A/N: HEY EVERYONE! Have you missed me? I sure missed you all. I finally managed to get this written thanks to a friend of mine. I suppose this should be dedicated to that person as a thank you but I'd rather do that to a...happier chapter. Not saying that chapter is a bummer or anything...okay I'm rambling now. I'm sorry it took me so long to reply and I feel so bad about it but I think I'm on track now that's all good :) Enjoy :) I love you all. Thank you for being so patient xxxxxx

Aprils' full moon was dawning closer for Remus and he was starting to feel the ache in his bones as they got ready for his transformation. Studying had done his headache no good and so for once Remus had put down all his books and refused to pick another one up until after the full moon which was in three days. After this declaration however, he felt slightly lost without the comforting smell of Sherlock Holmes and the comfortable position he always ended up in whenever he settled himself into a chair or on his bed. He had instead taken to listening to music with Sirius' record player which he had got for his birthday in his second year from James. Seeing as the four boys never seemed to move rooms (James and Sirius had said they had pleaded McGonagall to let them stay in that same room) the record player had stayed in the dorm and would have music playing from it regularly.

Just laying on his bed and listening to music helped Remus stay calm. It helped Moony stay calm too and Remus was sure the wolf loved the music as much as he did. He, Sirius, James and Peter all had their preferences when it came to muggle music but all shared their albums with each other. Sirius was an obvious Beatles fan and had all of their albums up to date. Remus was also quite partial to The Beatles. James preferred The Rolling Stones whilst Peter stuck with The Who and The Bee Gees. It was known fact that Sirius had brought a large amount of muggle albums to go against his family. Of course they would never know he was listening to muggle music but Remus though it was a silent celebration that his parents didn't know every single thing he did to make them mad.

Lying with him was Beth, her head on his chest and his arm around her. She seemed to understand the importance of just listening to the song and not uttering a single word. She seemed to understand how important this was to Remus and that was one of the main things he liked about her. She understood. Okay all of his friends understood him but Beth was different. She didn't ask questions, she just knew what he felt like. She didn't act any different around him when it was the full moon and would treat him as she normally would; which spread to telling him off when he was extremely grumpy with her. Remus was glad he had someone who wasn't his sister or his best friends to talk to about everything. Yes they did understand and support him but sometimes Remus felt that they all worried too much about him. It got on his nerves from time to time but didn't want to say anything about it; they were only looking out for him after all.

He could feel the wolf just underneath his skin, just waiting until the full moon was upon it. After that it would happily erupt from him and roam for the night. He had to admit ever since the others had turned into Animagi, his transformations had been less violent and he had caused less injury to himself, but this month the wolf seemed agitated about something and he didn't know what it was. He could almost be certain that this month was not going to be very happy at all. But he didn't have to worry about that now; all was calm as he listened to the steady beat of the song. It was nice to have a peaceful afternoon before everything turned upside down for him.

As they lay there the dormitory door suddenly banged open, flying against the wall as James, Sirius and Peter entered looking as though they had just run up all seven floors to the common room. Remus could see the silvery material of James' invisibility cloak clenched in Wormtail's hand and he clutched a stitch in his right side. The cloaks owner yanked it out of the short boys hand and placed it away in his trunk carefully as though it was the most precious thing on Earth.

''Prank gone wrong?'' Remus said chuckling at the three boys' expressions. He had not been in the mood to follow them in whatever they were doing but was up to hearing all about it.

''Understatement of the century Moony.'' James said over-dramatically as he flopped down on his bed. ''Filch nearly caught us trying to charm the suits of armour to tell inappropriate jokes and then he nearly got stuck in one of our roll up carpets. Then Peeves didn't help the situation, stupid poltergeist. He saw that McGonagall was coming down the corridor and so decided to turn invisible and make several portraits fly off the walls. The she walked past the worst suit of armour she could have possibly have walked past. So we ran for it.'' James said sighing heavily as though what had happened had been the worst thing ever.

''And to add to that, Wormtail had left the cloak lying on the floor so we had to backtrack to get it.'' Sirius said scowling at the other boy before throwing himself on his bed as dramatically as James had done. Wormtail looked down at his shoes not saying anything.

''Really'' Sirius carried on. ''We need a damn map to get round the castle undetected.''

''Well as long as you don't get a detention on Wednesday then its all fine.'' Remus said grinning at the others. He was used to how dramatic they liked to be and it amused him thoroughly. Even though he was a prefect, Remus knew he could never tell his friends off. Lily had talked to him about it many times but he had always said the same thing. They were his best friends, why would he stop them doing what they wanted and most of all how would he stop them? Because even though they didn't look it, all three boys were the most stubborn people you could ever meet.

It had been a somewhat silent promise that none of them would get a detention on a full moon. All of them had always been there for his transformations and Remus didn't know how he would cope with even just one of them missing. Peter, although he was just a rat did help the wolf calm down, Sirius was there to help him not attack himself too much and James made sure that he didn't attack the others or escape from the shack. If one of them wasn't there then it would surely be disastrous...

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In the end, all three boys had gained detention for the whole week. McGonagall had made it quite clear that they should be happy it wasn't for longer. They would also have the detentions separately as to not encourage them Marauders to do something they shouldn't. Having separate detentions never worked though seeing as James and Sirius had mirror's in which they could contact each other. The boys had all been up to creating more chaos until Remus had pointed out that they needed to get off from detention in time on Wednesday. He didn't want to think of the consequences of them not being able to get there in time. Remus tried his hardest to think positively though. It was no good to run these possibilities over in his mind and worry himself; that's what Lizzie had said anyway.

He had seen his sister giving the three boys (especially Sirius) a good talking to that if they messed up and got a longer detention on Wednesday then they wouldn't know what had hit them. He knew Lizzie was just humouring herself for the main part at seeing Padfoot, Prongs and Wormtail look slightly scared at what she was saying but knew there was a large amount of truth in her words. He knew his sister had a rather feisty temper (she had gotten that from their mother) and plus he knew how protective of him she was and hoped none of his best friends would do anything to make her snap.

It seemed however that in these last few months; defiantly the ones where she had been going out with Sirius, she was a lot calmer and wouldn't let her anger flare up as much. Yes she did have arguments from time to time and yes her and Sirius did get into fights but it wasn't about anything big and they always resolved it quickly after. All in all, it seemed that Sirius Black was having a good affect on Lizzie and Remus was forever grateful for that.

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Wednesday was upon them and Remus was getting agitated as he normally did. He had everyone trying to calm him down to the extent where it had all gotten too much. He had stormed out of the Common Room after yelling at his friends, sister and girlfriend to all shut up and to leave him alone. He knew it hadn't been his smartest move and part of him wanted to go back in there and apologise but knew that wouldn't do any good now. So he carried on walking not knowing exactly where he was going. He ended up in a deserted corridor before he stopped and sighed. Why did the moon have to affect him so much? Why couldn't he just go a whole month without having to transform into a hideous beast?

Sliding down a nearby wall, Remus put his head in his hands and tried to calm himself down. Sometimes the whole ordeal just got to him and now was one of those times. He didn't know what he was going to do. He didn't know if he could last through another transformation. The pain was just too much sometimes...

He heard footsteps and half expected it to be his sister coming to see if he was okay. But then, he had to remind himself, he had just shouted at her (more than any of the others really) and she would possibly be pissed off at him for a while now. He was more surprised to see Beth sitting down next to him and wrapping her arms around him. Why he was surprised that his girlfriend had come to check up on him was beyond anyone's guess, but then Remus wasn't thinking properly at the moment.

''Rem...are you alright?'' Beth asked kindly as she looked into the slightly amber eyes of the werewolf.

''Do I look alright?'' Remus snapped. The wolf was gaining control and he had to fight it. ''Sorry BB, I...no I'm not.'' He leaned against Beth and felt her arms tighten around him.

''Oh Remmie, everything's going to be okay I promise. I know it's hard sometimes and I couldn't possibly understand what you're going through, but sweetie you have to remember that you're not alone in this. I know that you sometimes feel like giving up, Lizzie told me, but honey you're stronger than anyone I know. You will always come out stronger and I'll always be by your side.'' She kissed the side of his head and held him for all he was worth.

''I don't deserve you.'' Remus said after a short silence. He knew Beth was right; it was just hard for him to believe in himself from time to time.

''No Rem, you deserve a hell of a lot more. Just remember though that I'm always here if you need me. So are Lizzie and Lily and Sirius, James and Peter. We're all here to look after you, you know. '' She felt Remus cuddle up to her and she chuckled. ''You're adorable, you know that?'' She said putting two fingers under his chin and turning his head towards her before giving his a sweet kiss on the lips.

Remus gave a smile as they broke apart. ''You're not too bad yourself. '' He concluded. He took one of her hands and squeezed it gently. He really didn't deserve any of the people he had around him but then...who was he to complain really?

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They arrived in the Common Room soon after, Beth telling him that if they didn't hurry up then Lizzie was going to come and find them both. As they entered the circular room, he saw that the other Marauders weren't there; evidently they had gone off to their detentions. Hand in hand, the two Gryffindor's made their way over to where Lizzie, Lily and Zoe were, doing homework.

He saw his sister motion for him to sit next to her and so letting go of Beth's hand he sat on the sofa and was immediately developed into a hug. Lizzie always did the best hugs when he felt like crap and now wasn't an exception. He always knew what her hugs meant: be careful, look after yourself, I still want a brother by the end of tonight you know, I'm always here, you're always going to have me to look after you tomorrow, always.

''Sorry for shouting earlier Lele...'' He said knowing that there really wasn't any point in apologising; she would have already forgiven him.

''It's okay Rem, I understand. Now I told the boys that if their late then they'll have me to answer to. But they won't be late Rem so don't worry. Look after yourself okay? I'll be thinking of you and I'll defiantly come visit you in the Hospital Wing tomorrow okay? Be brave Rem. I'm always here, always...''

He could tell Lizzie was worrying. He knew she always worried about him, but this time he could actually feel it radiate off of her. It was like she knew tonight wasn't going to be a good one. Remus had always suspected that they had a connection; they were twins after all and wasn't it said that twins can know something has happened to the other even if their miles apart? He wondered that if he was hurting during the full moon, wasn't she, even if it was just a tiny bit? The thought was slightly unbearable for him to think about. He cared so much about his sister and to think that he was causing her pain in any way...well he didn't think he'd be able to take it.

''I know you are Lele and I'm always here for you too. You seem to forget that...'' He knew he had accidently hit a sore spot and decided not to go any further. ''I expect chocolate tomorrow okay?'' He said changing the subject.

''Of course Rem, I'll bring you your whole stash.'' Lizzie said laughing. She knew she was going to spend another night awake, worrying about him. It seemed like her monthly routine when it was full moon but then she wouldn't have it any other way. Remus was worth a whole load of sleepless nights and hours of worry, he always would be to her.

''Not all of it Lizzie. Just maybe half...'' He said chuckling. Truth be told he liked having these little moments with his sister. Ones where they could talk about anything. Before Hogwarts, whenever it had rained heavily, they would always make little dens in one of their bedrooms and talk for hours underneath the blankets they had put up to block out the dreary weather outside. He missed those moments and instantly decided that one day he should make time for Lizzie and no one else and find out everything or as much as he could about her that she had been hiding from him because Remus knew there was a lot of things his sister hadn't told him. He would never rush her though. If she wanted to talk to him then he would let her in her own time.

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Remus was making his way down to the Hospital Wing where Madam Pomfrey would escort him to the Whomping Willow. Time had ticked on and he was starting to get that layer of concern again. He knew something was going to happen, something bad and he didn't know what it was. He had a feeling that the others were going to be late tonight and Remus hoped that he was wrong.

Time ticked on and it was time for him to go. His body was aching and felt heavy under the stress. His head hurt and he felt his skin tingle every time he passed a window and moon light flooded over him. He knew it was going to be a painful transformation, more so than usual and he was bracing himself for being ripped apart viciously.

He walked down the dingy tunnel that led to the Shrieking Shack and pushed open the trap door that led into the dusty and broken interior of the house. Nearly everything in this first room was in shreds and there were died blood stains everywhere. Remus hated this place with a passion and seeing it in his human self only made the feelings stronger and worse.

Pacing wasn't going to do him any good and he knew that. Pacing always made him more agitated and that was something he couldn't be handling at the moment. The time was nearly upon him and yet Prongs, Padfoot and Wormtail weren't here yet. Unless he had mistaken the time (his body was telling him otherwise) they should have been here around fifteen minutes ago...

There were mere minutes and he was starting to get desperate. He started to panic before telling himself that he should remain calm because they could be here any moment...

They weren't...

And when that thought hit him so did the moon and he felt himself ripping to pieces. He collapsed on the floor in pain and tried to breathe as the felt bones stretching and a few snapping. He let out a painful cry and he felt the wolf erupt from inside of him and force its way out into the world. The light seemed to be getting dimmer and dimmer and Remus knew he didn't have that long before he was taken over completely. His weak cries soon turned into whimpering howls and his last thought before everything became black was

'where are they'?

To Be Continued...

A/N: Am I evil...why yes, yes I am haha :D It's full moon tonight...be careful Rem :)