Author's note: Hello here is Ch 12 a songfic of Behind Blue Eyes by Limp Bizkit.

Chapter 12: Behind Blue Eyes

Raven was lying in her bed in her room clutching in her right hand the lucky penny Beastboy had given her ,and her arms wrapped around the giant stuff chicken that Beastboy had won her at the fair a few years ago. She never liked that chicken but it and the penny were the only things that she had that Beastboy had given her so they were now her most prized possessions. The alarm began to sound as red light began to flash in her room she wasn't leaving her no matter what she wouldn't be able to look at Beastboy without busting out in tears. But the other titans knocked on her door anyways when she didn't come down.

"Raven it's about Beastboy he's ran away a few hours ago,"said Robin. Raven went to the door in a second.

"What happened?!"asked Raven.

"When I went to check on him he wasn't there I looked all through the tower but he wasn't anywhere. So I check the cameras from the medical wings and it shows him turning into a eagle and flying away."explained Cyborg.

"Eagles can fly up to 120 mile per hour that happened three hours ago so he could be anywhere in a 360 mile radius so we have a lot of ground to cover titans!" explained Robin "First Starfire you fly over the city and get a bird's eye view see if you can spot him, Cyborg go to the police department and put out a search for him and log into all the police cameras Beastboy is bound to have been seen by one of them, Raven you..."

"I'm not going!" shouted Raven "I'm the reason he ran away in the first place even if I find him I wouldn't be able to make him come back,"Raven argued.

"Yeah we know you made him run away which is more of a reason for you to help look for him!" shouted an upset Cyborg.

"We almost lost Beastboy earlier today Raven we do not want to lose him again,"calmly explained Starfire. Raven shook her head and closed her door Searching for Beastboy would be to emotional I would put everyone in the entire city in jeopardy with my powers Raven thought.

"Raven!" shouted Robin "I'm begining to wonder who's worse you or Slade! Come on guys let's go find our real friend."

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated to telling only lies

Raven started sobbing in here room she hasn't felt this alone in a long time her own friend don't even like her and the boy that she loved ran away because of her. However all this only happened because of lies that she told the biggest one being that she doesn't love Beastboy. She wanted to look for him every part of her wanted to see him again and tell him how she really feels but for his own safety she couldn't her powers would hurt him again.

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

Raven remember the dream she had about Beastboy all the things that he has done for her. Now it seems like her dreams are going to be the closest she ever gets to telling him. But she only have hours of loneliness ahead of her. Her Farther had gotten his vengeance on her after all she couldn't fall in love without her powers going out of control.

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like i do, and i blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

"No one knows how this feels!" cried a heartbroken Raven "Damn you Trigon!" blamed Raven. Raven's anger wasn't the only part of Trigon she had to deal with all the powerful emotions that come from love was a part that she had to deal with.

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

"If I could only see Beastboy one more time without my powers going crazy I'd tell him I'm sorry. I'd hold him in my arms and tell him not to worry anymore!"cried Raven. Raven has been mistreated her whole life but she felt hat she had mistreated Beastboy worse than anyone has ever mistreated her.

No one knows what its like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.

"Goodbye Beastboy,"said Raven shoving her face into the tear stained stuffed chicken.