated. That's when other problems got into play, and yah."

"What problems happened?"

"Well, I'm just gonna say that, I was hanging around with people who made me feel bad. I wanted so badly to be accepted that I would take the negative words that would come out of there mouths day after day. One day, I remember going to the park with them, and for five hours straight they just yelled at me calling me a horrible person. From that day forward I was never the same. That just pretty much confirmed that everyone hated me with such passion. So I took it out on myself. The friendship had ended because I tried sticking up for myself, and that is where the problems really started developing. I went into a deep drepression for about a year. Every word that was ever said to me or about me just was always in my head. I even switched schools because I knew the anxiety would be too much."

"Wow that's deep. Did you ever try talking to someone about it?"

"Yeah, I had a counselor a month after I started high school. I first saw her because I knew there was something wrong with me, but I just couldn't quite tell what it was. She would try to help me figure it out but I wasn't honest with her what-so-ever because I just turned off my emotions. I wasn't being honest with myself either. I would tell myself I was fine, but then my stresses increased and that what started everything else."

"What did it start.?"

"Some people know this, some don't. But I self-harmed. At the time it was my way of dealing with the numbness and pain. I did it so much, that I got addicted. When it wasn't giving me the same sattisfaction, I wanted to commit suicide. I honestly didn't wanna deal with the thoughts anymore."

"Did anyone know about this, the cutting?"

"No, not really. People probably could suspect it, but no one knew it was that bad. Cutting itself is a serious thing but I was always that happy person! I was Jalizza, the one who was so brutally sarcastic and funny. I always had energy and could make anyone smile."

"Wow that is a lot to have gone through. Now I understand you later went into treatment for it?"

"Yes, I did. After Demi had found me, it took a month for her to realize how badly I was hurting."

"And what was the breaking point?"

"Well, she was on her tour in Asia for a few weeks, and came back to visit me. I had been going through a really bad break up, and I kind of just had a break down. I wasn't going to school, I was using drugs, wasn't eating at all and it just got bad. Demi noticed, and confronted me. At this point I was actually supposed to be in recovery, because I had attempted suicide. I had been telling different lies to everyone and when she did, I didn't even know what to say."

"Oh wow, may I ask you what happened to make her ask?"

"I really don't wanna talk about this part but... I was the type of girl to never do anything wrong other than overusing my sarcasm. The day before Demi came to visit, I had gotten suspended for smacking a girl in the face. I did it because she made a comment at lunch that I wasn't eating anything. She then said she was going to tell my therapist and I just lost it. I accept 100 percent of the responsibilty because it was absolutely my fault. I originally told my parents it was because she asked about my lazy eye and I was just in a really heated mood, but then I had told my brother it was because some kid told a teacher I was using my phone. Demi knew somehow that I was lying and wouldn't let it go. I would just say, 'I don't wanna talk about it' and she would just keep asking. And then because I wasn't eating anymore what-so-ever my heart had been so weak... I went into Cardiac Arrest because my heart just stopped working. It didn't have the energy. After that things started coming out."

"When I was researching you last night, it said you went into a treatment center, Timberline Knowles."

"Yah, I didn't even go home after leaving the hospital. Everything clicked in people's heads and my parents wouldn't let me live the way I was."

"So what did you go in for exactly?"

"Well there is kind of a list. I went in for Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Anxiety, Self Harm, trauma and an eating disorder."

"Oh wow. Well folks that is all the time we have left. When we come back after the break we will be continue talking with Jalizza and Demi and later... The two will be singing their new duet Meltdown. "