I am a little unsure of the beginning so tell me what you think! I don't own anyone you recognize from the show. Much love to all my loyal readers!
WARNING: A little bit of violence at the end
The two of them sat on the couch, Blaine was hesitant at first to get close to Kurt but Kurt pulled him into his arms, kissing his cheek. He'd knew he'd hurt Blaine, something he would rather die than do. As he had promised Blaine, they always fixed whatever was wrong, and this wasn't Blaine's to fix, this was Kurt's mistake.
"I am so sorry for what I said." Kurt said softly, tightening his grip on Blaine. Blaine found it interesting, though he knew he shouldn't have, he should have known Kurt would know that despite what had happened early, including when Kurt got handsy, Kurt knew he needed to be held. "I didn't mean to make you think for even a second that I don't love you, or that I'm not in love with you, because I am. You have made me fall in love with you all over again, and my freak out doesn't change that, you know that right?" Kurt asked, resting his chin on Blaine's shoulder. Blaine nodded, thought Kurt saw through him, "You have done nothing wrong. I have been holding all this back because I didn't want to upset you, but..." he paused, "You would have thought I had learned my lesson by now." Blaine was about to ask him what he meant, but Kurt continued. "I miss my husband," Blaine flinched, but knew Kurt was just being honest. "I know it's not your fault, and that there is nothing you can do about it, but I have spent 10 years completely in love with one person, and then in one moment, that person was taken from me. You are amazing and I love you, but there are things he and I went through that you can't understand, and I miss him. I am not saying these things for any other reason than to be completely honest, something we have been for 10 years."
"Does he know how much you love him?" Blaine asked quietly, wondering if 26 year old Blaine loved Kurt with the same fierce, unconditional love, that he received.
"Yeah, I think he does, I've never really held back in that aspect," Kurt smirked, causing Blaine to laugh. Blaine paused, cuddling deeper into Kurt's arms,
"I would do whatever I could if I thought it got my memories back and I could get him back to you."
"Oh I know you would, Honey, I have never doubted either one of you in your love for me, expect those first couple of days when you lost your memories, but that is understandable." Blaine blushed in embarrassment, but Kurt kissed his cheek and gave him an extra squeeze, "It's okay, I'm over it." Blaine smiled softly before looking up at Kurt,
"Are you still mad at Coop?" Blaine asked. Kurt's jaw clenched and Blaine took that to be his affirmation.
"He was stupid to do that, he knows better than to pull something like that on either of us, especially you though," Kurt said, his voice tight but straining to sound calm.
"Me? You're the one he insulted more," Blaine corrected. Kurt shook his head,
"He doesn't have to insult you to make you feel like shit, his words don't hurt me like just being around him does you. Cooper knows he makes you feel like that, so I can't fathom why he would do that, and without telling us? That man is going to have to do some serious damage control to make me forgive him," Kurt said, angrily. Blaine bit his lip, he wondered since Kurt was still so intent on not getting him near his father, if that mean that 26 year old him was just as effected as his father as 14 year old him was.
"Am I still afraid of him now?" Blaine asked, unsure what it would take to grow out of his fear of his father if he was still this way at 26.
"You are better, but..." Kurt hesitated, "You are still nervous around him," there, that wasn't too deprecating.
"Oh," Blaine said softly and Kurt realized that softening it didn't make it any easier.
"Blaine," Kurt said, trying to get his attention completely on him, "You are an incredible person, 14 and 26 year old versions. I am so lucky to have you, and I would give anything to keep you from feeling like, even for a moment that the things your father says and have said were true."
"But he's right, I can't take care of you," Blaine reported.
"You lost your memory! It's not like you are just unemployed and being lazy, and what I told your father was the truth, you don't need to work, I am making enough money for us to be comfortable. We've never been the type of couple that has one constant breadwinner, when I'm not doing a show, your job is our main source of income, and when you can't work like now, I can. Before you became a producer we were both working jobs that weren't steady, and we always scraped together enough. Plus even if I didn't work, we have saved over the years that we would be fine for nearly a year, so there is absolutely no reason for you to feel guilty over something that is not an issue."
Blaine nodded, but Kurt could tell he still didn't see it for what it was, he started to speak again but Blaine pulled out of his arms,
"I'm going to call Cooper, okay?" Kurt sighed softly and nodded, wishing more than anything that he could fix what Blaine's father had torn down.
Once in the bedroom, Blaine inhaled deeply, thoughts of his failure and of Kurt's words, claiming that simply wasn't true. Maybe 26 year old believed Kurt, but 14 year old Blaine, just couldn't bring himself to do that, he'd been taught differently for so long, his father had ingrained in his mind that he was worthless. Kurt wasn't worthless, and the fact that his father seemed to think so caused Blaine to see red. Cooper answered on the first ring, there was no hello, there was no 'are you okay' it went straight to,
"Is he still mad at me?" Cooper sounded as close to crying as Blaine had ever heard him, and he knew that was exactly Cooper had been doing.
"Yes, and he has every right to be," Blaine replied. "Did you know Dad would be that harsh towards him? Because if you did, Cooper Anderson, I swear I will..."
"No, Dad doesn't normally have guts around Kurt like he did tonight, I mean you can see, Kurt punches back."
"I don't care! He told him we were 'playing house'!" Blaine's voice was getting steadily louder, even though he and Kurt didn't truly act like husbands due to Blaine's mental age, he knew their life meant everything to Kurt, or he wouldn't have stuck around when the accident happened in the first place. "As if everything that Kurt has worked so hard for, means absolutely nothing! And that comment about Kurt not being able to act straight! YOU JUST SAT THERE COOPER! THEY INSULTED MY HUSBAND AND YOU JUST FUCKING SAT THERE!" Part of Blaine wondered if maybe Cooper hadn't said anything because Blaine got to it first, but the other part was too angry to care. "And you want to know the worst part? He doesn't even recognize that he was treated like shit, because all he can think about is me! My comfort, my safety, my feelings, my thoughts..." This conversation was quickly leaving being about Cooper, "He is self sacrificing to the point of exhaustion, he is a better husband than I deserve, he saved me from possible rape,
"Wait, what?" Cooper said, but Blaine wasn't finished,
"He finally let's loose a little and I can't handle it and he spends the next five days beating himself up for wanting to touch his husband. And the last thing he needs to be ragged on by our bastard of a father. So I just don't understand why the FUCK you would invite us over without telling him or giving him any type of warning! You heard him say it wasn't a good time," Blaine froze, "I pushed him, I said I wanted to go because I thought maybe you could make him feel better about what happened. Instead he gets attacked about his career and his family, crap, Dad's right, I can't take care of him, I just make everything worse."
"That's bullshit, Blaine, listen, I understand you two are both mad and me, and you have every right to be, but everything that Dad said was a complete lie. You heard the things he said about Kurt and know that's untrue, so why would you believe anything that he said about you?" Cooper sounded quiet and ashamed, not to mentioned concerned. " And what was this almost raped thing? And Kurt letting loose?" Cooper asked, Blaine sighed heavily,
"These drunk guys came on to me when I was waiting for Kurt to get our food, they were a little too friendly, but Kurt came in like a knight in shining armor and saved me. But then after that, he had some wine and got handsy and I couldn't handle it because I am an idiot, but he took it to heart and I actually still don't think he has forgiven himself."
"No, he wouldn't have if he thought for one second it hurt you, that's why I'm going to be kissing some Hummel ass for months." Blaine chuckled softly,
"Oh, I was wondering, why were you more worried about him being angry at you instead of me being angry at you?"
"Because Blaine your anger last about a hour at most, you're like a puppy, you might pout for a bit, but it doesn't take you long to forgive someone. Kurt, when it's an insult to him, it takes him a day tops, when it's about you or someone else he loves, he'd never forgive if the offender doesn't grovel and make it up to you and him so..." Cooper inhaled deeply, "And Blaine, if Kurt hadn't been around, you and I would have never have gotten as close as we are. You don't remember, but when you were about 15, we basically stopped talking. We just grew apart, I had my job, you had the Warblers and then Kurt and you just didn't need me. I came to visit your junior year, but we just fought because I kinda stole your thunder, but then Kurt convinced us to talk, or well, sing it out, and after that we talked a lot more and the summer after your senior year I came and visited and the three of us were practically inseparable for two weeks and after that, we saw each other every chance we got." Blaine smiled, that sounded just like Kurt, to fix everything he could.
"When did Kurt see you naked?" He wasn't actually sure he meant to say it aloud, but it came out anyway, and Cooper laughed at him.
"That's still bugging you isn't it?" Cooper asked, "I could tell when you heard it, it bothered you." Blaine blushed at how bad he was at hiding his feelings, "It was the summer after your senior year, we were in the pool at Grandfather's house and, I decided it would be a good idea to take off my swimming trunks. Anyway, your boyfriend informed me that I was not as well endowed as you and I tried to get you to prove it, but you refused. So for a while I just had Kurt's word to go on, your wedding day I saw that Kurt was right," Blaine blushed harder but laughed. "And I worked that into my best man speech, you didn't talk to me for a month." Both Anderson men were laughing and Kurt, who stood outside of the bedroom door, smiled. He was still mad at Cooper, but his anger faded slightly as he listened to Blaine gleeful laugh. He had only heard Blaine's side of the conversation, but if Cooper was telling the truth regarding the circumstances of Kurt seeing Cooper naked, then Blaine would later be coming to him to ask him why he had let Cooper remain naked for two hours after he first took his trunks off. And Kurt would answer honestly, he wanted to see if Cooper would get sunburned 'down there'. He had, and that was another part of that day Kurt had never let Cooper lived down. But knowing Cooper, he just told Blaine he took his shorts off, because Cooper didn't like admitting to that last part.
"Kurt is one of my best friends, my best after you." Blaine smiled, "And to lose him is to lose two of the only stable relationships in the past 10 years, because if I lose him, I lose you too." Blaine couldn't argue, he couldn't deny that he would more than likely choose Kurt over Cooper. He wasn't sure that was what he should have chosen, considering Cooper was his brother, but his heart seemed to have jurisdiction over that matter.
"He'll forgive you, like you said, you're going to have to kiss some ass, but he will eventually love you again," Blaine teased the end. Kurt smiled at the fact that Blaine knew that he would indeed forgive Cooper, and probably sooner than he would have his own brother. But there was something about the Anderson brothers that made Kurt melt. "I need to get my memory back, it's not fair to Kurt that he has to take care of me this way, in every way." Kurt started in, but he heard Cooper's muffled voice over the phone and stopped,
"Bb, listen, that man wouldn't change anything, yes, he wouldn't want you to be attacked, but he would chose this over losing you, he would chose you over anything."
"Is that how a marriage is supposed to work?" Blaine asked.
"I've never been married but when I do I will be modeling my marriage after you two. I've never seen one with such give and take, it's perfect, from the outside anyway."
"Perfect?" Blaine asked, Kurt tilted his head, confused. "I don't think it is, I mean, I think it's great, but not perfect." Cooper chuckled,
"I'm well aware it's not actually perfect, Blainey, but it's the closest I've ever seen."
"Oh," Blaine smiled shyly, "Guess that's pretty easy seeing as I have a nearly perfect husband."
"Awwwwwwwwww," Cooper said, his voice getting higher, Blaine chuckled and Kurt couldn't help smile and his breath caught. Blaine still took his breath away, it was a dream he once thought he'd never have come true. Having a person who still left him breathless after 10 years, a person who he would do anything for, one whom he loved more than anything, it was a dream he'd had since he was 5, but he never thought it would really come true.
The next night Kurt went back to work, and Blaine hardly let go of Kurt's arm and honestly, Kurt was just fine with that, but he could tell something was wrong with his husband, because it was to the point of possessive.
"Honey," Kurt said softly as they walked into the dressing room. Blaine looked up at him, "Are you okay? I can call Greg, it's not to late, we can go home." Blaine had met Kurt's understudy, Greg, and like him, but he wouldn't do that to Kurt.
"No, I'm fine, you go out there and kill it," Blaine leaned in slowly and when Kurt didn't pull away, he kissed the man hard and deep, to remind Kurt that he was loved and forgiven. Kurt pulled away a couple of seconds later,
"Okay, okay," their foreheads were still pressed together, his eyes were closed and he was panting heavily, and Blaine knew it wasn't because he was out of breath. "Take it easy on me Romeo," Kurt said, smirking softly as he pulled completely away to look at Blaine.
"I always kinda figured I was more Juliet," Kurt chuckled, cupping Blaine's cheek in his hand,
"You could probably pull off a dress." They both laughed, before being interrupted,
"Okay love birds, time to get ready," Michael said, smiling warmly. Blaine looked up at him, before his eyes fell on Henry who was scowling back at him. He didn't like Henry anymore now than he did the day the met, in fact, his dislike for Kurt's co-star had only grown. Henry hadn't done anything specific to piss Blaine off, but he just wanted to kick Henry's ass any time the man was around Kurt, which was often as they shared a dressing room together.
"Kurt, are you planning on doing stage door tonight?" Mackie asked, sticking her head in the dressing room. "Hey, Blaine," she greeted, blowing him a kiss, which he fake caught and stuck in his pocket.
"Reporters were here last night, weren't they?" Kurt asked, Kurt hadn't done stage door since the show opened, which he had done for all his other shows, which Blaine just took as one more time he had cause Kurt trouble.
"Yeah, but I think it would be a sign of good faith if you went out there, proving that everything is fine," Mackie claimed.
"You should go, I can hang out in here and you can just come back and get me and we'll leave through the side door," Blaine said, knowing that Kurt loved to talk to his fans after shows (Kurt had told him once). Kurt looked at Blaine who smiled softly at him, Blaine had been acting odd that night, Kurt couldn't put his finger on it, but he was worried that it would only get worse.
"What about you?" Kurt asked, "I know something is bothering you," Blaine blushed at being so transparent but shook his head,
"I'm a big boy, Kurt, I think I can manage sitting in a dressing room for 20 minutes." Kurt smiled at him,
"Yeah, all right." Kurt didn't mention that the last time he had left Blaine alone he had nearly been raped. But what trouble could Blaine possibly get into in the dressing room.
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"You were amazing, as always," Blaine said, pecking Kurt's lips, grinning as Kurt beamed.
"Thank you," Kurt stripped out of his costume and into jeans and a white button up shirt, Blaine would never understand how it was so easy for the taller man to look casual and sexy as hell at the same time. He sighed heavily,
"All right, guess it's time to face the music, I'll be right back."
"Hey Kurt," Blaine called him back as he headed towards the exit, Kurt turned back to him, ready to do whatever Blaine needed him to do. "Don't think about the reporters, think about all those fans, who think you are completely incredible and came to see you, the ones your preform for, not those idiots with the cameras." Kurt rushed back to him and kissed him deep and long, lasting several seconds.
"I love you," Kurt breathed. Blaine was completely breathless and was panting as Kurt headed back to the exit door. As soon as the door open, the crowd screamed in pleasure at the sight of the Kurt Hummel. "Hello, everyone, don't you all look fabulous tonight?" Blaine grinned, his husband was completely amazing. Blaine opened the stage door that had since closed to see how many people were out there and to see Kurt completely in his element. Kurt was beautiful, he flushed pink as a little girl told him he inspired her. He winked playfully at a college student who was fanning herself, Blaine didn't mind, he knew Kurt was his, and always would be. It wasn't until Kurt frowned that Blaine realized Mackie and Henry were out there also. He watched as Henry whispered something in Kurt's ear, the girl who was receiving Henry's autograph looked at him shocked. Kurt scowled and hissed something in reply smiling at the girl, causing her to relax slightly. Suddenly though, and as if in slow motion, Henry's hand grabbed Kurt's ass and his lips pressed on Kurt's cheek. Kurt seemed too shocked to do anything, but Blaine. Blaine snapped. He left his body completely, his body acting all on it's on, he lunged forward, out of the door and punched Henry hard in the back of the head. Henry fell to the ground and turned over quickly looking up at Blaine with surprise and maybe a little fear.
"Blaine!" he heard Kurt cry, but it was too late, Blaine had to do this, he had to defend Kurt. Kurt was always defending him, always saving him, always protecting him, well now it was time to return the favor. Over and over he struck Henry, hitting his face, his arms, his chest, whatever his fist could get to, he hit. Then he felt hands on him, he somehow recognized Kurt's hands as they tried to pull him off Henry, the other hands were much smaller and apparently belonged to Mackie as he could hear her trying to soothe him. But Kurt's words were what he was able to hone in on.
"Baby, listen to me, it's me, calm down, sweetheart, just calm down." But Blaine couldn't calm down, and as Henry attempted to crawl away, Blaine ripped out of Kurt and Mackie's grip and got back on top of Henry.
"He." Punch. "Is." Punch. "MINE!" Blaine punched one more time and suddenly he saw several camera flashes go off, reporters. Blaine's mind finally came back, there were reporters there that night, and they had just witnessed his breakdown and gotten it all on film.
"Oh god oh god oh god oh god," he began panting, jumping up and looking around into the wide eyes of the audience who had forgotten all about Kurt and was now thinking only about Blaine's show.
"Blaine," Kurt said softly. Oh god Kurt, he had just ruined Kurt's life, both of their lives. So he did the only thing he could think of, he ran.
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