A/N: This is long enough to be a One Shot. Please read it anyway. I got carried away imagining the behind the scenes action. Hope you enjoy.

Shadows Of Love

Outtake #1

The Camping Trip

JPOV

"Do you think you have everything you'll need?"

"Yeah, Embry, I think so. Leah and Seth, Alice and Esme all helped me gather stuff and we all had our own checklists.
If it's not in this pack, I don't think we'll need it. If we do, tough. Thanks for all your help bud. I couldn't have made
it this far without your support and input, you know that right?"

"Yeah, Jake I know. I just hope you know what you're doing. I hope the 'Addams' family knows what they're doing.
But hey, if it all goes to hell in a handbasket, you know you can come home to us and you can bring Ren. You understand,
we love her as much as you do now."

"I get it, Emb. Although I'm not sure anyone loves that little girl as much as I do. It's impossible to explain, and I'm
not saying that cause you're not imprinted, right?"

"I know that, bro. Don't worry. I know what you're saying. Listen, go ahead and talk to Ren and come back out and
phase. I'll help you get hitched up. Yah, mule!"

"Very funny, my man. I'll be right back."

I moved toward the cottage where Ren was waiting for me with Alice and Esme. This was to have been Edward and
Bella's home when they returned from their honeymoon. Nobody had ever lived here. It was a shame, too, because
Esme and everyone had done a great job fixing it up and decorating it. But now, there were sheets over almost all of
the furniture and a fine covering of dust on every surface. There was a somber darkness about the place that gave me
the creeps and I wasn't happy about being here.

In an attempt to contain our scents, the preparations for my escape to the mountains with Renesmee had all been made
here instead of the Cullen home. The anticipated visit from the Volturi had everyone on edge and the sooner I got out
of Dodge with my girl, the better I'd feel.

My Pack brothers and sister, Alice and Esme had worked together to gather together all the supplies we could possibly
need for 2 months in the mountains. I was going to hide in the Canadian Rockies with my imprint, protecting her with
the distance and my life if that's what it took.

A harness for carrying our supplies and providing a place for Ren to ride on my back was assembled of nylon straps and
canvas. The straps, tarps, tents and virtually all of our equipment had been obtained from Newton's Outfitters. I wondered
if anyone else saw the irony in that that I did. Bella would have been there to sell us everything we required, with an
employee discount even. But if she had not made the choices she had she'd still be working at Newton's more than likely
and we wouldn't need any of this junk. I wrestled with my own bitterness about the twists and turns life could throw at you.

I walked into the front room of the cottage and joined Alice, Leah and Esme as they busied themselves fussing over Ren's
clothing. Keeping her safe was one thing, keeping her warm on wolf back at 60 miles an hour was an entirely different
challenge. The little thing was bundled up to within an inch of her life. She could barely move and would need my help
extricating herself from this papoose once we reached our destination. Esme knelt in front of her and fastened a final
snap at her chin. Alice gave her an approving once over and turned to me.

"She's got on enough layers to roast a turkey under there. With your heat underneath her and rising up around her, I
think she'll be toasty all the way there. All you have to do is get her there in one piece, keep her warm and heed her
requests for nature breaks. You mustn't delay stopping when she says it's time and she needs to go. If you run fast
enough, she may be good to go the whole trip. Just keep your ear trained toward her right?"

I looked at the little pixie as she gazed up at me with the stern admonition showing in her features. I managed to resist
an obscene reply to her since my imprint was standing right there. I had trouble putting a lid on the sarcasm that vampires
just naturally brought out in me.

"Alice, thank you hon, but you do know I'll be totally focused on Ren throughout the rest of my life, right? I think a request
for a potty break won't go unnoticed. You can count on me. Relax, Pixie, I got this. If you don't calm down now, you'll be
struggling later when you really need to have your wits about you. Just sayin'."

I gave her a knowing hard look. Her performance would be crucial to everyone's survival. She had to go for the Oscar.
The Italians HAD to believe her. There were no other options.

She stared back up at me, her amber eyes wide with acceptance that this was it. The final countdown was about to begin.

I squatted down in front of Ren and gently grasped her petite shoulders. She was still pretty small but the layers of down
and thermal material had nearly doubled her size. She looked so cute, a little bit like an Oompah Loompah. There was
another irony, I thought. Ren's favorite color was purple, just like Bella's had been. Of course, Esme and Alice had provided
her with sleeping bag, tent, mittens, cap, scarf, ski suit, even thermal underwear, virtually all of it purple. I never dreamed
there were that many different shades of purple. But I didn't worry too much about it. She was adorable and she was warm.
That was the number one thing on my checklist.

"Hey, Honey. Are you ready to get started on our long hike? We should probably be on our way so we can get where we're
going before dark."

Her little nose and rosy lips just barely showed through the gap in her scarf and hood. Her eyes were shining with excitement
as she brought her mittened hands up to my cheeks.

"Oh yes, Jacob. I'm ready. This is going to be so much fun! Let's go!"

"Okay Littlun. I'll go out and phase and then you guys can come out and get me loaded up. I'll be turning into a pack mule
instead of a wolf."

She giggled and clapped, the sound muffled by the mittens on her tiny hands, and I stood to head out the door. I glanced
at Esme and she nodded.

"Just give me about a minute. I'll strip and phase first and you guys can come on out and help Embry and Leah get me hitched
up and get Little Bit in the saddle."

I turned and strode out the door, pulling off my t-shirt as I went. When I got to Embry, I kicked out of my shorts and sneakers
and allowed the wolf to take the front row pilot's seat. Emb gathered my clothing and shoes, stuffing them into a pocket of the
backpack, shaking his head. He zipped up the pocket and stepped back regarding me. I cocked my head and looked at him
with the question in my eyes.

"I don't guess I'll ever get used to how quickly and easily you do that. If anyone of us was ever a natural at being a supernatural,
it's you Jake."

I gave him an amused chuff and motioned with my head toward the pack harness. Seth and Leah were there to help and the three
of them and Esme each took a corner and lifted the whole affair a few feet off the ground. I simply walked under it like pulling a car
into a carport and they lowered it to my back. Straps were buckled around and under my belly and double checked for a snug fit.
Then the makeshift saddle for Renesmee was attached toward the front, just ahead of my shoulder blades. It was a heavily padded
affair with extra straps for safety. The plan was that she would be secured to the pack but not part of the pack. I could run as fast
as the load would allow, cover as much ground as quickly as possible, and if she needed to get down, she could actually extricate
herself from the seat without my help. If she only needed to stop for a short break, I could stay wolf and stay loaded. With any
luck at all, she wouldn't need to get down until we reached our final destination and were ready to make camp.

Once the saddle was secured, everyone gathered around Ren and began the series of goodbyes and instructions for the trip. There
were plenty of 'be careful' and 'have fun' and kisses and hugs. Finally Leah stepped up and knelt down in front of my girl.

"You ready, Sugar?"

Ren nodded her head vigorously, too excited and choked up to speak, and held up her arms to the tall she wolf. Leah picked her up
and lifted her into her seat and fastened all the straps, making sure she was secure but steady and comfortable. My girl reached down
and did her best to grab a handful of fur in her mitten-covered hand, giving it a little tug to tell me she was all tucked in. I slowly
stood to my full height causing a little shriek of excitement to bubble up from her throat. She looked down at her family members
making up the going-away party, wolf and vampire alike with concern on their faces.

"I'm okay. That's just a long way up!"

I looked at each one of the group that stood around us. My wolf family almost looked relieved that our departure was imminent. The
vampires, on the other hand, looked at us with longing and trepidation. They were acutely aware that if their explanation and Alice's
little ruse were not accepted, this could be the last time any of them would see Renesmee. I turned and looked toward the tree line
beyond the cottage and saw the remaining Cullens standing just in view, catching what could be a last glimpse of their niece and
granddaughter. Most of the farewells had been spoken before we came to the little rock house in the woods. Alice and Esme looked
up at Renesmee with tearless eyes, trying to smile through their anxiety and not convey their fear to my tiny passenger.

"We'll see you soon Rennie. You be a good girl and stay close to Jake and do what he says. Have fun sweetie," Esme murmured.

Alice couldn't speak and only managed to reach up on her tiptoes and give Ren's leg a squeeze before she backed away with her
hand over her lips. I was beginning to feel sorry for the lot of them and knew if I didn't get moving that Ren would start to get upset
as well. I gave her a warning yip to let her know I was about to head out and I trotted away from the group. I turned before entering
the thickest part of the trees in our intended direction and Ren waved madly at our families. I didn't linger and quickly moved beyond
the underbrush and out of sight.

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I knew exactly where I was headed with my imprint. And to get us there in my wolf form would require a circuitous route to stay away
from civilization. But it would be worth it in the long run. The area in British Columbia where we were going would require many miles
of running to reach. It would take us at least three days to reach my intended stopping point. We stayed as deep in the forests as possible
at first heading south to circle widely around Seattle and then into the Mount Baker/Snoqualmie National Forest. This was where we spent
our first night. Once we were that many miles from Forks and La Push, I began to breathe a little easier and was able to relax. Fortunately,
Ren seemed to be enjoying the ride, the scenery and I dared to hope, my company, even as a wolf.

When we reached a good spot to camp, next to a sparkling stream, I dropped to my belly and Ren slipped from her harness and slid to the
ground. Two buckles and only two, as Embry had planned it, released our pack from my back. Ren popped the quick-release buckles and
jumped back as all of our belongings plunged to the ground. As we'd planned ahead of time, Ren stayed put close to the pack while I trotted
deeper into the trees to phase and dress. When I came back into sight, my heart swelled when Ren ran to me and jumped into my arms.

"Oh Jacob, that was so much fun! I love riding on your wolf!"

"It doesn't scare you, or make you uncomfortable?"

"Oh no, it doesn't scare me at all! And the seat and harness is comfy and feels so...solid! I feel so safe with you Jacob."

"I'm glad Ren. You know you'll always be safe when I'm around. I promise you that."

"I know Jacob. I trust you. And I love you."

"Aw, I love you too little one. Come on, let's get this tent thrown up and get some food in our bellies. I'm starving!"

"Jacob! You're always starving!"

"So feed me already!"

I pulled the tent out of its bag and popped it up. It was easy, packable, lightweight and most importantly, big. It would actually hold 4
adults so I knew there'd be plenty of room for Ren and me. We each had sleeping bags and I raked up a wide pad of leaves, moss and
pine needles and anchored the tent on top of it. I unrolled the sleeping bags and set up the small light stand we'd packed. Ren dove into
the bag with our rations and water and I started gathering up sticks, pine cones and fallen branches to get a fire started.

We ate sandwiches and cookies, sipped our water, and listened to a small radio I brought along. We talked about everything and nothing.
Ren wanted to know what I could tell her about the reason we were here, why we were running away. I explained gently but as honestly
as I could that some really unfriendly vampires were coming to visit the Cullens and we didn't want them to know about her existence and
who her parents were. We also didn't want them to know of the existence of the Pack and we were all doing everything we could to make
sure they didn't find out any of those things. She seemed to take all I said with a grain of salt but accepted it quietly. I knew she was
worried about her other family and I resolved to distract her as much as I could.

After the first day traveling, Ren was pretty wiped out and I tucked her into her little purple sleeping bag before the stars had finished making
their appearance. I was tired too but for different reasons. I was simply exhausted with stress and worry. I unzipped my king size bag and
hunkered down intending to try and at least relax my muscles a bit. My dear little imprint somehow knew exactly what I needed. After just
a few minutes of silence she whispered to me in the sweetest, tiny voice.

"Hey Jacob?"

"Yeah Ren?"

"It's really dark here, and there's funny noises out there, would you please hold my hand?"

I smiled at her through the gloom in the tent.

"Of course honey. Don't be afraid. I'm right here."

I held my hand over close to her face and she pushed her delicate palm into mine, clutching it tightly. I wrapped it up in my fingers placing
my other hand over the top of hers. We were both asleep within minutes, hands clasped snugly together. My mind was at peace for the
first time in days.

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The next morning, we awakened to brilliant sunshine struggling against the chilly temperatures. We ate some breakfast and I helped Ren
get bundled up in her snowsuit and boots again. She helped me repack the rations, sleeping bags and tent and I got them squared away
in the travel pack. Then came our first real obstacle, well MY first one anyway. Ren turned around and I made my first attempt to get into
the pack on my own. Ren was just too little to really help so I was trying an idea I had by myself. With her back to me, I stripped and
crawled on my belly on the ground until I was underneath the pack and threaded through the straps. It was do or die, now or never. I
cleared my mind and phased under the pack and into the straps. Son of gun, it worked!

I chuffed at Ren and she turned and jumped up and down clapping for me.

"Jacob! You did it! It's like magic!"

I gave myself a shake and the pack settled into place. I wiggled a bit here and there until the straps were adjusted in a comfortable but
stable position. I went back to my belly and Ren used handholds Embry had designed and built into her harness to climb up and snuggle
herself into her traveling cubby. It was a bit like a short, fat papoose crossed with a big basket of soft cotton-stuffed nylon sides. Even if
something had happened and God forbid I had stumbled or fallen, Ren would likely not be injured. Her safety was number one on the list
and that riding harness setup was the first thing Embry and I had set our minds to.

Once she was secured and comfy, I bounded off onto our planned path. While I was phased I was able to check in with the Pack and get
updates on the impending vamp visit.

"Morning Jared, hey Emb, Paul. What's happening down home?"

"Hey Jake. All's quiet so far. Embry and Paul are currently stationed inside the treeline behind the leeches' mansion. Doesn't look like
anyone's made any moves yet. They can hear normal conversations inside. How are you and Ren getting along?"

"Like a house afire bud. She's not worried about what's going on back home, yet. I explained it to her, sort of, but I'm not sure she has a
grip on how serious it is. We made it as far as Snoqualmie last night and we're moving northeast as fast as I can now."

"Damn Jake, you covered some serious ground yesterday! Good on ya, bro! How about the accommodations? And how'd you do getting
back in the pack?"

"We both slept like babies in the tent. We were both pretty exhausted. And I'm running so you know I'm packed up. It worked like a charm
Emb. But crawling naked on my stomach on the cold ground and wedging myself underneath a heavy pack with big straps is not something
I'd want to make a career of, know what I'm sayin?"

"Yeah. I hear ya. I think I'm on that page with ya, not on my list of favorite activities either. Makes Jared Junior want to run and hide just
thinking about it. Brrr."

"Thaaaat's the story dude. Baby it's cold outside and even colder under that pack squished into the frozen tundra. But hey, anything for this
little girl that I'm ferrying, ya know?"

"I understand. One hundred percent. We'll be available when you want to check in with us Jake. Be careful and try to relax, maybe have some
fun, you know, some real R and R. Might as well make the most of the required travel."

"That's my plan Jare. Check you later. Later Emb. Later Paul. I'm down."

"Ten-four Alpha."

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By the early morning of our third day of traveling, Ren and I had arrived at the outskirts of our final destination, near Ainsworth Hot Springs
and Kootenay Lake. We were securely hidden in the thickest wilderness, with access to warm water pools that were safe from prying eyes. We
set up our tent, had an early lunch and headed off to explore the hot springs and caves close to our hiding place. Ren was ready for some
swimming and a bath so we made a beeline to the warm waters.

It was a strange sensation hanging out with my imprint. She was only a few months old and I had only known her for a portion of that time. She
was still a little girl, but old enough to hold an intelligent conversation and we were able to entertain each other. I felt a bit like a big brother, but
then again, not exactly. Quil and I had talked about the emotions rolling around in your heart when your imprint was years younger than you and
your wolf. I think he may have been a bit envious that my imprint would be grown up long before his. Claire was barely 5 years old and Quil knew
he was in it for the long haul. Renesmee was growing so fast you could almost watch her get taller in real time. It was eerie and amazing at the
same time to see the changes that would take place in her appearance from one day to the next.

She was such a pretty little girl, still favoring Bella in a goose bump-inducing way. It seemed like the older, or rather the bigger she got, the more
she looked like her mother. It was a constant struggle for me to push those memories to the back of my mind. I tried to let go of grief, pain,
heartbreak and concentrate on following Ren's example of being young, carefree and enjoying life for what it really is, a gift. She had a beautiful
outlook on life and you couldn't help but be influenced by her cheerful attitude. She saw the bright side of any circumstance and the best side of
any person. What a great example and role model she was turning out to be for me and the rest of the Pack, too.

When we got our campsite squared away and took the opportunity to get cleaned up in the hot springs, for the first time in three days, what a relief
that was, we hunkered down in front of the fire. In a move that I hoped none of my Pack mates ever learned about, I brushed Ren's hair next to
the warmth of the flames until it was dry and then braided it in a thick trail down her back. She said it was just like we were having a girls-only
sleepover and all we lacked were chick flicks, popcorn and a pillow fight. I felt like I was about 5 years old hanging out with my sisters and doing
their bidding no matter what the task might have been. I was thankful Alice hadn't packed any nail polish for Ren, or I knew exactly what I would
be doing right after the hair braiding activity.

We chowed down on fresh fish for dinner. We had crossed a fast-flowing, cold stream early that morning and I snagged several trout to stuff into
an insulated bag from our pack. Ren squealed and screamed at the 'squiggly, wiggly things' as I thrust my head, fangs at the ready, into the water
and came up with them one at a time in my mouth. I spit them out on the ground and poor Ren had to chase them down and pick them up to load
into the bag. She was a real trooper though and I was proud of her. I cleaned them after we made camp and, cooked over an open-flame, trout
can't be beat for a hearty meal.

When the sun had dipped below the horizon, we pulled our sleeping bags up to the opened flap of the tent so we could still feel the campfire warmth.
We lay on our backs, side by side and I pointed out constellations to my girl.

"What's that one, Jacob?"

"Okay, sight along my arm like this, see that sorta blue one? That's actually a planet. It's Venus. And those 3 in a straight line over there, they make
up Orion's belt. See, there's the top and bottom points of his bow and that one is the tip of his arrow and that one is his elbow where he's got the
bowstring pulled back. And see this little bunch over here? They're called the Pleiades, but most people call them The Seven Sisters. And see that
line? That's the Big Dipper, that one straight out from the outer edge of the cup part, that's the North Star, Polaris. And from Polaris you can draw a
line down this way and up and over and that's the Little Dipper.

"How about those two that are so close together over there?"

"Those are the twins, Castor and Pollux. They're the ones that are the Zodiac sign, Gemini. Pollux is the brighter one, but Castor is actually 6 stars
mashed up together."

"How do you know all this stuff, Jacob?"

"Well, when I was little, about your age, my Mom used to take me to the beach at night to watch the tide come in. It's always real dark there, if
there's no bonfire of course, and that makes it easy to see lots of stars. Mom taught me everything she knew about them. We used to have a great
time walking on the sand in the middle of the night. I thought I was so special cause I was awake and out of the house in the wee hours. Mom could
make anybody feel special."

"I wish I could have known her. She sounds really neat."

"She was Ren. She really was."

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The next morning we rose with the sun and I stoked up the fire and got some breakfast started. I sat back on my heels from where I had kneeled next
to the fire to watch my imprint. She was cleaning house. She had folded our sleeping bags into neat squares and placed them in opposite back corners
of the tent. She had stacked our clothing in orderly piles on one side and our food and water supplies on the other in the locker. Now she was crawling
around in the middle of the tent on her hands and knees and pushing at the tent floor, adjusting the vegetation padding I had raked up when we first
made camp. She smoothed and pushed and patted until the floor of the tent was as perfectly even as she could possibly make it. I would give anything
that I could admire my special little girl doing this 'chore' without thinking of her mother who was a house-cleaning machine when she needed to clear
her mind of something stressful in her life.

After breakfast, we cleaned our dishes together and I tried to think of a way to entertain Ren and relax myself at the same time.

"What would you like to do today Rennie?"

"Well, I've been thinking about that. I have a favor to ask you."

If this was even a remotely good idea, I was gonna jump on it with both feet.

"Okay honey, shoot."

"Will you teach me how to carve wood?"

"Really?"

"Yeah, really. I've watched Uncle Billy carving a lot and it looks hard but he says it's not. He also says the best person available to teach me, would
be you."

"Oh gosh, Ren. I don't know about Dad's evaluation of my qualifications, but I'll be happy to teach you about carving. We don't have much of a
choice for tools, just a pocket knife and a hatchet in the camp supplies, but we'll make do with what we've got. Is that okay?"

"That'll be great Jake! What do we need to do first?"

We set off on our first task, finding a piece of wood. That was no problem at all. It took us only a short hike to find a fallen branch under a cedar tree.
Cedar would be an easy wood for Ren to start with and we'd do something simple at first.

We made our way back to camp with our branch and I used the hatchet to hack off a couple of small chunks, one for each of us. I took the pocket knife
and carved an ancient-style V shaped fish hook while Ren sat close by watching every move of my hands. I explained each stroke of the blade so she
could duplicate it on her own piece of wood. When I finished, I placed the knife into her hand carefully and held my own hand around hers to steady
her grip. We carved her fish hook together with me guiding her fingers holding the wood and holding her other hand with the knife. Once we had two
perfectly serviceable fish hooks, we threaded each of them with line that I had packed and we headed off hand in hand toward a nearby stream. Ren
squealed like a baby when she caught a small trout on her very own hook. I caught a couple as well and we had fire-roasted fish for lunch.

While Ren took a nap after lunch, I slipped behind the tent and stripped and phased to check in with the home troops. I had only been linked up with
Sam and the others for a few minutes when the sound of a car pulling up in front of the Cullen house penetrated through to me. The whole Pack was
positioned just inside the tree line around the perimeter of the vamp property. Sam's wolf was closest to the house and could easily see through one
of the huge dining room windows as well as clearly hear all the conversation taking place.

We held our collective breath while the vamp family put on a performance to save all our lives. The little pixie pulled off what I had feared was impossible.
She actually manipulated her memory of her visions to feed the desired misinformation to the head Italian leech. Some of what they told them was true.
Bella and Edward were both dead. The trick was if she had been able to prevent them from learning that Bella and Edward's child was not dead and that
Edward had been alone when he killed himself. The whole episode gave me a cold chill down my spine even though I could see my imprint sleeping
peacefully, safe and sound in our tent.

The Italians didn't stay long after the head bloodsucker was convinced there was nothing there for them to capture and take home. A short while after
they left, Alice and Carlisle came out to the edge of the surrounding forest to report to Sam, and me. They assured us that we were probably safe and
it would be unlikely that the Volturi would return to America. I tried to breathe a sigh of relief, but a small group of nerves and brain cells right in the
back continued to quiver and I resolved to stay in Canada for another week before returning with my imprint to our hopefully safe home. I wondered
if I would ever feel completely at ease about protecting Ren and my people from the threat of creatures that should never exist.

That night, snow began to fall after a front had moved through the mountains. We were tucked into our sleeping bags but once the fire had begun to
die down I heard Ren's teeth begin to chatter and her little shivers snagged my nerves and pierced my heart.

"Ren? Honey are you still too cold?"

"Y-y-yes, I think s-s-so J-J-Jacob. M-m-maybe I c-could just p-put on some more c-clothes."

"No baby, that's not gonna help. Don't be scared. I'll be right back."

What an idiot I was. More layers and pounds of down filling wouldn't produce any heat for my little girl. I quickly moved outside and behind the tent.
I stripped and phased and walked back around, crouching down to my belly and scooting through the flap into the tent. Ren reached up and pulled
down the flap zipper and when she settled back down and snuggled into her bag, I curled my big, furry self all the way around her. Even with her
bundled up and wrapped in the down-filled bag she still presented a small enough ball that I could easily encircle her, draping my tail over my nose
to complete the enclosure. She soon let me know that she could feel the heat radiating from me and she was very comfortable. She was asleep
within a few minutes and I released a deep breath of my own and settled down to rest. This, I thought, is what protecting is all about. This, I could do.